27.1.20




0811,  Monday,  27  1. 20



he was out of time


                       not out of time in the sense LA County fire chief Daryl Osby said . . . Unfortunately all the survivors (of the helicopter crash that killed former Lakers star Kobe Bryant) were determined to have perished.

if one perished  they didnt survive


he wasnt out of time in that sense

the clock hadnt run out on him



he was out of time in the sense that time wasnt influencing himit hadnt a stranglehold on him to do somethingbe somewhere  it had no demands  least not that he recognised

rather it ranit bled out without any importance to him




What time is it?

I havent a clue

I asked you what time it was.

Not only dont I have any idea he held up both his fists before his face Yasee a watch on these wristsYadont Dont ask again

had a whispera breath come out of his mouth hedve brained him


he didnt ask again


that was real smart of him
                            because currently he lacked any redeeming social skills or want to interact with another soul

he didnt approach anyone

he gave everyone a wide berth

he thought that was plentyhe was obvious he was discretely magnanimous

one would have to be blind not to see that he wasnt up to integrating  being a part of things




he was out of time


he wouldnt recommend it to anyone
                                      nor would he want anyone to have to endure what he was enduring 

though that was probably patently untrue there are too many people and too many places  odds were that thousands were enduring a similar crisis

he was terribly sorry

they had his sincerest sympathy


he almost thought hed bump into someone in the dark ether they inhabited  but then maybe they were in distinct bubblesshrouds that were charged alike and therefore quietly compassionately repelled each other
spared them


he needed some sparing



he needed to be left alone


1620,  Sunday,  26  1. 20
1957,  Sunday,  26  1. 20

26.1.20



he wondered what he might wroite if he was unprompted



he had nothing in particular to say
                                     an unsounded bell  the Tao that can be told is not the eternal Tao  the name that can be named is not the name of the eternal namethe nameless is the beginning of heaven and earth
the named is the mother of ten thousand things


he had bupkis




it was latelate at night  

he had a stiff neck 

he was running on three hours of sleepno dreams unreplenished sand in his eyes a real sad sack                                                              

he couldnt say what he had left


however every dry sponge can be squeezed hard and found to retain a single cell a hlao courtesy of Watership Down a cell resistant enough so to extract a bit of moisture or memory  a tenacious stale pocket wherein resides the makingsthe genesis of a possible oasis  an Eden  a continent named Africa  Humankinds cradle
                                                                                          despite certain white humanunkinds who try their ignorant level best to deny an debase the black Eve  the Mother of all human beings

secretly he hoped there others mothers
                                        by some black magic Liliths

to alleviatesubvert his lazy concern regarding incest

because without Liliths human breeds were incestuous

that said he never found his sisters sexually attractive

as the eldest child he changed scores and scores of their cloth diapers fed them burped them indulged them bathed them

No there wasnt anything sexually attractive about them

he never suffered that perverted snail winding in his brain




cell squeezed
               an innarestin daub of thought-forgotten moisture



he was tired

he was turning in

                                                                       into what?



2156,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  22  1. 20
                                                          1147,  Sunday,  26  1. 20
              
Lao Tsu  Tao Te Ching



25.1.20



he was a hardboiled eggtoo long in hot water 
                                                “. . . kind of a tonic . . . no matter how long you live there aren’t too many really delicious moments along the way, since most of life is spent eating and sleeping and waiting for something to happen that never does.”

why ohwhy hadnt he eaten the egg raw

taken it straight from the henyanked from her clutches

enjoy the consistency of its true nature


he thought things raw – in their true statetrue presentation to the world -- was the best 

kinda like a freshscrubbed woman  naked  without being bundled in clothestrashed by makeup doneup in lipstick eyeliner brushedblushed and scented
                                        asif scrubbed  au naturel  couldnt bring a guy around  

she aint supposed to be neon plugged in  flickering electric plasma
                                                                        anif thats what it takes to bring a man around like a moth he aint worth having GET THAT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL Notice to all hardheaded women and he thought NOT WORTH HAVING was because a guy doesnt choose – not really – the choice is always a womans


it was too bad so many women thought so little of themselves or Decide (-cided: deicide suicide homicide) to Settle

even if there are more women than men


perhaps the next phase of womans evolution will be like that of those species who change their sex when males are lacking insufficient  thereby allowing the species to thrive either as sequential hermaphroditism or gender fluidity

Humankind depends on women  not Neanderthals who beat their chests or seeking balance have to drop to their knuckles in order to stablise themselves  and make gorilla sounds  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HWmZHrWSXkU

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Elliott Chaze  Black Wings Has My Angel