14.11.20

 

he was heading to San Diego out of Portlandheading down the 5 

Buttonwillow was as good a place as any to stop stretch his legs get a bite  on the shoulder of the road as he exited he saw a weathered shingle that advertised a pupuseriaWha the hell was that sounded exotic he missed whose pupuseria

he found it Titas just the name warmed his heart  

then inside their curtido warmed the rest of him

he started to soften like heated wax  

Diego could wait for tomorrow it was growing dark hed spend the night the Bueno Vista Motel was right up his alley

clerk told him he lucked out one room had come open earlier that afternoon the tenant died  I thought you should know. 

I appreciate that Did heexcuse me or she die in bed

No. In the bathroom.

In the tub or shower

No. Found her on the floor.

Was she on the floor long

No. Neighbors next door heard a thud, they knew her, rapped on the door, when she didn’t answer they got me.

Ill take it for the night

We rent by the week.

he smiled 
            Ive rented by the week You collect the week upfront if not more Im gonna guess your deceased tenant probably had a couplethree days if not more time on her lease Ill give you a Ulysses yare ahead As a matter of fact if you arent the proprietor yare really ahead 

Im out before noon

the clerk smiled wolfishly

You had someone do a cursory cleaningyah Fresh sheets blanket towels washcloth  Yah

Yes. Would you like a bar of soap?

I appreciate your hospitality he said as he unfolded a Ulysses from a fold of bills he carried in his front pocket I carry my own

the clerk took the 50

I dont suppose you want me to sign your ledger but Ill need a receipt You wont have to sign in blood

the clerk scribbled on a Bueno Vista notepad and handed it to him

he looked
           You didnt sign it he handed it back

the clerk signed it and handed it back to him

Lemme see your ID   Rafael looks like Rafaelgot a tagger flair to it I know my signature has a similar flair

the clerk seemed reticent

The 50s real I just wanna make sure yare not a mirage or a spooka ghost

the clerk went the billfold in his back pocket opened it showed him his Mexican ID a matricula consular

Thank you Rafael  Yaknow that cards no longer acceptable as ID in California A recent law But why would you be carrying it if it wasnt you  Right

Okay, you say, gringo.

Close Joe My names Joe 
                            Rafael is there a bar nearbywalkin distance where I could wet my whistle I didnt see one on my way here from Titas

You know Titas?

I hadnt but I saw their sign exiting the highway Delicious Asked an employee and she told me about youthat maybe you might have a room

You could have said that earlier.

Wha an miss our tete-a-tete achieve détente

I dont know what you’re talking about.

That one of us does is plenty A bar

You saw the packaged goods store. Liquor there. In Shafter, not walking distance, Foxy Lady, halfhour.

Is it worth the roll Ive been on the road all day

Brother the kindest Rafael had been It’s worth the roll he tossed him the keys  Number 9.

he thought to himself Well shit Hendrix Beatles  The stars have aligned Appreciate that amigo 

they both started laughing

You’re welcome, gringo.

 

illuminated Gulf Corporation signs over the door once upon a time in another galaxy a long ago he hustled them two brightpink capsules on their sideone over the other  Foxy Lady in script over COCKTAILS

going through the door he saw they had a pool table money was being held and not small money he might be able to pay for his room his gas his trip dependent on if theyd play him

the barmaid approached him

she wasnt attractivewasnt homely she was however built Mickey Spillane built she had a fine First Person nose wide eyeshed have to pump her about the her freckles he had a soft spota hard on for freckles

Jess 
      she wouldnt refer to herself as a barmaid rather on the nametag on the white lapel of her black serving outfit they were a long way from Vegas maybe she was on a farm club team cutting her teeth it read in fine script diagonal from her name Cocktail Waitress

Jess I see youll be my cocktail waitress this evening

I am.

Sensational Have a house specialty you might recommend

Care for a Bloody Mary, they’re made with tequila.

Came over on a recommendation from Buttonwillow dined on pupusa and curtido  Sounds spot on Ya readin my mind 
                          he smiled she laughed she didnt cover her mouth  Trust me  yadon wanna be reading my mind 
                      she laughed harder  incandescent
he liked her

halfway through his second Bloody Mary Jess admitted she asked the bartender also a woman to pour him heavy he asked if he could buy her a drink most places hed been had allowed it until recently

she said yes Jess also had a Bloody Mary 
                                              they were getting along famously
he crossed his fingers for infamously


he didnt pressed the pool table he did cover his tab and a generous tip for Jess 


shes a cocktail waitress 
                          he wondered at closing time if she might be cajoled to open up 

or vacation in Diego with him

see where things went

 

Are you a betting girl Jess

I am.

Lets flip a coin

she smiled 

              Let me see the coin first
 
occurred early AM, Reggae Friday,  13  11. 20
1359,  Reggae Friday,  13  11. 20

 
        Friday the 13th  our luck  the president who had been mute with defeat took to the Rose Garden to actually do some work boorishly he read with occasions of epizeuxis from a prepared script  one-minute in he remarked that Pfizer announced on Monday that its China virusSTOP STOPSTOP  STOP its NOT a China virus it is a Republican-enabled Trump virus the infectionsthe deaths are on their heads the only reason they may claim that blood is not on their hands is because they threw them up in the air when they surrendered months ago  recall it will go away like magic

Pfizer announced its Republican-enabled Trump virus vaccine is more than 90 percent effective

0000,  Saturday,  14  11. 20

13.11.20

 

went into an Irish bar in Tampa Bay sounds like the beginning of a jokehuh 


a barmaid approached him and his buddy she wore a black t-shirt that read GUINNESS stretched across her ample breasts her auburn hair was pulled back into a ponytail  the quiet overhead amberlighting set it off spectacularly

walking towards each other he pointed to her breasts and said Ill take two of those

she lit up colour flashed in her cheeks they were fast friends it might have been love at-first-sight

she was a beauty

if he wasnt married he would have made play

she was a real natural beauty nothing adulterated about her  
                                                                 genuinely Irish to boot
he was mad about her freckles 
                                ansure they rained down over her breasts

 

when he returned to the hotel room he told his wife 
                                                      confession is good for the souldespite him not having one
he didnt need religion to inform him

his wife perhapsaccordingly was upset

Baby he said taking her chin between his thumb and bent indexfinger Im here I did nothing untoward

tears welled in her eyes
                          I know, I know, you’re such a flirt. Might get you in trouble one day.

Nah Ill never get in trouble I love you You have to admit there are beautiful and handsome people throughout the world Aint a damn thing wrong admitting an attraction or that someone turned your head

 


a yearyearand a half later she admitted as much  

About fucking time

Maybe. On my flight I was upgraded to First Class. A beautiful man sat across the aisle from me. He bought me a drink.

Yare a beautiful woman If I wasnt married and you were sitting across the aisle from me Id buy you a drink too

I was in the concourse when he came out of the jetway. I pointed him out to a Mickey, she wasnt upgraded, sat in coach. She said she thought he was beautiful too.

Love it Two married women finally admitting to each other that they found a man other than their husbands attractive

Sometimes you’re too enthusiastic, babe.

Its human nature We have eyes

Yes we do.

Then we agree

I hate agreeing with you.

You do particularly regarding sexuality

Regarding your appetite.

Im hungry for youyare a beautiful shapely woman How could I not be

So you say.

So Ive always said since before we became monogamous

Monogamous, who says that; monogamous?

Me Yawanme to say before we went steady  Christ

No. Monogamous . .
. . Is monogamous It wasnt love yetyoud be lying if ya said when we decided to see only each other that ya loved me

Yes. True. No argument there.

Correct You had come out of a bad relationship You were dating I hadnt been in a serious relationship for three years was playin the field

Anyway.

Anyway You and Mickey laid eyes on someone you found attractive Thats not a crime not unfaithful annot fuckin unusual


Anyway she sighed He was met in the concourse by his boyfriend and they laid a huge kiss on each other. It was apparent it had been awhile.

And

What do you mean . . and?

Sowha

What do you mean so what?

Did him swinging in the other direction diminish his attractiveness  Whaif you hadnt witnessed that

I suppose. 

He could have exited into the arms of another woman Fuckin enjoy the fact that your head was turned Dont be so staidso fuckin religious Your parents did ya no favors

Oh, your parents did?

Yup No religion an my Maw washed my cum-stained sheets   

Sunday evening,  8  11. 20
1533 or 333,  Thursday,  12  11. 20
Led Zeppelin  The Lemon Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JvCQ6ntgteQ

$244K -- Killed

                                                        the Trump virus savages American while Drumpf literally does nothing   hes sulkingbeen sulking since Election Day

1756,  Friday the Thirteenth 2020


                                                                                                         its Friday the 13th  Oklahoma Senator James Lankford said hed step in to demand President-elect Biden receive Intel briefings 

nothing in the News
                    wheres Lamkford

                a walk down Memory Lane  revisiting the Republicant Talking Heads  how they spoke in ’16  how their drivel has dried on their faces in ’20
ZOMBIES

1707,  Friday the Thirteenth 2020

12.11.20

 

Drumpf has become superannuated

See, see he crieshe agrees I’m Superannuated! . . I’m Super . what? I am . . who knows what that means?

nobody in his court is going to say
                                  nobody in his sphere has the stones
he wasnt going to say

he was happy to let him stew in his ignorance
                                                 let im stew till the meat falls off his bones

1824,  Thursday,  12  11. 20

“an employee is deemed to be superannuated upon reaching the proper age or as a result of an infirmity.

 

Say I was thinking . . 
. . Whoa, that could be dangerous, you might hurt yourself.

Funny

Thought you’d enjoy that, you’re one of few people I know who can take a joke. Sorry for interrupting. What were you thinking?

I was thinking of those menthe white supremacists the FBI thwarted who were plotting to kidnap try and execute Michigan governor Gretchen Whitmer

That was a month ago. Why were you thinking of them?

Well it occurred to me Drumpf is their Great Leaderyah

Yes.

Theyd do anything in their power to keep him in office

Ah . . obviously.

Its occurred to me being militia membershanging on every word and lie Drumpf spewed it seems unlikely they cast their ballots early  utilised their mail-in vote

Six are facing federal charges another seven facing state charges 

Drumpf lost thirteen votes

 

Why were you thinking of that?

 

 

Because Black Humour Matters
 
0209,  Reggae Friday,  6  11. 20
1351,  Thursday,  12  11. 20

 
entourage 
             he had the kind of entourage that humoured him that he enjoyed as opposed to traditional thought-of entourages 
            a bunch of pricks hanger-ons wannabes 

confederates 
               or so they think

the only thing giving them legs is their association with the cat they followedthe cat at the head in the lead 
                                                                                                                 which he considered a queer fealty

why would anyone fall into that 
                                    meybe poor selfesteem

 

he didnt go do to the mailbox until after nightfall

he was sure then that the mail would be delivered 
                                                     aint nothing worse than going down to the box and finding youre earlyANTICLIMAXTIC  premature 
                                  everyone likes to climax Comon  dareya to say otherwise ya fuckin eunuch

eunuchs can hide and excel in entourages

they dont have to go to the bathroom together
                                               not like chicks but a chick would never be a eunuch
BUT HE DIGRESSES

 

heading down to the mailbox – he didnt realise it at the time -- turning around from the empty box in the middle of the street were all five of his outdoor feral cats

the puss on their pusses was “Whadafuck ya doin?”

I was getting my mail cretins 
                               No accusations or deadpan expressions in reply not if yawanna eat in the morning

ever see a cat smile see a cat eat proverbial crow 
                                                    threaten their meal ticket and ya will

they pulled it together pulled rank and file and ascended up the hill to either side of him
                                                                                              kinda Secret Service-ish

 

entourages are made up of rascals

he liked his having four legs

he trusted them more

 

1606,  Day-between-Two-Ts  11  11. 20
2311 or 1111,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  11. 20
Savoy Brown  Savoy Brown Boogie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4S2h58kfXtQ

11.11.20

$242K -- Killed

Humpty Drumpty sat on a wall

Humpty Drumpty had a great fall

All the Kings horses and all the Kings men 


 

Interesting. 

                                Really?                                                                                               

interesting is ambivalent  it admits nothing if your intention is to say something constructive 

interesting is so much horseshit

 

he took to saying innarestin to change upcontort interesting make something more viable or virulent or vivacious of that which is mundane lackluster  tasteless
lacks commitment
senseless

were creatures of senses  at least five

why be diminutive

why kowtow

submissive

 

why not punch something in the mouth 
                                         backpedal and feign draw in  see if it comes after you
or if it covers up  or just falls down and refuses to fight


innarestin 
         
                it was innarestin he even had to explain it

 

0019,  Monday,  2  11. 20
2134,  Twosday,  10  11. 20
Savoy Brown  Lookin In  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e8KGQarFvuk

10.11.20

$240K -- Killed

“ . . . it appears (the president) has not moved past the denial phase of the grieving process ” reported by CNNs Boris Sanchez 9:39 minute-mark : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h3KUVrt3mII   

Get in line fat boy 
                    240K Americans have died and their family and friends have had to contend with their grieving 

1944,  Twosday,  10  11. 20
The White Stripes  Effect & Cause  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tzWckYfZhbA  thanks, babe 


in jail he walked a long rectangle one way several times then reversed himselfwalked in the opposite direction in the huge common room on a wide aisle between cafeteria tables at its center and bunkbeds on three walls their heads pushed up against the walls

in jail everything was pushed 
                              pushed by white guards who made their bread bullying a majority black and brown men
he was one of the few whites the other whites werent his measure so he was careful
                                                                                         his wing had been busted he was still healing 

fortunately he wasnt going to be in long he had a zealous county prosecutor but other legal partisans disagreed he should be jailed at all so he kept to himself and walked and read as he walked miles and miles around that room  a few men took up with him though not reading 
                                                concurring  If I did that I’d trip and kill myself.  

the first to follow him were the ones he gave his desserts

he didnt eat dessert 
                    as it was he was having a hard time finding food in the meal trays they were given  he supposed the kitchen or acquisitions believed crappy food was part of their punishment  guys whose families could afford it bought foodstuff through a profit-driven commissaryChrist  theres profit and then theres being ripped-off                                                                                                                                Got no choice, man. 
food they bought seemed to him comfort food  akin to packaged food they were raised on  unfortunately they were from poor neighbourhoods where food deserts were rife


an old adage tickled him while he was in  because it wasnt true
                                                                   You don’t know what you got until it’s gone.
what he had he still had  it was only absent

 

he befriended no one 
                     but as he was leaving a few of the guys said theyd miss him  fuck if theyd keep walking in circles  but theyd miss his desserts

saying it like it is

 

that he was going to miss

2109 or 909,  Sunday,  8  11. 20
1149,  Monday,  9  11. 20

9.11.20

 

two things occurred to him 
                             anwhenever something occurred to him he was tickled  they were usually unusual things that made some people scratch their heads as and after he related what he thought

You know some of them said in the future you ought to keep that to yourself.

Ya think thats odd

theyd nod

They aint Ill tell ya wha I know Im not the first to have thought it Think of all the fools and smarties that have preceded us in life 
          I aint the first an I wont be the last 

they nodded 
              You keep telling yourself that, man, imagine its comforting.

his turn to nod 
                Thankye I will

 

the first thing to occur to him that night as he bedded downmade sure the electric blanket was On set to 4 supposed to be a hard frost was  who needed a gravity blanketwha a gimmick 
                                                                      he had cats five to be precise and on cold evenings such as thishe left windows opened throughout the house often a couple beat him to bed as he headed off down the hall calling Knockin out now time to sleep Goodnight sweethearts he gave up long ago looking for them individually to wish them good night he had no idea where they hid an it was a small house

rather than an inert gravity blanket get cats or Heavens to Betsy a couple dogshe wasnt a fan because once the all the cats gathered and slept to his sidebetween his legs on them he was laying under a gravity blanket all he needed was a gag cuz he was certainly bound

that was the first 
                   the second was when waking at night to change positions or hit the head that he was considerate of his felines sometimes if it was to shift position rather than do so he accommodated them he was a fan of the hypnagogic state it was a drug hed close his eyes watch the stage show fall back to sleep 
                                                                                                 ofcourse if he had to take a leak anhe was always grateful to his body or bladder for waking him rather than going off and let him wake in the morning to find he pissed himself if he had to take a leak he announced it to his cats and slipped up the bed out from under them leaving them somewhat unmolested 
                                                    usually two or three didnt wakebudge

because he accommodated them he wondered if dog owners accommodated their dogshe didnt think so it was a certain breed that owned dogs to be fair as the breed who cared for cats  if one had a cat they certainly didnt own it
Certainement

 

back in bed it got crazy 
                       rather she was crazy she grabbed his arm I’m happy you’re a awake, I’ll be right back. she scrambled out of bed

when she returned to the bedroom she was giggling up a stormterribly pleased with herself 

Whacha doin

she climbed into bedkissed him she tasted sweet 
                                                    Im hungry for a go at a sixtynine. she giggled  Me on top.  though he couldnt see her in the dark he was sure she blushed it was unlike hershe tended to be shy at sixtynine and giggling she yanked the covers down and flipped around and got on top of himshe was quick at his cock 
                                                                                                     taking her by the hip to pull her lips to his mouth suddensomething like flowerpollen fell on his face Wha the hell and for opening his mouth to speak some pollen fell in it 
                           she tasted sweet she smelled sweet she had gone into the kitchen and dusted herself with powdered sugar  she was like eating a fresh sweet jelly Bismarck 
                                                                               like one from the San Jose bakery

 

 

thats what accommodating his cats bought him that night 
                                                           swirling white dots against a shifting blackscreen the back of his eyelids then it relentinggiving way to an erotic dream

 

yet another reasonhe dare suggest to care for pussycats
 
69 earlier in the week, then 0215 & 0222,  Reggae Friday,  6  11. 20
1439,  Monday,  9  11. 20


“Where are the doors?” 
                      a very disturbing question hed never heard before   Where are the doors
 

it appeared to be a facility  inmates people   inside of cells

cells have doors

there were no doors  they disappearedwere absorbed by the walls absorbed by the bars  there werent anythey were nonexistent

a groan in the pit of his stomach 
                                he tried to imagine being confined to space  a meat space he borrowed the term from China Miéville from which there was no escape 

confined inside a cube 


imagine 
         the 
              despair 
the 
    hopelessness


or maybe the last thing we need are doors
 
1251 or 0051,  Moanday, eve of Drumpfs dismissal,  21  1. 20
1359,  Sunnyday,  8  11. 20

8.11.20

$238K -- Killed

   for the fourth consecutive day America has broken its single-day record for new Trump virus cases 134,000 testing positive 
         1100 American deaths Saturday

the president wont conceded these facts any more than hell concede his electoral defeat

1619,  Sunday,  8  11. 20


        on 20 January 2021 President O’Biden plans to sign a flurry of executive orders

some will be rejoining the Paris climate accord; reverse Drumpfs withdrawal from the World Health Organisation; repeal the ban on almost all travel from some Muslim-majority countries; reinstate the program allowing “dreamers” to remain in-country; reverse Drumpfs rollback on 100 public health and environmental rules the Obama administration had in place; institute new ethnic guidelines at the White House; sign an order saying that no member of his administration could influence any Justice Department investigations 
                                                          as Drumpf attempted to erase President Obamas eight-year achievements  President O’Biden will help erase the Drumpf debacle

1641,  Sunday,  8  11. 20