30.6.18



he loved to readeveryone ought to read

if he walked about without a book between his handsunder his eyes he felt odd unbalancedhis perceptions skewed  peering at his surroundings rather than taking them in in determined peeks  random bright revelations      


reading informs
                 it reminds us entertains us stomps on orthodoxys toes  denies dogmawhistles  

otherwise life is unexamined an ignorant life
                                               despite apparent ignorance which today seems to enjoy its unwavering salutary fans


he was reading A Confederacy of DUNCES how fuckin appropriate
                                                                           John Kennedy Tooles 1981 posthumous Pulitzer Prize winner Toole gassed himself in his car outside Biloxi Mississippi in Sixtynine things to do while in Mississippi

while walking he read
                        I would like to know what the Founding Fathers would say if they could see these children (he was watching television) being debauched to furthur the cause of Clearasil. However, I always suspected the democracy would come to this . . . A firm rule must be imposed upon our nation before it destroys itself. The United States needs some theology and geometry, some taste and decency. I suspect that we are teetering on the edge of the abyss.

Toole ceased revising DUNCES in Sixtyfive

walking reading he laughed sardonically  ironically  then he spat aloud Joe Fridays Dragnet bit Just the facts Just the facts ma’am and imagined Joe spinning in his grave at the toutingthe whining of Fake News of Fake Law and Order
of real Cruelty and somehow vindicating Debasementfeeling better for themselves at the expense of Others


Toole wasnt necessarily prescient 

the 60s werent quiet

Nixonian weeds were planted they were cultivated and enduring they inevitably one day would unfurl like miserable orchids their scent a stench permeating the atmosphere admirers Lotus-Eaters lotophages breathed deeply and sighed resisters retched and wiped awful tears and sting from their eyes before their senses rallied and they regained their footing  

abject shock takes its toll



who was he when he looked in a mirror  a book clutched in his hand  

did he look like act like talk like the manchild who represents the American presiduncey to the eyes of a bewildered world
no

   but then that man didnt read  or let alone could walk and chew gum at the same time


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0944,  Saturday, 30  6. 18
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quote from page 42

29.6.18

there is some comfort in pain  

Now why that is he couldnt say  he couldnt say he was due it he couldnt say he was fond of it though somehow
it seemed fairseemed  due

                                            somehow

a past life

future life




he had a long intimate relationship with pain

it cloaked himsheathed him like sex  an he dug sex
                                                      sides of the same coin

an given that cold brass tack fact

he wasnt gonna bitch
                       whod bitch


it seemed to him however that his scale was tilted towards pleasure

if he could maintain thatkeep that the weighted endkeep his benefit Fuck it  Bring on the pain  hed shaddup suck it up

he had no patience for noisy sufferers                                                                                                                                    


2311,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20  6. 18
1138,  Thursday,  21  6. 18


the FAKE PRESIDENT recently berated a protester in Duluth at another one of his rallies (talk about insecurity)
“Is that a man or a woman?”                                                         

it was breathtaking

not only for his childishNO  infantile admonishment(Donald will have to look up the word) but more so that Ive also thought Is that a man or a woman of the him

he doesnt act manly he acts like a spoiled brat
Seventysomething

“Oh we have a single protester, there we go. Goodbye, darling,” Trump said as his supporters in their red “Make America Great Again” hats cheered.

“So we have a single protester, he’s going home to his mom. Say hello to mommy. And tomorrow, the fake news will say tomorrow, massive protests at the Trump rally. One person. Massive protests.”

smacks of presidential staturetimber  Presence huh


if he were on fire I wouldnt walk across the street to piss on him to put him out

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0005,  Friday,  22  6. 18
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28.6.18

White unAmericans


anti-Muslim animus is anti-American
                                      Americas racist president leads the charge  a wannabe who might not be able to find his dick if it wasnt attached to him tucked exquisitely under his long long tie



2007, Thursday,  28  6. 18
937 days remaining or less
PS  I was incommunicado when the decision was related


It’s important this store runs efficiently . .
. . Youll excuse me  her eyes bugged a bit as he interrupted some people dont like excusedthey lose their placetheir streamofconsciousness  he always thought if they did then they hadnt truly thought through what they were sayingtheir position  stick a bookmarker between the pages address the interruption 
                                                                                           Youll excuse me when you say efficiently youre saying it be run by the corporate book

Corporate spends a great deal of time and money . .
. . Not if they didnt pay the smucks who discreetly clandestinely insist of the necessity of their work thereby retaining their Im-sure-dramatically-higher-wages-than-the-working-stiffs-and-most-all-middle-managers incomes  developing horseshit  remedial horseshit  prettied up power-pointed to appear spectacular lucid and unimpeachablenot that corporate heads would challenge them theyre advising themtheyre the experts  who would they be to challenge an expert  their authoritarianness conflated allows and abets the experts authoritarianness


I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Awright  Then succinctly  Are you familiar with the Antichrist

The Antichristthe Devil?

You are familiar

Yes. Though I fail to understand given what we’re discussing has anything to do with religion.

Rather than religion lets call it faith  Better yet call it good faith

Alright. Good faith.

Wonderful By your own admission youre not from not trained in liquor accordingly business would have business believe that one product is another product and therefore a selling point is a selling point no matter the product  theyre interchangeable

Theyre not

Also what is not and why I mention the Antichrist this store is Corporates Antichrist it functions in opposition to the strictures Corporate would have it run

The outlines the powerpoints are neglected because the culture this store servesthe neighbourhood this store serves  gags on corporate fidelitycorporate identity people here earn their money with blood sweat and tears they toil they put their backs into their work Rare to see pretty ironedcrisp white shirts here

Corporate would be better served to turn a blind eye disregard the upstairs experts and allow us to identify with the people and culture that is preponderant and spending their coin providing the profits corporate receives not spite its face cutting off its nose 

Our noses are to the ground and the grindstone 

Experts be hanged



I forgot what I was talking about.

Forgot to bookmark ithuh We were discussing the efficiency Corporate deems necessary for this store to function in kind with the blueprint expertly-devised for all stores in three states Approximatelyif I may  approximately the same number of bones twohundredandsix there are in an adult human body  except our bones are incongruous not conjoined not tethered by tendons and ligaments Spastic I would offer And believedby experts to be able to bent over touch it toes and not not fall on its face despite the body disjointeddespite the inequality of spirit between those who do and though who believe they can tell them what to do without themselves able to do what they do it somehow beneath them
The Untouchables
 

1411,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20  6. 18

22.6.18


GONE FISHIN’
                          couldnt figure out how to copy and paste a GONE FISHIN’ scrawled on a cartoon wood sign   I suck

LATER

Reggae Friday,  22  6. 18

21.6.18



Name of da Fadder da Son da Holy Spirit  AwChrist Enough oda pleasantries Fadder
Dis is da crux of my confession 


Ey don believe 

Ey wan my soul baak 

My baptism was der fokes idea na mine Its my mind ta have it baak spun returnd ta me  Returnd ta me whas mine 

My soul 


Ey wanit baak

Ey wan my soul baak

no words came from the other side of the pale damask screen the priests silhouette darkened it so he knew he spoke to someone  

Can ye do dat Fadder


Ey suppose ifn ya excommunicate me my soul would cum baak right quik  eh


the silhouette remained unmoved 



he heard him breathesigh FADDER  Fadder eyve read da muckymucks da Churchs hotshots git it  not usually tho da commoners da strum an drang bits an pieces bricks an mortar of da Holy edifice  Ey woud say us yokels   

Ey read right

Dint ey


the silhouette shifted the priest moved his arse on the hardwood chair just a bit


he shifted his too FADDER Yave nuthin ta say ta me


Yave vowed na ta give baak souls

Eym no Indian giver Caant be

Ey didnt give up my ma an da did na me A wee childs cry aint a concession  He caant give na wha he don know he hasYea


Yave nuthin ta say ta me


he stood abruptlypowerfully the chair struck the back of the confessional EY  WAN  MY  SOUL  BAAK
the silhouette didnt flinch

late 2017
1510,  Twosday,  19  6. 18


my apologeezs  it is unlike me to task my readers with repeated clips to digest first

“. . Ivanka feels very stronglymy wife feels very strongly about it . .” a man led by his nose
why does Ivankas feelings outweigh the First Ladys feeling

curious to ponder  though I dont imagine that question will be asked if I could I would

0047,  Thursday,  21  6. 18



well Bobby  I couldnt agree any more
our politics are in kind though some might say were unkind
to which Id say Fuck you too

0017,  Thursday,  21  6. 18
944 days remaining or fewer

20.6.18




US quits ‘’biased” UN Human Rights Councilwhere does the administration get off calling anyone or thing biased  they wrote the book for biased and worse    

Ambassador Haley declared the Council QUOTE a cesspool of political bias UNQUOTE  it seems in order to assess anothers bias there must be a familiarity with a cesspool of their own  and if somebody didnt put those words in her mouth she ought to have her mouth grinded and washed out with a bar of Fels-Naptha laundry soap
then deny her a dose of SUPERSTRENGTH Listerine to cleanse her palate

shed need it
              pot calling the kettle black

since when has this FAKE PRESIDENTs administration ever been concerned with human rights First Peoples rights Black Lives Womens rights and certainly not in regards to migrants and refugees 

human rights wasnt a subject of discussion with North Koreatoo busy discussing nuclear disarmament they said too busy stroking each others cock I suspect    

human rights isnt a subject of discussion with China Russia the Philippines Turkey
and ohChristplease cite an anti-Israeli bias
bias towards an apartheid government
its treatment of Gaza
Palestinians gunned down for throwing rocks and rolling burning tires 

how many dead Israeli soldiers in that brutal exchange



the wheels on the bus go round and round round and round round and round

but this bus is running on flats  

no hands on the steering wheel


2357,  Twosday,  19  6. 18
1307,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20 6. 18
945 days remaining or fewer

Rovian: “. . . when we act, we create our own reality. And while you’re studying that reality – judiciously, as you will – we’ll act again, creating other new realities, which you can study too, . . . We’re history’s actors . . . and you, all of you (except those who are at our teat, our ardent LOYAL followers), will be left to just study what we do.”


Americas FAKE PRESIDENT says he will sign a “Pre-Emptive” order to preempt the orderthe policy he wished enforced to separate families at the border as a deterrent Zero Tolerance curiously that describes my tolerance towards him  RESIST
  

1051,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20  6. 18

19.6.18



a loop keeps reoccurring reoccurring to himnot days apart 

its been weeks since it first seemed to him  his memory haunting himnot caring to be denied or ignored  residual  toxic and benign he could scrub it until he scrubbed himself raw but it wasnt going awayrelenting
he was stained

it stayed


lazy and greedy occurred to him at once  unseparated

greedy  

lazy
      a maniacal loop fixed end on end a fabric fixed with fast stitch not fixedcorrected  permanently fixed

lazy and greedylazy and greedy  two silveredmirrors set across from each other multiplying their overlayed image into infinity perhaps  if he could look deeply into their repeated face atomised

if laziness is astute he thought it a natural attribute of the lazy they learn and understand when and where they can siphon from others  the others are either unaware or indulgent or aware but too committed to the matter at hand to be distracted by the fray of indolencetheir minor irritation  

however a parasite doesnt go unnoticed
                                          while not attended to during the heat of the matter at the appropriate time the tickthe leech are either backed out a smouldering match held to their posterior or gently wishing though not to be gentle gently sliding a fingernail beneath their anterior sucker pushing it aside rather than pulling on it to minimise the damage their teeth could inflict exacerbating the wound

infection is unwanted


it seemed he couldnt tolerate as others might the unending tumble of greed and laziness 

he understood they were attributes inherent to human animals he did but lacking tolerance he consistently positioned himself to work separate of his workmates which his workmates didnt minded because none wanted to work as hard as he didthey couldnt keep up he exhausted them however it wasnt because they were either lazy or greedy  among them a few were he realised long ago that by his equation he wouldnt have to contend with that few
he left them far afield

inert dust and hubris in their teeth 


he didnt look back


1600ish,  Thursday,  14  6. 18
1103,  Monday,  18  6. 18


FAKE PRESIDENT  Mr “I Alone Can Fix It” can’t; so he is blaming Democrats: “Their obstructionthey’re really obstructionists, and they are obstructing.” 

casting pearls before swine aint he . . careful “ . . lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces.”  Matthew 7:6  


“What’s happening (on his Watch) is so sad, is so sad.”


1349,  Twosday,  19  6. 18

18.6.18



her clear blue eyes shining  she asked him very sincerely Promise me you’ll be vigilant.

her remark came out of the deep deep bluedid she know something he didntwasnt he usually the vigilant onethe one who protected herwhich every man ought to understand is their obligationresponsibility to protect their partnertheir woman from harmnot sexistnot brutish  humane  though unfortunately while they were separate she had been assaulted assaulted by men who somehow determined she acted she was too good for them so they punished her for their perceived affront

he eventually caught up with tworeturning to the scene of the crime as it were  she pointed them out  cant beat the predictability of the human animalthe lesser the intellect or reason the better chance they couldnt resist the magnetic pull of seeing their offence again upclose  as if shed forget their rat faces their postures their swarmy carriage bent by the weight of some fantastic world of their creation carried on their shoulders  stooped   no confidence    cowards

unfortunately he couldnt provoke either

maybe his words were too bigtoo evolved for their small brains

he was a good fisherman 

he just couldnt jig or cajole them to raise and take the bait

its difficult to let brutal go


cowards
          if they want to beat on unsuspecting women they were lionsthey had the advantage  but placed inside the frame of a fair fightnot really his adrenaline was stoked so high he tasted it  it was wicked intoxicating  a high he coveted

its difficult to step away from

but ultimately responsible for his actions  unless they threw the first punch to enable his defence he wouldnt strike first

no matter the delicious violence that would ensue

maybe if he lost more oftenlost more than he won he wouldnt have this heightened perception and lustit was lust 

his sexual lust and violent lust were on par

either  no matter sufficed


some people covet tattoos

he coveted scars

they werent convenient

yet their permanenceetched in his flesh were utterly unforgettable

he was sure someone didnt forget why they were tattooed 

though he wasnt sure exactly they could say what they paidwhat the artists name waswhat the circumstances were that led to the violence of the needle puncturesthe coloured inks

painful over thin skinover bone

not as painful as when someone chickened out and grabbed up something alienused something other than their fists or knees elbows or feet and disarming them  and disregarding the temptation to brutalise them with the tool they grasped he invariably punished them more than he initially intended only adding a singular stripe more 

he didnt kill them for their indiscretion

which isnt to say he wasnt tempted Fifth Dimension One Less Bell to Answer


You’ll be vigilant?

Yesbaby Ill be vigilant I promise

she smiledshe was relieved  Thank you. I love you so very much.


1919,  Sunday,  17  6. 18
1418,  Monday,  18  6. 18



the FAKE PRESIDENTthe wannabe dictator  wants a Space Force 

all he could assume was a Force to secure the vast empty Space inside the PHONY PRESIDENTS skull  for he needed all the help he could get despite that the Military wasnt hiswasnt assigned to him  though the PHONY thought there was nothing in the country more important or necessary or critical than him

1453,  Monday,  18  6. 18  

17.6.18



SUPERDUTY awbullshit wanna give me a fucking break
                                                   these humongous pristine pickup trucks nah  aint getting you a pickup fawning – or -- maybe women are more stupid than he thought

they aint doing SUPERDUTY with that truck
                                               as a matter of fact the drivers of these pretty SUPERDUTY trucks hide their tailgates  they back up into parking spaces and in the meanwhile everyone trying to negotiate parking has to wait on them ineptly inelegantly manoeuvring their hackneyed jockeying their back an forth back an forth trying to park in slips between those white lines painted on the pavement  an between the size of their sideview mirrorsthe size of dressing mirrors usually hung on walls an their widewidewide rearview mirrors  backup cameras too probably  they ought to be able to glide right in

ought to
         ought to because theyre SUPERDUTY

anything SUPER is supposed to be superlative right
                                                      he hated that right the lilt in ones voice speech right suggestingassuming you agree without offering your twocents he could do without right  grated on him like 40-grit sandpaperlike sharkskin on his naked thighs when he tunafished in his twenties a thousand miles off the coast of Perupossibly Chile if he knew where exactly his Portuguese boatmates would have lost him at sea  men at sea disappear all the time everyone aboard agrees he went missing bad seas  keep it simple stupid   youre gone  an thats a fact


SUPERDUTY
            unfactual


1610,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  6. 18
1832,  Sunday,  17  6. 18


FAKE PRESIDENT on Father’s Day declares the Press “Enemy of the People”  

                                                              of course those People are his People not our People

1853,  Sunday,  17  6. 18

15.6.18


approaching her from behindheading up to the counter at the storefront he watched her raise her hand to her mouthher head going back and hold that pose for several seconds
quivering a bit
                Y  A  W  N

Nono no you just didnt yawn he said coming around in front of her

her eyes still sparkling with yawns tearsputting her hand over her mouth I did.

You gonna take that with you

Whatexcuse me?

The yawn big yawn are you gonna take it with youya cant leave it hereya leave it here Im gonna have people walking into it and suddenly theyll be yawningsuddenly Ohman I tired all of a sudden

she laughed

he kept a straight face pokerface

she broke off her laugh  You’re serious.

I am That yawnits emanation could possibly break their spirit they might pull back on their evening their plans suddenly overcomesuddenly tiredsuddenly taken down a peg their momentum broke

And all of it due to your  enormous  errant  yawn


You’re making me feel bad.

Well lemme ask ya  What are you doing this evening

Me?

You

Well, truth be known, I had plans but I decided to call them off. I’m tired this evening.

Youre tired this evening

I am. I made the plans earlier. I just don’t feel up to them tonight.


The Y A W N your yawn yagotta take it with you  Leave it here youll doom others to your nocturnal dysplasia your disarrangement  derangement 

See


This is crazy.

No Not crazyIve seen it before Though before I didnt cautiondidnt ask people to take their yawn withem when they left  But Im asking you

Please he was beginning to feel like he was begging please take your yawn with you

she didnt hear him
she was in the middle of another yawn . . A  A  A  W   W Nnnnall tonsils tongue and teeth  bright tears What? Excuse me. I didn’t hear you.


You have to take both your yawns with youplease otherwise youll be dooming my future customers its Friday night forcryinoutloud youll kill date nights delay romances cause undue whoknows kinds of suffering 

The webs we weave


she paid gathered up her package wordlessly avoiding his imploring eyes  Well

Well?  I don’t know how to do that.

Howbout when you get to the door stand there a moment and then yell IM GOING NOW YOU BETTER FOLLOW ME  GET ALONG NOW please

Thank you for shopping with us today

Hmmhmm.

the next customer in line stepped up and set their items on the counter  Happy Reggae Friday he said

Thank you, Hap . .
. . I’M GOING NOW YOU BEST FOLLOW ME . . .

Lots of eyes went up to the doorway where the woman stood then eyes looked back into the shop to see who might be hurrying to her voice

they didnt see anyone coming forward


of course not

yawns are only seen when theyre emitted


1859,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  13  6. 18                                                                                        1621,  Reggae Friday,  15  5. 18