“. . . an alchemical mix of wonder and fear.

                                              It may seem as if those emotions would cancel each other out, but the opposite is true. When you add them together you get the sublime, which transcend them both. ‘The passion caused by the great and sublime in nature . . . is Astonishment,’ wrote the eighteenth-century philosopher Edmund Burke, ‘and astonishment is the state of the soul in which all its motion are suspended, with some degree of horror.’  But, he added, it was ‘a sort of delightful horror.’”

                                       Prologue pg2  Susan Casey  The Underworld

wonder and fear

alchemy

           he had to wonder when he fearedwhat he feared

seemed since he conquered the pitchblack terror of his bricked basement as a boylucky he didnt break his neck rushing blind headlong through itslamming into things tripping hitting the concrete floorUP hitting the pinepaneled wallGO RIGHT scrambleup the uncoded staircase to the short doorway swinging it open out into the hallGO RIGHT through the entry onto the front porchfour stairs down which he usually leaped land on the front walk roll onto the lawn

                                                                                                                  its leaves like tendrils embracing himsaving him from whatever it was he fled

since then

             he wondered  what

   which at times makes him think that he died and this life he was leading was an imagination his ghost madeup and would continue makingup until it or he got tired of living

                                                                   at  times

afternoon,  day-between-2-Ts,  8  11. 23

1531,  Saturday – Veterans Day,  11  11. 23