30.11.19


       four slender men  unimposing   which was probably why the four came
approached him from behind as he gassed his car

they hid their identities behind tall limpnecked misshapenheaded giraffe masks
they did seem tall 
                      asif they believed height had anything to do with being imposing or threatening 

he caught their impracticalcomic approach a brief glance over his shoulder but ignored them  ignoring them even when it became apparent they came to the gas station in among the gas pumps for him

the one at the head said snidely You’re filling up with cheap gas.

You know you get what you pay for, right? 

Yes. Thank you  Twoseventyone a gallon  Cheapest Ive found in a while  Thats an excellent observation uh uhah Jeffrey that leapt into his mindthe Toys ‘R Us maskcot An while youre at it yamight also know Im not inclined to pay for your attention

It isn’t good gas; and you don’t have to pay for our attention. You have it.

You have our unflappable, dogged attention.

Wow lucky me he said as tossed an eye up and down the skinny mans googlyeyed lopsided mask Dogged Im hardpressed to buy dogged    

Anyways the gas gets me where Im going an yacan keep your attention

lazy lefteye Jeffrey strodesuddenly from between the pumps and violently slapped the gas nozzle out of his handdousing his pants and bleeding enough down the side of the car and under it to inform him of his peril 

he smiled unperturbed Think ya got little on your sleeve there Jeffrey he pointed  and pointing his sleeve dribbled gas onto the wetted concrete apron 

his smile fell when Jeffrey produced an worn nickel cigarette lighter flipped it openstruck it on his palm its flame was broad  undulating


Seems I find myself in a jam

Yes. A jam. You should walk this way he said as he slowly backed off the red edged platform the gas pumps stood on

he couldnt help himself  Yawant I should walk backwards  

I dont care how you walk, man, as long as you walk this way.

stepping after Jeffrey his shoes sloshed

the other Jeffreys swung in around behind himto his sides


nobodynot a fucking soul seemed to pay attention to the motley crew they comprised asif it was common that twoleguged queercountenanced giraffes walked a guy who looked like he pissed in his pants
not odd at all  huh
                     but he knew he was deep in times of when people kept to themselvesminded their own business didnt go lookin for trouble

if it was him hedve said something but that was his nature

his skin was also his nature 

he didnt wanna spend months healing from burned flesh  No

Bide your time bide your time

Its just a matter of time

its always been just a matter of time an the ability to recognise opportunity

he was no shrinking violet he didnt look good in a skirt

he assumed he was taking a walk with these gentlemen at least until they proved themselves not to be gentlemen



they walked across the enormous Truck Stop parking lot

at the far end of the lotobscured by distancewhen Jeffrey slapped the lighter closed the three other giraffes jumped him and held him down 

Jeffrey yanked a fashioned two-noosed length of rope from his jacketcinched his hands behind him with one noose slipped the other over his headaround his throat 

as long as he held his arms up high behind him he wouldnt strangle himself

they went through a rent cut the chainlink fence that was the lots demarcation Good old property rights then walked forward into the desert brown sand brackish sand startlingwhite sand Ought to be an ocean around here somewhere but the nonexistent sea was curtailed by thorny bushes thick forbidding brush happy alienshaped cacti and other forms of bizarre vegetation he couldnt identify for his life but dug that they made their solitary lives in the desert

give it time . . . the desert is beautiful . . . . and as desirable as a kid sister when all the other women had dried up and blown away because he wasnt a peach he must have been hallucinating  he didnt have a kid sister and women he met tended to be wet


deeper into the desert Jeffrey wrapped a leash around his waist as his throat was otherwise engaged and pulled him forward faster setting the pace  a pace he had been delaying
                                                          Okay  so he played a game of Trustclosing his eyesfiguring the bastard wouldnt walk him over a drop evidently they wanted himwhodafuck knew what for a little girl whose mother busied herself on her backher kneesher belly providing for her and her daughter took a fancy to him  Trust was a game the little girl liked to play Hold onto the end of my skip rope Close your eyes And I’ll walk you down the street, and you have to trust me that I won’t walk you into something? telegraphing

she almost walked him into a post
he was peeking slyly 
HEY!
Hey nothing You almost walked me into that post
You’re supposed to trust me.
Kid I dont trust anyone but myself Something you ought to learn
I know.

You know

I know.


So why were we playing Trust

I wanted to know if you knew.

You had doubts

My Mommie makes me doubt.

Youre Mommies tryin hard doin what she can

It isn’t working.

You eating

Yes.

Youre clothedhave a place to live

Yes.

Youre in school

Yes.

Whaelse yawant out of her


I want her time.

We all wantwanted our parents time  Its something they sell to provide for us

I want . .
. . I wanI wan  I wanTAH

Ya get whacha need if your lucky

she pouted

Come on Ill buy you a carton of milk and a donut




he opened his eyes in time to catch that they were walking up on a shell of a stone cabin its roof had collapsed into it a small outbuilding beside it that smelled of a coopchickens stacked tires to either side of the timber that formed the short entrance that the giraffes couldnt enter without defrockingdecapitating exposing themselves he was sure he didnt know them he was sure they didnt want him to know them

he smelled water tepid  that he could smell water and hadnt pissed informed him he was thirsty

the water smelled like rubber

water inside the tires

he veered towards the broken shacks entrance

Jeffrey pulled on him

Jeffrey was slight

he pulled Jeffrey

Miuthafucker!

You betcha I may have fucked your old ladymebbe why youre part of this getup Im thirsty

staggering over to the stacked tiresdragging Jeffreypushing bodily against the other three clowns who tried to impede him he made the tire to the right of the emptied doorway  no water 
                                                                      he crossed left  AwhChrist 
shallow water
two fish inverted in it
                       bluegills
bluegills inflated like porcupine fish they had sucked up what water they could hold and was recirculating it over their gills to breathe their tails and backs dryshrunken Do whacha need to do to survive  
                                                                                    FUCK THIS! in a suddenhe jerked his arms downstraightened his backjerked forward he didnt snap his neck choked briefly then rope snappedPOP!ped apparently rotted hemp

in the next moment he yanked his arms outwardPOP!
                                            he was a freed muthafucker
except for Eeny Meeny Miny Moe clamouring around him unsure what to do he conferred Moe on Jeffrey Moe had been from his Three Stooges viewing days  the apparent ringleader

he scooped handfuls of water out from around the fish drinking his fill 

the clods and Moe closed rank around him tentatively  Drink he said I heard your canteens rattle against your thighs CUNTS  


Now what

Moe said  We keep walking

Im supposed to follow you or youll pursuefollow me

We know where we’re going.

Theres that however I aint going anywhere without the fish

The fish?

Damnright  I aint leaving themtheyre innocent Im sick of Innocence being sacrificed for the selfish

I suppose Im drawing a line in theHA sand  or we can have it out here  I aint troubled by the odds


they balked
             Awright lose the hats all of ya Knot two of them  A bluegill in each Empty your canteens into them I hope to hell youre close to where it is youre takin me otherwise youre gonna get mighty thirsty


Eeny Meeny Miny Moe did as they were told


he humped the knotted giraffe heads onto his shoulder and followed the defrocked into the falling dusk and night



where they ended up was anyone guess 
                                             he woke from his dream
  

1037,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  27  11. 19
1720,  Friday,  29  11. 19
Everly Brothers  All I Have To Do Is Dream  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbU3zdAgiX8 
War  Slippin’ into Darkness  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6L-2IQMDwcA

29.11.19


Legs

                  thats what he called her he wasnt being sexistshe had legs   gams

he ransacked his memory she was getting away again among the flipped over furniture closets drawers chests desk pulled apart No he couldnt find a single memory where a set of legs turned his headcaptured his imagination to follow them
HEY! LEGS!  LEGS!
                  she stopped See! she knew she has legs too she pivoted on her hips  she wore a smart greyflannel skirt it fit her form  as if it had been painted on her
he raised his hand
she smiled
            maybe she recognised him from the coffee shop  or from the two times he nearly walked through her going around a street cornergrabbing her by her arms so he didnt knock her off her feet  

she turned a quarter turn on her heels

Here we go Legs 

You are calling me?

I am

I don’t believe we know each other.

At the coffee shop  More famously from me almost wauk . .
. . Through me; twice.

Thats me

Legs. Really.

Are you kiddin me  please take it as a compliment I can honestly say Ive never had my head turned by a pair of legs before You a dancer

she seemed startledblinkly rapid as if he punched her on the nose  I am.

That explains the legs




they dated fourfive times 

he was sure he knew her nameshe told him but he never called her anything but Legs

she was going to law school in the Fall

it was late summer

she wanted to pursue International law which would jive his word with her double major from Berkeley  History  Politics

her father was an attorney
                            she was definitely cut of the cloth


he never took her dancing

as Dirty Harry said A mans got to know his limitations


he would have liked to become intimate with her legs maybe she did too but their conversations discourses were passionate  their brains fucked   he liked thinking of all the convoluted wetsoppy positions they got into 


Legs
             Whawas her name    


1355,  Twosday,  17  9. 19
1533 or 333,  Twosday,  26  11. 19
Joy Division  Transmission  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dBt3mJtgJc

27.11.19




Shawn 


he hadnt seen her in years why she showed up in one of his dream this morning was beyond him
                                                                                                        and laying there slowly awakeningthe fog of sleep moving out of his eyes and taking her with it  he re-ran the picturesque scenario on the silver vapours that trailed on the fog as it departed

he saw the old Shawnthe first Shawn he met befriended  before her tits went to her head


before her tits went to her head
                                that amused him  he chuckled into the back of his hand it was good to wake humoured

they had worked in the same office building  coworkers

she had a habit of running through the carpeted halls

she was athletic swift

they met in the hall as she ran around a corner and slammed into him  she went over backwards and downher legs akimbo her short skirt up around her waist print cotton panties helping her up to her feet he asked Are those bunnies
her eyes went wide she may have even GULPed audibly she averted themlooked at the red fire extinguisher case on the wall she looked back to him Bunnies?

Please   My names Joe he extended his hand  We havent metIve heard of you  however Id like to get off on the right foot start out our relationship honestly

she shook his hand Yes.

Thank you

What big eyes you have? she said through her smile

Yes an best we stop this Lil Red Riding Hood moment Im sure wed break some rules very quickly

she laughedshe didnt cover her mouth I think we’ll get along really well.

I agree Were off to an auspicious start


they got along well

occasionally they took lunches

it was during a lunch that she confided in him – the waitress at the pub bent deeply as she served themshe was well-endowed – I wish my breasts were larger.

I wish my cock was bigger although if it was I would be tempted not to wear pants and anybody who gave me a hard time Id say they were just jealous

she laughed 
             No, seriously.

Seriously

No. Seriously. 

Shawn Youre fit athletic your breasts suit your body type

I want larger breasts.

Ive said my piece


I want bigger breasts. 

And I’m going to get them.



she did

her breasts went to her head

she clothed herself to flaunt them
                                    What’s the point of getting them and not showing them off?




it was nice to see her again in his dreams being who he preferred she was rather than who he almost said what she became


0749,  Friday,  22  11. 19
1234,  Twosday,  26  11. 19

26.11.19



he woke in the morning to the smellthe taste of potato leek soup   then he smelled something else in it too  oysters which made sense he had just returned from Willapa Bay Washington with a case of fresh oysters Baby! Dinner was going to be a feast
                    oopening his eyeshe felt their weight their wandering helter skelter across the bed and his blanketed body  his five ferals  nineyear old indie twoyear old october and her three kittens shy leftie and bomber born mid-March

october was only in bed to encourage him to get out of bed and feed her breakfast and it wasnt until she came in that he would finally get up
                     he relished being a slow riserwaking when he woke without alarms -- his alarming awakenings were behind him – but she could be ornery if she wasnt fed on her timeclock her dicktate as a queen would should be

all eyes were on him

he eyeballed them back

smiled
                      then he smacked his lipswhich put a spark in their spines FUD  theyd spent enough time with himdespite not knowing English that his lip-smacking informed them of food
                                                                        yet another pleasure he relished as he relished good meals spirits a cigar a hot shower a wonderful piece of ass he liked to think the timethe years he spent in the gym made him a nice piece of ass too the cats leapt off the bed anticipating their breakfast and rushed up the hall to the kitchen where hed feed october and the kittens he fed indie separately in the bathroom young cats dont respect age  theyd knock indie off his pins if he got between them and his food

he made his bed

slipped sweatpants and shirt over his nakedness

relieved his bladder

then fixing plates of wetfood in the kitchen he herded the four kitkats in a line  as they ate he placed dryfood in shallow bowls with an old tin cup and then stoled into the bathroom where indie was fixed waiting on his breakfast
he closed the door behind him as he left

returning to the kitchen over the munching bodies he prepared two more wetplates refilled the tin cup with kibble and then headed out through the front door through the screen door to feed his outdoor ferals four   bigfoot hed been feeding him seven years since he first showed wee five years since she arrived Robert one year he was no Robert Redford he kept telling october but she beat it out of the house one night as he was coming in and Robert knocked her up bomber definitely informed who his daddy was Robert and bomber bright orange tabbies except that Roberts tail had been cut off threefourinches off his rump his right ear mangled Robert was suspicious of human beings to his core
last but not least two months ago  ashe

he set the wetplates down on the porch railing so he could feed ashe kibble he left a shallow bowl to the left of the two steps down off the porch for her if he didnt feed her first shed go through anybodyanything to get chow she was young and hungry 

with ashe occupied he fed Robert to the right of the steps in another shallow bowl 

then back on the porch he took the wetplates from the railing and fed bigfoot and wee he separated them with an old fruit bushel as they ate the wetfood he placed kibble in bowls of their own beside them 

done

his pets fed first

now he could tend to himself


once inside the house he turned to admire ashe and Robert
                                                               like great public buildings in great cities across the world before the entrances of great libraries he too had lions at either side of his vestibule just like those before The Art Institute of Chicago

they had nothing on him

   and
                  later that day he was making and having potato leek oyster soup

all was as right as could be expected 
                                       one could say that the world was his oyster      
  

0947,  Monday,  25  11. 19
1003,  Twosday,  26  11. 19

25.11.19




                                                         in college he wrote a film script for Pink Floyds Echoes 

he recorded on it on cassette timed out the musicparceling it down to the second which coincided with scenes he wrote he left it up to his professor to listen to and readappreciate his timing juggle those balls all at once and digest his impressionshis reality of Echoes for the class final

his professor later admitted to him that he hadnt intended to put in the timethe work he endeavored himtasked him but he said his wife swung in like Tarzan a SUPER HERO before there were Super Heroes and asked him why he wasnt why he wouldnt evaluate the work he made demands of his students now a student was flipping those demands on him  

Your student is taking you at your word. You set the bar. If your students are trying to meet your expectations, how can you possibly ignore them because they’re taking you to task? This studentyour student is obviously inspired. You need to encourage him, and correct his faults or failings, when they occur.

You can never tell what you’re going to find.
                                                so his professor encouraged by his wife put in the time
Damn near drove me crazy, man. However, it is a remarkable script; it’s one of the best I’ve read by an undergraduate. he did not return the script


maybe the professor wouldnt have been so animatedcommiserate if he knew he had gone down on his wifecurled her toes in a parked car outside a faculty - student meet and greet which the college film study culture encouraged 


Whatsyourname? she purred  gripping handfuls of hair at the back of his head as he lapped and sucked her pussy
he thought she was the professors daughter  she dug it Often he’s so full of himself he forgets what I bring to the table. 

she was the first woman who ever came in his face

he didnt know that women could squirt like that 
                                                   he was joyous                                                 
she let him ride up her bodyslip his cock inside her quaking pussy and kissed him deeplydespite her cum 
                                                                                                               which turned him on 

he kissed every woman as deeply  who had taken him in their mouths


1525,  Sunday,  24  11. 19
1118,  Monday,  25  11. 19
The Sound  Wildest Dream  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jNJ6uiNsrsA