31.5.17





I hadnt applied my usual inscription  epitaph


                                                         I would    eventually

everyone loves to hang an effigy by its neckhang it by its nethers then tear it down lighting its straw guts on fire

if you made one and hung it by whatever tidbit  youd feel your enthusiasm boil


but if I may  what you also have to do is try an grasp the psychology of the original offence why he or she became who he or she is

you have to deconstruct the person  plumb their mutation


what is apparent and plain to me is that the man is completely unoriginal  and I cant imagine the strain of being unoriginal

perhapsMAYHAPS  that is the linchpin to understanding

once youve faked youve destroyed your essenceyour integrity(more than a word)

theres no going back

trust is tortured

it hangs dully

an effigy


the die is set  and set until one dies
                                                           


it has to be miserable to be a lackey for those who are dead  to be a cog still spinning on the powerful centrifugal force of time past a cog to others machinations  

I can appreciate the seamless ease of following  there is context   precedence    

however to lead  to lead is to bear the unmitigated brunt and responsibility of being original   to be unrepentant 

to step backstep away  untethered   heroic


unoriginal is unheroic  no matter how hard you squint your eyes to make it something it is not

it would be hard to accept unutterable  Im a pawn



he is all show no guts 



2333,  Sunday,  28  5. 17

Rag’n’Bone Man  Human  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3wKzyIN1yk
 

30.5.17



he texted her
            Outside weeding  Back in a bit

he was speaking euphemistically

he was outside in the fresh air blowing a joint sipping a Hop Stoopid

in the sun the bottle immediately broke a sweat  brown glass draws sunlight

a burley ex-GI who looked like Che Guevara returned from Afghanistan hooked him up

he didnt talk to him about Afghanistan

didnt talk to him about his service

he told him yesterday he was happy they were working and that he didnt have to memorialise him

Yeah  The Fuck   Me too


end of story



1500,  Twosday,  30 5. 17