You read your policy?

Don be curt

                 The myriad fine print

Which defines your policy.

A policy that this company that Ive been doing business with for more than twenty years can change at a whim

Your claim is illegitimate.

Careful Be very careful nowvery  very   careful

    Careful.

               

                    Are you threatening me?

Let me say this about that he chuckled this about that juiced him

                                                                  As Ive said  Ive done business with this company longer than youve been employed byem  The reason I do is becauseif need be  I can get my hands around your throat

    You are threatening me.

No no  A policy promise

                           You have an Act of God clause which I think you think is shrugs Shit Happens It is subject to interpretation   However lacking specific language no examples defined your Act of God blanket is meaningless worthless unless of course theres a company executive or official who has been to the Mount and returned with tablets to support the language you insist denies me

Our understandings are at cross purposes

                                             But understandpass it along  my complaint wont stop with you  You tell me a broken water pipe  my apartment flooded  is an Act of God

                                                                               Maybe youre tryin to flatter me

Yacant

    But ifya think Gods got time for me youre out of your fuckin mind 

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1610,  Tuesday,  13  5. 25

was going to see if he could excavatefigure this beaut out

                                                            began with the words The Boys Girls

ghostlywhite letters on black

                              and paying keen attention Boys altered itselfsmeared revivified

The Boyees Girls

The Boyeez Girls

                        Boyeez Grrls 

then from letters to language

                              and when language began the words dissipateddisappeared

dreamed language loops in his ears

                                     echoing badgering  concocting a dysphoric hypnopompic state

keeping his eyes closedturned onto his right side assumed  the fetal position

                                                                                  if he was gonna get kicked his vitals were protected

   

    then a queerfluttering

images

            blackanwhite  film   on looseweave quivering muslim

not film No

             photographs  portraits    Boyeez Grrls he assumed

fourfive six

             the portraits remained a minuteorso long enough that he would recognise them from each other

    then empty quivering looseweave

        then the first reappeared although she was overlaid by what he deemed was  a strand of personality

              minute   faded

others followed in kind

    the first again another personality overlaying the portrait the original personality

others following in kind

 

first  yet another personality

                                    the others followed

when a fourth personality presented over the firsts  the original portraiture hewed darker to prevent it from becoming obscured

                          the portraits    palimpsests

GROTESQUE

                   the Grrls were grotesque

that striking realisation woke himhe opened his eyes didnt want them burned into his retinas he turned quickly onto his backstraightened out completely staringup at the gray ceiling

                                                                                     they did not follow

then confident

                 he closed his eyes  sighed

hypnagogic  nada     no show

he was relieved

he fell back to sleep

                       

                           fell  witnessed    other dream scenarios

overnight,  Tuesday, 13  5. 25

1150,  Tuesday

she raised her voice

Quit yelling at me

                    Talk

Don’t tell me what to do.

                               she was obviously intent on being heard  unwilling to listento hear what he had to say

as he entered her office   Shut the door. Have a seat.  closed the door didnt sit   No thank you  he stood in front of her desk

I said . . have a seat.

No thank you  I prefer to stand

I want you to sit.

                  he told her that morningshe knew  his back was bothering him  sitting exacerbated itChrist office he used  there was an sitting/standing desk  a footstool

I said sit. like a good dog   no treats apparent

his refusal wasnt provocation

                                                 she hit the jets

 

Don’t tell me what to do.

Im not

        If you want to talk Ill talk you wanna yell Ill be back or you can find me when youre able to talk

Who do you think you are?

he stepped forwardthighs bumped the face of her desk

                                                           Who do you think youre talkin to

her bugeyed glare was priceless

                                    When you can talk

he stepped back gingerlyturned around  left her office

left her MANAGER door open

                               better than rolling up a newspaper cracking her on the snout

a title does not make one superior to another

1859,  Monday,  12  5. 25

1047,  Tuesday,  13  5. 25

Screwed the pooch 

he said that out loud asif clearing his throat of an unwelcome plug of phlegm

                                                                                  then  again

not only did he fail to place water out to be embraced by the full Flower Moon last night  but dismallyfailed to place his daughters ashes in the moonlight

                                                    worse

he filled a glass pitcher with water and had removed her ashes from the wood box itd kill her to know she was contained in a Ziploc she was not fond of plastics that held her and set her on a copy of Joyces Finnegans Wake that he kept to the right of his studio desk

an unexpected a thoroughlyinvolved telephone call rang  it went better than threehours

he had to charge his phone

charging as he talked his back was to the desk

concluded  he went to bed

    this is a confession to the ether

                                         which he trusted more than religion

   

0919,  Tuesday,  13  5. 25

Esbjorn Svensson Trio  Definition of a Dog  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JEMEjoCPRQQ

tripping Matthew up  Fifteen Eighteenhut hut huphut    Hike

                                                                    Bible zealots know

everyone else can look it up

    calmly  quietly  she took his hands in hers good grip

she looked uncomfortably deep into his eyes

                                                 Youre not supposed to look an animal in the eye

casually her brain replied to his cranial assertion

                                                     You can. It’s called eye-to-eye epiphany; human identity cannot be separated from our nonhuman kin. 

still looking in his eyes   nonhuman kin lingered

                                                      Are you talkin  arya talkin to me

                                                                              film zealots know

    then she said  What goes through your mind comes out of your mouth.

reductively he countered Or through ones hand via pen paper typewriter computer keyboard  Or through though I never learned   signing  ASL  Amer . .

. . I know.

You know

I can.

    Wow kiddo  Ya came guns readied didnt you

I must admit I did.

                     I did, no apologies, because you sometimes claim you have no claim to things you’ve written.  Ghost written. Used as a medium. A channeler.

So what   you a channelchanger  a shapely remote

    Anif I am?

 

Well baby  Lets let the games begin    

1717,  Saturday,  10  5. 25

2158,  Monday,  12  5. 25

he tries to keep up with her but she cant keep up with herself

I didnt arrive until later that afternoon and I wasnt going to try to chase them down

Had a couple of pops  a nice whisky   an edible

                                                        Catch up, take a ten. she cried

Five milligrams just dandy for me thank you

he mewled Spoilsport.

Havent heard thaone in awhile

                                  Save itup for rainy days

Pitiful  a pitiful attempt at coercion

In the da . .

. . Long gone

                  Long long gone for you too man   Whaswid tryin to keepup

I’m not going to be outdone by a woman.

                                             could tell he was really high

gigglingputting her hand to her mouth I’m handing you your ass.

                                                                      she was    she did

thats what she did

I think not.

Broheim 

            Youre not even in her neck of the woods

I am.

No you’re not. she chidedtilting back almost fell off the short stone wall

                                                                            grabbing her by the shoulder of her shirt  Where ya goin cowgirl

she laughed  Hell if I know.

                               Somewheres.

You two need food 

she picked up the wine glass at her hip I’m good, I’m eatin’ grapes.

Yeah, me too.

she set the pace

 

I sipped my beer

    when the beverages were gone they adjourned indoors ostensibly to replenish them

though the two walked on shaky unsure legs

Why don you two have a seat on the couch Ill top you off

they sat

they were drinking a local chardonnay

handing them their glasses he told them the bottle was a dead

                                                                   he doubled back to the frig for a beer

returning to the livingroom held up his bottle

                                                Toast  Na Zdrowie

Na Zdrowie. eversodrunkengently tapped their glasses and to his bottle 

                                                                                 they sipped

through the patio screen he heard a hawk cry

                                                 Say Excuse me  Im going out to see the hawk

he went out the screen door  down the porch steps

the hawk turned lazycircles over his head  a huge redtail

                                                             she or he turned a good ten minutes before breaking off suddenlytaking a line over the tops of live oaks  gliding out of sight

always a thrill

    was a nice sunny  day

he went up the steps back into the livingroom

they had set their glasses on the coffee table and fallen asleep

                                                                     he tries to keep up with her

but she cant keep up with herself

he polished off his beer  left

                               hed text later to see how they fared

1132,  Monday,  12  5. 25

Im so sickantired of this shit

 

You gonnasay, or do you want me to guess?

I’d guess this administration.

Yah

      Wanna guess  more specifically

he laughed

sounded like a belch

                           Sure.

 

My turn on tenterhooks

What’s tenterhooks?

Hook used to fasten cloth on a drying frame Or tenter

    Or tenter. You’re a joy.

You asked

             Meat hooks sounded too graphic

Wha  Specifically

Cabinet meetin . .

. . BAM

They’re something.

    Ive an idea

Ohshit. You and your ideas.

 

 

Awright.      I’m listening.

They can quit with the effusive accolades 

I’d agree.

Yah

             Id do a silent porn short

Jeez.  A silent porn short?

Yah

          Picture this

Do I have to?

Hear me out

I usually do.

Picture this

Lay it out for me.

    Felons got his ass parkedleaning against the front edge of the Resolute Desk To his leftyour right the First Lady holds with both hands a silver serving tray a small silver pail a small cutglass crystal phial on it

To his right is the gaggle Cabinet members in single file

                                                           The ladies have silk handkerchiefs tucked at their bosoms the gentlemen their linen handkerchiefs held in one hand

WITHOUT A FUCKIN WORD

                              One by one they approach him take his flaccid cock in their mouths  suck briefly  next   anwhile next they move off to the First Lady take a swig from the phial mouthwash swish it around spit it in the pail wipe the corners of their mouth with their handkerchief file away  stand  or be seated  until the last suck of his penis is compleat cumpleat  spelled   C  U  M  P  L  E  A  T                                           

WITHOUT A FUCKIN WORD

Jesus, man, the way you thin . .

. . Doncha think I think

 

 

    Porn short

311preferred,  Thursday,  8  5. 25

1149,  Monday,  12  5. 25

turning round from the kitchen sink an amethystcoloured Mason jar in hand he held it too low and cracked its bottom against the porcelain

                                  for its loud bellsound

how it didnt break astonished him

                            in his head  he imagined shattered glassfrightening his cats who were snoutsdown at their breakfast sharp shards spinning dancing wounding the freckled linoleum

                                                                                        in his head

his voice damning him Toldya   HASTE man     Quit the haste

hed been deliberate cautioning himself a coupleseveral times a week

                                                                          thus far

ducking bullets

Zaniedbany Sloppy could hear his mothers voice careening offechoing on the bones in his skull

in each and every instance he had no reason to rush no where to be   no excuse

hed be the only one inconvenienced

                                        didnt care for inconvenience   they werent on good terms

mariachis cackled

                   Wanna shut your mouths

the cackling persisted they werent letting him off the hook   Gimme an H   H   Gimme an A   A   Gimme a S   S   Gimme a T   T   Gimme an E   E   Whastha spell   IDIOT

fuckin idiot

he was outnumbered

he couldnt shut them up

he had to suffer their jeering their shrill catcalls

whose fault

    his

maybe memorialising this morning would call his hand demand his obeisance

                                                                                         Maybe

they snarled Until the next time Ace they let him off with an Ace

                                                               they caught his thought

corrected themselves

                  Ass

 

        wasnt a good start to the morning

                                             barefoot which would have been calamitous who likes walking on glass barefoot in the kitchen dressed down by his interior fast thinking they were superior 

No youre not

 

    Haste man   Quit the haste

0832,  Monday,  12  5. 25

Weather Report  Nubian Sundance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bchTF-WWG14

shaking his headwas pretty sure he looked mournful

                                                          ifnot thats what he was shooting for

wordlessly declaring Have fuckin pity on me

Why live birth on ones birth certificate is important

Live birth?

Different than dead birth

                           If a newborn is delivered deadstruggles  dies minutes later their parents will still name the child

I think  donya think

Foetus had gestated

Just coudnt close the deal

Jesus man, the way you talk.

I am  being extreme

                        Nuance is wasted on youso  punch you in the face

    I’m just sayin . .

. . Youve said  I disagree  hence my elaboration

America’s birthday is the Fourth of July Seventeenseventysix .

It is

    So why are you insisting on its . .

. . Conception

                  Not conceived not born is my point  which you cant seem to accep . .

. . Not when it’s the Fourth of Jul . .

. . Im not arguing tha

                           Im arguing tha Americas conception  was April Nineteenth SeventeenSeventyfive

I disagree.

Because you havent a birth certificate thasays  you were born alive

                                                                          Like me

I have a birth certificate.

Not of a live birth

                      I have no idea wha yours attests

My birthday.

    Were you conceived on your birthdayfabulously inseminatedformed cocoa mix sprinkled in hot water loanbehold  inaninstant hot chocolate

I like tha

             Inaninstant

You inanimate

Faked animation

Claymation

    Herkyjerky

Insulting me does not further your weak argument

Perhaps not

             But certainly is a riot

My point

          Not conceivedhavent   havent a snowballs chance in hell of a birthday 

1400,  Thursday,  8  5. 25

1257,  Sunday – Mother’s Day,  11  5. 25

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