You my B B F.

No Im not anfor cryinoutloud woudya please act your age

My kids told me . .

. . Woud they act their age  This kind of crap reminds me of my Maw shed say Use your words, you’re a big boy.

Use your words

I happen to think it's clever.

Trust me yare not the arbiter of clevernot by a long shot Strikes me thayare vying to be hip hang   Be groovy

It’s shorthand . .

. . Its specialised language like law medicine  sciences   Utilised to identify membership belonging  to include exclude Anyou  yahave a need to belong

Like you don’t? I think it’s human nature.

You prefer human nature evading avoiding Its truncated euphemism how hard is it to just say whaya mean because I got no problem walking away  Ive no need to fit in

he made a puss to implore himhed seen it too many times before I think it’s fun, it can be fun.

Then have fun with someone else  Im not entertaining it

Aw come on . . this one time. imploring was glaring out in the open  looked like thirdstage syphilis  cankers pox deformation

he actually took a step back

revulsion can do that

One time.

            What would you guess?

Bombastic bestial frank  A A   Adjectives all

No.

      You come up with that in the time I asked?

Yah

      Describes the You my . .  meaning me Adjectives were likely seemed to me

No.  That’s not what B B F means.

Three strikes and Im out

You act like you don’t want to know.

Im not acting

Best Friends Forever.

Oh thanks sounds like something a chick woud say Id be careful with tha if I were you Coud turn on you

Turn on me?

Best butt fuck                                                                                                          

1520,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22

338preferred,  Twosday,  2  8. 22

walking up towards him as he sat at a table outside a coffee shop Hey man ya gotta lose the cap as he said he pointed to his head so cap didnt confuse him

he peered at him Lose my cap?

Yah Another fellas reputation precedes you anya donwanna be aligned with or mistaken for him  Hes bout your age stature look

the peer hardened he thought Save it for the girls you hang with  I have a reputat . .

. . A nondescript quiet reputation coud be soiled Ifya read this mornings paper I don think youd be wearing it Tryin to save you a little grief is all though I am tempted to start up with ya

Grief? My reputation . .

. . Your reputation befalls someone who hasnt moved around rolling stone gathers no moss  yare mossy   Im tellinya to lose the cap for a while until things blow over

It’s my team. 

  His too

             It woud be goodsmart not to be associated with

Associated . . what the hell are you talking about?

If you saw the local paper ya woudnt be askin

Why don’t you enlighten me? sarcasm  could cut it with a knife

Thank you I will a job I happily fill to protect you from yourself anya need a whole lotta help

                                                                                                  His reputation precedes you  I remember the case local fellow ya don want to be confused with him a paedophile recently released from prisonreturned home   religiously he wears a 49ers cap he coudnt say why but the song Getting to know you sounded in his head  . . . my cup of tea

1520,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22

1211,  Twosday,  2  8. 22

Temptations  Papa was a Rolling Stone  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nXiQtD5gcHU

Bing Crosby  Getting to Know You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1LNc0RRhnw

irritated she crossed her arms harrumphed  Do you realise how often you interrupt me?

Ive no choiceyou leave me no choice

                                      Its my attempt to nudge you along your habit is to circle aroundbelabour points weve agreed upon I call it its called beatin a dead horse   When a coins stamped move along

she had said E.E. Cummings.

he said e. b. cumming

E. B.? You’re wrong, could be you’re thinking of E. B. White.

Nah e. b. cumming

Edward Estlin.

Yes Elwyn Brooks

Elwyn Brooks?

E. B.

Ah, yes.

Not my e. b.

Cummings?

Cumming

I’m . . she was frustrated . I’m . . not following you.

e. b. Eager beaver

Eager beaver.  What?

Eager beaver cumming   he also interrupted her because nobody rolled their big beautiful eyes like she did very fetchinghence   worthwhile

                               You were saying before I interrupted

like a toy balloon with a slow leak  What was I saying?

I wasn’t being rhetoricalwhat was I saying?you know . . . when you interrupt me you knock me off my train of thought.

Not much of a train babe

1516,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22

1014,  Twosday,  2   8. 22

Savoy Brown  Hellbound Train  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6TkCLDcC7o

What can I say, we were two different people.

Yasay tha now

                 their server was passing  he dug her shapeher lavendercoloured uniform darkpurple apron  Excuse me Rennie coud I get a refill on my coffee please

Yes, I’ll be right back.

Thank you

You’re welcome.                   

  There Bought ya some time  You have a rejoinder 

                                                          Rejoinder Yasee Im tryin to credit ya with the ability to spout something sharp  witty

Thank you no, I don’t want to work that hard.

I can understand  after all your hard work on your failed marriage

                                                                          I get a rimshot for tha

You’re not funny.

Im not Im being caustic

                         Kindness flagged some time ago I don know why were talkinbout itwhy ya brought it up

Because it comes up time to timecrosses my mind . .

. . Runs me over 

                  Idve thought What’s love have to do with it? woudave cauterised it Ive got a backup to curl yare hair ifya like

You have a backup?

Im your brain trust I do 

                         Ya want it

Sure, kick me while I’m down.

You shouldnt be downYES Shouldnt   Its behind you You escapedaside from your emotions relatively unscathed

Rennie placed her hand on his shoulder a breast at his backleaned over him to pour the coffee 

he looked up into her iceblue eyes as she concentrated 

                                                          No time to be funny Joe, fresh hot coffee, I don’t want to spill in your lap.

No don do tha Im fixating on your eyes so mine don wander

when she finished pouring stepped up beside him they did

Rennie smiledfreakin dimples In some quarters, Joe, that might be thought sexual harassment.

No baby pure admiration

Then one day, baby, you ought to ask me out.

he nearly flipped

it must have showed in his eyes

deeper dimples Ask.

I woudnt have thoug . .

. . Because you’re old enough to be my father?

I am

You are. But correct me if I’m wrong . . we have a chemistry.

  We do

           Though I thought you were only being nice

Quit thinking.

               You’ll excuse me, I’m working. she walked away

he watched

She knows you’re looking.

She does

Damn . . that was something else, I wouldn’t have believed you had you told me.

You can believe me 

                     An such a perfect seque   Curl your hair

Curl my hair?

Before Rennies stealth attack

Before?

Mygawd hint 

                 Brain trust

  Got zip.

Ever tire of zip

No . . I don’t want to work that hard. he beamed broadly  Besides . . it’s rare you forget . so just say . . . excoriate me . .

. . Disembowel you

                      I said you can believe me She saidyoull recall when I say What’s your hang up with honesty.

AWFUCK.

Cauterise it  Ya made a mistake ya corrected it

1448,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22

1331,  Monday,  1  8. 22

E. E. Cummings wrote . .

. . Uppercase  lowercase

How is it you jump in with . .

. . e. b.  Lowercase

she fixed him with a look that she thought might have looked like Medusas

It needs work

You’re frustrating. Can we agree it's E. E., either upper or lower . . not E. B.

e. b. lowercase as e. e. usually is to my perception

e. b.?

Yup eager beaver cumming

                               Creamy 

OhmyGod. 

            Can’t for a moment you pull your head out of the gutter?

I like to think of it as a cunt antherefore no definitely definitively not In up to my ears Anlets remember it wasnt me who brought us to this trough to slop Cant load ancock anthink I wont pull the trigger

                                                                                           You were going to The Enormous Room werent you

her shoulders fellhead tilted to a side You know it?

I own it 

          Where is it

It’s in storage.

My lifes in storageYES

When did you read it?

Before high schoolHell before Junior High

Why?

Why woud I read a book or poetry

                                     I was a paperboy I read the news I was curious Got to admit e. e. lowercase sticks out like a sore thumb

Have you read it

I only just heard about it.

Read e. e. the same time I settled in to read Madox Ford Madoxs Good Soldier Hemingways Farewell to Arms My grandfather fought in the war He died before I was old enough to talk with him about his experiencesnot necessarily his war experiences but his thoughts My Christian name is his I figured if I read the books I coud fashion a kind of understanding of him

Seems those books would have been a heavy lift.

No Baldwin was a heavy lift

                               Im not black or homosexual which was the predominantprevailing tag Youre it of the day asif ones sexuality mattered  Imagine  the American Psychiatric Association didnt declassify it as a mental illness until ’73

You . . a bit precocious?

No  Curious

1514,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22

1503,  Monday,  1  8. 22

Tell me a story Story   Y yah  When we first met your told me it was IE Storie   yah

   So it is Y IE i-e i-e i-o  Ya recall  there was a farmer

she looked perturbed

He had a dog an Bingo was its name O

she didnt smile

which didnt bother him

he wasnt interested in her

he saw him approach from across the bar she had a bottle of wine at the tablehe asked if hed like another drink he did

sitting down he saw StorysStories expression

                                               What did I miss? his ask wasnt specific

he wasnt going to say

Nothing. StoryStorie said

I ask because you look . . miffed . troubled?

No.

Coudjustbe her bitchy resting face he started to laughthey didnt Awcomon youve heard thaseentha the chick from AT&T commercials  no expressions cold fish

                                             NO Its funny

Shall we change the subject Sex

Sex? he asked

he looked perturbed

StoryStorie followed his lead

I wanna get the three nonos out on the table so we coud either elaborate on them or go onto other subjects  Im the third wheel here  However if yawere to ask Id say I was the third rail  live rail live wire  lively wired

Want me to go first

Ill go first

How many people would you saynot thayave kept count yave known biblically

Ohfor Christ’s sake. he muttered

Really? she asked

  Yah  An because I asked Ill say first Very few

StoryStorie

I’m not saying, I think you’re being ridiculous.

Yacoudave saved us this ifya told me a story We coudave caught Bub up in no time               

You just call me Bub?

I did Im being provocative Seems StoryStorie doesnt wanna play  Howbout you

I’m not going to say either.

  No   Okay  Then Ill close out the sex portion of this conversationthink ifyawanna scorch politics or religion next

Ive known few women biblically  Im not keen on the missionary position

JesusChrist.

Religion next  he was enthused

You'll excuse me please, I have to go to the ladies’ room.

she went to stand he stood

Why are you standing?

When a woman goes to standexcuses herself gentlemen rise Im unlike your date

standing Thank you. In more ways than . .

. . Him  In many more ways than one

she left

he sat

         Whacha got Bub  I toldya I aint a good wingman 

No you’re not.

1448,  ReggaeFriday,  18  2. 22

1134,  Monday,  1  8. 22

Bitchy Resting Face  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XinArKp_6fs

Nauh

 Nauh nauhno   not now  No not now Ive got too much to do yetgot no time to die . . .

    one needs Lifes juice in order to complete projects startedprojects midway  nearing their end

its not I donwanna die  which is inevitableknownunderstood

its I got this one thing to finish Please lemme finish it 

                                                       hed beg get down on his kneesbow his head plead make a fool out of himself

whatever it took

                  Pleease pleease . . .

Death is ruthless

itd shake its head understandingly actACADEMY AWARD performance like it gave a shit tilting its head to one side an act of earnest consideration slyly wink at the mute collectedcrowding greyshadows and blackghosts

Pleease . . .  falls on deaf ears

                                 As yasaid  Nauh   Gotta go yare holding up the line

It was worth a shot

  

2029,  Sunday,  31  7. 22

1018,  Monday,  1  8. 22

Del Shannon  Runaway  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0S13mP_pfEc

Burial  Dog Shelter  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSTv1WjHBn8

he liked to wear things outrelished keeping them long after others would thrown them away tsk tsk people because he respected themrespected their diminishing form and abilities anwhile they were no longer young thats a sin no longer as colourful or crisp handsome or beautiful they steadfastlyarduously retained their primacy could still and would perform their purpose their commodity

commodity may sound odd

   value

            ahbetter

his blatant shabbiness put people off though many were chasing their dreams

he was living his

                   if someone said anythingOhshit hed saypat his chest awnuts left my No soliciting pin at homeI was in a hurry  ya know what they sayFranklin said Haste makes waste  and smileleer ludicrous

it was curious someone would think hed give two shits what they thought

until the garment whahavya failed he had their backs he tended to be kinder to inanimate things cuz they werent not really      

0853,  Sunday,  31  7. 22

1720,  Sunday

  inside closed eyes

its hard to tell what was going on

but if one keys on the undulating motionthe bulge of their corneas shifting chasing  quietfixated  staring at the backs of their eyelids

  one might guess

        

he always had ideas

                       although he spent his days writing

anas he did he saw in his minds eye what he wrote commensurately his dialogue uttered in his ears  playing the parts he considered their wording inflection tempo  pauses    

when he took afternoon breaks to walkread usually several miles before returning home again hed either then prepare his meal feed his cats or viceversa the while playing again what he was in the midst of writing

                                                                                                    during the workweek while his food cooked he watched politics onlinehe was an addict  that was his fathers influence  an after dinner he watched film  his mothers influence  recently he watched seven foreign films in a row  their different settingssensibilities teasedintrigued him  they were unlike American cinema  violence sex violent sex action sex shoot em up sex car chase sex  a tepid pool so shallow one would be advisedcautioned not to dive

                                                                                              if one leaptup and entered from threefeet they might break their fuckin neckSHALLOW  gullible   but what should one expect when given that the majority of adults cant read at a sixth grade level 

                                                       Imagine  they couldnt celebrate the 100th anniversary of James Joyces Ulysses it would be lost on them  they were lost like Hansel and Gretel noshing on frosted gingerbread shingles

he had ideas he could imagineassign to the movement inside closed eyes      

2153,  Twosday,  26  7. 22

1343,  Sunday,  31  7. 22

he couldnt stop them from jumping

when the little girl leaptshe was at the head the rest followed her like lemmings they jumped fearlessly from the riveted red ironworks

he was back from the edge screamingNO NO  No tears surging

he didnt come forward to look down he did not want to see the ruin bodies busted like water balloons unseemly parted

the real terror was still with himstill in his eyes them leaping  anhe pitifully helpless

when the last leaptWHY they sawhad to recognise the gore below he slowly backpedaled several steps before turning on the ghastly silence that minutes earlier had been filled with gay shouts laughter their echoes peeling away spideryzigzaging across the face of the canyon of buildings diminished by intersections they were unable to leap

he took the fire stairs down to the basementdown to his irrevocable labyrinth where he wanderedwhere he knew exactly where he was

there it occurred to him

                           the structure rising above him was his shaken labyrinth pulled up now dimensional  no longer a lone wandering plane

                          it demanded more of him it was bored with what he knewwas excited to teach him again

the happy affable children werent real

they were aspects of himself

had he gone to the edge and looked down there would have been nothing to see but the ribsthe skin of his erect labyrinth

           he was becoming  walking the clean ironworks bones fearlessly  unafraid  slowly becoming  he was putting away childish things

   

2115,  Sunday,  24  7. 22

1218,  Saturday, 30  7. 22

Dispatch  Time Served  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F1EHGskxiUE

its hard to watch friends hurt themselves or deny the common sense they usually display

what messes with that

the heart

physical pain psychic   mind over matter

                                              ifya don mind it don matter

hed managed pain a better part of his life accidental selfinflicted sports it had become inconsequential the anaesthetic he consumedsummonsed came from within  not pills injections his mulish nature proved advantageous

the downsideYes ofcourse there is a downside holistically he turned things over and over like a child discovering the first ball he was given his mulish nature isolated him however his Tarzan swingin in on a vine to his rescue was also his innate introversion  he didnt mind being alone 

                                                     the affront of wellmeaning friends who believed they were welcome their thoughts that being alone meant being lonely didnt bother him evidently it was the suit of clothing they were comfortable in

                he didnt own a suit

he quit trying to explain

it fell on deaf ears

his selfimposed isolation was beneficial

                                           it provided him room to manageassuage his pain when it reared its ugly head

but that was him 

 

one can lead a horse to water but they cant make it drink

he was confident many thought that of him

he did appreciate their concern thanked them

                                                 so he did have a sense of disappointment when he saw friends hurt themselveswhen he watched them blow smoke up their own ass

                                                                    he wasnt that limber not even as a kid

I don’t know that.

She told you she said you were buddies

I don’t know that yet.

                         he was so practised could blow smoke rings out his ass too

1749,  ReggaeFriday,  29  7. 22

1040,  Saturday,  30  7. 22

he had seventeen pairs of old 501 buttonfly Levis

crotch had givenway on all of them

his concern about mendingpatching them was obvious all eyes would be drawn to the patch most of the right thighs had also thinned and split if they were the only failure the occasional knee he could get away with it 

maybe more modest than he thought

she laughed when he told her over the telephone

Its not funn . .

. . It’s hilarious! What are you doing in your pants?

Wearinem Anto a pair theyve all failed in the crotch structural defect planned obsolescence fuck if I know Its irritating

You sound irritated.   Hmmm . .

. . Save it

Hmmm . .

. . I said save it I know wha yare thinkin

A mindreader?

Yare mind give me a fuckin break

What am I thinking?

Im not

       Had I been I woudnt wear pants 

her suddenbreath came in a snort over the receiver then pure elationlaughter

Im funnyhuh

You wouldnt wear pants?

Fuck no an Id hold it to the cops face that was arresting me for indecency exposureOfficer please explain to our listening audience that this arrest has less to do with indecency than it does pure jealousy tap the end of my cock Testing testing  yes officer its functioning Please talk into the Mike

Please talk into the mikeshit . . you’re too much.

Didnt know I nicknamed my cock Mike huh

Would you stop? her laughter came in gusts  You’re killing me.

Seventeen pairs of unwearable jeans is killing me

Patch them, it’s unlike you to care what people think.

It is isnt

Yes.

You may have something there I was suffering a creeping modesty it lookin over its shoulder lookinround an round

Patch em.

             Then send me some pictures. she howled

You messin with me

she couldnt talk

Yare going to choke

she laughed harder

Get your mind out of the gutter

laughing she sputtered Chochooke

I need to gag you he could play her game

Awwhar gag she barked through her yukyuks 

he imagined spittle on her chin wasnt going there was a thousand miles away too far to resuscitate her

I can’t breathe . . freaking hilarious.

hed let her come back to earth wasnt going there either

1503,  Thursday,  3  2. 22

1335,  Saturday,  30  7. 22

he said homeschooling

he said Wha  Who

Their mother

She graduated high school your son graduated high school  Where in that are the credentials to teach at home I assume yare referring beyond necessity when Trump virus was a swinging cock through the countrynot that their state believes in medical sciencebelieved in polio  it went herd mentality

                                                             Is that the mentality you wanted imparted to your grandchildren young girls

It’s really not my job is it?

Lemme think  a distracted child steps into a crosswalk in front of a cartheyre right in front of you ya let them get hit not your job

A hypothetical.

Horseshit  See an accident forming you intercede

I open my mouth, say my piece, they let me spe . .

. . But they aint listenin  are they

   Probably not

So the girls need an open liberal educationaint Gawd gonna carry their water when theyre older  in their neck of the woods last thing we need coming out of theremebbe theyll stay put  are more unthinking white Christian Nationalists keep religion in church unfortunately itll taint the home but all else secular or they risk brain death  Fact of the matter ya don need a brain in Heaven It is wholly unnecessary 

1129,  ReggaeFriday,  29  7. 22

Zappa  Help, I’m a Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAOClxd8UJE