well    he shouldnt be surprised

                                     he was a firm believer that one shouldnt sayput certain thoughts into the atmosphere because they can come back an biteya in the ass

yesterday   accumuleated

                            then overnight he dreamed What was the intention. . .

he read the questions too quicklyits conclusion didnt stickstay put he lost it  it was an in-class assignment his teacher was very attractive a young woman she distracted him having read the question after she handed it to him he turned and passed it along to the student behind him

                                                wheels came off the ride

                                                                           while the rest of the class began writing he sat there puzzling in earnest trying to remember

                                             anbecause he couldnt he busied himself trifled with the possibility that perhaps the start of the question was grammatically incorrect  was were not was and thereby intention was intentions

that would be a gamechanger

                                    if he could remember how the damn question ended

to his right was a row of windows a strong sun came through the glassfresh air through the opened lower sashes outside below him he could see agriculture fields growing perpendicular to the school tall stalks of corn burgeoning ears huge brilliantwhite cauliflower heads orange pumpkins

                                                            what he would give to be out among them a fellow vegetable

What was the intention . . .

                               he never learned but when he woke from the dream turned onto his side pounded his pillow into submission he surmised its intention was simply to have him rove over it again an again anagain

pretty sure that was the intention

hed guess that crazy 3 o’clock hour, Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  12. 21

1211,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  12. 21

 

he wondered what kind of things woke people in the middle of the night from their sleep

he was careful to say sleep because hed been told more often than he would have imaginedan he had a copious imagination that they didnt dream

                                    didnt dream disconcerted him his sleep rarely wasnt roiled by dreams he rarely slept black senseless nights

last night he dreamed the word accumulated

                                                 it formed over the profile of the first car he ever owned  cost him sevenhunred dollars  his dad cosigned a loan for him  he didnt hang his dad out to dry like a couple of his siblings did

he was livid  his father said Well, son, you don’t loan money if you can’t afford to lose it.

                                                                                             terrible to have thieves as siblings

the stationwagons profile was obscured an began to fade as ACCUMULATED capitalised itself and grew larger an largerbecame so prominent that while he slept he began playing with its letters dislocated it  mule  ACCUMULEATED

acumen  ACUMENLATED  delineated  ACCUMULDELINEATED

                                                                                                 the game playing provoked him to splash the walls of his skull with the words like graffiti so when he woke he wouldnt forget them

                                                                                  Lo an Behold

what did wake him from this dream he was running for state office as some cat named Ogilvie his face was plastered on blackanwhite posters however when he was approached by people he denied he was Ogilvie but still defended and informed his plank lotsa blue collar workers rallied for him he woke from that particular skit before the election results were in

        what woke him was his backhe was a backsleeper Off of me bum  so he moved to either his right or left shoulder knowing full well that his return to the grace of sleep an dreams would be shortlived  he had surgeries on both so he snatched maybe halfhourforty minutes he didnt knowhe didnt keep a clock in his bedroom anwaking he bypassed his back to the other shoulder  anwhen it took what it could hed wake and return to his back usually for the rest of the night anif not back to his shoulders to shoulder the load

other skits interspersed the ACCUMULATED dislocations  mule  a creature needed to haul things he accumulated

a fit young woman walked a dog over a highway bridge towards him where he stood on a grassy parkway beside a freshly dismembered dinosaur haunch a raptor clawed foot if he had to guess itd be a tyrannosaur as she stood with him admiring the yetbleeding haunch the small dog was inquisitive she kept it at a distance as it strained in its harness overheating she asked him to please take the leash for a moment he did she stripped out of her zippered sweatshirt to her sports bra tied it around her hips then took the dog back a white Sealy mattress semi passed them he remarked with a laugh that likely hed be offloading it later that morning

   acumen if ones fortunatehe was he ACUMENLATED developed the ability to make good judgments quick decisions based on facts

                walking through the same crowded mall where he would later say after switching shoulders he wasnt Ogilvie he entered a Mens shop to return a shirt his daughter bought him longsleeved wrong sleevelength he had the receipt he wanted the same shirt a clerk informed him they didnt have that shirt in stock and that he also checked with their other stores within the vicinity which proved fruitless he asked for his daughters cash back anif the young man wasnt authorised hed speak with the manager

                                                     eventually the manager broke corporate rules and reimbursed his daughters money

   delineate he was particular to describe or portray (something) precisely or to the best of his abilityhe didnt do things halfass he ACCUMULDELINEATED patiently  one can near precision hone if they are patient

                                                                                                   his accumulated patience didnt come cheap surgeries recoveries rehabilitations  being a patient

                                                                             he was in a strange neighbourhood there were parkways which reminded him of the memory dreams become memories of the attractive young woman her dog the dinosaur leg  they ticked through his sleeping mind as he stopped at a Sinclair ofcourse he would to ask for directions when he thought he was near the address  the attendant set him straight  inside ten minutes he knocked at the door

Dad, what are you doing here?

he couldnt ply her with I was in the neighbourhood she had dieddidnt have a neighbourhood he didnt know where he waswhere she was

                     except she stood in the doorway of a house that suited herthat if he had a selection of a dozen homes it was the house she would have chosen  not him

                                                            I miss you I wanted to see you

she threw her arms around him

he wrapped her in his they both began to weep

they squeezed each other tight NO

                                       Please NO  NOnot yet

he wokeshoulder achinghearing himself say I love you

he wondered what kind of things woke people from their sleep

after 0600,  Twosday,  14  12. 21

1149,  Twosday,  14  12. 21

Aerosmith  Dream On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89dGC8de0CA

 

Well stand back givem room  hes about to fall over

Amazon Fire TV

Hands-free TV with Alexa

So an someone correct me if Im wrong not Amazon not only does Amazon get to listen to it subscribers via Alexa but now it also gets to see them

                         Because theyre too inconvenienced to get up off their ass or reach for the remote to change channels the volume turn it On or Off

Wharya going with this

You know whar Im going

I do we do I want ya to say it out loud so its not just a conversation inside your head with your minions Aint a damn thing we can do about it other than converse with or console you

Converse or console

Yes

Ya left out cajole harrass yes two rs abuse belittle malign

Wha are friends for

                     Not that youd cut us any slack

Nah no  How do I love thee let me count the ways

Tryin to pick a fight with Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Shed have to pick it with me shes not in my weight class

Yare miffed

I am

Because hands-free ought to enable people who . .

. . Are handless  Amputees

                             Convenience is crap we become less by the minute turning into fucking infants that cant do a damn thing for themselves because

                                       I don wanna

Becoming a codger

Perhaps

          But an ablebodied codger    

1249,  Saturday,  exception 12-11-12

1050,  Monday,  13  12. 21

 

Mack couldnt help himself

maybe hed buy him his own clipboard and paper he kept a pen in his back pocket

Mack spun the clipboard around on the table to himself and wrote the ratio in huge numbers 1 : 1000s he shoved it back to him

I understand

                No  I was referring to the initial one to one the initial cause and effect  thousands of effects muddy the water to understand the primacy from where it began  Sperm plus ovum equal zygote Im not concerning myself with the aggregatethe evolved endgame whatever that may be

                                                          People are roiled by the effects and do not want to reverseengineer do not want to look hard historically They are classic It-is-what-it-isers when they dont shouldnt have to be

Force multipliers work against you.

Wha are you reading or watching

Force multipliers, it’s militaristic, promotes leverage. he couldnt get a straight answer out of him

So much game theory Lets say onehunredseventyfive thousand Russian troops are on Ukraines border Thats leverage Whats the why the cause he wrote 1 : 175,000 under Macks 1 : 1000s

                                                                    If those who were drafted didnt step forwardhad forced the body politic to consider imprisoning an entire generation of young men Nam wouldnt have happened

I know you know, bravery doesn’t happen en masse.

No not in a hive mentality Not against uncritical conformity the loss of a sense of individuality personal accountability

Go along to get along

People want to get alon . .

. . With other people  Thats too high a price for me to pay

                                                               I want to know the why 

That’s lonely.

Not if yare learning why

1455,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

1431,  Monday,  13  12. 21

 

he wasnt taking it backwasnt apologising

                                            he said what he did to exaggeratejump on the response he gave him when he asked Dannis got no Gucci

he responded kneejerkNO vigorously shaking his head side to side

Mighty sensitive friend

                          Although Id bet ya twenty bucks Im being absolute ya havent asked so you really cant say no

So you have to make a remark about my jowls?

Head an jowls I said head an jowls

                                       Anif ya agreed nodded I wouldnt have said anything Emphatically shaking your head only exacerbated the flesh A busty woman jumps up and down whadaya see

                                                                                        Anall because I asked Dannis got no Gucci

You were being insulting.

Wrong

        If I insult someone I insult them to their face You made an assumption because you know I have a poor opinion of fashion I speak only for myself If someones keen they can afford it theyre welcome to it No skin off my ass

I am a little troubled you jumped to defend hernot that I attacked her without knowing

                                                                                           Particularly over something as spurious as fashion

The correct reply should have been I don know 

Instead ya got butt hurt

1425,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

1236,  Monday,  13  12. 21

 

he had a habit of taking words that sounded similar and running with what they insinuated crazy springboards which often propelled him to thinkinginviting circumstances of context that otherwise might not have occurred to him

they inspired him

not a halfhour earlier he stumbled a bit

                                         You major in something at college whas the other thingthe lesser thing you could declare I cant think of itit aint what I think it is but it wont let up

You major, sometimes you declare a minor.

YES

      Minor I was thinking mitre Mitring isnt vastly different from minoring a seam between two subjects

Not really the same.

No but in the same vein Im playing

                                      Say for instance mirror

Mirror?

Yes mirror

            Mere musically museically aligned

You're being redundant?

M-i-r-r-o-r  m-e-r-e  m-u-s-i-c-a-l-l-y m-u-s-e-i-c-a-l-l-y  Muse

Muse? And that is? It stumps me time and time again.

That person or thing which inspires one  an artist   That which make one intentional conscious

Amuse.

Yes

     Yare playing the game  intentionally

Man, how your mind works. I can’t imagine.

Its filled with imagining on reels twentyfour seven

                                                     Its home anam very comfy in it

1452,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

0838,  Monday,  13  12. 21

https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/consciousness-intentionality/

 

Yacoud  yare just too lazy

he raised his eyes to him

Mack come now ya can do better than that Disdain is colder bitterer

                                                                              Nah that aint cutting it either

Why do you insist . .

. . An persist Because its a load of crap Yacoud if ya put your mind Its like your very need to interruptsuddenly have your say because you have just enough time to say If I don say Ill forget then have your say

                                                                                                  Lazy Anya refuse to work at it make an honest effort Unfortunately typically whacomes out of your mouth isnt earthshaking or particularly memorable

Are you trying to hurt my feelings?

Truth hurts

I can’t do two things at once.

No Yacant

            Probably why ya havent participated in a menage a trois

1439,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

1452,  Sunday,  12  12. 21

 

many children are raised in the throe and embrace of fantastic magical stories patiently read to them of kings queens princesses princes courts commoners witches woodsmen monsters and brave heroes

                                                                                         they have been raised on fast tides their imaginations senses pummeled by thrilling high waves from which there seems no safe harbor but which in the end submit  and again sea creatures peer happily from and bathe in bright crystal pools simmering in low tides

they have been raisedmore often that not  with happy endings

that was not odd

                 he didnt think happy endings had to end in childhood that childish things should be put down and put away because he was older

                              his curiositiesfascinations hadnt turned aside or were tamed they remained as vivid and stubborn

 

she asked but she didnt say

                                       And so, would you?

he liked her well enough and because he did he didnt want to be to offputting terse

                                                                                         I have a pet peeve Do you have a pet peeve or peeves

I’m sure I do but off the top of my head, just now, I can’t think of one. Why?

To preface the answer to your question

                                         Obviously I say what I thinknot to direct you or some say intimidate but rather I answer the question Im asking

                                  To your question would you

he couldnt read her quiet the fix of her mouth her eyes

                                                        he wouldnt want to play poker with her

he didnt press

he was content to ride the silence

he knew his answer was Yes

                               he didnt cared for her words terminology  his childhood fairy tales screwedup their faces he had to walk among them consoling them patting their heads There thereing them Its awright Things are dandy

 

You’re not going to say?

Regarding a rub an tug

1434,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

1212,  Sunday,  12  12. 21

 

some people think its their first cup of coffee in the morning that brings them into their day 

                                                                                             hed disagree

frost on the plants outside an unheated bathroom aint nothing like a cold toilet seat to bring one around

0914,  ReggaeFriday, 10  12. 21

1612,  Saturday,  exception 12-11-21

 

he looked a little crestfallen

Whas goin on Mick

I . ah . so I grabbed Brendas ass like you said . as you said when you declined to go to the theater with us, grab a bit to eat afterwards.

Ya Absolutely not appreciate the ask though

                                              Gucci Gucci goo Absolutely notcouldnt give a shit about fashion Not an artform I enjoy

Artform?

Sure I understand itthe fabric Im appalled by brandingappalled by a fortyfivehundred dollar handbag

                                                                                                             More impressed by a coinpurse made from a bulls scrotum

Jesus.

No Jesus there is such a thing

                                 So wha happened at Gucci Gucci goo I told you to give her a goose for me

I wasnt going to goose her . . 

. . Far more interesting than grabbing ass

                                           A relationship either is or isnt rises or falls with a goose

Well, she was none too happy with me.

Yatold her it was my idea don kill the messenger

I told her it was from you.

                          Maybe I pinched her too hard.

Youve seen Brenda doubledigits nowyah

Easy.

Wha she screwing her face up about Shit or get off the pot

                                                              Havent you broached where your relationship is going going  Platonic   Sexual

Oh heavens no!

Heavens  Doubledigits in an yet not one digit in

Jesus man, gotta be so coarse?

Get real

          So shes wearing a puss after you grabbed her ass Whadid ya do  say

I didn’t say anything.

You threw yourself on her mercy

                                      Weak

Weak? You’d have something to say?

Are ya fuckin kiddin meya always have a comeback

What would you have said?

Easy

      But what would you say now that youve had twentyfour hours to digest the scenariobecause you had dinner after the movie  Anya picked up the tab too yah

I picked up the tab.

Yes

      Twentyfour hours later Whadaya got 

Honestly?

              Nothing.

JesusChrist

So . . you said easy . what would you have said?

Immediately Id have said Hey aint like Im asking you for a hand job

                                                                       Anif I wanted to be coarsesince you were so offended Idve said Aint like Im asking you for a blow job

                                                                At some point yawanna kick the can down the roadyah

Kick the can down the road?

he began singing a lousy rendition of Olivia Newton-John Lets get physical physical   Yah

Eventually.  Yes.

Eventually

               Man really earning those monk stripes of yours

1430,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

1302,  Saturday,  exception 12-11-21

Olivia Newton-John  Physical  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vWz9VN40nCA

 

once Harry caught wind of it he held by its shorthairscouldnt help himself he yammered at least once whenever they met and often several times if they wound through gatherings among tippling pairs trios and clutches 

it hadnt occurred him that itd be a bitch accompanying Harry

                                                                he toutedintroduced him as his wingman he had a weakbut metastisising concept what that was called him Guse some character from a Cruise film and for his appointment he heard all Harrys lines ad nauseam

 

Don’t let the old man in.

Wha

A Toby Keith song.

Whos that

Toby Keith.

You’re not impressed.

Im not itd be unlike me to pay attention to anyone named Tobysmacks of inbreeding or unimaginative parents like they were naming a pet not a child

                                But be that as it may lets get to the crux of your revelationyour monotonous   refrain

Don’t let the old man in?

Crushed it

           Why the predilectiondo you think yare going to forget itbit like In God We Trust old man is likely stamped on your brain like a coin

                       Its approaching a mantra

It’s true though.

So be it

         Give it a restgetting old  anya wouldnt want that now woudya

You’re not funny.

Im not trying to be

                    Canya remember the last thingthe last story you related to me before ya invited me to a dog a Great Danes birthday partywhich I got to say is extraordinary unto itself Also given you know I am not fond of dogs an have cats

      Tryin to get me killed because of my scent

No.

No  Yawerent tryin to get me killed or no ya don recall

No.   I don't recall.

Better find your old man an shake him down

What was the story?

Your story

           Almost got knocked ass over teakettle when the Dane slammed into your legs as you were pouring champagne into flutes

Ohyeah!

There you go

Yes, I recall. What of it?

You said ya felt like an old man when ya staggered backwardsgrabbing the kitchen tablestopping yourself from falling However in your head you saw yourself stumble like playing cards shuffled staccato stopmotion stumbling like an old man devoid of a young mans agility 

I recall.

Then you also recall you said that you nearly fell over like an old man Out loud

Yes I did.

For someone whos preaching Don let the old man in why woudya make that admission Its like sending up a flare against a black night declaring yare an old man

                                                    I dare say the women you were pouring champagne for didnt see whaya imagined in your head Did they say ya almost went over like an old man or did they marvel that ya didnt spill a drop which you insist yadid not

I did not. 

          I don’t know what they saw; they didn’t comment on my staggerin . .

. . Staggered by a Great Dane running into you

                                                 Who wouldnt have been You either are or arent but crying old man out loudcatching its echo off the canyon isnt helping your cause

                                                               Ya either are or arent

Harry stood there looking at him mute

One other thing Ill say

                       A young man wouldnt attend a birthday party for a Great Dane I don care how fuckin attractive its owner is

1504,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

1141,  Saturday,  making an exception 12-11-21 too much fun!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yc5AWImplfE

 

So, are you interested coming along on Sunday?

Nah Mack  Im disinclined

No.  Out of hand, no?

Yes

You’ll know everyone there.

Whas that

           Knowing notknowing is neither here nor there You seem to have a mindcreep that Im antisocial . .

. . You don’t often go out.

I go out on my terms I can be social or not an frankly given our recent conversation you may prefer to not run the risk Id air it

That would be inappropriate.

How so

        Your sisters know we meet weeklyhave coffee and they have always expressed interest in our nonsense rows our tete a tetes politics history science an culture Since it was a point of such contention it might arise in one corner or another

My family does not engage in such discussions.

Ah so you speak for your familyyour sistersthey havent minds of their own

We do not talk of such things.

We You and they Are you implying that I am precluded from discussing anything I may choose

                                                                                                   Theyre not dull or petty fraus Theyve been afforded college educationswere able to enjoy them during a time when college wasnt necessarily an endgame for young women of family and means Plums ripe for plucking by vetted suitors

he rolled his eyes

                 Donroll your eyes This country is inhabitedhas been inculcated with a requisite perhaps stringent class structure  Your stalwart friendships were aligned while you were young You have been ensconced an protected despite what you may otherwise have fashioned in your head

I disagree.

I have no doubt

                 Youve dabbled in certain psychological sociological tests then also have disagreed with your results  Because you did not like the outcomes.

Those kinds of test are skewed.

If you didnt answer accurately Yes  You skewed them

                                                          But were getting off topic you said you wouldnt bring our conversation up with your family because your family isnt my family that my family would discuss it  we have no taboos So try an imagine if I were to get into your familys midstya know me likely Id blow the shutters off the doors an windows Cant play stupid with me

As I have said, that’d be inappropriate; we have never discussed anything of its kind.

Then bouttime

               Simple question

the question was if a heterosexual man indulged and received a blow job from another man he was not heterosexual

they vehemently disagreed

1520ish,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  8  12. 21

1139,  ReggaeFriday,  10  12. 21