--   Ya  just  cant  keep    yer  mouth  shut

canya

--   No 

I cannot

--   Ya really cant

--   I cant

--   Ya cant  do ya realise where ya might be taday  or have gone  if ya did

--   No

I bear no malice of forethought to any parcel of my life

It gives me trouble 

                              but goodness knows its saved me trouble too

The way I see it  namatter  its a coin toss 

Or you can sit on your ass finger the cards your dealt eyeball everyone around the table

eye the cards up   but everyones telling themselves a different story and listening

intently

              Didnt see that one comin   did you

So

Im begrudged to say my peace and let things fall where they may

I refuse to react               

 --   Too bad you werent taught better

--   Taught better 

                                                                                           

Well  taught implies learning and learning never came easy to me  even if I was enthused

Maybe I had a short attention span 

Or maybe  Im just easily bored

--   Or maybe somebody should ought to have beat ya

--   When 

would that have happened

--   Shouldve happened at the getgo

--   You think it didnt

The nice thing about beat early 

is that fear dissipates early

Then they found themselves beating on nothing 

And thats no fun

is it

I imagine like pounding on a piano    and no sound comes out   

All those black and white keys    and nothing comes out

--   But ya got   some thing    whirlin inside ya head

--   I do

Youd be nuts to beat on a kids head

Tough to talk your way out of repeated blacks eyes busted noses

even a retard can get their hands out in front of them when they go down

So they didnt break my jaw

and my mouth went off 

                                       whenever

I wanted it to

Then I grew out of short pants   evened scores                                  

                                                                             without malice of forethought

as they occurred

You could say Im as spontaneous as flint and steel

--   Maybe I could say

if I could get a word in edgewise

--

--  

--   Missed an opportunity                                                                                                                  

--   Nah I didnt  Ya were teasin

--   I was

No cat getting my tongue

You see

then 

         I forced myself to keep my mouth shut

then I became fearless

                                     and ever since

I move my jaws and tongue

I spit out the iron bit

and I aint going backwards to hold my tongue   for  nothing     

                                                                                                 and no one

I could assume Gaaaad I hate that word   if I were silent      I could endure a beating

likely too  psychically speaking  it stands to reason  why I probably wouldnt hold my tongue to save my life

Its a triggered response  Pavlovian   I salivate  Ring a bell                      

Ring a bell an Im off my stool out of my corner 

Ive always been able to count on a corner of a room to have my back

From there you can see whats coming   and aint nobody going to creep up on you an stab you in the back

--   Lonely  I would think 

in a corner

--   No  not really   

Its only big enough for one

  

0027,  Saturday,  27  6. 15

Written to (and can be read to) John Cages Dream (1948)    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hVFCmK6GgM