opportunities knock in the Republican world

                                                Fuck it  its a virus  a smokescreen

A brilliant opportunity! Drumpf and Barr might saymight collude

https://www.msnbc.com/the-beat-with-ari/watch/virus-power-grab-trump-admin-seeks-sweeping-powers-to-detain-without-trial-during-pandemic-81397317929

memorializing  ad nauseum

1812,  April Fools,  2020

White House admits the next two weeks will be tough

                                                          100,000 to a quarter million deaths

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVgXV0mHtbI

memorialising  ad nauseum

1756,  April Fools  2020

Aye yai yai 

            Ey . . Ey . . . EY he knew Faker knew Spanish   Me Me  ME!

evidently according to the president  New York hit Pay Dirt acquiring emergency Federal provisions for the coronavirus

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/video/news/video-2142568/Video-Trump-says-Cuomo-hit-pay-dirt-help-coronavirus.html?ns_mchannel=rss&ito=1490&ns_campaign=1490

just memorialising – thats what he did

1700,  April Fools! 2020

he hadnt walked this wayon the side of the road  in four months  truly   itd been four months he was called away suddenlyplucked like a weed

                                a tall proud weed conspicuous 

standing up straight                                                                                                                       

righteous?                                                                                                                               

probably                       

probably

           thats what beatings get you

getting beat

then getting back up

he learned from his beatings they taught him skills

he learned to defend himself and win  and then the challenges became fewer and fewer

because those who opposed him didnt like getting beat up                                                                  

some think its a dog-eat-dog world

he preferred equality

the long string of wins he enjoyed were wins he had convincing them  dog by dog

Ah it was asif the street hadnt changed in his absence which was impossible though he liked that he imagined it hadnt

that it stayed as it was  waiting for his return

maybe it did

there werent any runover crushed squirrels to pick gently up off the street

1337,  Twosday,  31  3. 20

1156,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  4. 20

not an April Fools joke

fucking Texas 

the coronavirus provides opportunities

2-1 The Fifth Circuit Court of Appeals has banned abortions deeming them non-essential procedures

the dissenting judges name was published James Dennis however the two judges who ought to be forced as theyre forcing ought to be forced to support the children who may be born were not  perhaps they may believe “life begins at conception and ends at birth”

1348,  Wednesday,  1  4. 20

https://thehill.com/policy/healthcare/490415-appeals-court-allows-texas-to-implement-ban-on-abortion-during-pandemic  https://www.salon.com/2015/05/27/republicans_think_life_begins_at_conception_and_ends_at_birth_how_pro_life_conservatives_continue_to_de_value_life/

he closed Chazes Black Wings he was readingkept a finger in it to hold his spot and sat down on a bus stop bench to close his eyes and listen to the sounds of the construction site across the avenue the parkway listen to its hem and haw its buzz like out of a bee hive the buzz that was in his blood

he didnt listen long

the sounds these many years later werent as comforting as they once were there were no hammer blows the bang bang staccatothe measured blows that pounded a 16penny nail in with each strike

                                                                                       instead he heard the soundthe erratic pneumatic punctuation of nailguns the chachachachacha inhale of tanks filling the dry umbilicals dragged from place to place skittering like inorganic snakes and the dull slapshots they made as they banged against the plywood sheets that the workmen appliednailing the plywood to the skeletal studs while working off mobile hydraulic lifts

they were effeminate carpenters who wore fake nailbags and often fingered their cellphones fat men who pulled triggers their bellys hanging over webbed belts trussed and steadied by wide suspenders 

there wasnt an athlete among them  

but he supposed there didnt have to be the job wasnt physical any longer

there were no ladders scaffoldings or jacks lifts rather that wheezed like persistent ventilators aiding unwell patients  

AHhe shook his head and stood up  the buzz still in his blood 

he opened the book 

                     “Jeepie’s face became a tangle of shining black, a modernistic tangle of fluid and flesh where bullets from the cover tore into it . . .”

Kahrist he said closing the book on his finger again One more death Happy its literal   

1404,  Twosday,  17  9. 19

1047,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  4. 20

he came up to her on her bed and kissed her goodmorning then because there wasnt room to sit beside her he took a seat on a black metal folding chair at her feet

she smiled quickly at himher impish smile she was up to something she then returned her attention to her cellfone that she had been going through when he entered her bedroom  

she wasnt absently finger it certainly wasnt overtly deliberate

he sat  he began to ask her how her night wasif she had rested well

she smiled at him againbigger than the first as a song started from out of her fone

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2DXt11SMNI

he wasnt listening just yet he was still occupied if she rested or not she hadnt been and he was also still preoccupied with his own thoughtsshaking out the cobwebs of his deep sleep and the stickier cobwebs of his crazedfantastic dreams

then he heard

             . . . Toast to the ones that we lost along the way . . .

                                                                        and he stopped thinking and listened

he didnt know the song

obviously she did

he tried his best to hide the tears that welled in his eyes

when he looked up at her he saw tears her eyes We’re a pair, aren’t we? she said

Yah Quite a pair

then they said nothing more  

just listened

              and listening looked into the others eyes

0901,  Friday,  20  9. 19

1213,  Twosday,  31  3. 20

Maroon 5  Memories

she was the lifeguard  shapely in her red swimsuit  her striking blonde hair pulled back into a heavy ponytail   

Ill take a deep breath he thought hold it throw up a hand go limp and sink towards the bottom

turning lazily as he drifted he saw that the surface looked like a sheet of mercury and he watched it split and boil as she shot through it and kicked down towards him

beyond her heels it went suddenly pale like components of a lavalamp cooling  congealing and as she swam it was like seeing her through a sheet of clean green cellophane

she curved and curled around him slid along his back and shoulders she was smaller than she had looked in the distance 

her hand hooked into his armpitthe crook of her elbow at his throat he felt her brace him hard  kick up  and kicking up they rose in a futuristic love embrace 

                                        a love with all the heat taken out of it

without affection

love of purpose

he didnt want her to be angry with him so hed inhale the green water suddenlyaerated by his escaping breath so she could save him from drowning

thinking about it  he nixed the idea 

there had to be better ways to meet a girl

1220,  Thursday,  19  9. 19

1059,  Twosday,  31  3. 20

Steve Winwood  While You See A Chance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WfpTSmlyqG4

he looked at his daughters as they sat together on the eldests bed it was in the tiled sunroom at the back of her house  

the bed was there because the room offered the least obstructions it afforded them the best access to her

                                                                                                              and one really couldnt beat the wall of glass between the room and the outdoors separated by the quiet simple white woodwork that concealed the structural posts and headers that supported the tall angled openbeam ceiling

it was a warm beautiful room

                                and after she was in it not but for a week she wondered out loud speaking to her husband and children Why didn’t we use this room more often?

then they shrugged in answer

she shrugged in reply Dumb.

she looked at him Dadu?

I agree Dumb Whats with the Dadu

she smiled I went to text you once, dad u running late, I think that was it, you know how much you don’t care for our shorthand when texting, and I struck d-a-d-u. I went to correct it, but saying it, Dadu, I found I like it, so I coopted it as my pet name for you; you and Mom had pet names for us, Sis and I, while we were growing up, but you and Mom were always Dad, Mom. Not much room for play.

So . . my pet name is owed to an error

she smiled bigger her wicked dimplesher lovely dimplesthe dimples she and her sister shared with their mother carved her cheeks he didnt have dimples  maybe he was envious that was their attractive familial trait aside from their sex that bound themthat made them an incorruptible bloc in their democratic household

especially on football Sundays

the girls were painted the light of the sunset reflecting off the tall bamboo grass that wove itself through the roots of old shaggy cypresses

Thats the damnedest sunset  Huh girls

they looked up at him briefly then out the window they had been too consumed in their conversation to notice

his youngest said  It’s a beaut, Dad!

his eldest nodded smiled big the ventilator mask she had placed on her face hissed as her smile broke the seal

the damnedest sunset happened to be just then under his finger his finger holding his place as he saw it peripherally the encroaching colouring in the room through the windowpanes

                                                                    so he dropped his head since he had their attention and continued to read smeared like sirup of opals over everything and dripping off the clouds the way molten metal comes out of the ladle in a steel mill

Thats Elliot Chazes Black Wings Has My Angel

Wouldntve expect that language out of a noir novel woudja

they shook they heads no

                            and as they did he flashed back to when they were little girls at bedtime and he read to them

it was a small comfort

                        when their comfort was a rare commodity

he smiled at them a small tear in his eye

his youngest smiled and said  We remember too, Dad. We remember too.

sometimes they talked without talking 

11ishness,  Thursday,  19  9. 19

1422,  Monday,  30  3. 20

he foundapparently  he was in the business of memorialising the words of the FAKE President

he didnt have a Twitter account

                                  but he found his way to cunts account to his offensive garnishing outlandish tweets  which he will remember were written the midst of the deadly Coronavirus outbreak 

his girlfriend had texted him about a virus in China in December and cautioned him then to exercise caution with extreme prejudice which made him laugh she used his line as he did whenever he was trying to make a point with her

his girlfriend because of her compromised immune system recognised that the virus was a threat to her in America

he texted  : :  Aren’t you being a little over the top

she texted  : :  NO

she advised him in December  shes an everyday common American  except she has a bent to protect her health whenever and however she can

she hit the nail on the head  drove in a 16penny nail with a single strike of her framing hammer          

@realDonaldTrump  0934 29 March 2020  “The Lamestream Media  ohso clever  wants us to fail. whos us That will NEVER happen!”

@realDonaldTrump  1006  29 March 2020  “Because the ‘Ratings’ of my News Conferences etc. are so high, ‘Bachelor finale, Monday Night Football type numbers’ according to the @nytimes, the Lamestream Media is going CRAZY. ‘Trump is reaching too many people, we must stop him.’ said one lunatic. if it was only one  who  See you at 5:00 P.M.!”

@realDonaldTrump  1048  29 March 2020  “President Trump the president refers to himself as President Trump is a ratings hit. Since reviving the daily White House briefing Mr. Trump and his coronavirus updates have attracted an average audience of 8.5 million on cable news,roughly the viewership of the season finale of ‘The Bachelor.’ Numbers are continuing to rise …”

almost breathless pronouncements

what an ahole

1345,  Monday,  30  3. 20   

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/even-now-trump-preoccupied-one-metric-tv-ratings-n1172011?cid=eml_mra_20200330

she felt someone touch her shoulder

she turnedher breasts brushing the bar  turned to the side of her touched shoulder

even before she completed her turnsaw who it was they said You know, you’re gonna have to stop talking like that.

she recognised Daisys voice

                              her grandfather was Don he was the bus driver of the bus they took to work together

Daisy liked that her grandfather was driving and that she got to see him every weekday which excused her from seeing him on weekends with the rest of her family

Talk like what Daisy

What everyone in the bar can hear you talking  this . . this isnt the placeyou know, to be speaking as vociferously as you are.

Beth squinched her nose relaxed it Did you say vociferouslydija look that up knowing Id be here this evening  so cute coming out of your mouth

                           I think you might have been coached

I was coached?

Bill William  doesnt like my politics  And he doesnt like you having our friendship  Despite us preceding him

You’re ridiculous; he doesn’t like us having a friendship . .

. . No Bills heads up his ass when it comes to politics He spouts what his old man sayshe doesnt have his own position he does what Daddy says But that keeps him employed at Daddys business

                                                                                  And if you dont toe the line he cant have you to his parents house for dinners and gatherings

You forget youre a catch Daisy 

Anyone on your arm looks sharp successful

Daisys jaw had swung open hung

she closed it 

              How do you really feel?               

I feel I misspoke You know the meaning of the word vociferously

Jesus, Beth. Half the time, no, better than half the time, I think you come here looking for an argument; if you were a guy, maybe looking for a fight.

A woman can look for a fight too

                                   I appreciate that Bill would prefer you servile  accommodate him be a pretty face however Im the one putting egg on your face if you agree with me an you should you should  solely based on the fact that youre a woman  and the presidents a pig and Bill believes every word out of his mouth because Daddy says hes a good presidentmakes sound decisions

He is the president. But you call him the fake president . .

. . I do He is

He's the president; he’s our president.

Did you vote for him

You know I didn’t.

Hes a faker

He was elected.

He was

But hes never addressed mehe spouts what he thinksknows what his legions want to hearexcuse me His white legions want to hear

A racist . .

. . Yes And a liar A miscreant A misogynist A misanthrope  Like Bill a Daddys boyyour Daddy ever gift you millions of dollarsever pull your ass financially out of bad dealsbad debts you made

                                                                             Selfmade Suck my dick

Everyone in the bar heard you call him a fake president, and that makes you sound stupid.

Fake sounds stupid

You sound stupid when you call him a fake president.

Hes fake How is he fake Hes fake like when were fake when women are fake

Oh please, you want to malign women; you’re a woman.

I am then Beth smiledshe smiled that lusty lascivious wicked smile she was known for dicks grew as men caught the expression on her faceher profile reflected in the mirror behind the bar I am she growled deep in her throat 

                                                                                                                         and deeply and quietly she continued Joe my boyfriendyou know Joe youve told me youd fuck him if I wasnt seeing him my loyal Joe I told him youd fuck him if he wasnt seeing me he said hed fuck you to if he wasnt Joe my boyfriendmy determinedmy inexhaustible Joe who badly wants to pleasure me who is determined that I should cum too

But yaknow sometimes Im tirednot in the right mood and I just want a short sweet fuck

So I fake it

I must be a good actress or he just doesnt say And after all our lovemaking he cuddles meholds me in his arms from behind  And we fall asleep

I fake it

You fakeprobably every woman in this bar has faked it

But that joker fakes it day in and day out 

He doesnt have an honest bone in his bodyhe probably cant get a bone without a prescription 

                                                                                              Beth cleared her voice Hes fake  A fake president

Tell Bill I said so 

                  But I think he heard me earlier and may have tried to keep you with him rather than stopping over to see me say hello talk with your friend

Or worse sent you over to tell me to be quiet because I offend his sensibilities  Daddys sensibilities

I could imaginesorry him saying if I were a guy hed punch me in the mouth to shut me up

If I were a guy hed try to punch me

AhDaisy Nepotism can be a beautiful thinghuh It makes fake people

But I aint telling you something I havent said before

1431,  Saturday,  28  3. 20

Cat Stevens  Hard Headed Woman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGOB4_EuDDI  https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2020/03/presidents-character-unequal-task/608743/?utm_source=newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=atlantic-daily-newsletter&utm_content=20200327&silverid-ref=MzI3NDE2MDg4ODMyS0                                          

Oh Joy!

         no reasonno reason at all to protect our environment from me-first bottom-line bottom-feeder industries

https://thehill.com/policy/energy-environment/489753-epa-suspends-enforcement-of-environmental-laws-amid-coronavirus

pneumatic nailguns work every bit as good as handguns

1858,  Sunday,  29  3. 20

Dead Kennedys  Kill the Poor  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqnaHDdvh5I

nepotism has no shame

                          God bless him

https://www.politico.com/news/magazine/2020/03/29/falwell-liberty-university-coronavirus-covid-19-pandemic-152467?nname=playbook&nid=0000014f-1646-d88f-a1cf-5f46b7bd0000&nrid=00000167-851a-d01a-a567-d79e0c9d0000&nlid=630318

                                 kinda like slowing down to look at a multi-vehicle wreck with blood on the pavement

1752,  Sunday,  29  3. 20

President Obama was attacked for leading from behind – in regards to Libya  not the North American continent – his purported failingshis sins are grotesquely minor and oblique when compared to Drumpf  a fake president  and his ample ass leading woefully from behind

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/states-in-chaotic-scramble-for-supplies-without-federal-covid-leadership-81303621644

1722,  Sunday,  29  3. 20

https://foreignpolicy.com/2011/10/27/who-really-said-obama-was-leading-from-behind/

empath

if anyone else had said it about themselves hed say Horseshit

he held his tongue

                   he didnt have to bite it

You wanna assume that

Assume who I amwhat I am?

Goodness  Not used to you being testy or defen . .

. . You don’t usually question me.

Im not 

I asked a simple question

As I understand it psychs describe empaths as people who experience great empathy . .

. . I do . .

. . You do  Yaint telling me what I dont know

However they also describe empaths that they often take on the pain of others at their own expense

                                                                                                          Baggage and you should know emphaticallycorrect Im teasing first  I believe people ought to carry their own weight  second questioning you or asking you a question are two separate two different things

I asked you a question

I ask because your grandmother put that away She saidadmitted that she didnt want the responsibility the awesome irrevocably responsibility for othersfor their welfare at her expense

The way I see it  people smell that smell empathy on you and theyll suck you dry  And when you pullback to safeguard your health your mental and physical health  as is your right they think it aintyoure not allowed  Youre not allowed to trade horses midstream And youll always be midstream according to  them

According to them?

According to them

According to them?

You want it Then okay According to those fucks

Happy

I’m happy you’re being honest . .

. . As Ive always been

I know you know

I never talked with Gramma about her refusal, as you say, to be other than who she was suppo . .

. . Ask her

Youve always been a kind gentle girl willing to turn your cheek 

Though some people arent going to let you

And it seems today that there are more fucks than people willing to meet you halfway

Saw that when I was a young man

There are those who deserve the hand out the help up

But then there are those who dont

One at a time

Person by person

I aint generalising I wouldnt

An empath you open yourself up

That’s who I am.

Also who you are is yaint stupid

You tell me you can balance this go whole hog

But I raised you

I may not have known you youre whole life but I raised youyour mother raised you And Im sorry to say Look what your mother got

She didnt call herself an empath No

                                       But look what she got

I wish I could say through no fault of her ownI wish

Life is mean girl

Yet you have always said you've looked only to be happy.

It seems you should know  Ive had to carve my happiness out My abruptness My  wha your sister call it  ah cantankerous

Thats correct

There are those who fuck and those who are fucked

Better to be a fiftyone fortynine fucker cuz aint a soul alive who can straddle that line

You be who you are That I believe in

I just wish I could protect you

Protect me from myself?

Youre the empath You know that answer

Best we leave it I love you 

Your life is your life Absolutely

I love you, Dadu

Dadu Aint gonna let that Dadushit go are you

Nope

Awwell Once a mistakealways a mistake

1823,  Saturday,  28  3. 20

Classic IV  Spooky   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qpo9KZYJ4sA