. . . the object of a preposition . .

. . I don wanna hear

You should.

I didnt step in it

                  You said you and I rather than you and me

I did not.

Yadid

        You and I is we  formal as shitfancy  You and me is us and informal  Were casual

I didn’t . . 

Stop As you also didnt say chemical when you referred to arrowheads affixed to either end of an equal sign pointing in opposite directions for an equation determining equilibrium

I did say chemical.

   Yes   Right now  Not then

I did.

Didnt

         Had you I woud have written it down

   I said it, you forgot to write it down.

Asshole youll recall I was writing as you spoke

                                                   I worked as a senior customercare representative for twelve years recordingnotating conversations between clients and me  Think court reporter  Transcripts   My notes were presented as evidence in court proceedings

                                        You

The object of a preposition . .

. . Oh Christ

The man pined after a woman when she declined to go out with him.

                                                                         heldup his cellphone Anright here. “The object of a preposition is the noun or pronoun being acted on, referenced, or affected by the preposition in the prepositional phrase . . . In almost every case, it’s the noun or pronoun that appears after the preposition.

“The relationships prepositions can show include physical position (about, above, below, on, and under), direction (in, into, to, toward), time (after, before, during, until), and source (from, of, out of).”

Fucking good for you

                       Yaknowha

tersely  What?

Id rather be the object of a proposition

303preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  28  2. 24

1609,  Thursday – Leap Year,  29  2. 24

https://www.grammarly.com/blog/object-of-a-preposition/ 

a bygone Thursday  24 February 2005

                                            on the unnumbered first page

on typewriter paper 8 1/2 inches X 11 inches turned sideways he scribbled to its right lefthanded he liked BIG borders  BIG edges

       over seven lines he wrote Im finding that while /I agree with the Socratic /pronouncement  man is a /“herd” animal / I disagree “that the /one who knows” should /dictate lead the /herd . . .

to the missives left was a forgive and forget letter summarising “What happened had happened, and now it was over.”

   he turned the page upright

                                and what was now beneath and right of forgive and forget which he believed now was an attempt then to Let Go   he hadnt he did not forget

he did not forgive

                    in the small remaining corner he printed

                                                               FANNIES ---

 

                                                                  SOME REASON ---

 

                                                                      I’M PAYING ATTENTION AGAIN ------                                                                   

                                                                                                   HORMONES whoremoans

   on the next page no longer printing sideways  upper left corner he wrote PART DUO

evidently attempting to number 

                               WHADAYA SEE

                                                 an illuminated flaccid American flag hanging from a round whitepainted pole

  there was other nonsense though not worth mentioning

on the next page written as the prior upper left corner he wrote   24 2. 05

                                                                          THIRD 

then centered

WRITE A PAGE/S

SHUFFLE THEM

A THREAD RUNS THROUGH

THEM IF YOU’RE

PAYING ATTENTION

                                                    IF NOT

                                                 WELL

                                                     NUMBERING

                                                         MAKES IT EASIER

                                                             DOES NOT IT?

beside the D in DOES a wicked penline swept up left curled down to an abrupt broad arrowhead  and written diagonally coming back up toward PAYING ATTENTION he wrote  AND, OF COURSE,

                                                                    MIGHT MISS OUT ON

                                                                     SOME FORTUNATE

                                                                       JUXTAPOSITION

                                                                         less angled  RANDOM

coming off RANDOM like a tail on a fortyfive degree angle  RANDUMB

beneath that assembly in the lower left quadrant

the line written upsidedown  obviously he turned the page

AND RUNNING DUMB CAN TAKE

then rightsideup

YOU TO ALL SORTS OF UNEXPECTED

then upsidedown

MAYBE UNNATURAL PLACES ---

rightsideup

BUT REALLY, NOT UNNATURAL ---

upsidedown

BECAUSE IT WOULDN’T HAVE EVOLVED

rightsideup

OTHERWISE ---- WOULD IT . . . .

                                    NOPE

the following page had nothing to do with the prior three

they were written in red ink  MED PT BIC

the printing was in black ink  FINE PT

Thursday,  24  2. 05

1234,  day-between-2-Ts,  28  2. 24

Dylan  Highlands  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BxDU9Q2RDBc

MOM

       an old joke

an M tattooed on each buttcheek  knees pulled tight to ones chestrolling sidewise  WOW MOM WOW MOM WOW MOM

she didnt find that funny

Aw comon Maw its funny its a joke

                                     Get down off tha high horse of yours

hers was mighty high

                       JUDGMENTAL

her middle name

she madeup her mind  no changing it

                                        not for all the tea in China  and then some  but isnt there always a but

his MOM secretly he spelled M O o r i n g M 

   when she died

his moorings lessened

                        he became more unmoored than usual

it was then he realised how grateful he was to her  realised  she held his reins loosely

when he became extreme

that was his middle name

he pushed hard on barriers

she managed to back him down

lessen his contemptderision

                              helped him relax unknot his fists

throughout her life she asked him in conversation over the telephone in letters  Do you remember Second Grade?

   Yes

Then. Practise what you learned what she taught him.

                                                        defuse situations with laughter

My only thing fear he explained to her  is tha once I start laughing I might not be able to stop  Ill rave

Oh don’t worry that, you’ll stop; even if it is only because you’ve fainted from a lack of oxygen.

Gee thanks Maw

Yabetcha.

330preferred,  2sday,  13  2. 24

0946,  day-between-2-Ts,  28  2. 24

reliving her death

                    which meant reliving the moment she was born

trying hard to remember moments they shared

the moments they shared with Cindi her mother Collin her sister

                                                                       so many

fortunately he had a long long memory

I love you Aniela

We love you

1020,  Twosday,  27  2. 24 

such a beautiful smile

   random

             he has a habit of using both sides of a piece of paper before he recycles it

he respects trees

no life should be abused  wasted

the printerprinted side was a submission a resume for work

                                                                 got the job

on the reverse side he handwrote Eisenhower:

                                                  “Should any political party attempt to abolish Social Security and eliminate labor laws and farm programs, you would not hear of that party again our political history . . . there is truly a tiny splinter group (likely John Birch Society), of course, that believes that you can do these things . . . (but) their number is negligible and they are stupid.”

then in 1953 he says:

                        “Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket (drone) fired signifies , in the final sense, a theft from those who are hunger and are not fed,those who are cold and are not clothed.”

   I Like Ike 

former an sickofanatic MAGgoAts can croak

1204,  Thursday – Natl Velociraptor Awareness Day among other Natl Days,  18  4. 13

1714,  Monday,  26  2. 24

https://www.pbs.org/wgbh/americanexperience/films/eisenhower/

I was thinkin Lets play a little game

he sighed Are you setting me up?

No no Just occurred to me

                               I think youll be successfulI know youll be successful

You’re setting me up.

A little faith woudya

You have faith in me?

On occasion

              This  Definitely

   there was a tinge of remorse Awright

Youll be fine

              Ready

Yeahsure.  Ready.

Tim ScottMr. Bojangles Mike Pence  Mike Johnson . .

. . Republicans.

Yes yes  lemme continue  Id like you to hone your answer

Okay.

Steve Garvey Ronna Romney McDaniel  Her tentative replacement March Eight Michael Whatleylove his name  Tell him What to do an hell fall over himself to do it

   Enablers.

Sickophants haha

You spelled it S I C K.

I did

      Gettin warmer

Aw come on, I’ve guessed twice, haven’t humiliated . .

BINGO

he blinked Bingo?

BINGO

          Their tolerance for humiliation

Thanks for playin

                       See  Didnt set you up

1622,  Reggaefriday,  23  2. 24

1201,  Monday,  26  2. 24

Nitty Gritty Dirt Band  Mr Bojangles  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KKm_EgDI_-E

Permission structure Wha the hells thawho buys into tha in his voice he heard his incredulity

It’s permission given.

Whos askin why ask  Wheres the initiative

                                                 Sounds more like fixin a scapegoat  They told me wha to do so I did it

That’s not it.

No

     Inform me

It offers a counterpart, say a fellow team membe . .

. . Theres the hole in the theory Who needs a teammate

   You kidding?

No

     But excuse me I interrupted   Please

It offers a counterpart smartly they waved team member  a rational justification as he said he heard scapegoat  to change their opinions saw him clench his jaw  mind  distracted him  . . . to change their opinion without feeling like they have to compromise themselves . .

. . Their values

   Yes. Or their pride.

The permission structure, a way out, allows people to be open to different perspectives, changes, they might otherwise reject . .

. . Neglect

             Because ohmy  they have permission

Im not hearing right or wrong in your equation

                                                 Seems this permission flows in one direction  Shit flows downhill

Tell me you see the hierarchy

                                Pattin the dog on the head

Try an pat me Id bite

I wouldnt ask permission

Id use initiative be held accountable Right or wrong

                                                         Been right more often  Hence developed cred

No Mother May I

   I . . I ah . disagree.

Yes of course you do Ya didnt have to say

                                               Caught your expression   Your tell

1015,  Saturday,  24  2. 24

1109,  Monday,  26  2. 24

Eagles  Hotel California  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BciS5krYL80

his frame of mind was colouredblushedbruised  influenced by what entered what senses were pluckedtickledplayed

  informed

he read in Bruens The Guards

                                 “In reality, time doesn’t pass. We pass.”

a real sourball to suck on

pucker takes a while to pass

                                relax  slip from his face

he gave mirrors a wide berth  refused to suffer their prying eyes   be penetrated

                                                                                     YOU OUGHT TO SEE THIS.

No thanks  Ive got a good imagination

   he was fragile

knew it

           this was that time of the year

he knew he was susceptiblebut  come on

                                             an obscure passagepage onehunredsixtythree

three weeks earlier

three weeks later

wouldnt have breezed him

   however now

he could feel his skin peel

his heart   

              weep

his steps halt

                his footing  improbable   surly

  “In reality . . . we pass.”

1430ish,  Sunday,  25  2. 24

2025,  Sunday

. . . is that pity or empathy?

Is there a difference

   There is. I don’t want your pit . .

. . My feeling of sorrow compassion  for your suffering your misfortunes

                                                                               None  Figure youve earned them

Empathy My ability to understand to share your feelings

                                                             None   Keep your tinglies to yourself

My compassion is hard won Sometimes   I think it doesnt exist

   You think you’re coldblooded?

I like black humour sarcasm satire I like noir hardboiled

                                                              Those don stand on pretty shoulders

Yah  Coldblooded

                    Commonsensed

Im a firm believer in accountability Knowingly preferred though unknowingly too crosses the line

                                                                                                       Tough

Innocence dies every day

                            Fair  Unfair 

Coud wish it woudnt be

But thad be wishing

                        I don believe in tha either

2306,  Thursday,  22  2. 24

1244,  Sunday,  25  2. 24

began Mare of Easttown on MAX

                                   enjoyed Kate Winslet followed her project to project

she didnt let him down  Ever

a character an unwed teen mother talking to her baby son . . . that you can love someone so much is scary.

                                                                                                                    a sob caught in his throathad to stop the programme  had to gather himself 

he made a lousy job of it

too close to home

   for the rest of his life she would remain close

                                                   a day didnt pass that he didnt think of her

somedays hed wake shed be kneeling on the foot of his bed

in his eyes when he opened them

                                     sometimes waking him   misty  hypnopompic

he expected nothing less

   he expected shed see him over the Finish Line 

2121,  Saturday,  24  2. 24

1218,  Sunday,  25  2. 24

he saw no ash on Valentines Day

                                   talking with a buddy  You were outanabout were uptown  I was walking an reading around here   Did you see any ash on Valentines Day

Ash?

        What are you talking about?

Valentines Day was also Ash Wednesday beginning of Lent

Oh. I didn’t realize that.

Didnt realise 

I’m not religious.

As a boy you went to church with your parentsyah

   Yes.

Until how old

Until I graduated high school.

So  From a boy to graduating high school off to college you went to church Sunday

My Mom . .

. . Stay on point

                 Church  Sunday mornings

Yes.

Thank you

             Don plead ignorance Youre familiar

What of it?

I know you were rollinround town Do you remember seeing any ash on foreheads I didnt see one ashed soul 

I can’t say I did either.

                          Why are you bringing it up now? Valentine’s long gone.

I was talking with a friend a woman she made other plans didnt see her boyfriend He was miffed  She told him it didnt strike her that their relationship needed to celebrate the date  He didnt try to make any plans for themhadnt looked ahead  She told him she had no intentions of sitting around on her hands

Do they have a good relationship?

As good as relationships go

                             As I told her  most couples celebrate Valentines Day because theyre gonna get laid

Jesus Christ.

   Jesus Bets

What?

Theyre bets  Don implore Jesus

   Whatever, man.

Day damn near broke my heart

Which?  Valentine’s or Ash Wednesday.

Ass Wednesday

                 I love ass   No ass for me

Jesus . . .   he withheld Christ  was rarely a quick study

                                                          Don’t know what to say.

I do

What’s that?

   You didnt either

2043,  Thursday,  22  2. 24

1132,  Sunday,  25  2. 24

Why waste a minute being timid

                                         Right

he liked it

a long freakin phonaesthetic

                              HA  though not a prosthesis

pro thesis

            pro threetits Awa  he believed

                                              but

digging deeper he found that the three-breasted goddess a War goddess  was East Indian Meenakshi

                                                                                                             he was going to stick with Auwa looks a bit like three breasts  eh

he thought so

   he wasnt timid

once his stuttering quit as a young boy he was balls to the wallwoudnt shutup

                                                                                     evidently

he had lots to say

                        lots

timid

      wasnt elemental

if he had his druthers it wouldnt have been elemental to anyone

                                                                      Open your mouth  Say

SAY

      to his dismay he was learning too late too few people actually said what they meant

   waste a minute being timid

                                   Fuck you Hobbitman

2100,  day-between-2-Ts,  21  2. 24

2050,  Saturday,  24  2. 24

dried off he walked in towel over his shoulders through the sliding glass door from the pool where he did laps

the invitefriend called explained he was having a pool party

                                                                 yet 

he had been the only one who went in

therefore

           unimpededuninterrupted laps

he sidestepped a couple heading out

                                       recognised them  nodded

he didnt introduce himselfwouldnt

                                    he feuded with the husband in the local newspapers opinion page understood the husband played off his name asif that held water  he was fourth generation wealthy family real estate land developer    nepotism

he had no respect for either him or his aberrent opinions

he supported all his opinions with fact evidence  receipts

clown just spewed talking points

                                   but he was wellknown  wealthy

inside he looked around

                            nope

not a soul hed entertain

wrapped the towel around his waist put on his tshirt   poured himself a whisky  grabbed a beer from the glassfaced beverage frig behind the bar   took a seat in a corner where he could overhear the inebriated gathering

                                                                                                              he arrived late

he had no intention of catchingup

they were flinging crap carelessly about

                                             they agreed   appeasement

he shifted in his seat

was getting fuckin antsy

   Sit still Youll win no battles here

                                       These are ardent believers    Whydya come

I didnt know friend would be entertained these lummoxes

Airs

     Has to maintain airs  hes third generation

He is

       Youre correct   Why invite me

Youre a friend

he nodded

Coolin your jets

Im tryin

I can leave you alonelet you be

   I  I believe so

Awright  Im around in case

                                voice inside him disconnected    mariachi

whisky gone half a beer  hed leave when he was finished

he remained sitting listening to the horseshit

they seemed titillated by appeasement

                                           though none of them had skin in the game

people who did wouldnt countenance appeasement

he agreed with them

   You want to say

                       I felt your angst

I do

Then tell me

You know

I do  But air it quietly

                        Youve no friends here     Appeasement

Awright

          Actually its pronounced  he said it softly   PissonmeImeant

   Thereya go

                  Better

Yah

Finish your beer lets get out of here

he muttered Bottoms up

                           set the glass and bottle on the bar left without saying goodbye to his host

2034,  Thursday,  22  2. 24

1249,  Saturday,  24  2. 24