he caught the flying shadowfigured a scrubjay flash before him on the asphalt 

he didnt hear it alit  usually on the weathered plankfence or heard the tink tinktink tink of its nails on the Quonset carport storage behind him 

ROBERT he called 

                     it was day three he hadnt shown Robert was the most feral cat hed ever known but he decided on an offchance he showed hed place kibble on a saucer he left out for him

no sooner had he stoodgone up two steps to the porch where bigfoot and wee patiently waited their food he heard a scuttleflurry behind him 

the scrubjay that passed overhead

                                     it was at Roberts plate helping itself not waiting to be recognised he scattered kibble for scrubjays they all looked alike to him like whites to Asians whites to Blacks whites to Mexicans he couldnt distinguish if he was feeding one or two or twenty   figured word was out

smiling he muttered Sheesh-kabob a new fastbecoming favorite figure of speech limp raw sheeshes skewered like meats at a Mongolian barbecue 

                       Man tha wasnt five seconds some set of balls set of ovaries  I don know

made him laugh

he laughed too hardtoo loud the jay boundback a step then flew off to the fence over its left shoulder 

                                                                                                          made him wonder if birds were leftwinged or rightwinged 

HERE 

       before tending to bigfoot and wee he tossed a mittful of kibble onto the drive

it leapt from the fence to the blacktop between scattered feed eyeballed left then right left right another question begging then took wingsped back to Roberts plate which allowed maximum opportunity with least effort 

                                                                                                   efficient  birds aint dumb 

people are who think other earthlings are

   SHEESH-kabob

1108,  Thursday,  20  4. 23

1401,  Sunday,  30  4. 23

https://www.theidioms.com/figure-of-speech/

It's what's under a woman's skirt that makes her who she is. 

                                                                  he didnt say it was repeating it

he wished he said it

                      his eye drifted over itsomewhere as he was reading wha mebbe on-line mebbe magazine newspaper his eye a snorkel to breathesurvive while his brain does its shimmering faceted thing 

                                                                                                      long ago he dropped its leash an let it run wild if he kept holding it back itd ruin his arms shoulders back   it was a big dog

he wondered what they meant

he knew what it meant to him 

                               getting up a skirt was much better than getting into a womans pants made him think sometimes he wished he wore a skirt 

playtime 

recess

Care for another drink 

put the ball in their court

No meant no 

no matter

lipsmacking 

   Whas in a mans pants makes him who he is 

                                                           he may have said tha

 

0952,  Thursday,  20  4. 23

1036,  Sunday,  30  4. 23

Pink Floyd  Shine On You Crazy Diamond  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWGE9Gi0bB0

I think you better sit down

sneering really screwedup her face he wished she wouldnt do that   wasnt a good look 

                                                                                       I wish you woudnt do tha

haughty  she knew Do what?

Sneer

mocking Am I?

Yah yaknow yare

Well . . I wish you wouldn’t do that.

Ask you to sit

Yes.  It’s rude.

Weve had this conversation

I know. I’m not dense.

   You are not So why get upset its not my intention

the sneer fell away her spine slackened 

                                         she sat 

More comfortable yes

she shifted in her seat  nested 

                                 Yes.  More comfortable.

Fine  Ya think an discuss better when yare seated

Yes, but you remain standing you have to recognise the superior position it puts you in, me seated, you standing over me, lording over . . 

. . Aw comon  don exaggerate  thas not why I asked you to sit  

                                                                   An standing Im taller also not assuming a superior position

her face went slack  surrendered No. 

                                        I suppose not. 

You don suppose yaknow

                            Besides

   Besides?

Our joke 

Ohbrother!

            I'd forgottenwhy can’t I remember our little joke?

Don use it too often as a matter of fact  not sayin now

Thank you.  Reminding me she giggled helps.

Good Then lets keep talkinbout thatheres no difference between a scheme an a scam You disagree

Yes

 

   she couldnt think on her feet     

359preferred,  Twosday,  18  4. 23

0917,  Sunday,  30  4. 23

Intellection. That’s what my sister said.

his sister usually had both oars in the water  hed give him that

She also mentioned mentation.

Awright Im unfamiliar   Im not ashamed

                                            he stood walked across the room to the dictionary Second Edition The New Oxford American Dictionary

No no, I can look here on my phone.

Knock yourself out Im not keen on power tools

it wasnt a race but somehow his buddy wanted to make it one 

                                                                   everything a competition

but not with him

   intellection the action or process of understanding, as opposed to imagination 

                                                                                      no wonder he didnt know it 

he was in up to his eyeballs in imagination

   mentation mental activity

Yagood

Are you done?

I am

Damn phone. It got hung up . .

. . As all tools tha arent hand tools run the risk 

                                                 Wait till a pulse bomb a severe electromagnetic pulse an E M P or a geomagnetic disturbance a G M D goes off an fries the electrical grid

Ill still have my dictionaries my books 

Fuckin’ dark. Why do you always have to point outpaint so vividly the darkside?

Cuz thas wha I do

                    Aint hardly ever been attracted to the Bright an Shiny

359preferred,  Twosday,  18  4. 23

1505,  Saturday,  29  4. 23

Hushit 

         he said it loudly severely it killed him whenever he went off the reservation unable to restrain himself from ignominious spewing things that he ought to not should ought to know better than saythan embarrass himself  evenif only to him 

            two flashbombs went off in his head in his eyes simultaneously  Wittgensteins Wovon mannicht sprechen kann, daruber muss man schweigen. Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must remain silent.  tacere Italian things better left unsaid matters to be passed over in silence 

                                                          cat just couldnt bring himself to keep his mouth shut

Really

What?

Let me speakListen let me say wha you just said an listen keenly 

                                                                       The liquidity of the stream of consciousness

Correct. That’s what I said.

Yawanna take it back we can pretend you never said it never issued it into the world

I thought it was pretty clev . .

. . It wasnt

   Not in the least?

Ohno  not in the least 

                         As a matter of fact its downright torturous Stream of consciousness would possibly dryup not to suffer your liquidity

I thought it was . . clever.

he let him get it out maybe thawoud satisfy his ego 

                                                   tacere 

I thought I was very clever.

must have really bruised his ego was massaging it vigorously 

                                                             tacere

 

Hush it 

         Before I walk over an slap ya silly  Yaknow I will

it worked in his mouth behind his pale thinpressed lips

he thoughthe fired it into the ether between them Caution  Discretion is the better part of valour

   the working quit 

                          wisest thing he didnt say today

1554,  Twosday,  18  4. 23 (also 2015hrs)

223 preferred,  Saturday,  29  4. 23

. . . emergent qualities . .

. . Whoa  Hold your horses coboy he says that because he had read a commemorative plaque in the cemetery at San Miguel Arcangel Mission it had misspelled Indians Inians  he believes one good turn deserves another  hence

I don know wha emergent qualities are

You know what it means to emerge.

Correct

They’re qualities that emerge.

  fuckin dog chasing his tail

You understand you havent explained anything

                                                      What are emergent qualities

he appeared baffled What do you mean?

Is tha howya explained things to your kids when theyd ask about something An I gotta say quality  might suggest whaever is emergent is good My kneejerk reaction without knowing wha yare talkinbout is to say it may not beLemme guess an lemme suggest this quality was not good

                                                       Oppenheimers A-Bomb

You think the A-Bomb wasn’t good?

Lets ask someone at Ground Zero Hiroshima Nagasaki

You’re being ridiculous.

 

   he was used to being ridiculous like tha 

friend never did explain succinctly he was someone who thought seeding clouds would make it rain unlike him whod rather put his money on an Inian rain dance

later he read “emergence refers to the existence or formation of collective behaviors – what parts of a system do together that they would not do alone”

he texted him wha he read

  :  :  That’s what I meant.

  :  :  It’s more readily found under emergent properties, not qualities.

  :  :  Quality is a property.

  :  :  You’d agree not necessarily good.

  :  :  It’s a standard, a degree, a measurement between similar things.

  :  :  Which you must think is good.

  :  :  You're putting words in my mouth.

  :  :  Someone has to when you refuse to affirm or deny a simpleton premise. Utilising the quote, using your emergent quality, referring to the formation of collective behaviors, I’m using collective behaviors loosely . . a tsunami . . a good or bad thing?

  :  :  It’s emergent, isn’t it?

  :  :  Commit.

  :  :  I’m not saying either way.

  :  :  Too absolute for your tastes? Yes? No? And while you ponder your emergent quality, the tsunami, another real event, 2018, aided by an earthquake, collective, pulverized the Indonesian island of Sulawesi, killing more than 2,000, displacing in excess of a quarter million people; not to mention (I love that bullshit line – because the person then mentions), not to mention, also devastating my favorite coffee, Sulawesi, for the immediate future.

 

   friend didnt respond

he assumed it was difficult to talk when caught between a rock and a hard place

3PMish,  Twosday,  18  4. 23

1047,  Saturday,  29  4. 23

https://www.unicef.org/stories/deadly-earthquake-and-tsunami-hit-indonesia

https://perfectdailygrind.com/2018/10/how-has-the-2018-sulawesi-disaster-affected-indonesian-coffee/

at 3:53PM

a Twosday

18April 

         18 Avril French Abril Spanish in German April is April  fooled himhe thought something harsh   guttural 

he scribbled on a piece of paper three clues 

                                                 nurse or purse sexist

those were the crumbs he left himself 

                                         when he wrote them he was sure as shit his brain would immediately populate what he meant

whenever he turned to the slip of paper he saw the crumbs dry shrink grow more stale  a now or never moment was approaching 

               which meant his brain was looking for where it last placed its eraser

he put it through its paces because the last time it used the eraser HE didntcouldnt  possibly wouldnt  although that would meanrequire the admission his deep memory well might not be as deep as he believed  he didnt couldnt remember either

left himself a gauntlet

 

was he worthy 

he thought so

      Then ante up

Oh go away a mariachi   

shehe heshe pushedup the brim of their sombrero stared eyes black

                                                                        Ante up Put up or shut up your whining mewling is unbecoming attracting unwanted attention Though not unwarranted Theyre wondering why ya don check out Check out You followknow check out  Yado You have no idea or can imagine the snickering eyerolls were contending with

heshe shehe were serious 

                           almost made him feel bad 

but he knew his mariachi also loved to gloat when he came through 

                                                                        all he wanted on occasion they suffer a little humility  civility  not glee untrammeled reckless hubris 

he looked at the page for the umpteenth time 

                                                 nurse purse sexist

he knew he could crack it 

knew hed remember 

WABAM  shard of memory blinded him momentarily

descriptive of an attractive fit older man pursuing a younger woman say 20 years perceiving her as either a nurse or a purse  M N O P Q  but a letter apart 

                                        sexist  DUH  

thawas the neat little bow to bind the two

golddigger flipped 

Yeahbaby

Hushit

         A little modesty a little humility please 

But you did it

I did  Yes

You don think yare irritating someone tha you remembered we guarantee it  Yare gonna get tha haughty questioner Ya ever remember whatha nurse pursue sexiststhing was Sure ya hadnt anya say Yah an explain it  You cantdon hear wha we hear  Theyd spit in your beer ifya ever set it downwalked away from it 

Stop

No you stop 

             We don have to tell ya tha theyre envious you remember so well 

Not so well requires effort been doin it a lot of years

                                                       It aint easy 

Anthey understand tha 

                           You peeve them 

I donave wha they cant 

                          All they have to do is put in the work

You embarrassem

Aint on me

OH but it is

Awright thanks for the master class in whaever this is 

                                                          I don want no snickering  None

Ya don think we deserve a snort

   We 

        Youse were leaning back against the wall hands in your pockets NO  Not nothing  Nothing    Got it

Fuckin taskmaster

   Hush it Heard tha

1616,  Reggaefriday,  28  4. 23

they agreed on things more often than a coin toss 

                                                     but theyd never agree on AI 

Yes I understand never is an absolute 

friend shruggedhe didnt agree then enthusiastically donned a cheerleading outfit pleated skirt logoed sweater his high school colours and as only a cheerleader can furiously shook his pompoms likening AI to a kind of manmade oracle he wouldnt say that possesses Aristotelian logic reason and the ability to provide mankinds best solutions

he really ticked him off when he chided it an oracle 

                                                      Ya mean a haruspex performing HA rue as in Id rue the day I bought into machines Spicy haruspicy divination sorting through sacrificial chicken guts or ifyad rather extraSpicy extispicy making your ecstasy making all your electric dreams come true 

                                                                                Yare so full of shit

You’re full of shit! ruffled a few feathers

Comon gotta do better than tha 

                                      

   A reasonable question then he couldnt resist reason 

What?

Is AI whaever machine they engineers woud use  a psychopath or sociopath  My moneys on psycho coldblooded calculating exacting carefully plotting its move practising its prejudice bias

AI hasn’t biases.

Does

No.

When AI programs AI over generations works out the bugs the human engineers bugs out of it  then  perhapsthen no prejudice or bias 

                   Answer the question Always sitting on your hands  Ill remind you AI  psychopath sociopath

I don’t know if I know the difference between them.

Thought I gave you a sufficient working  though youd have to deduce 

                                                                         I offered reptilian coldblooded Opposite would be hotblooded acting without thinking how others will be affected An ofcourse humans would be other

I don’t know that.

Yado

       I just told you

You’re no expert.

I am not 

         But I can read I can put the work in  Look it up I wont take offence 

Whatever. he said that because he knew it irritated him

Pitiful 

       I think AI will help you immensely AI helps lazy people 

But I believe people have to solve their problems 

                                                   That said as I read once The great and terrible thing about humankind We will always do what we are capable of

 

3PMish,  Twosday,  18  4. 23

1144,  Reggaefriday,  28  4. 23

read once:  quote from The Mountain in the Sea  Ray Nayler  pg45

he called him a Sigma male 

Awha 

           Signal  gave him ample time to respond but he wasnt   

I don know wha yare talkinbout

   Sure you do. Sigma. he sat back on his hauncheslooked superior  which was horseshit   he had hung him out to dry ten to one

If I sure do why woud I say I don

You know what I’m talking about.

   Yaknow wha 

                     I don

You can deduce.

Wha I can deduce is it sounds like one of those frat termsyou were a frat cunt werent you

Excuseme . .

. . Nah 

         Belonged to a fratCorrect 

I did.

I coudnt remember if you had if youd said but if I had paused a moment really gave it some thought you woudnt have been comfortable at college if you werent if ya werent attached to some cunt frat 

Sigma  

       Greek isnt it

 

Alpha, Beta, Gamma, Delta, Epsilon, Zeta, Eta, Theta, Iota, Kappa, Lambda . .

. . Hate to cut your recital off 

                              Not tha I would know  Suspect you had to memorise the Greek alphabet to get inhuh

Yes.

But you didnt learn Greek aside from the letters that fraternities an sororities puked 

                                                                                        Tell me more about Sigma Down the road from Alpha males Thinking you think of yourself in that term 

                                                                          Being white entitled don make you Alpha Though I can imagine ya think so

either dolingd out too much time or was becoming impatient  he usually allowed him significant time to spit out his argument  spit   it was rarely as resasoned as his arguments were 

                                                 Alpha superior to Sigma 

What do you think?

   I don know

                  Its Greek to me he stuffed down wanting to laugh in his face  he merely smiled wryly 

Ha. Ha.

Good You caught the joke

                               Whas your point

I think you’re a Sigma male.

Is tha good or bad

I’m not too sure.

Shoudya know before ya open your mouth

Maybe.

         Rather it just occurred to me.

Well since it occurred to you look it up lemme know he hated to look shit up  didnt want to work tha hard If I have to look it up Im gonna crucify you 

                          An yaknow I will 

   he had to 

                if anything calling him Sigma was a backhanded compliment  accurate  not tha hed know unless he looked it up for himself  he didnt say Boo

1641,  Twosday,  18  4. 23

1600,  Thursday,  27  4. 23

https://www.mensxp.com/culture/people/128859-how-to-spot-a-sigma-male.html#:~:text=A%20sigma%20male%20prefers%20to,they%20share%20a%20close%20connection.

https://www.happierhuman.com/sigma-vs-alpha-male/