an oversight

  humoured him 

                     a lot

the fly that buzzed him as he wrote a letter to his father in the study followed him into the bathroom

he was going to take a shower

                                    Yakiddin me  he asked

the fly lighted in profile on a hunk of chalk that held fossilised seashells that he kept at the back of the basin vanity

          not that he expected an answer which would have been cool

the fly risked nothing  if they had he wouldnt be able to monetise its ability to speak

    a flys life expectancy is fifteen to thirty days

hed be gypped out of his investment gettin it up an runnin

                                                              Ya actually follow me in

I did. he played the flys part You smell delicious. How long have you been marinating?

Marinating  Gosh thas awfully kind

                                         I took a bath threefour days ago but yesterday morning went out to cut the lawnsweat something fierce  Got a cool drink of water from the hose stayed put in the shade till the sweat dried

    What time you got?

I came in around one

What time did you cut the lawn?

Was tryin to beat the heat Failed

                                      Tenish

If my math is correct, just over a day, twentyfour hours.

Ill trust your math

                        Id think if my lifespan was as limited as yours Id know  Keenly

Lifespan.  What do you mean?

How long something lives

What’s lives?

Life

Life?

What youre doing now Im doin

Doing.

          What’s that?

This  Now   Conversing

                           Curiously though  I don feel its a waste of time

Waste?  Time?

                   What’s yours, this thing, lifespan?

   Who knows

                  Could end suddenly tomorrow

Yet you know mine.  Days.

Your math

Yes.

A day twentyfour hours you said

Yes.

Is it fair to assume you know twentyfour hours one two thre . .

. . Four five six yes, boring.

Im fiftyfour years plus days

                                 Threehundredsixtyfive days a year plus Leap Year days

Roughly nineteenthousandeighthundred da . .

. . Fourhundredseventyfivethousandtwohundred . . hours.

Is tha correct

I know my math.

Whas fifteen to thirty days

Comparatively.  Not long, a pittance.

I agree

    Brother, did I get the shit end of the stick.

                                                  I ought to have been more precise, said when I reincarnated I wanted to return as a human being.

An oversight

Yafuckinthink.

1320,  reggaefriday,  8  8. 25

The Fly  Help Me! Help Me!  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Up6g0SDMJ7A 

So  he texted his daughter she was always all over him about it  What’s that smell?  :  :  You know it’s time to take a shower when you’re buzzed by flies.

    nice thing between them    they didnt recognise texts to be answered immediatelyget butthurt if someone wasnt Johnny-on-the-Spot

                                     Fuck that noise

he imagined though  when she finally read it shed shit

reply  :  :  Ya think?brusque  no fuckin emoji

he has a buddy

                 a guy a contemporary  he wouldnt have thought

who sent him texts accompanied by emojis

hed text him  :  :  Howbout you save those fuckin’ things for all your little girl friends?

  :  :  Aren’t you my girlfriend?

  :  :  Aren’t you pained in the assWAIT!  That’d make you my girlfriend!!

                                                                                 a bit of a homophobe he wouldnt text for awhile

when he did itd be about something other

guy was quaint

                      prudish  

1113,  reggaefriday,  8  8. 25

. . . the point of a sphere wasnt his he would have liked it to be   its his nephews

when his brother-in-law used it

                                   Tha yours he wasnt particularly clever

Do you think it is?

No

Not at all?

No

    Why?

    

Yareallywanna press the point  Yashoudnt

I shouldn’t.

No

    Kevin’s.

Thank you

 

wished it went that way

                                rather

he respondedretaliated Kind of like squaring a circle rounding a square which regarding dimensions  inappropriate

                A sphere  A cube      3D

If indeed there happens to be a point of a sphere itd be minute

                                                                    he imagined it like a perineal seam ridge raphe  the tallest peak of that ridge a serrated edge if excited  could cut ones tongue on

an aenigma AE merged   a ligature

                                        a riddle  an uncertainty

That’s how you think.

You certainly don  Flat    Like a piece of paper

                                                   A good wind pickup youd be blown away

My sphere might roll My cube  Friction

                                          Itd take a helluva wind to move it

    What’s your point?

Of my sphere

0030ish,  Wednesday,  6  8. 25

1215,  reggaefriday,  8  8. 25

“. . . the prose really liked that word the prose of Der Nachsommer Indian Summer reads like a catalogue of the Last Things, since everything in it appears under the aspect of death – or, as the case may be, of eternity.”

W G Sebald

               few lines earlier he wrote “. . . the uncanny nature [Unheimlichkeit] of time itself.”

    the uncanny nature of time

between the Last Things which he didnt believe

                                                     whoever is last would not know that they were and if he were they he would believe there was someone somewhere else on the planet

                                                                                   of death of eternity

what if

            ones does not ascribe to death being eternal

the Last Things and eternity  a languishing unknowable term  a hiccup   missing videotape  

suspicious

    times uncanny nature

 

what if

             why contend  entertain   hypotheticals

takes time

ought to useemploy ? ones valuable time

Youre thoughtful  Mindful

I am

You consider your thoughts hypotheticals

I don

You might understand why someone else might think they were

I can

        I vet

To put a point on the sphere  I investigate   Research

                                                          Thas my thoughtfulness  mindfulness

If I didnt you might not be here

Not here

            We didnt think of tha

after midnight,  Wednesday,  6  8. 25

1100,  reggaefriday,  8  8. 25

Ouch.

Jahuh  

He . . really said that?

He did

I can’t imagine.

actually he could imagine him sayin something of a kind had a proclivity to step in it put his foot in his mouth but he didnt say

Neither can I  Whas with the court system a no brainer

                                                          Undergraduate degree three years law school however many years to ascend to a judgeship where common sense seems either evaporated or whipped out of the system

Intercede  Take the kid away The boys grandmother has demonstrated the financial capacity to raise him the health an mental acuity not only to mentor him but see that hes educated properly

It’s her daughter’s husband.

Anshes terrified of her husband Refuses to challenge his word

                                                                  Understand hes a white Christian Nationalist Biblebanger Word of Godder

Idiot

     Hook line an sinker Corinthians chapter eleven line threeworse Ephesians fifth chapter line twentytwo

Ya got your phone  looksee

    Gimme a sec.

 

 

he started reading without saying

Hey  Woudya read it out loud please

Ohyeah. Sorry.

                   Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife even as Christ is the head of the church, his body, and is himself its Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit in everything to their husbands.

sounded like he gulped

                    He believes that . . literally?

Literally

Why he misses the ironydon think thas taught in the Bible when he said he didnt aim to shoot his three year old

1216,  Wednesday,  6  8. 25

0957,  reggaefriday,  8  8. 25

Wordclock  St George  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kKA545vKVk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAJMnZ8QkmY

Christian Dominion over their children

  an embryo is not a person

IVF in vitro fertilisation is a choice

                                   or

otherwise

            My babys name is Sex not that they would say

Theyre a byproduct of unthinking passion fucking  not that they would say

    hed say Ooops

he used condoms

                    was virulentlyagainst women ingesting chemicals he would not  if they were available

it may be

 

so Ooops

            wouldnt knock on his door eighteentwenty years later

I think youre my Daddy

0654preferred,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

Are You My Mother?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdegazRWMv0

he stood on a cobblestone streetcurbs made of coarsemined limestone slabs and watched four blackjacketed black slacks booted men dismount a horsedrawn freight wagon brandishing long T-handled meat boning hooks

they dropped the tailgate

inside lay a man handsbound behind his back  ankles trussed   floursack over his head

                                                                                                 he writhed

men said something he couldnt distinguished

                                                 respondent laughterloud   coarse

they yanked him out by his shoulders 

                                         he landed on his back

they screamedMOVE

                           he unable  wormwiggled

savagely they hooked him pullindragginim in one direction then another

                                                                             bloodcurdling screams

shook the hooks free

                       rehookedshrieks   shook

savagelyslashed

                    rehooked

    it is hard to move in opposite directions at once

they moved him in four directions

  

near 2AM,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

1603,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

wending his way from something obscure   misty as far as he was concerned  the only way to fly

    “Thal ob Pirling . . . lay in the distant past”

                                                        Wha 

he was impatient

been needling him  this the second day

                                                conceded  Googled     Valley of Pirling

Pirling is not a real place  Oz

                                      an archaic verb  to twist, twine, spin, revolve sounds like wending

had he been patient maybe hell learn 

                                         Thal  was a clue         a valley

which may have sat on top his head  nestled    warmed the tips of his ears

                                                                                     Ja?

Ja

     Neanderthal

fossilised remains found in the Feldhofer Cave of Neander Valley THAL in Germany 1856 CE

although  even if he were patient Pirling would still have thrown him

                                                                          Thal ob Pirling 

that was an obsession of Adalbert Stifler a Bohemia-Austrian writer of the midNineteenth Century who was an early exponent of the German refined or poetic realism

this he learned from W G Sebalds essay To the Edge of Nature which Sebald kicked off with a quote from Franz von Baader

                      Seeing and thinking are two different things,/the one does not explain the other.

observing

researching

his process

binds the pair closer

                       and while he wend his way he read this astonishing sentence  accusation

It is well known is it that a pronounced pedagogic talent often goes hand in hand with repressed paedophilic desires.

know many teachers pedagogues

                                      word from Greek pedo  child  agogos  leader

also known as pedagog

                          dissecting

prefix

       pedo-  paed-  pedo-   means child

ped – agog

paed – agog

child – agog

              child eager child curious . . . to hear  to seesheesh

which then introduced him to ego-syntonic

                                              adjective compatible with the ego  conscious self-concept suddenly hyphenatedcaffeinated up the yinyang

                                                   thoughts wishes impulses behaviour are ego-syntonic when they form no threat to the ego can be acted upon without interference from the superego

                                                                                              noun  the moral component of the personality that represents parental and societal standards he pitched those long ago

determining personal now youre talkin standards of right and wrong moral immoral conscience  aims   aspirations

    if he were a dog hed be looking for a waterbowl  hopefully the water would be cool

he did warn he was wending

  

0032,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

1243,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

https://humanorigins.si.edu/evidence/genetics/ancient-dna-and-neanderthals

https://www.psychiatrictimes.com/view/psychopathology-and-personality-traits-pedophiles

https://www.msdmanuals.com/professional/psychiatric-disorders/paraphilias-and-paraphilic-disorders/pedophilic-disorder

Chautauqua to wrap ones head around

                                                                   credit Ezra Klein  hats off to Mahmoud Kahlil

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2BLU3Gy3YE

0911,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

Jon Stewart and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmVot3SwqBE

been reading in bed at least a hafhour

                                       moral imperative crowded him niggled him distracted him

tugged at his attention which he rather it didnt as he read W G Sebalds Silent Catastrophes

appropriate

    whats an imperative

                             something  essential   something  urgent

moral

         action actions which afterwards is are deemed good  a betterment for all concerned and sadly  unconcerned

moral

         realise immoral things are being done in Americas name  federal state governmental actions blatantly cruel  “credibly” deemed insufficient

                                                  ratchtedup  depraved

one scalding reason why people hide their identity behind ski masks

                                                                                   I'm only following orders.

as Nuremberg defendants defiantly protested

they dont want to be ostracised

immoral things done by Americans

cant miss the forest for the trees

 

Shes unrecognisable

matching socks paired by blind people

                                         they dont need to match to function

In what capacity?

Capacity?

For what purpose?

Right?Wrong?dependent on what?

                                            FUCK

when fucked so many many times  how does one know when its love

guessin round midnight,  0000,  Wednesday,  6  8. 25

0834,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

he erupted

           

                      he didnt often go off like Krakatoa 1883 – Vesuvius 79 – Mount Aetna 1669 – Mount Saint Helens 1980

                  but akin to them monumental

which muddied his imaginings of another  or the next   of equal magnitude she hadnt a clue what she wrought

he didnt see it coming

                         itd been a longwhile since she emailed him a sensual artful erotic nude photo

flabbergushed himnearly threw his back out

                                                 nearly

turned him inside out through his cock

                                              no small feat

    what he did to deserve such a delicious pleasure he knew not

nor would he question  

2339,  Tuesday,  5  8. 25

1002,  Wednesday,  6  8. 25

0839 this morning

                          evidently he was done  goose cooked?

the slight sliver he took off the wood rakehandle on Sunday in the tender web also called the first web space thenar web space his odds-on favourite purlicue web between his thumb and indexfinger also called forefinger went off like a turkey Pop Up timer its internal temperature onehunredsixtyfive degrees

                                                                                         Being prettyfuckin elaborate

You were here

                  Distracting

It was Ridiculous how such a small thing is such a large irritantcaptures ones attention

Ja

    How woudya say

Like a nigglinglybad marriage neither willing to shit an get off the pot It’s his fault! It’s her fault!FUCK  its their fault

My Tha was colourful

                        Drastic   But colourful

Ya asked

             You a take

Do I have to compete

Its not a competition

                       You asked I said    Im askin

Small thing big irritation     Lemme think

                                                        Im havin a hard time movin off your definition

Take your time

Sorry   Nothing elaborate

                                Overnight A whitehead acne vulgaris   Good for you   Thank you   Erupts on the end of your nose   Gruesome   Grew one Anya woke latehave to rush to high school   Anyoure a girl

Well done  For one whos never been to high school

We came uponsorted through memoryboxes stacked to the dome everywhere an happened upon high school remembrances

Sordid huh

    Why were you even there

Gotta suppose it was to acquireem  

Wednesday,  6  8. 25