12.5.23


Awcomon man  Yare so full of shit you think tha gives you license

I’m telling you, my urologist suggested it to me.

Out of the blue

No. 
     I asked him.

Coerced him Woudnt let it go

I wouldn’t say that.

Yare an attorney You deposed the man

I wouldn’t say that.

Im saying it Yare argumentative without seeming so subtle verysubtle  Inevitably you try to bring things around to your perception 
            Sorry babe got my eyes closed Ive listened to you all evening You can fool some of the people but not me  
Yare selfish                                                      

Your urologist write you a prescription 
Don’t be ridiculous. a little heat under the collar

Whayave posed is ridiculous Reminds me of a story guy I worked with wanna hear it

I think you want to tell it.

the three other guys leaned they were siding with esquirethought his horseshit sounded legit

I do I also have a recommendation for you when I conclude

Well then, pray tell.

Thank you
            I worked with this guy Larry moving furniturefunny guy yagotta be funny to move furniture day-in an day-out Im funny

You are.

Thank you 
            So Larrys wife didnt want to have children just yethe didnt either so she suggested he get a vasectomy theyre reversible as opposed to having her tubes tied an untied the surgery more trauma an a reversal then dicey 
I don know how tha works these days

Makes sense.

Perfect sense Larry concurs Who doesnt like concurring  Counselor

I like to concur when I can.

Good Were still on the same page 
                                    Afterwards he has to return to the clinic with ejaculate or ejaculate at the clinic into a specimen jar Funny guy When the nurse walked him back to a room he thought she was going to give him a handjob he said to me Had I known that I would have had a vasectomy sooner.

Evidently the nurse caught the leer in his eye 
                                                She laughed bawdily leaned over grabbed a girlie mag an slapped him in the chest with it said Fat chance buddy. When you’re finished I woud have said jacking off she didnt when you’re finished please bring it to the nurse’s station. The lab will run a test to determine if your surgery took. We’ll call you.

Evidently its a few stops to confirm a vasectomy worked I thought snip snip here an a snip snip there an a couple of tralalas in the wonderful land of Oz

Any of you guys have a vasectomy

all four nodded

Allya guys have been neutered

they nodded again bobbleheads 
                                   Ya shoud have cut me off saved me tha part of the story
one asked You haven’t had a vasectomy?

OHellno I woudnt want to be shooting blanks like you guys an the Lone Ranger

they laughed

Its a great linehelp yourselves I borrowed it from a boss of mine years ago Ralph funny motherfucker

all bobbleheading

Anyways
           Larry starts thinking things got dangerous when he got thinkin He tells his wife hes tender shell have to be gentle with him As a matter of fact he tells her his urologist saps arent they directs it at counselor tells her his urologist recommended thafor his next ten orgasms orgasms sounded more like what a doctor woud say the next ten should be had by oral sex Really? she asked Yes, love, that’s what my urologist said.

She complied

bobbleheads snickered

Six to go 
         Larrys wife happens to run into the urologist an confesses to him tha she hadnt expected Larry to be so tender nor expected the doctors recommendation

The urologists howled didnt back Larry up 
                                             For tha I woudnt paid his bill Told Larry so 

Antha said counselor Yare full of shit

the three leaning in harhared

Lastly The solution regarding your deep an abiding affections for blowjobs Have one of your vertebrae removed youll be more bendy youll be able to blow yourself

the leaners howled

Borrow it also not mine belongs to Bill Hicks

5PMish,  Saturday,  6  5. 23
1304, Reggaefriday,  12  5. 23


brother quit

he was getting off the AI train 


Bullshit

No really.

No really no  Itsbeen a bug up your ass the better part of a year

You’re exagger . .
. . Im not Since its occurred to you it arises The Machine Rises consistently in our conversations anif were conversing with others without seque you bring it up irritates the hell out of me 
                                                                          Which is why you do it
You intensely dislike it.

An you intensely like it believe it can settle things between people 

If people will agree to go along with what AI determin . . 
. . People willfully disagree reason plays no part  Drones 
                                                             Were in the midst of tha shitstorm now I got a better idea pull the plug for a bit cease the 24/7dog chasing its tail the fucking pile on we cant digest it quit the loops news cycles theres no memory without biting it chewing it swallowing it digesting it  
                                                                              Its choking us to death
That’s not going to happen.

Its happening in my life 
                         No matter   You were saying getting off AI 
I am.

Praytell

I’m going to AGI.

   AGI  Chicagoland supermarkets Independent Grocers Alliance

No. G. General.

OhChrist  General  Another thing you badger me with  
                                                          The G factor  Psychometrics  Working memory tha yare lousy at Lemmesee    Ah yes quantitative an fluid an verbal reasonings  Theres perceptual organisation   An knowledge  
                                                                                                                        Yah
Yes them Artificial General Intelligence

Whas the difference

AGI has the ability to understand or learn any intellectual task we can AI performs specific tasks well.

So are theywhoever they are rebranding deep learning

I’ll need more he rolled his hands before himworked his fingers asif there were boogers on them

AI teaches computers itself to process data based on inspired by the human brain artificial neural networks It can learn to recognise complex patterns in pictures text sound other data Deep learning can be supervised semisupervised  or not at all


   So yare evolving

From AI to AGI.

Yah
      Yaint really getting off the train bro

round 1630,  Thursday,  11  5. 23
1111,  Reggaefriday,  12  5. 23
Mogwai  Batcat  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqGXIokKoek  I Love You, I’m Going to Blow Up Your School  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ub8J5SSn8DA

11.5.23


   initiative 
               he took his job seriously slathered it with gobs of initiative whichfrankly he saw as common sense
however 
          his superior or so they thought in superficial name only chided his efforts 

when common sense slams headlong into an uncrenelated unfissured fersure brainReally potato chips didnt have ridges until Ruffles toilet paper didnt have Deep Cleaning ripples until Cottonelle
Comon
       Arya fuckin dense he didnt say that  I took the initiative I coudnt wait around on you I had to act

You acted without authority.

I acted we got the account
                             I don see a downside

The downside the downside . . is a demerit against you. That’s what I’m entering into your personnel file, that you acted without my permission, without my guidance, you acted improperly, inappropriately, outside the respected hierarchy our company functions by.

   Itll function fine Ive provided it a long term revenue source it didnt have prior I hope wha you intend to enter will also includedelineate  tha despite repeated outreaches  recorded communications  I took the bull by the horns an acted to secure the company wha I believed in our best interests to  our advantage
                                                                                  If you intend not to Ill go to HR challenging any derogatory or untrue passages 
I  showed  initiative
                       An Im not going to be rebuked for it
she damn near threw the binder she was holding against the wall her hands went whiteknuckled

through nearly clenched teeththrough a grimace she said Then what I believe is our definitions of initiative differ

 

   initiative:  1. the ability to assess and initiate things independently (similar to unimaginative);  2. the power or opportunity to actor take charge before others do; 3. an act or strategy intended to resolve adifficult or impreoive asituation; a fresh approach to something.                

2121,  Monday,  8  5. 23
1404,  Thursday,  11  5. 23


he clapped his handssaid aloud Spot on 
                                            that to the director the art director of his dreams
he knew he was waking could hear birds but continued hanging around in his old apartment his old haunt forcing their hand lucid dreaming to on the sperm of the dreamedmoment  go one step furthur  

they he did not disappoint him them

he was keeping in the kitchen dining area a tall nearly to the ceiling column aquarium in murky not dirty organic water two gelatinous fish see-through pretty coloured organs

when he came up to the glass often placed his hand on it theyd appear always the same above first then the other below seemed to him a symbiosis a neighbour lived above him 
                                                                   it wasnt accidental the fish came to the glass they were awareknew each other 

the birds voices were becoming louder


   a silent god he indicated he wasnt satisfied he thought the fish were phenomenal
More

he felt the vibration off their collaboration 
                                           angst it agitated the water in the aquarium

they encouraged him to open the top to the tank
Now yare thinking

he did as directed
                   then adlibbing went into the livingroom and sat in his precious leather horsehair overstuffed armchair a small table beside it where he placed books he was reading kept a ceramic coaster he set his liquor glass coffee cup on
Brilliant

the fish emerged floated in the air to him around him nuzzled his cheeks neck relaxed on his shoulder as he read 
they felt like talcum on his skin 

the birds became raucous 
                           but just before he woke he was removed  found himself sitting outdoors in a sun chair a tiny bird alighting on the base of his thumb sipping water from the hollow between two tendons leading to his wrist   
it looked like a feathered fairy shrimp 
Drat

   he woke

b4 7,  Thursday,  11  5. 23
1218, Thursday


he was getting sick an tired of explaining his answer to buddy about how when he wrote something he felt he was taking dictation an often  sometimesmore than often  when he finished a piece put it up let it marinade  returning to it hoursdays later rereading it he had a hard time believing he wrote it 

You’ve said, what do you mean?

Wha Ive said

If you wrote it you wrote it. You’re not, or you haven’t said, hearing voices telling you what to write.

No voices no 
              Rather it feels more like something coming through me  like Im a conduit 
A medium? 
No 
     Possibly  a kind of receptive atmosphere   Certainly not tangible tactile

   I don’t understand.

Yare trying too hard Let go the notions you believenot think  believe  our meat is capable of  Think nano  Expandenlarge our bodies  Then imagine the vast room between atoms that compose us

Theres plenty room there for    whaever

So . . whatever . . . wrote what you wrote.

Sometimes
              Yessometimes I don feel I authored wha my pen put to paper my fingers depressed keys wha I wrote in light on Word   Sometimes

I don’t understand. 



he read a review by Wu about VanderMeers Veniss Underground 
                                                                     texted to buddy “ . . . the boundary between the writer and the words written, between the person and the thing, subject and inanimate object, is not as well-defined as we’d like to believe.”  mebbe thall help you understand my answer
 

   no matter 
                  he was grateful for what he  xpressed

1008,  Thursday,  11  5. 23

10.5.23


he tossed his handUp in the air interrupting 
                                              he was rude that way  if he disagreed he cut the speaker off anto if he didnt understand the context or know what they had just said

not waiting to be recognised Cathead biscuits I don know whatha is

maybe haughty because they were cut off What do you think it is?

I don knowthas why I interrupted 
                                    An old school habit I didnt know but I also knew possibly a majority of my classmates didnt either but werewithout reason too embarrassed to raise their hands to ask 
So I did  
         I don know I ask don guess Ive no problem revealin my ignorance

his head nodded accepted They’re biscuits, buttermilk, size of a cat’s head.

Ah selfexplanatory A Southern item Ive only been through the south on my way to Miami stopping only for gas 
                                                                                                                      Tasty
Ohmy yes. Soul food. Then you’re not familiar with meats and three either? 

No  Edjumacate me

It’s meat with three sides. I’ve heard it described as glorious vittles . .
. . I know vittles don want ya to think Im completely ignorant

HA! We’ve talked before, I wouldn’t describe you as ignorant, often I’m astonishing what comes out of your mouth, your perceptions.

Thank you  I apologise   I interrupted again 
                                               Glorious vittles
Yes. 
     Glorious vittles served with utmost informality . . Hon.

Thanks sweetcheeks 
                      three blackbooted dudes walking past overheard their Hon Sweetcheeks  muttered faggots between them

he leaned back in his chair watched them head out the restaurant 
                                                                       Hey 
Yes.

Care to follow me and knock the starch out of their white collars 
                                                                   A great story they wont be able to tellshare  couple of faggots handed them their ass

   Are you serious?

Comon Itll be fun the element of surprise is daunting 
                                                         Standup for brothers of all stripes

Think we can beat them.

Don know doncare but I don know a lot of things except Im game  game hear me not gay  Though nothings wrong with tha

I haven’t been in a fight forever.

Gets the blood flowing exercise  adrenaline testosterone itll be fun 
                                                                       Lets be freakin apemen know the song
No.

Ah so yare ignorant too

earlier this year, ’23
747preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  10  5. 23


it never ceased to amaze him how often he saw things lying on the ground as he walked reading

after pondering it for a long time he came to the conclusion that he recognised  however  something was out of sorts suddenly the surroundings irregular a puzzle piece missing  or didnt fit exactly

   Hmm putting a finger in the book to hold his place he stooped to see what it was in the street gutter 

it rained last night

this wasnt dislodgeddidnt make it to the storm sewer grate

he didnt poke at it with a stick

made out distinctly what it was

standing he looked up the street at a car approaching and wandered into its path waving it down

the driver stopped  through the windshield she more looked irritated not frightened 
                                                                                        he rapped at the passenger window she had just rolled upheard the doors clickLOCK
Excuse me

she pointed to her ear

he pointed to the ground several times rapidly while saying deliberately Crack the window

she cracked it

Thank you for stopping

 

Do you have a cellphone

Yes.

Would you please call 9 1 1 the police have them come to this location Sixtyoneeleven Rosario  Sixtyone eleven

Is there some trouble?

There was Tell them its evidence theyre looking for   Just  evidence

What? curiosity killed the kat

Please  Evidence 
                   Thank you  You can roll up your window again
she didnt 
she called

a car approaching from behind blew its horn and stopped

had to suppose the driver was blinddidnt see a halfblock earlier that she was stopped in the street and that there wasnt any oncoming traffic so they could have gone around

he could hear her talking repeating evidence several times

car blew its horn again 
sonofabitch really was blind  
                              he began walking towards it
driver threw it into reversebacking away enough to easily clear her rearend and sped around it
                                                                                                     because there was no oncoming traffic


he doubledback to her car

she had rolled the window all the way down
                                               They’re dispatching a squad car. which meant two coming from opposite directions to converge on Sixtyone Eleven Rosario

Thank you for taking the timeyour help for stoppingnot  running me over  

she chuckled You’re welcome. 
                                 Is there anything else I can do for youwhat’s your name?
Joe

I’m Gladys.

Thank you Gladys

Is there anything else I can do for you?

he smiled

she smiled pleasantly

Nice dimples Gladys

Oh, thank you. she blushed that was refreshing Nice to start the day off with a traffic stop and a compliment.  she laughed

she handed him her business card In case the police need anything from me. said goodbye and left

walking back to the evidence he pocketed her card

   to himself  almost Thasnot something yasee every day cut himself short  he did see something every day had one was intimate  had also castrated cattle 
                                             in the gutter lay a severed dark scrotum

220preferred,  Sunday,  7  5. 23
1111,  day-between-2-Ts,  10  5. 23


“Humanity . . . afraid  the minds we make to do our dirty work for us . . . our killing, our tearing minerals from the earth, our raking of the seas for more protein, our smelting of more metal, the collection of our trash, and the fighting of our wars will rise up against us . . . take over . . . humanity calls it fear. But it isn’t. It’s guilt . . . a revenge fantasy. We are so ashamed of what we have done as a species that we have made up . . . monster(s) to destroy ourselves with. We aren’t afraid it will happen: We hope it will. We long for it. Someone needs to make us pay the price for what we have done. . . So we invent . . . nonsense about conscious AI.”    perceptive
                                                                                    The Mountain in the Sea  Ray Nayler 

he didnt buy humanitys revenge fantasy

   punishment   suicide  She loves me she loves me not she loves me she loves me not daisy petals dandelion petals one counts ahead sees ugly drops the semidenuded flower an plucking another begins again She loves me not she loves me . . . Eeney meeny miny moe  etc etc etc  

   when he knowingly consciously crossed his parents dictates as a little boy his father would tell him
                                                                                                             Go to my closet, pick a belt. 
he had a crazy selection of belts 
                                    he pushed through them looking forfinally a cat o ninetails a goodolfashion bullwhip they werent there 
                              nothing but stout cowhide straps an metal buckles his father put away his straight edge so he couldnt even count on the fierce razor strop   just something to change it up  but it wasnt there 
randomly he grabbed one 

his bare ass inured  the last several lashes his father delivered were across the back of his thighs  Ofcourse 
Gonna have to do better than that Father 


   its punishment long overdue that Humanity needs
PAIN 
        to bring it back collectively  playing non-zero sum games 


or it can go to Hell

223preferred,  Twosday,  9  5. 23
0956,  day-between-2-Ts,  10  5. 23

9.5.23

 

three hour verdick  not tha he coud maintain one

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=87LtUyyCnRE

abusive men  walls are crumbling down

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PErUiAyVoGc

O poor entitled men  your pitifulabusive reign is splitting at its seamscomin apart

1706,  Twosday,  9  5. 23


Don call me tha

You know what it means?

Its Greek to me 
Funny.
            Any idea?

Yare the fratboy I woudnt go near one in college anymore than Id join a club the inimitable Groucho Marx I refuse to join any club tha woud have me as a member 
                                             Id rather you call me inimitable  Genuine 
You have no idea?

None 
     But since yare rarely quick with a compliment Im assuming it aint good

You know what they say about assuming.

Yes 
      So rather than volleying howbout ya just say whacha called me

You recall?

Yare not

No.  I know.

I know whaya said sigma 
                              Get on with it 
You’re correct. 
Yah
     I know

It’s slang, a compliment.

I cant loan you any moneyNo

he laughed
             Always quick with the no.

I know So whas it mean

Lone wolf, actually considered on par if not superior to the alpha male, however outside the hierarchy where the alpha is its apex. 



   now hes been enjoyingtaking to calling him an ascetic
                                                             an ascetic atheist
Possibly candidate . . 
. . For phonaesthetics

Yes.

Yah An athletic ascetic atheist  Alliteration

Now we’re going deep.

Definite candidates 
                     Who knew youd keepup on phonaesthetics

I wouldn’t if I didn’t know you . . as with hypnagogic, before falling asleep, and hypnopompic, hallucinations while wakin . . 
. . Theyre not hallucinations  Dondo tha to either 
                                                      If one is receptive they can bestow  or not valuable awareness possible messages  if one is willing to be susceptiblewilling  to be pliable pliant elastic   perceptive outside the box

Keep it up, I might call you mystic.

Im cool

A monk?

Greek asketes  

You’ve boned up.

I woudnt have unless I didnt know ya

   Are you complimenting me?

Mebbe

1209,  Twosday,  9  5. 23
Doors  Whiskey, Mystics and Men  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOxLCL-9RO8