some unfortunate thoughts that occurred when he heard of the attack on Israel

   ---  apartheid Israel

   ---  State sponsors of terror  Iran Russia the United States China India North Korea in no particularly order

   ---  “We recommend Hezbollah not come into this,” said Israeli military spokesman Richard Hecht to reporters. “I don’t think they will. If they do we are ready.”  

   ---  when we do not do the work for peace (1993s Two State Solution) we get war

   ---  Netanyahus illiberal undemocratic provocations 

   ---  dysfunctional U. S. House Republicans believe that Iranians will attempt to cross into the United States from the South Border (he didnt think Iranians looked like Mexicans or South Americans)

1228,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

1230,  2sday,  10  10. 23

https://www.haaretz.com/opinion/editorial/2023-10-08/ty-article-opinion/netanyahu-bears-responsibility/0000018b-0b9d-d8fc-adff-6bfd1c880000

ilira Inuit word which means the fear that accompanies awe

                                                                 he hasnt experienced it

kappia  also an Inuit word  means to fear or arouse the fear of physical injury

                                                                                    hasnt experienced that either

maybe he hasnt lived right

both he learned through Robert MacFarlane  his book Underland

                                                                      perhaps vicariously he could summons them

underground doesnt appeal to him

                                     hence

cremation

barbecue

Get it while its hot

                    hes eaten strange things

if he knew he probably wouldnt be put off

helps to think of human beings as animals

                                                would he want to be eaten

   if he didnt know he wouldnt be troubledKNOW

                                                      maybe ilira sets in stiffens his cock churns his bowels sets his heart pounding

CLANG CLANG CLANG goes the trolley

DING DING DING goes the dinner bell

fear hasnt held much sway in his life

                                       because he has realisedreadily acknowledged his entitlement

born white  male  in First World America

it hasnt wormed its way into his brain unlike others whove enjoyed it  their sex placated for millennia 

                                                                                                             why get a bug up your ass if it slips away

aint a damn thing forever

0900ish,  Sunday,  17  9. 23

1813,  2sday,  10  10. 23

Judy Garland  The Trolley Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p6O7g4XnTN8

   I chortled last night    he whispered on purpose

Chortled?  Don’t tell medon’t hear that too often . . . I do know it.

he humoured him so he waitedwatched his conflicted hardworking face

                                                                            an he didnt like to work that hard

I know I know it.

I know you do

   I just don’t now.

Awcomon

No I’m serious. 

                   I think I’m thinking too hardyou don’t hear people say chortled too often.

But you read

I haven’t read it either.

                             Chortled.      Hint?  Sexual?

Wha  Hell no

Don’t Hell no me, you’re not often far removed from sexual innuendo.

                                                                          that was true

Lewis Carroll  Through the Looking Glass

I’ve haven’t read it, you?

It an Alice Some parts of his poems  Youre getting off track

So it’s not sexual.

I didn’t mind one bit bein chortled last night

It is sexual.

Ill admit in lusty moments Ive chortled

                                               Laughters good for sex and the soul

Laughter.

Correct

What does Carroll have to do with anything?

He coined it Likely a blend of chuckle and snort

                                                   An Ive done them too during sex an making love

What made you chortle?

Dreamt of my daughters

                          Yellow summer day they came in from swimmingsunbathing I was snoozin on the couch We got high together  After a little whileafter disjointed speeches an tales the two ran off into the kitchen munchies ruckus ensuedsound comin out was pitched their voiceslaughter refrigerator door opened closed opened jars clanged muted Tupperware  closed againan oopstoohard push cabinets doors silverware drawer 

Utterly fantastic

                  The grrlsmy grrls were huungry

    

1121,  2sday,  10  10. 23

High Noonhurr,  2sday

at the airportdidnt matter where he looked backpacks galore not utilitarian militarykhaki but colourfuldesigner packs statements which unfortunately reminded him of big vanity pickup trucksGawdforbid anything approaching work neared it might scratch its pretty paint

                                         for another matter babies hanging off their parents in front in back he thought Wow some real connections real bonding  baggage babyYES their hands are free with his he had an arm and hand free baby against himbonded and when they got old enough they rode on his shouldersdrooled in his hair his hair grew thicker for babyspit

reminded him of when he was a kid

some kids had schoolbags

                            pussies  but maybe daddy had a briefcase

                                                                            pussy

he carried his books in one arm often switched alleviating the weightthe burn

however

         he also walked out of his wayin the opposite direction of where he lived to carry a girls books home for her

LET THE GAMES BEGIN

he gamed early

                 and when the little girls grewup teenagers  they remembered his kindness often returning it in soft sweet goodsmelling ways

they necked and petted

   then freed drivers license they caught fire in the backseat of the family stationwagon parked remotely under trees in a field near the airports chainlink security fence

1038,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  9. 23

1041,  2sday,  10  10. 23

Sam the Sham & the Pharaohs  Lil’ Red Riding Hood  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNEYfIUDkh8

Bruce Springsteen  I’m on Fire  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iLtGTwIxZZs

she says  Shhh

my little Oriental girl says Shhh placespresses her fingers to my lips

                                                                                Whaelse did I expect

Coudave flipped that scene on its headhad My Way

You can do tha

I can

      But thawoud mean having to make a commitment     I wasnt in the mood

You were dreaming

Dreaming Think flippin a script is easyturnin camera obscura isnt breakin a sweat

                                                                                         Its work

Didnt work out for the three jamokes preceding heryoud think they coud smell the water was cold see it was turbid with matter mud sluggish mean

                             It wasnt inviting

Yet in sequence they hustled down the inclinenot pausing to strip and went in first footfall terrafirma just under the surface then  cutbank   fellaway chestdeep

                                                 I sucked in my breath with em breaths robbed of their voicewhose only exhibitHOWL showed on their faces

One after the other after the other

                                     Maroons

Disregarded me when I tried to STOPem heelem

Pawns in my dream

Didnt flip the scriptdidnt feel bad

                                     I helped them out of the water  Bank kept crumbling  I didnt say shoudave listened

They earned their misery

No one else to blame

                        Still  I felt bad

Whaof China girl

Oriental I coudnt affix Chinese

She crossed over the bridge to the same place where the three met you

She did

She wasnt inclined to go to the water

She was notwasnt the least bit interested

                                             She had texts in her hand she wanted to study

We went back over the bridge into town I asked her if she wanted to go to a café according to script she wanted to go to my place according to script she woud have studied not according to my script but I reconsidered

                                                                                                   I didnt want the commitment

She was beautiful

She was Is

              Still off somewhere in my psyche Maybe shell present in a different circumstance where commanding my commitment isnt her intention

  You coud make her

I coud

early AMish,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  9  10. 23

1312,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day

Bowie  China Girl  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4aXkA6X_zsA

Maroon  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hxGgnI6kCrs

Every picture tells a story

Awright  Youre the storyteller   Tell

What are you talking about?

Text bout the knockout in a red dress you GAZED capital G capital A capital Z capital E capital D Yadidnt  You were at the restaurant celebrating Maggies birthday antha woud have been rude to her an the woman ya gazed

I GAZED. 

You did not

             You did your damnedest took itsybitsy peeks when you coud  Obsequiously  You have no idea  When Van Goghs exhibit hit LACMA Los Angeles County Museum of Art early 2000s thirtyforty canvases  I gazed on them tenfifteen minutes apiecealmost missed my return bus 

Thas gazing

Whered she sit

Where? What do you mean?

Obviously she captured your attention You aint one who has the capacity to admire briefly then stop Ill assume glances forth when you realeyesed R E A L E Y E S E D she was in the room proverbial kid in a candy shop  Though ya lack opacitythink  youre slickthink youre inobvious

                                                   Yah aint

Ive watched ya Its torturecant help yourself

   I GAZED.   All in capital letters.

he tipped his head doubtful  Fine Tell me the story

irritated What do you want me to say? 

You gazed

           A more fulsome abundant descriptionshe much be etched in your brain having gazed as hard as you did no detail missed or lost on you

She was a goddess in scarlet. . .  legs forever.

Legs forever when she walked in

Yes. Hot body too.

Doesnt sound gazed

                        Zip details 

What do you want from me?

The story youre giving me Cliff Notes which I woudnt read Im a detractor Assigned readings were skipped by ohsoclever students

                      You strike me as having been ohsoclever

You don’t know that.

Wha I know

               You cant tell a story

Where did she sit with her datefacing you back to you

Facing me, at the next table, behind Maggie.

No picture

What are you talking about?

You don go anywhere without your phone A birthday picture

                                                                 A clever boy coudave taken threefour five pics Maggie woudnt have been the wiser Share the best picture with her obviously trashing the otherstheyre inferior theyre the bombshell

Neverever a private dick

   Ever hear a pictures worth a thousand word

I have.

A thousand words can tell a story

                                      Which yare incapable of        Ya kill me

2200ish,  Sunday,  8  10.  23

1136,  Monday – Indigenous People’s Day,  9  10. 23

https://www.whitehouse.gov/briefing-room/presidential-actions/2021/10/08/a-proclamation-indigenous-peoples-day-2021/

Rod Stewart  Every Picture Tells a Story  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmyGa29zIqk

it occurred to him as he dreamed    

                                       that

numbers are that

                   numb-ers

anwhen theyre written as he wrote yesterday 1,178,171

                                                            that cipher does not communicate

onemillion onehundredseventyeightthousand onehundredseventyone

                                                                         the numb-er is shorthand

shorthand should not be used to communicate death

not when in all probability the loss of life from Trumpvirus could have been significantly reduced if it werent for the imbecilic former president

                           “. . . So, supposing we hit the body with a tremendous – whether it’s ultraviolet or just very powerful light – and I think you said that that hasn’t been checked, but you’re going to test it. And then I said, supposing you brought the light inside the body, which you can do either through the skin or in some other way, and I think you said you’re going to test that, too. It sounds interesting. And then I see the disinfectant, where it knocks it out in a minute. One minute. And is there a way we can do something like that, by injection inside or almost a cleaning. Because you see it gets in the lungs, and it does a tremendous number on the lungs. So it would be interesting to check that.”

   he checked this morning

one million onehundredseventyeightthousand fourhundredandfour Americans have died    

twohundredthirtythree deaths (233) since yesterday

early AM,  Monday,  9  10. 23

0942,  Monday

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

https://www.politico.com/news/2021/04/23/trump-bleach-one-year-484399  

the idiot  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAauiLx3AvQ

   petite

          just a spit

blonde

        wouldnt usually attract his attention  not either

what did

           she lead with her chin

a slimpointy prow

                    a ship of selfperceived worthiness  haughty   selfcontained

he liked what he saw

hed bet no nonsense naughty

yah

     haughty rhymes with naughty

Excuse me

Yes.

   I coudnt help but notice . . .

she appreciated his notice

   he did too

1012,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  9. 23

1438,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

nine years ago  lighted from within marvelouslyoceanblue in the dark under a full Blood Moon  he killed a god fleshed as a deer

   He brought him here today

HERE

         Americans dead by Trumpvirus

he wasnt going to forget

                           he wouldnt

1,178,171  today

1,174,580  September11

     3,591 lives lost – families smashed  in 27 days 133 Americans each day

NO  he had no intentions of giving former a pass

1523,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

In Praise of Rump

he called his Dadhed appreciate it  

                                      Heya

Hiya! What are you up to this morning?

Callin you Had something to share

Something to share with your old man?

Dad youll never be old it aint in ya youre a perpetual boy

I don’t see a boy when I look in the mirror.

No  Hes inside

                 Look inside there he is

That’s kind of you.

Not really I like to think your boys informed my boy Im as old as I feel inside   Nine

his father laughed

                     Funny you should say. I'd say I feel like a teenager, able to get away with a lot more than if I were nine.

Ah Sounds like youve given it some thought

Not really, only since you’ve said.  I like the way you think.

Mirrored minds

I . . I . . . I’m not sure I know what that means.

Whaever yad like it to mean But thasnot why I called

Yes, no, you have something to share with me.

I do

     Rump roast

   Rump roast.

                 What’s that supposed to mean?

Im redefining it

And what’s that supposed to mean?

I was at the airport flying home from our visitIm a people-watcher Not so much these days as when we were younger when everyone dressed nice a banquet then now more like a bus depot in a notsogood part of town

I hear you, a far cry from the day.

Yes

      So Im in the airport fingerscrossed  AnmyOHmy  My prayers are answeredthought of you almost immediately My first thoughts naturally were reserved for her

Dad

Ya should have seen her caboose youdave fainted Im tellinya  A meaty round ass fittight inside a greenskirt wavy thick ivoryblonde hair a braid to the small of her back  like an arrow pointing to Valhalla   Heaven  Im in Heaven

Then I thought of youMyGawd  Wha a caboose 

Then just before I lost hercrowd got in the way  a last glimpse  right flank  meaty   MyGawd the meat

Hence rump roast

Follow

   I do.  I like it a lot.

Thought yawoud  Anyway  thas all I had to say well talk soon  I love ya Dad

I love you too son. Thanks for the call.

0921,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  9. 23

1106,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

STOPhe glaredhe said abruptly interrupting conversation   You stop

I’m not stopping for a squirrel, you straddle it let be what will be will be.

Speed limits 25 in residential areasThe Law

                                               This quasi-gated community you live in is no different

You can brake You can stop

It’s a squirre . .

. . Yare retired

               Where you have to be or else life will changeutterly as we know it

Ill answer FUCKINNOWHERE

I’m wasting tim . .

. . Whackin you woudnt be a waste of time

   You’re equating me with a squirrel?

Hmmhuh

          Earthling versus earthling  Yare no better

You truly believe that a squirrel and a human being are on par?

A slug an you 

                On par

Yare fuckin ridiculous

Yare okay killin an animal thaholds you up 30seconds in your ohsomeaningful uncompromising life

                                                                                                        Ooops  Entitled oops

Privileged

   When youre able to suck your cock Ill give you a second thought In the meantimeSTOP

3PM preferred, Reggaefriday, 6  10. 23

1837,  Saturday,  7  10. 23

to himself not a hafhour in Aaah shoudnt have come   Mistake

she came up behind himtouched his shoulder

                                               Having a good time?

he turned

seeing  Not having a good time.

I shoudntve let you talk me into comin My mistake

she smiled

           You surprised me when you agreed.

I wanted to see you again  Its been awhile

Aww, you miss me.  she teased

he hafsmiledshook his head I miss you on the dailyhowever you have things to do people to see  Have your approaches been successful

I’m networking.

Advertising

tippingtouching her brow to his Networking.

Sayin it softer doesnt change what it is I understand

You do?

Yes

I watched you go up to threefour groups around the pool.

I tried

May I?

Of course

What’s trying?

I introduced myself Learned their namesIll remember theirs  they wont remember mine . .

. . You don’t know tha . .

. . Care to bet

                Go up to the last group I spoke with on the other side of the hedge seated at the picnic table Say youve forgotten my name had seen me talkin with them coud they help you out save you a wee bit of embarrassment being unablejust now unable to bring it to mind

I’m not going to do that.

Yaoughta Id take you for some change

Really?

Definitely

Nevertheless.  she smileddisarmed him with her dimples she knew what she was doing  

                                                                                               What is trying?

After introducing myself one askedthey always do What do you do?

   Oh shit . .

              her smile broke in the slightiest dimples less deep too much went on in her face at once not to look like something other than it was four cars converging on an intersection at once  hesitating who has the right of way  wha was the right way  

Nice expression baby

she disregarded that 

                       So . . what did you say?

Did

     What are you reading

Yaknow 

         I don think anybody reads anymore

So I mentioned Jungs Red Book Ballards Crash Winslows Winter of Frankie Machine Katznelsons Fear Itself had to mention Graebers Wengrows The Dawn of Everything

I said A few Im currently reading

Still waters

I excused myself to freshen my drink

                                       Might think Im a souse as I downed my whiskey as I walked away Feel a bit naughty guzzling RedBreast

her smile broke out the life rafts Joe, Joe, Joe . .

. . Epizeuxis  tough act watching her smile return as her head had slowly began to shake

                                                                                               Don shake your head baby

Not important

I was humoured

Right. Doesn’t take you but just a little.

Yah I appreciate you bringing mesharing your network  Adore the hosts  RedBreast  Didnt see tha comin

I may have.

Seriously

Yes. They’re very generous.

I sought them immediately after the bartender said it was one of the whiskeys whiskys  poured me threefingers

I liked them

              They didnt ask wha I did

Gratefully

bout3 preferred,  Reggaefriday,  6  10. 23

1353,  Saturday,  7  10. 23

Jesse Ahmann  cellist  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDqJFXaFLzc

. . . squatting on an ottomanWOKEUP

he could have been more gentle with himself

                                                but

it was him afterall

                    anif he couldnt abuse himself then he certainly couldnt abuse others

tit for tat he wished his nickname were Tat for Patric rather than Butch

                                                                           Butch  Really  Where did that come from

he caught his parents at once in the kitchen talking

they looked puzzled

that wasnt encouraging

                         Well  Butch   Whered tha come from

his mother cleared her voicehis father spoke 

                                               When you were born . . you looked like a Butch, a tough cuss no nonsense.

But.  his mother spoke

                         We wouldn’t have that on your birth certificate, Patric.

   An Patric not ending with a K   Not clever

his father laughed 

                    We weren’t trying to be clever. Patric’s was a corner tavern in the old neighbourhood. 

Bucktown.

Yes.

      When no one knew where your grandfather was he could usually be found there, throwing darts, shooting pool, making a few buckskeeping things interesting, nothing serious. Your grandfather was amiable if he was anything.

And decorated

Yes.  Decorated. Respected. Kept his word.

A really good man. his mother said  Like your father.

Apple doesnt fall far from the tree

Or a peach. his father laughed Cuz, Patric, you’re a real peach.  he laughed more heartilyhis mother joining in a real couple of characters

 

squatting on an ottoman was hissed in a very strange voice in his dream hafexpected to find a serpent coiled to strikeADIOS

              not ever had a door hit him in the ass on the way out or snakebit

easier ways to wake

not ejected

           he was out capital O capital U capital T  OUTwasnt stickinround to find out what emitted that soundsentence didnt sound appealing

                                         and the dream preceding it he didnt touch it  whenever he was in a labyrinthnatural or constructed he let himself be played figured one day itll be revealed why labyrinths mazes were so prolific

had an inkling

revealed

death at its enddying in his sleep

                                            foreverdreaming

AM,  Saturday,  7  10. 23

1122,  Saturday