he had moments

                      found himself in places   places  books videos overhearing conversations invited into them where sudden iridescent quotes float like squirrelly soapbubbles that popwhisper in his ears

Abraham Joshua Heschel

he wasnt a Jew

he would not know him

                            however

he stumbled into a podcast whose participants compelled him intrigued him  despite knowing they were going to discuss religion

   not his bailiwick

                         anyet

“Prayers are humble answers to the inconceivable surprise of living. It is all we can offer and return to the mystery by which we live, who is worthy to be present at the constant unfolding of time.”

grateful  

          there is no reason he could fathom he should be its only recipient

 POP  

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https://www.myjewishlearning.com/article/abraham-joshua-heschel-a-prophets-prophet/

his cellphone rang

he looked

if the caller wasnt in his phonebook he didnt answer

                                                             he didnt answer a lot

FRIEND

hed answer

             but before he did he mused FRIEND thats what he called himnot by his first name by this nickname and musing he heard FRIEND in Boris Karloffs voice as Frankenstein

FRIEND

You’re not gonna quit with that are you?

Im not whas up

                   and they were off

they usually spoke a couplethree hours about things  often about nothing

FRIEND was having some health troubles attending many appointments

                                                                                 You’ll love this.

Whacha got

My physician has a physician’s assistantno not that . . . an intern.

Yah.

       A young man.

We went through the last test results. I have to wait a couple of weeks for the next appointment to go through the new labs I've done.

    I told him I was disappointed.

He told me . . You’re seventy.

Yah.

        Is this a cognitive test? I know how old I am.  immediately crackedup

his laugh  contagious

                         they must have HARHARed a good twenty seconds

I’m seventy! That’s fuckin’ hilarious.

                                                I would have bet against that.

Jah  Me too

Would have lost considerable money.

Not to mention youd be . . .

                                                 some things go without saying

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Frankenstein  Friend  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w7BO_hqe_q0

WAKE UP

             a Breaking Points interview with Yanis Varoufakis

beginning around the 24:46 minute-mark https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQIrvPeNtds Yanis discusses AI assistants utilised by asses  he remarks about interfacing with them starkly reminding him what he knows  “. . . (this) machine trains you to train it to train you better, so that you train it even better to know you so well, that it wins your trust,

                                            Excuse me all to hell  TRUST? 

                                                                       and once it has won your trust, then it can direct your choices.”

he could rail he trusts no one

                                or those exceptional few who have a limited modicum of his “trust” might recallremember being horrified by what he told them about a cordyceps fungus that turns ants into zombies

 

    WAKE UP

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fungi  https://www.nationalgeographic.com/animals/article/cordyceps-zombie-fungus-takes-over-ants

amendment  Ezra Klein  the 35:00 minute-mark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sa6fiO2EgJ4

    snapshots

                  he calls them snapshots because he is not a photographer most arent most people especially now do not craft or stage their photographyhence

                                                                snapshooters

he mentions this because last night a little blue he waondered his small house to spend time with the individual art hanging on the walls

                                      a strong third   photography

scattered around on bookcase shelves top of tables cabinets are small framed snapshots that hewed him deepened his shade of blue

                             each reminding him of the time he wished the day the date and what happened before and after

before

he shot

and after

          and after the film was developed holding themslipping one to the next to the nextMygawd wha an fantastic time tha was

 

he returned to his desk and sat went on-line he was tardy he went through his in-box to view literary sites he subscribed to

                       found this quote                            

                            timing is everything

There is no reason to be afraid of death – when we exist, death is not; and when death exists, we are not.

                                                                     Karl Ove Knausgaard The School of Night

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Manet  This May, Be Life  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0dVmMzbabak  

The Sarto Klyn V - Turn To Stone  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0M9Hc5E1s3U

     conversation over phones

You’ve heard the word oomph?

Of course 

    What do you mean of course?

O  O  M  P  H

                    Ive heard it

Alright.

          What does it mean?

A feeling  Being in a state of excitement energy   Sex appeal

                                                                  Vivaciousness

Yah.  Right.

                    I didn’t know that until this weekend. We were playing Wordle.

Wordle

           Ive no idea

Game. Have to guess a five letter word in six tries.

Clues

On-line. We play it on our iPhones. You receive color-coded feedback, green for a correct letter in the right spot, yellow for correct letter wrong spot, gray, if not in the word.

    Oomph

I believe if Im correct  midgets sang oomph in the film Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory  Gene Wilder

Oomph Loompa

                  An also if Im not mistaken  It was the name of the midgets   A fictional race

But I didnt learn any of tha until my girls read Roald Dahl

                                                                 Then we had to rent the film

Made in Seventyone

Now that you mention it. Yah.   Hmm.

                                           Hmmmm.  I’m reliving the Wizard of Oz, on the black and white Zenith, the scene when the scarecrow tin man and the lion went to save Dorothy. They were prowling around, spying, outside the Wicked Witch’s castle. 

Her soldiers were chanting and marching.

Jah

Yah.

        I thought then that that was clever. An advertisement. Possibly the first-ever. In a film.

An ad

         Ive no idea wha youre talking about

Oreos.

         O-re-o, o-reos.   

laughed

            Thas hilarious man  I wish yawoud have shared tha when we were kids

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Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory  Oompa Loompa  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QkC8wPSmcPg

The Wizard of Oz  Oh-RE-Oles, OH-Rioles  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqajwnKq1Ts 

. . . (Eileen -- George Orwells wife) . . . looks at you for a minute before answering . . . At first we thought her affected, and were impatient of waiting for her comments. Later we realised that everything was important to her because her sense of life was so intense that she got the full impact of anything that turned up and saw it not isolated but with all its connections.

                                                                        Wifedom  Anna Funder

. . . not isolated  but with all its connections

                                                jah  thas was not him

he immediatelyisolated things 

his training indoctrination as a young student

outline form

I.  Intro

    A.

    B.

    C.

II.  First Supporting Point

  A.    Supporting Detail 

 1.    Example 

a.    source 

    B.s

    C.s

    D.s

        2.s and 3.s and 4.s and a.s and b.s and c.s unmercifully on and on and on until the Conclusion

whoever he argued had better have their ducks in a row or hed kill them on the ground in a pond without giving them an opportunity to take wing

Why you got to be like that, man?

Me

     Im prepared

Why arent you

     Im to take you at your fuckin word

 

Growup 

the connectedness Eileen absorbed in her silence her deliberation

                                                                        perhaps because she was a woman

had he been a woman

with his temperament

he would have been called a raging bitch

                                                 he got along famously with raging bitches             

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his kids came to him

they had every right to think he was born yesterday

they asked

gave him wide taxidermy eyes

    Didya ask your mother

they didnt say Fuck

their taxidermy eyes didnt

                               but deep

very deep in the well of their chests hanging in their bellows surly among their alveolus they whispered  Fuck

  echo  unmistakable

he knew that  why

because he hadnt brains enough to withhold Fuck but brains enough to hack out his belligerent character and make his folks realise that not backing down from them hed not back down from anyone

 

I thought as much.

fella picked him up to play in a sanctioned Minneapolis league no equipment tackle football

played two seasons

Runner-Up to city champions season one

City Champions second season

Thought as much

Yeah. You play a lot bigger than you are.

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Because  I said

    brother when he was a boy and his parents postedup with tha hed almost lose his shit

as a teenager

lost his shit

            No Thamay fly with the other kids but not me I ask a question I want an answer a legit answer  Youve an obligation If not to me why woud I be obligatedobliged to you

it wasnt until then that they quit shortchanging him

                                                          people treat you the way you let them treat you

crossed him he was immediately rudely in their faceno hesitation he wouldnt allow a nanosecond of assumed agreement acquiescence

 

his brother laughed

                        You could be such a prick.

Tha remains unchanged  Im proud of my prickdom

That’s my boy!

                You know what else I really disliked?

Nice  This in regards to the folks

Yes.

Im all ears

Ask your father. Ask your mother. Like they weren’t in accord, on the same page.

Eight kids  Ya better be

Always made me wonder why I was asking.

No wonder why we quit asking an just did caught suffered the consequences

                                                                                      Otherwise

Valhalla  Heaven

                    Slipped it pastem

Although

On occasion

You ratted me out

You were the big brother.

Can you recall a time I ratted on you

 

 

No

     Cuz I didnt

That’s on you, man, should have, ain’t cheatin’, ain’t tryin’.

    Fuck You

                         I may fly twothousand miles

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talking with his brother Irish twin on the telephone about their aged father

                                                                              . . . an he tells me whatever

Whatever?

Jah  Canya believe it I detest tha

                                     I can remember the first time my eldest rolled tha out on me

Bout lost my shit

Told her stand right there Id be back

I gathered the other kids an wife

We returned to the livingroom

                                    Pay fuckin attention

This one told me  whaever

Youre welcome to abuse each other  if you wish

Use it talkin to me

Ill rein hell down on your head

That work?

On occasion they slipped

And?

They were so rare I wasnt a cuntcoud have been  wasnt

I dislike it too, although I wouldn’t have expected it out of Dad.

Not at all

            Nearly blew my mind

But he was correct, Friday. You didn’t nail down the date.

On a Tuesday a Friday  if not the forthcoming Friday  would have been appropriate he said not this Friday next

He’s eigh . .

. . Quit  Quit with tha excuse

                                 Someones age is only a calendar event

Ones age is how old they are in their head

No matter.

Im not a fan of no matter either

What?  You gonna rein hell down on my head?

No

        Not travelin twothousand miles to deliver tha

they laughed

 

Know whaelse I detested  Never used it with my kids

Oh.  Your detest runs deep.

Rooted in my childhood

                             Because

Remember when the folks woud cut us short   Because

Ohshit, yeah. I wasn’t keen on that eithe . .

. . But  yawanna know wha I detested more than tha

chuckled  This ought to be a doozy.

When they said  Because   I said

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he kneweven before mentioning it  buddyboy would be a pain in the ass

it was obviousutilising an old adage to a blind man

                                                        Curious or inquisitive  Which is on top

Why does one have to be on top the other?

    Because its obvious

I don’t see it that way.

Awright

              Lemme helpya

Well make the pair linear  utilise your two parallel horizontal wavy lines  approximately  or the two parallel horizontal arrows  one above pointing right the second pointing left  indicative of chemical equilibrium

    Tha satisfy you

Which word woud you write left an which right

Ill even go so far as to identify the word left as A an right Aprime

I don’t think so.

Sorry bro cant have your cake an eat it too

Either one over the other or side by sidewhich  is left  is A

                                                                Were not entertaining a Venn diagram

I think a Ven . .

. . When you author the comparison youre welcome to it

 

 

Curious lef . .

. . Was it tha hardChrist

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once Naomi Wolf

now  whatever this shit is

        https://x.com/naomirwolf/status/2009760622427418921?utm_source=substack&utm_medium=email

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if he had to guess  forming up with all the other cunts  they be malesmostly  an females

talking over the phone

I was not feeling well earlier.

Im sorry to hear tha

                         Wha ailed you

I couldn’t put my finger on it.

Blue

Depressed?

Blue  Blues blue not depression

                                      Off

Im askin only because I stuck my foot in it early part of this week

                                                                          Only oddly blue

Mine was more.

                   I told my boss I wasn’t into it, I was leaving. I told them I’d already punched out.

They were awfully cool.

Hows tha

She offered to bring by some chicken soup.

She a Jew

             Chicken soups the answer to everything tha ails ya

You’re not being anti-semiti . .

. . Hell no

          Oh hell no

'

Chicken soup woud do ya wonders

I thanked her but declined.

She told me it was no trouble. She had just made some and she’d be going right pass her place to get to mine.

Your boss knows where you live

We knew each other in a past life. We were social. Dumb luck we ended up working for the same company.

So did you let her

No.

      I told her that was kind, very generous, but I just needed to work through whatever was tasking me.

nodding to himself

                  Coud I let you in on a little secret smiled wrily

I hear you grinning.  That’s not helping your caus . .

. . Your cause is my cause

 

What’s your little secret?

Cant tell a soul

I won’t.

Swear it

I . .

. . Swear it

    I swear.

Awright

 

Jews don tell gentiles

                         It humoursem They have a tremendous sense of humour I loveem

What?

    Your boss brought you chicken soup youd heat it maybe have saltines with it

                                                                                        Matzo ball best

Yeah.

No

          Room temperature Puree it

Come on. Puree it. Not going to make a big different.

Woud

How?

They don tell gentiles

                              They mainline it

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