self anaesthetise

                                  he knew a bit about that knewterribly a bit about it

the knowing makes it tougher

                               but some pains are so deep only certain chemicals seepcan infiltrate those crevasses thinfissures  badlybroken chinks

he wished they were holes

                            holes were easier to plug

an old accurate saying  things come in threes

he wished

            his exceeded three

                                 they toppled himcame on like perfectly  spaced  shiny  black  whitedotted  dominoes  tipped 

       tripped fell breached a breath an infinitesimalwiggle its wont  over it goes fallingfailing to the next infinitesimalwiggle wont

                            sevenlucky seven  inside a year 

he was worked to the ropes to the corner

dazed

      couldnt keep his elbowscouldnt deflect the blows

breath was pounded out of him 

he gasped

            his head was an easy target 

to put him downanout  

put him away

                 It wasnt interested

It held him up 

It wanted every breath after he lost to cause him pain

It was an artist

                a mechanic     sadistic     

It certainly got Its rocks off beating him

then backing into Its corner It spit Its mouthpiece onto the canvaspounded Its gloves together chiding him  I can’t wait until tomorrow, can’t hardly wait.

2144,  Monday,  30  8. 21

1549,  Twosday,  31  8. 21

Brenda Lee  I’ll Be Seeing You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v6z6Hv9HAoM

a sitting target

Representative Madison Cawthorn (R-N.C.) 

                                              for a young man in a wheelchair hes got a mighty big mouth

he mused about busting January 6 “political hostages” out of judicial custody that hawk came out of his mouth when he responded to a question how he would “support those people who were ‘captured’ on January 6 . .”

none of the 600plus suspects were arrested on January 6

                                                             by comparison  a reported 480 people were arrested over the weekend in Minneapolis after George Floyd was murdered by a white police officer assisted by his tag team 

addressing white righties who apparently bruise easily 

                                                            Cry me a river

1523,  Twosday,  31  8. 21

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/madison-cawthorn-s-latest-election-rhetoric-described-insane-n1278120?cid=eml_mra_20210831&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951

https://www.npr.org/2021/02/09/965472049/the-capitol-siege-the-arrested-and-their-stories

https://www.vanityfair.com/news/2021/08/madison-cawthorn-is-openly-talking-about-civil-war-at-this-point?utm_source=nl&utm_brand=pol&utm_campaign=aud-dev&utm_mailing=thematic_ballot_090121&utm_medium=email&bxid=5bea162d3f92a40469717478&cndid=48665723&hasha=50c730cb0ac5cbd04b51d81774de5e3e&hashb=39d29869c836d0019ebc80213a743d0dbe1d7328&hashc=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951&sourcecode=thematic_ballot&utm_content=B&utm_term=Thematic_Ballot_Subscribers

https://www.thefocus.news/celebrity/madison-cawthorn-wheelchair/

https://minnesota.cbslocal.com/2020/06/01/george-floyd-more-than-350-arrested-over-the-weekend-amid-minnesotas-aggressive-response-to-protests-unrest/

   a pensee

                  he was fond of the artform 

Racist

Ashli Rabid

SURPRISE  Took one for the team

In the halls of the Capitol

Wont make that mistake twice

after 2142,  Saturday,  21  8. 21

1220,  Monday,  30  8. 21

a pensee

Title: Subject (2 syllables)

Line 1: Description (4 syllables)

Line 2: Action (7 syllables) 

Line 3: Setting (8 syllables)

Line 4: Final thought (6 syllables) 

 

   a sputtering cauldron of pensee

                                           a heaping second helping

CoVid

Eternal Life

Refusing vaccination

Ignorance in Mississippi

Heading into the Light

1240,  Monday,  30  8. 21

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/mississippi-gov-tries-explain-his-state-s-pandemic-passivity-n1278025?cid=eml_mra_20210830&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951 

a pensee

Title: Subject (2 syllables)

Line 1: Description (4 syllables)

Line 2: Action (7 syllables)

Line 3: Setting (8 syllables)

Line 4: Final thought (6 syllables)

 

he dropped the ball

sixtysix years ago on August 28 Emmitt Till was murdered

he failed to tell his daughters about the torture murder sure theyd learn it in school 

then it occurred to him

                         he didnt

he learned it because he was a paper boy delivering the Chicago Tribune and Sun-Times for ten years throughout the Sixties to ‘73

he had a hard time discerning where he was better educated

                                                                  in a classroom or reading papers

he didnt learn of a pensee in school

he found it reading

Emmitt

Battered lynched boy

Murdered by muling racists

Touring Money Mississippi

Racism is white hatred

1327,  Monday,  30  8. 21

Title: Subject (2 syllables)

Line 1: Description (4 syllables)

Line 2: Action (7 syllables)

Line 3: Setting (8 syllables)

Line 4: Final thought (6 syllables)

 

every time he crossed the bridge he opted the west side

a creek ran beneath it

on the west side he could look down on the old bridge footings which was razed to erect the new one seminal concrete obviously sand cement quarried rock poured in the 1920s

some times on the smashed footings turtles sunned themselves

                                                                  they were stunning perfectly still   like sculptures

he admired them

when they were therewhen one was there he was transfixedtransported Age of Reptiles the Jurassic

hominids hadnt occurred to Eveolution

                                          as is Eveolution might be reevaluating her decision  thinking of wipin the slate clean  I can do better than this; what the fuck was I thinking.

wily religious devotees prostrate inert   unyielding the swallowedhooklineansinkers dispute Her

which tickles hermakes her snicker

                                     She liked nothing better than shooting crapsplaying ridiculous odds She loses more than wins She hasnt a stake in the game  though She truly adored her Cambrian Age loved its hiccups its surprises

the decimation of its remarkable phyla

every time he crossed the bridge it seemed more shabby clothing paper bags refuse fastfood wrappers another grocery cart was thrown into it the water was still stagnant no rain this year fingers crossed for next 

he apologised to the turtles for the human filthfilthy humans

                                                               Im sorry mates Thats not a creek its stew  a rancid greasy slumgullion

every time

1 PMish,  Sunday,  29  8. 21

1116,  Monday,  30  8. 21

https://www.britannica.com/science/Cambrian-explosion

Ohoh  oh  when Stephen Miller says thing said about himdescribing him  are execrable lies

                                                                                                   lies like hes “too busy actually trying to do positive things for my country” to file a defamation lawsuit against Jean Guerrero against her book called Hatemongers  she refers to him as a White nationalist 

                                                                 or when he indulges himself  “There is not a single, solitary quote anywhere . . . because (they) don’t exist . .” he ignores his actions – actions speak louder than words – Miller was the leading proponent in the Formers White House to separate migrant children and babies from their parents at the U.S. – Mexico border  leaked emails reveal him promoting anti-immigrant rhetoric and pro-White nationalist websites 

                      he called for the complete shutdown of legal and illegal immigration and recently has suggested the U.S. shouldnt welcome Afghan refugees fleeing the Taliban into America

Miller conveniently ignores that if his grandparents hadnt immigrated to the United States from Antopol in what is now Belarus to escape violent anti-Jewish pogroms  conscription in the Czars army

                                                                                  that if they hadnt

Stephen Miller might have been zilch  nada

rather he believes himself a know-it-all

hes an ugly man

                    within  without 

he gives excrement a run for its money

1404, Monday,  30  8. 21

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/execrable-lies-stephen-miller-denies-hes-a-white-nationalist-when-questioned-by-megyn-kelly/ar-AANUyNu?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz 

https://www.politico.com/magazine/story/2018/08/13/stephen-miller-is-an-immigration-hypocrite-i-know-because-im-his-uncle-219351/

https://www.democracynow.org/2021/8/27/afghan_refugees_olivia_troye 

 

Hemingway The Sun Also Rises

                                    “It is awfully easy to be hard-boiled about everything in the daytime, but at night it is another thing.”

he met a string of people this was new to him who slept in installments for lack of a better word when they woke they used the bathroom got a sip of water laid back down if sleep wasnt quick to return they didnt wait for it they got up out of bed went into another room read  did crossword puzzles

onetwo hours latertired they returned to bed for a second installment  or not

it didnt often happen to himThank gawd

when his sleep was breached he relieved himselfthough more often it was for a sip of water allayed his dry mouthhe was a mouthbreather

                       You shouldn’t breathe through your mouth. heard it once heard it a hunred times

Break your nose four times then talk to me about ithuh

                                                         didnt take kindly to solicitationsPious  Pissants   Wittgenstein  Seventh proposition Body of Christ Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent.  they hadnt walked in his shoesPiss off he wasnt one to waste his breathe or time

                                                            he always kept a few drams in his bladder to moisten the toes of their fine handsome leathered shoes or bare toes

he hadnt invite them to get in his face

some people believe its their right

wherein actions have consequences

he wasHA consequential

when people admitted to installments he didnt ask what woke themwhat they thought

                                                                                            he listened

if they wanted to say

                       he listened

he couldnt alleviate their waking

                                    ball was in their court

unable to relate he did not say

No, really man, what do you think?

Please Im of no matter Its what you think

if they insisted

                Father Son Holy Ghost Hemingway Awfully easy to be hard-boiled in the daytime nights another thing Yare contending with something that casts a long shadowshadows

                                                                       Not likely a coin toss

he backpedaled 

none of his business

1823,  Saturday,  28  8. 21

2318,  Saturday,  28  8. 21

Lennon  Whatever Gets You Through the Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNNxeovdN5U

Black Panthers  Chicago  '69

                                      Revolution is the only solution  Revolution is the only solution

he thanked his lucky stars he wasnt born black

                                                   he wouldnt pray

         had he been

                         he would have been dead long ago

2002, Sunday,  29  8. 21

Judas and the Black Messiah

 

allott looked an awful lot like alloff like the command of a train conductor End of the line. Everyone all off! who in their right mind would refuse a staidstarched and pressed nononsense buttoneddown uniformed train conductor  they must not have seen Borgnines sadistic performance Emperor of the North bouncing Lee Marvin off the train an nobody bounces Lee Marvin

had to be a typo

                  or pure ignorance or they ignored WORDs reprimandits evitable underlined correction  or it was predictive text runamok just asking for it

                                               technology does that

its excused if it did

who fingered itYOU fingered it

its your fault isnt it  you didnt read whaya wrote before you sent it

technology has inbred plausible deniability

its artificial intelligence

youre notyoure the real McCoy real intelligence  arent you

buck stops with youought to stop with you

                                            NOOoo    The machine made me do it

whos whose bitch 

he looked aroundWheres his riding crop  he didnt ride but he liked its tautnessthe sharp smell of its worked pliable leatherWhere were his spurs he liked their keenclang as he struttedthey made him strutthe brightsparks off cleanconcrete like flint and steel

Walshit he was the bitch

when had that happenwhen did he go ass over teakettle

                                                                apparently he didnt mind

         allott

                       alloff         thats how his mind worked

it was all he could do to keep ahead of it

                                             obviously that wasnt working out for him

some time Sunday,  30  5. 10

2322,  Reggae Friday,  27  8. 21

McCartney and Wings  Let’em In  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXdIyS85emM

 

Walker Percy

               “The novelist or poet (painter  creator) in the future might be able to go (furthur), to discover how it is with man himself (if hes not a liar), who he is (if hes not a liar), and how it is between him and other men.” 

philosopher  semioticist better than semiotician

Percy please   Men

at a time when the male gender was considered the appropriate proper pronoun how gouache an ache in his balls

he didnt grasp the unremitting deference to men they get to have their cake and eat it too anit didnt matter if majority was women  THAT HAD to drive them apeshit 

old men were still little boys who had to have their noses wiped clothes cleaned food prepared for

                                                                                                        a whiny lot

thats why he didnt fit inhis mother wouldnt let him fit in

she best expressed it when he was a young teen and protested that he didnt want to do womens workSHE SLAPPED HIS FACE shocked himbrought him smackdab into the moment                                                                                                                                           If you think you’re leaving this house, my house, and being a bum some woman has to take care of, you’re out of your mind, you have another thing coming, buster. 

hurt his feelings she called him a bum

Walker Percy was a man of his timehis protagonists alienated upper-middle-class men  write what you know  he died in 1990

its now Percys Future

thirty years after his death man is no more familiar with himself than while Percy was alive

                                                                                                 in fact hes in retrograde  degenerating   degenerates  particularly those akin to Percy protagonists

when he tells family friends that he does not SEE men  its not hyperbolehe does not   women appeal to him  here in the Future if men could be more like women he may be able to SEE those marled vapours that could coalesce  condense begin to form the fog of menthough  he didnt have high hopes 

Time is running out

Step aside gents 

Let the women through

                                possibly the Future

some time Sunday,  30  5. 10

1124,  Saturday,  28  8. 21

he blamed Tolstoy

Hadji Murat

             the fleeting corruptible nature of national and religious identity

The Prisoner of the Caucasus

                               “The night were short. He saw light through a chink.”

mined alien words  aoul  saklya  beshmet he hadnt a cluethey could be whatever he wanted 

attempts to bridge the crevasse of otherness

                                                 Otherness  a tactic  a conscious prejudice divider

he blamed Dostoevsky

Notes from the Underground

The Brothers Karamazov

he blamed his daughters for making him read them again  they were books they had been assigned for their high school Advanced English  backing them up they had scintillating discussions of passages and chapters

                                                                                                      they wouldnt have been able to get through them if it hadnt been for himBOSH

                                                              an also if it hadnt been for him they said  they wouldnt have gotten through Shakespeare either he was a sucker for Shakespeare 

it seems people  we  have learned to distrust stories with messageswe disdain writers who bear ideas or ideologues which is what writers do

                            we do not like moralisers we do not want to be preached at we do not believe in answers or in endings

          our Faith is in ambiguity complexity irresolution doubt

                                                                       ambiguity   complexity   irresolution   doubt 

Life isnt that simple

Kikazaru

Mizaru

Iwazaru

monkeys

Hear No Evil

See No Evil

Speak No Evil

               he disagreed with evil  evil presumes religiosity  he didnt believe in religion  therefore nothing was evil though some things were bad or really really bad

                                              not evil

very likely written – ink looked the same – some time Sunnyday  13  6. 10

1300,  Thursday,  26  8. 21

 

Junkie

Nelson Algren

Have Golden Gun will travel

Chicago is my kind of town

Hot shot  sounds crazy man

1829,  Thursday,  27  8. 21

a pensee

Title: Subject (2 syllables)

Line 1:  Description (4 syllables)

Line 2:  Action (7 syllables)

Line 3:  Setting (8 syllables)

Line 4:  Final thought (6 syllables) 

to be a comedian

is to be able to tell the truth

without getting killed

                               thats the premise 

he wasnt killed but Lenny Bruce was persecutedCarlin  he had seven dirty words

deep breath shitpissfuckcuntcocksuckermotherfuckertits   a stream of consciousness

he certainly used them to compliment his stream

                                                  James Joyce  obscenity charges   he was fucking hilarious 

Henry Miller  bawdy brilliant hilarious too

didnt kill them for telling the truthhounded themthreatened their livelihoods threatened their freedom

                                                                                                         didnt kill em

Lifes a comedy club

                      Cant take a joke stay the fuck out       Really

Pocket your ticket 

Come back when its sanitisedNEVER

Wherever it is youre at must be more pleasant

Please  please

                   Do us the simple favourDONT dont come in 

The water aint fine

I peed in it

2142,  Saturday,  21  8. 21

1417,  Thursday,  26  8. 21

https://www.biography.com/news/george-carlin-seven-words-supreme-court 

7 words  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAkPudcbNz0 

 

he had just written on comedy

went to his next page of notes

read the top of the pagebursted into laughter

Baby if he hadnt a sense of humour he would have laid down long ago an died

                                                                                    he lived for shit like this

MARUTA

          his deep abiding pursuit of reading and vigilant head-on-a-swivelif he wasnt walkingreading  together developed a trove of useless information inane trivia that when pricked dribbled out

                                                                                         Why do I know that   Because once upon a time you confronted it idiot

he liked when he had his back

there were a whole lot of them

he was faceted like a gemstone

Sowhas Maruta refresh my memory

Well Im tickled theres actually a Maruta an Asian market and deli in Georgetown Seattle Washington I also read about Maruta

         I really hope theyre being tongue an cheek wink wink nod nod Next time Im up visiting my daughter Ill stop in an ask

Yes you will

Indubitably

Just had to say that   

Indubitably

             Teed ya up like a golfball

Dimples not facets

You yah I can only wish I had dimples

They wouldnt suit you

Cleft Kurt Douglas chin

No Your scars suit you

Thank you for noticing

Youre welcome

he had such polite facetswhen they wanted to be usually they were as coarse as he

Maruta

Ofcourse  Yes

               Its a Japanese code name for victims of human experimentation during World War Two The thousands who diedwere killed were Chinese and Korean people No hair off our American chinny chin chins   Three Little Pigs   Yes the Three Little Pigs Good   Thank you   Yabetcha

I thought then as I read about Maruta they must have thought Nazis not got nuthin on us

Ouch

Yes perhaps but murder of the Other has always been our wayour human way Once upon a time there were six hominids  now just our homo sapiens  bet your bottom dollar that wasnt an Ooops  it was an exterminationthe extermination of the Other

Unit 731 of the Japanese Imperial Army Their cover story to Chinese locals in Pingfang was they were operating a lumber mill  Somewhat commiserate to lines Nazis handed Polish locals

                                                                          Nothing to see here

When someonewhen your enemy insists theres nothing to see in your own backyard  look

I was astonished

I don think I was here at the time

Possible I never know whos coming or going

                                                      Lifes funny

 

Sunday,  30  5. 10

1537,  Thursday,  26  8. 21

 

War Edwin Starr https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZJRJpbGkG4

Get on with yourself Arkansas Senator Cot--Ton

                                                  https://video.foxnews.com/v/6269788686001#sp=show-clips

Get on with yourselves Texas Rep Dan Crenshaw Tennessee Rep Mark Green

                                                                                 https://www.thedailybeast.com/gop-hawks-rage-that-they-want-their-forever-war-back-after-kabul-attack

Get on EX-servicemen

Get on go byebye  Do not cross GO do not collect $200 

                                                           It hurts I imagine

Attention gentlemen your bloody Forever War is gone

                                                        eighteentoo many years too long  too much money  too many Afghan civilian and military  American  Allies blood

1713,  Reggae Friday,  27  8. 21