it was hot

it was late Fall

unseasonable

the sidewalk and he were patterned by the movingshadows of bare tree branches overhead

he was walking home for lunch from grade school

his mother seemed distracted when he arriveda quick kiss atop his head she left the kitchen

she had made him lunch

                            a white Wonder bread Cheez Whiz sandwich cup of Campbells tomato soup warm carrot and celery sticks a sweating glass of cold milk above the tableware like an exclamation point

    he wondered if he did something to deserve this

it was Monday

he had been to a birthday party Saturday

a group of the kids snuck off to the basement and played spin the bottle

he kissed pecked Gale Prellberg

Jannet Zipparo spun and when she went to kiss him she openmouth kissed himtook his breath away  slowlysitting back she said  That’s called a French kiss.

he was looking down her blouse

                                    she had cleavage

because Jannet was chubby

 

he wondered if Jannets mother called his mother

 

 

years later he walking on the same sidewalk under the same trees along Belle Plaine Avenue a block behind Gale

       she was something to behold from behind

she crossed Greenwood Avenue went right

                                                he knew her house was second from the corner

he lost sight of her

as he crossed Greenwood he saw that she was standing on her front porch

                                                                    Comere!

he came

            as he walked up toward her house trying hard not to be too obviousglancing at her perky big tits

they jutted

             they were incomparable

perky

       and big

howd she pull that off

Follow me.

he had been

Okay

she lead him up a narrow sidewalk along the side of the house into the backyard and to a dilapidated leaning garage off the graveled alleyway

the door to it was swung in and open  it wouldnt close

inside was a two door turquoise Studebaker sedan on concrete blocks

Nineteenfiftynine.

Cool

she opened the passenger side door

appeared she was going to get in

she pausedplaced a foot on the door sill turned her back was to the door

                                                                               Do you remember that birthday party we were at where we went down into the basement and played spin the bottle?

I do

    I was a little jealous I didn’t get to French kiss you.

I didnt know you want to kiss me

 

Do you remember that party a year, year and a half ago maybe longer, where we went into the closet, we were playing Seven Minutes in Heaven?

Ohyes   Yes I do

Weah . . ah . felt each other up.

They opened the door early on us

                                          I walked out backwards

she laughed had sensational dimples

                                                Yes.

I saw you walking home behind me.

Yes

Were you following me?

Yes

I thought so.

                 And thinking I thought about our interrupted seven minutes.

Yes he wasnt sure he was breathing any more

    I thought . . . we should have our time.

she stepped off the sill sprung the back of the passenger seat forward and went head first into the backseat

her skirt rode up

she wasnt wearing panties

 

soon he wasnt either

                            hed say

but he wasnt one to kiss and tell

 

    he would say  torrid            

0630 – 0730likely, Saturday,  6  9. 25

bitchin Word out again

                              however

this time NOT for changing his textcreating nonsense or the sixteenth letter of the twentytwo lettered Hebrew alphabet  Ayin

                     gets that a lot

    this time

for not challenging red underlining  an obvious misspelling

                                                                 it occurred as the first word of a sentence spoken by a character

it would be capitalised

if he didnt edit virtually sentence by sentence it might have escaped him

not often one sees two Zs together

                                       theres snazzy  ya got dizzy fizzy fuzzy jazzy tizzy pizza

Snow Whites Seven darling Dwarves

    Miladys entourage

Hazzard looked  strange

he was sure he misspelled it

Googled it

had errored

               and why hadnt Word caught red underlined Hazzard  because . . .

technologies are bros think how they fuckedover the country last presidential election

                                                                                                Googles plausible deniability for Word was this

“While ‘Hazzard’ is a common misspelling, possibly due to confusion with names like the fictional The Dukes of Hazzard or its use as a surname, the standard English term is always spelled with a single ‘z’.”

The Dukes of Hazzard

                               really 

    might suppose bros would watch that show

he wouldnt

1111,  reggaefriday,  5  9. 25

waltz up  So what’s goin’ on with the hair, the beard?

Lets put the ball back in your court

                                      What do you thinks goinon

Really?

Sure

          Lets pry into pry open your imagination for awhile

What might you think

I never know what you’re thinkin . .

. . Hazard  a fuckin guess

Why?  You know what you’re thinking, why should I ask?

Because youre bringinem up to me

                                      Id think youd think he hasnt gotten a haircut hasnt shaved end of story

    But it’s not the end of story.

Its not  Hazard a guess

                              Thas why theyre called guesses

No penalty ifya guess wrong

                                Or do you think there is did you get beatup for not guessing the correct number of jellybeans in the jar at the library to win a new book

    This is dumb.

Who began it

Who opened the can of worms

Take responsibility

Guess

    I have no idea.

 

 

 

Not one guess

Not one.

Youll excuse me for sayin so an when someone asks to be excused for sayin so you know theyre going to offend youya know tha  correct

You shoud also know ifya don say anythingremain silent your silence if you disagree yadonsay they believe not even assume believe youre in agreement  Acquiescing

Reason why some people find me rude interrupting interjecting the moment they say something abysmal fuckinanything I disagree with

Good

        A neglected destitute imagination

Or lack penchant

Fear being wrong

                    Im not going out on a limb when I say I believe you were among the kids in class who didnt ask a question because they thought it might be a stupid while I was the kid at the front of the room who asked it

 

My hair

My beard

Halloween

Jeff Bridges

The Dude

Christmas

Jesus Christ All Grownup

 

    Jesus Christ

1330,  Monday – Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

1137,  reggaefriday,  5  9. 25

Out of curiosity, what do you go at?

Go at

           Lotsa things I go at argue politics with stupid people who havent facts but simmerin to the brim with opinions

Wittgenstein?

Right on

          Whereof thereof

But they bray anyways an dig their hole deeper an deeper

                                                                 I hearem out

Theres a benefit to tha

A benefit?

Ja

     Standing at the bottom of their hole deep enough to need help to get out I either walk away or buryem

Great visualhuh

Fantastic.

             I wish I’d have thought of that.

Ive no choice Im an idea guy

You are, you are.

                    But most are either fantastic or impermissible.

If only more people woud think outside the box

                                                  Its a bit like a grave   Better view

Ja  So theres tha

                                Whas go at

Oh. Yeah. Go at.

                    What do you weight?

Out of curiosity

I am.

Ive no ideaguess oneseventy to oneeighty

How often do you weight yourself?

I don

Why wouldn’t you weigh yourself regularly?

Last time I did was when I was strengthtraining

                                                      Since the accident an long long fuckinlong recovery thas off the table

You don’t have a scale, do you?

I do not

           Used the scale at the gym

I weigh myself every day.

    Why

             Curious

Binge

I don’t binge.

Eat regularly

Yes.

Eat regularly not ill why weigh I cant imagine your fluctuation woud be dramatic or trend

                                                                                               Upward trends worry you

My parents when they were alive, my siblings, growing older, have put on weight. My sisters significantly.

They werent athletes By my recollection

                                             Sedentary

Youre not

Let’s say, I want to be aware.

 

    Awright

Arent you curious?

Obviously not

                     I shoud rectify tha

You recall I do not ingest sweets chocolate candy cake pie cookies pastries donuts ice cream soda

    

    You do

1807,  Monday – Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

1038,  reggaefriday,  5  9. 25

You understand theres no way for you to win this argument

Backatya

    Shoud have had crackers

I didnt want crackers

                          I wanted a bagel

You coud have had bagels

Didnt hit my price point

May not hit your price point ever again

Thas possible

Coffee

Tariffs

          Yasee the prices at the market yesterday

I did

       Defeated my price point too

Ja  Screwed

                 America doesnt grow coffee

Think of all the things America doesnt grow doesnt manufacture

                                                                        Felon brilliant

Health event

Fall down the steps of Air Force One

Thad be a public health event  One for the books

But we digress

         

                      Back on point I didnt want crackers

Crackers are legit with soup  Think

                                         Tomato soup

Last time you had tomato soup

I think you know

I do

    When

Grade school  When we used to walk home for lunch

                                                         Maw woud do grilled cheese an tomato soup

Campbells

 

    Think we ought to revisit it some time

No

I concur

Coud have had crackers

Ja No

But ya coud have

But I didnt want to

Want has nothing to do with it  Have it

                                          Enfuckintitled

If I were we woud have

 

 

    there no winning an argument against ones self 

1756,  Monday – Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

0947,  reggaefriday,  5  9. 25

I just can’t imagine.

Its simple

            Football on TV had been social

Im no longer social

Ive never been interested in the athletes their lives celebrity  what theyre paid to pitch

Not since Dandy Don Howard Costello Frank Gifford have talking heads said a word I want to hear

    Its about the game

When its over  highlights culled  assembled

                                                 I watch online

I enjoy its muted distillation

You wouldn’t go out to a sports bar?

No

Go hang with friends?

If invited Id decline

                     I cant tolerate the commercials the challenges the games natural flow interrupted

Its humanity diminished

Not only can’t I imagine . . . can you imagine what not watching says about your masculinity?

 

 

    You evidently have concerns about yours

552preferred,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

. . . we’re concerned.

                        You’re alone.

Whos we whas your concern

That . . that was a little abrup . .

. . Warranted

                 Who

    The family. That you’re alone. You must be lonely.

Lonely thats an interesting concept

                                  Thas an interesting concept  You lonely

No. Heavens’s no.

                      I’m surrounded by family, friends, no, of course not.

    Why woud you think Im lonely

Because you’re alon . .

. . Thas   thas quite the loop the hamsterwheel youve got going

                                                                      Id say my environment is virtually stressfree you live stress freeI  I woud dare to think no

                                                            Youre welcome to correct me

You’re honest-to-God tellin . .

. . I am

Whas your truth  Stressfree

                                  Youve negated my pets   My ferals

Theyre entertaining as shit great company  No lip

They stress more than me

                            Terrorised by Latter-day Saints other Bible enthusiasts suddenly at the door

Disappear an hafhour hour at a time

                                        Become my incentive for me to terrorise whoever knocked

Fun an games

The delivery trucks UPS FedEx DHL United States Postal Service set them off too Packages to be had  DoorDash Uber Lyft groceries restaurant items  my cats freak

Though speaking for myself

                              So much water off a ducks back  I pay no attention  Nones for me

So no

          

         Not alone not lonely

You can inform the family please

1827,  Monday – Labourless Day,  1  9. 25

1524,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

DMT   didnt know prior to last night would be nice to say a li’l birdie told him so  in a senseJa  a female comedian

      the active ingredient found in the powerful Amazonian psychedelic ayahuasca vine which makes sense

a twiningclimbingclinginginsinuating vine  had a girlfriend like that once very briefly

   its also found in the pineal gland of rats

the acronym is for the chemical  dimethyltryptamine

                                                        tryptamines  he knew them their chemical structure is a shared feature of certain aminergic activated by or relates to an amine amine forms when one or more hydrogen atoms in ammonia are replaced by alkyl or aryl groups  can you say rabbithole? aminergic neuromodulators including melatonin serotonin psychedelic derivative now were talking such as psilocybin psilocin & yes DMT

DeMenTed

turns out it presents in human minds at deaths doorstep or immediatelythereafter a surge as the brain throws down everything is has to survive concerned only for itself theirself which most human beings excel at

he imagined his reptilian brain trying to eat its tail ouroboros our borough conceptualising eternity dying hell enter timelessness cyclical renewal reincarceration the elastic unity of opposites

Got to get me some of that

                                be it a chemical cocktail hed even take it on the rocks

he really didnt want to wait to die to have the most stupendous trip of his life  ?    

2119,  Wednesday,  3  9. 25

1116,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

https://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/3982026-human-brains-show-larger-than-life-activity-at-moment-of-death/

tryptamines  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25877327/

Heybaby  Wheres your chicken  october  wheres your little chicken your mauled fowl it knocked-for-a-loop

    Wheres your little chicken

the shabby stitchedfabric chicken has bonded them 

                                                   FETCH

its their toy

october enters the study  oncecurious mews muffled

                                                        chicken in her mouth

she drops it at his feet where hes sitting

picking it up he acts like hes gnawing on it yumyumyumming as he does This soo good honey

he holds it out to her

                       Did you want a bite

Frisbeelike he flings it out the door into the hall shes in hot pursuit

                                                                      it bounces  she boundsshe pounces

prey stuffed in her mouth she bolts into the livingroom mewing around it

shes back in five for another bout  bond

 

    october fetches

some people think dogs are smart Lassie for example  Rin Tin Tin  because they can do tricks Heel Rollover  Play dead

KILL   

because they fetch

october isnt really playing Fetch

    shes mocking dogs

0001,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

0834,  Thursday