was walkingreading Underland Robert MacFarlance   an had to pullupstep aside take a pen from behind his ear to scribble on a piece of paper he tucked inside the book before heading out in case he came across something that caught his eye dumbfounded him

he was easy prey iron filing to a magnet

                                            Geologists and palaeobiologists speak of trace fossils. A trace fossil is the sign left in the rock record by the impress of life rather than life itself. A dinosaur footprint is a trace fossil.

   or  

marks that the dead and the missed leave behind 

                                                     handwriting on an envelope 

when he was dead he will have left thousands of pages  paper   unfortunately 2D

2D is why he refused to participate  to Skype Face-time   ZOOM 

                                                                      he was three-dimensional being  3D

he was adamant

                   dead and gone he wanted his family friends lovers people he knew to recall him as 3D they could flesh him out in their memories he didnt mind if they teased him out in letters postcards book inscriptions photographs they however grew more and more rare the older he got

he wasnt going to play the easypeasy forgettable game of appearing on screen

                                                                                    unageing images 

false

authenticity moved himwas his brand    

                                               his trace fossil

after 1PM,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

1852, Thursday

Dire Straits  Wild West End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5mfz4393NA

 

  angstNo    irritation

earbuds

not a fan

          though cant expect a Luddite to be one

anhe was a Stone Age Luddite

                                        whats a Luddite

historically 1811- 1816 they were bands of English workers who destroyed machinery especially in cotton and woolen mills because they believed presciently machinery threatened their jobsImagine that

had to hand it to em

                     which woud entailrequire another human being to hand it

he maintained hand tools    

very few electrical

ZERO

      battery tools

cut his lawn with a pushmower

used a rake a broom industrial metal dustpan to clean things up

earbuds

          if one listened to prophets profits “Whether you’re wearing them to listen to music at the gym or block out distractions at work, wireless earbuds are usually essential to our day-to-day lives.” 

                                                                                          Harry writes for NBCNews.com

he duly appreciated that Harry included “are usually essential”

                                                                    the bitterness was his an his ilk

when a products noise-cancellation was touted it galled him he appreciated long battery lifehe had a cellphone fast recharging

              but noise-cancellation

weresuddenly many stricken with misophonia hatred dislike of sound anyet curiously  listened through earbuds

hes asked no ones been able to explainlegitimise that to him

                                                                and he couldnt be the only one who looked at people in the market on the street remote interviewsZOOMed appearing on television the computer who thought earbud wearers looked like Frankenstein bolts electrodes sticking out of their ears

to be fair 

          his ire detest of technological noise-cancellation was because he chalkedup his cancel-ability to being raised in a small house with his parents grandmother and eight siblings

                                                                   to not hear was a matter of survival    

todays nuclear family is usually small  four five

and impatient

and dependent

on technology

to each his own correctly so 

   but he coudnt help but wonder where they would be when the lights went out

itll be ugly

1813,  2sday,  29  8. 23

1137,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

https://www.nbcnews.com/select/shopping/best-wireless-earbuds-ncna1303634

PS bonuses swipe for volume control lanyard loop on the case multiple ear tips

bizarro priorities

boycotts

Conservative consumers lose their shit over BudLight and trans influencer Dylan Mulvaney

https://www.cnn.com/2023/08/03/business/anheuser-busch-revenue-bud-light-intl-hnk/index.html?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e&utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=Sentences%208/31&utm_term=Sentences

Conservative consumers lose their shit over Targets annual LGBTQIA+ Pride collection

https://www.vox.com/politics/2023/5/25/23737338/target-abprallen-pride-boycott-bud-light-trans-controversy-stock-price?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e

yet boycott BDS – Boycott Divestment Sanctions something truly meaningful  Israeli apartheid  they refuse and condemn those who would

                   but then with ones head up their ass it is hard to see  tunnelcolonvision 

1509,  Thursday,  31  8. 23

https://www.vox.com/money/23851108/bud-light-target-boycott-success-trans-issues-woke-capitalism?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e

   he went out every night  1. (perhaps more than once) to take a leak into the yard off the back porchhis peppermint was terribly pleased  midthigh height  2. to look at the stars for his parents who lived in Chicago and couldnt see them for light pollution

they tried once a yearevery two to make a trip to visit him

                                                              he lived remote

his brothers and sisters called it Left Coast boonies boondocks  out Nowhere

                                                                                   but

went out particularly for his Mom

                                    she spoke Polish until she was six in the city she had to go early to attend English school where after school after chores after dinner was served eaten dishes washed dried putaway she sat with her parents to help them improve their broken English

then shed do her homework

                              until she was six she lived on the farm in rural Indiana

used an outhouse

propped open its door for  1. to breath  2. to watch the starswatch for shooting stars and imagine she was piloting a craft that could fly in the air and into outer space

where did he get his expansive imagination

he pushed back against her kiddingly  ansay from his eclectic reading

Who taught you to read?

fucked

       he conceded

every night stars were present he went outside to look at them

for his Dad

            his Dad told him he was conceived on their honeymoon in the backseat of a 1950 Buick convertible that had Dynaflow Transmission a passing gear that allowed him to kick it up a notch by simply jumping on the gas its steel grillwork looked like maniacal sharks teeth set in a frown an HUUNGRRY

                                                                              Like I was, son. he said

his fathers best boyhood friend told him when he was a boy that when his father saw his mother at a company picnic they worked for that his father said

                                      Donny, I’m going to get in her pants even if I have to marry her.

Brother he thought  thas romantic

he told himself those stories and others virtually every night looking at the stars since his circumstances had turned him out

1402,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23

first day of schoolgrade school 

                                 teachers are going to want them to write a paper on their summer vacation 

he coudnt wait

it didnt happen until the following week

                                           Class.  This morning until lunch we’ll write a paper about our summer. 

about time

           he flipped open his wood desk opened a notebook took out several pieces of lined white paper closed the notebook closed his desk

                           he had a pencil behind his ear

his teacher didnt like that she asked him several times to remove it

he accommodated her in the moment

it found its way back

she quit asking

he wrote a dialogue between two boys on a playground on swings swinging in unison

when his teacher graded the papers he got an A he usually did on things he wrote  the other stuff  not so much  placing his down on his desk before him she asked when school let out that afternoon if he would please come up and see her

Yes. Of Course.

Let Out bell rang

she required the class to leave the room quietly their classroom was one of the very few that did usually the school shook beneath the cacophony of end-of-the-day I’m-out-of-here voices yells howls more than a thousand feet in halls feet stomping down steps

approaching her shed placed his desk immediately in front of hers 

                                                                 Mrs. Thompson.

something was on her mind  she silenced him holding up her handher index finger pointing to the ceiling brow softly furrowed

           everything was soft about her not fatsoft deliberatelysoft

he stood before her quietly

Joseph. 

Joe.

Excuse me. Yes. Joe.

Yes Mrs. Thompson.

I wanted to talk to you about your paper.

Yes.

Could you take it out of your notebook, please.

Yes Mrs. Thompson.

You can have it facing you I can read my writing upside down I’ll be able to follow you.

Very good. Your cursive is distinct, yet very legible.

I practise a lot.

And your practise shows, very good.

Thank you.

You’re welcome.

                      So the boys swinging together are talking about the other boy’s Mother.

Yes.

He said to the other boy, you I assumed . .

. . Excuse me Mrs. Thompson, a character I assumed, not really me.

Not you?

No.

The assignment was your Summer vacation.

Yes.

So this is not your Summer?

It is part of my Summer that I thought about.

Is there a grain of truth in your paper.

Of course. Fiction is made up of truth.

 Yes.  So.

                The other boy's Mom is an influencer.

Yes.

And you know what that is?

Yes.

What is it?

An influencer influences. I’m not really into that computer stuff. She influences people on-line.

Okay. Thank you.

                    And . . . she’s a cosplayer, and you know what a cosplayer is. 

It’s like dressing for . . er Halloween, dressing for Halloween . a lot.

Do you know what she dresses up as?

Japanese anime characters. I think manga characters too I might find them to be more interesting if I could read Japanese.

            I think.

And all of it, their conversation, while they’re swinging.

They’re swinging in unison, playing, yes.

And you’re going to share your paper with your parents this evening?

Right after dinnerare you kidding me? I got an A. 

                                                     My older brothers and sisters get As all the time.

I got to show-off when I can.

1057,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23

dark matters -- consequences

dark matter

             “How to seek a substance that has mass and therefore exerts gravity, but that does not emit light, reflect it, or blocks it.”  physicist Fritz Zwicky determined

evidence by inference

its presumed influence on observable objects

to perceive dark matter that casts no shadows

one must search not for its presence but for its consequence

                                                                                         consequence

consequences

excuse him all the way to Hell and back

                                           dark matter in many ways reminded him of the fat former  

“Stand back and stand by.”

“I am your retribution.”

                              to what violent grim consequences

1355,  2sday,  29  8. 23

1325,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23

sbs  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivSIgVdvEcM

retribution  (noun. Punishment inflicted on someone as vengeance for a (perceived) wrong or criminal act)  REVENGE https://www.youtube.com/shorts/zqW2wBJu1eM

You’ll have to explain, why mariachis?

Settin yourself up mahn

Up?

   Why not

Why not, that’s ridiculous.

Is it

Come on, they’re decidedly, well, they’re, mariachis, are Mexican.

You got something against Mexicans

No.

No

No. 

   Maybe ya do

I told you I don’t.

Ought to see your faceaint got a poker face

                                             I say Mexicans see a subtle squirm like when I say faggots fags niggers  Pronouns recently  For whaever reason those descriptors throw ya for a loop  despite   you insisting otherwise  

That’s not language I use.

Im prompting you

You mean you’re try . .

. . No  Got

Got?

Under your skin

                 Make no mistake  The difference between us is tha I appreciate Im entitled I was born a white male as you however  raised entitled I wasnt privileged unlike you

And for that you’re jealous.

I appreciate you not denying your privilege Im not jealous  Im honest

                                                                        Just the facts maam just the facts

But we digress

Mariachis

Theyre the array in my head tha Im fortunate to have attend me An I prefer it to callin em a band they don circle in my head as you indicaterepeatedly despite my corrections There are not nine Theyre too numerous to count hence array rather motes or cosmoses cosplaying Moses Moseses 

Individual personalities    

eyes go round an round You mean of course . your personality . . or personalities. tips his head

Not at all Consiglieres 

                         But perhaps since their musics like polkasMexico is closer Ive not been to Italy or intend to go . .

. . You don’t intend to go to Mexico.

I don I said closer

                     I used it once an it stuck Been usinit since

You’re crazy, man.

You shoudbe so lucky

                        They keep me on my toes

   

0811,  2sday,  29  8. 23

1016,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23

I’ll need your driver’s license, I have to scan it.

Whell nuts

            If I don have it you cant sell me whisky

No. Every liquor purchase now must be accompanied by a driver’s license.

You remember meselling me whisky before   This feels a before an after

Yes, I do, but that’s beside the point.

Lets use your license

he rolled his eyes

You don have your license on you

eyes still scribbling Not on me, that’s not how this works.  Do you have yours or not?

I have mine

             I was tryin to get away with bein a teenager

Twentyone years old correct

To buy liquor, yes.

Have laws been amended the military cant signup anyone until theyre twentyone

I don know

Which is nuts

You can die for your country but you cant have a drink 

Vietnam hangover

Bullshit

   Can I scan your license?

Thanks for not asking to see it for being uberspecific 

1420,  2sday,  29  8. 23

0936,  day-between-2-Ts,  30  8. 23

The Who  Won’t Be Fooled Again  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jtb10ZwbReY

kindergarteners were losing their mindsSCHOOL FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL  at least most  excited to be at schoolmeet new kidsmake new friends

                            up the road is the University of North Carolina – Chapel Hill 

a shooter

         SHOOTER LOCKDOWN   the University   the Grade schools

kindergarteners first  DAY

the newspaper fell from his hands onto the kitchen table  

bringing their coffee to the table she had no place to set them down

                                                                       What’s happened?

Hunting Seasons begun

1726,  2sday,  29  8. 23

https://www.newsobserver.com/opinion/article278707964.html

https://www.msnbc.com/opinion/msnbc-opinion/unc-chapel-hill-school-shooting-first-day-lockdown-rcna102354?cid=eml_mda_20230831&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

eyes arent whathey used to be

                                    or so he thought

years ago he participated in a drug trial at Jackson Memorial an came away with 20/15 visiondamn near able to see through womens clothing

                              he was the only participant who did 

was considered an anomaly

wasnt the first time

was in New Awleans

Mardi Gras 

             in a theatre housed in an old building jerryrigged to show a movie on a compromisedscreen

reminded him of some of the smuthouses in Chicago  rolling past he thoughtyuck thoughtwoudntwannabe caught dead in one  if somebodys got a hankeringwere smart  they woudnt attend without a raincoat an hatNOT YELLOWno beggin targeting

            but then

different strokes for different folks

Nicholson Keseys One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest was playing

he wanted to see it in the worst way

matinee

hed been stoned cokedup drunk hashished twoanahaf days

                                                                   the price was right 

a realrummy Hurricane was included with admission

he sat on ricketywood Missionstyle dining chair 

before sitting he tried it 

                        hand at the front of the seat hand on its back pushed realhard

didnt collapse

couple of rows ahead of him somebodys did

he HARHARed coudnt help himselfwoudnt if he coudave

whoever gotup off their back tossed it to the side tookup another chair played Russian roulette  sat 

                                                                                                        it didnt collapse

firedup a crumble of hashish hafway through

fuckin Indian  Chief  Will Sampson escapes through a chainlinked secured window

The End

he applauded as he always didalways does if a film is worthwhile he only went to worthwhile films

when the credits stoppedreel stopped 

                                        as people came upstream he went through them downstream towards a redlighted  EXI    No  thadidnt say tha   EVIL

hed beenup awhile

rubbed his eyes hard

EVIL        

        fuck

like he coud resist tha

                       checked it out  went through the door entered a darkerred hallwayalleyway made him think of developing 35mms shadows loitered ahead he slipped knuckles on that he carried in his jacketNEVER CAN TELL for ballast he carried a blackjack in the other you can take the boy out of Chicago but not Chicago out of the boy

suddenly they rushed him 

                               they didnt KNOW he was leaving Cuckoo  bloodup  out came the sap too

sign was right

   anesthetised bloodied hisantheirs spatting blood he emerged onto a night street thick with haleanhearty costumed people having some fun

THERE

saloon 

          he needed a drink

approxly 2250,  Monday,  28  8. 23

1200,  2sday,  29  8. 23

Chief  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I3c2cXiEUHo 

Jon Batiste  We Are  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkpvNaBe0mg

when a things a thing

Dad.   Hear me outdon’t interrupt.

                                     When you wonder if something’s a thing . . likely it’s a thingokay?  Maybe use that as your default . . please ?

Thas tough baby 

No.  Trust me.

                Not as tough as getting texts, emails, telephone calls entertaining your seemingly . . . endlessly . questioning . . Is that a thing?

Im a curious sort

Kudos.

         Anybody else you can pick on?

Im not pickin

   I’ve an idea.

Whastha

I know you have a calendarcalendars beside you at your studio desk.

Yes

How many?

Calendar calendar or perpetual spiralbound calendar

Jesus. Either. Or.

Four

Four?

Don say it like tha

   I don’t have any.

No  On your phone

                     I preferlike  redundancy

Lose your damn phone where you at

DON’T . . don't put that out into the ether.

Lose your damn phone where you at

Whispering it won't stop it from entering the ether.

My apologeezs

Accepted.

I have chopsticks BIC pens sharpened #2 Ticonderoga pencils to jabdeep into ethers ears Im okay with violence

Chopsticks. Pens. Pencils.

                             What a sweet guy.        

Anything for you babe

the seed of their conversation  https://www.vox.com/science-and-health/2017/12/18/16777724/human-feet-beach-pacific-northwest-seattle-vancouver?ueid=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e  his daughter lives on a boat sails out of Seattle  

1515,  2sday,  29  8. 23

everything serves a purpose

                             we serve a purpose

anwhen weve fullfilled it

were dispensable

   an dispensed

                  he thought of sheds tools vanquished crippledup carpenters machinists  of kitchen drawer castoffs Whastha thing do

                    I don know  displaced by newfangled utensils

he thought of a lot of things

but he wasnt going to say

because it hurtjust thinking of them

   just thinking

hurt

0651,  2sday,  29  8. 23

Johnny Cash  Hurt  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CG-1JDi4240