31.12.16





winding down a ah  atruly abysmal year ayear of discord dismay distress dishealth 

he glanced casually over his shoulder tugged his cap lower above his eyes see if anyone might have seen him knot a rope around its crepey throat  pull it taunt  watch it  slowly   generously    asphyxiate

 

                                                                what stood out to his liking this year
every morning  was the smell of fresh ground coffee the taste of raw organic eggstheir brown shells pleasured him
and the delicate sssilent ssslipping of the coffeemakers classsp  its classsp gently relenting
 
                                                                    ssslipping   he remembered
he imagined he saw her hymen trembling  break  under his youthful unsure penetrationher eyes widening(he saw himself in them)  her breasts trembling thensuddenly he was deep verydeep inside hershe gassspedhe caught his breathgasssped

they were in love


he was inside her


her body clutched himher pussy had himGAWD she arched her nails at his back she scratched him hurt in her eyes 
he hurt her he liked it

she hurt he tried to withdrawshe glaredshe wrapped her legs around him locked her ankles at his ass dug her heels in like spursshe rockedhe rode he thrusted thrusted franticallyhe stabbed her with his cockshe bucked she bucked with himfucked backher eyes terrificher eyes pleading sheGODcame heFUCKcame he fucked her in love until his stomach muscles quitcramped   he growled   he reared tall erect over her she twitched her head lolled side to side eyelids battedher eyes unseeing

his arms threatened to cramp

then smiling  
         he collapsed on top of her

   they were ssslick


he ssslipped out of her ssslid down her body sssupped at her pussy  she gassspedshe sssquirmedshe grabbed him by the hair and ground his face into her pussy

he jabbed her clit with his chin he gasped for airhe couldnt breathehe didnt carehe didnt care if he suffocated

shegasssped ssshivered his stumble pricking her  she seizedher belly rock hard GODCAME

hard he wrested his head from her weakened hands he climbed up her body grasped his cock rubbed it against her lips she lapped it he thrusted his cock into her mouth  shegasped shesssucked  she didnt take her eyes off his she didnt careeither if she couldnt breathe
he AAGHCAME


spent he went over onto his hip

she followed  she laid on top of him and then like a snake slipped up his body  she smiled  she kissed him she kissed him deeply
         then laid quietly

he felt their cream from between her legs ooze onto his thigh  

he sighedhe gently kneaded her hair the back of her head and listened to their breaths nearlyasphyxiated return
cautiously  from wherever they were hiding




1439,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  12. 16
1006,  Friday,  30  12. 16

The Pretty Things  the psychedelic years 1966-70    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=If5T-lz2YpY

30.12.16



december 25th unfortunately was the december 25th he expected

                                                  he anticipated

he was really getting tired of looking forward untangling the looming ciphers making sense of them and explicitly seeing them for what they were what they portended what was fast coming down the pipe(or wry  the drainpipe)


he dismembered surprise

                                     and surprise dismembered  eviscerated  aligned  was nothing more than just another day
a mundane day
a munday


munday begat toosmunday

begat whens?munday                             

throughmunday                               

freedmunday                                   

sat-on-squat-onmunday                                 

so-so-sunnymunday


every day was relative to the next and flat  congealed  dull  wood clothespins on a cotton line without task without wet laundered clothes without a tug or the sorrow of wind


                                       without tug or sorrow of the wind



1717,  Munday,  26 12. 16

Red Hot Chili Peppers  Soul to Squeeze  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XcN12uVHeQ






NO    dont you dare say you didnt mean it

you were up to your hilt inside of her


how do you think you can excuse  ask to be excused of thatPassion?  you think passion is an excusethat passion is blameless  mindless?
passion is a brook?

Oh please forgive me I promise I wont do it again

you wontwill you?  despite lying this time

isnt the first time the hardest?

isnt it downhill from therea slippery slope

you knew it

you tread it

you   only you   gave into it



then tell me why tell me why you wont again    or againand again



honestly you wanted her

you didnt go into it inknowcently

                  
                                                 she asked you Would you come with mejoin me
you were temptedyou cant say you werent


you were tempted
             and that didnt throw off a signalthrow up a red flag


you were blatantly tempted

you could have said NOright then and there


you could have said no



you could have said no
but you didnt
        
          maybe you felt you could pull back if things went the way you hoped they would
because shes a married woman maybe you thought shed pull back   she made the vow

were you counting on her to say No to say Stop


since when did you count on other peopleyou never have

youre asking for forgiveness when you defied yourself
when you lied to yourself

when you laid down with her

when you laid down with her because you were attracted to herand by your own words there arent many women youre attracted to

you said one thing and did the other


you cant take it back

because you wanted it

you   you wanted it



you meant it you meant it because you wanted it

you


     are you truly going to ask forgiveness for something you meant




1313,  Thursday,  29  12. 16