to be fair when so many arentsimply refuse to be 

in full disclosure when so many have to go back again and again to correct their omissions Ohgolly shucks, I just forget, really.

there was one other thing that drove him nuts 

                                                 that when he forgotgot too busy  was distracted  that he suffered 
no one else should suffer it but sometimes he became short  his failing  it wasnt anyones fault other than his own

he confessed earlier that after he bathed and thenTHEN had to take a shit THAT pissed him off to no endREALLY his bowels couldnt have tapped him on the shoulderwhispered in his ear Hey, man, if you wait another fifteentwenty minutes we’re going to have a healthy one a happy descendant from your colon to your rectum to be expelled  ifya wait just a bit longer, buddy Dont call me buddy  Dont call me boss
                                                               that other thing which drove him nuts was when he showered dried himself he forgot to clean his ears with Q-Tips

he never forgot his kids ears while raising them 

on occasion he forgot himself  forgot himself after they moved away

                                                                        funny isnt it how your kids hold your feet to a fire and you benefit then separated you mislay the occasion youd never misplace it while they were home  youd rather go to hell when they were kids

what is that

parental responsibility 

                         a responsibility youd forego  which makes no fucking sense at all

forgetting to clean his ears hed go on with the rest of his day asif underwater  his ears begging  sticking his little fingers in his ears bought him nothingnada  zip  shit

zipshit 

        he hated being on the end of zipshit'

then when he found himself therefound himself turning on a spit  held by the gills  ugly when you hold a fish like that  uglier when you hold yourself by the throat which reminded him  autoerotic asphyxiation two of his friendsnot buddies died that way he never did find out if the magazines spread out at their feet were the ones he got into their hands

funny not really to think how sexual proclivities might kill someone such proclivities appetites killed a few acquaintances or their spouses touchy touchy  touchy  a wife of an acquaintance came to him she admitted she offed her husband now she was free he sawdidnt he that they could be together she wouldnt be cheating on him not now
whoa WOW

              that was one fuckin telephone call to make to the police

he really hated it when he forgot to clean his ears with Q-Tips 

                                                                   unsavory memories had at him

shortly after 1700,  Friday,  22  2. 19

1616,  Saturday,  23  2. 19

Cream  White Room  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rx37aGw_Rcg

abnormal

everyone should know that Drumpfthe FAKE PRESIDENT incites racist terrorists with his words  SEE that what a leader does  http://nymag.com/intelligencer/2019/02/christopher-hasson-donald-trump-responsible-coast-guard-officer-terrorism-plot.html

everyone should know that an attorney Drumpf considered hiring to represent him as president  Joe diGenova

a talking head featured on FOX (an organisation which seemingly wants blood on the streets) brays We are in a civil war . . as I say to my friends, I do two things, I vote and I buy guns. https://www.cnsnews.com/blog/michael-w-chapman/digenova-we-are-civil-war-i-vote-and-i-buy-guns

everyone should know that Drumpf probably wouldnt have addressed the white nationalist (it had been 48 hours) arrested in Maryland not too many miles from Washington DC  if Hallie Jackson hadnt pressed him hadnt asked him stepped heavy on the metal Do you think you bear any responsibility for moderating your language, when it comes to (incitement)?

               to which cunt replied No, I don’t. I think my language is very nice. smirked

everyone?

            everyone ought to keep their fuckin eye on the bouncing ball 

this is an abnormal state of affairs  unhealthy

this FAKE PRESIDENT  is not normal

he was concerned that Drumpfs a lackey does exactly as hes told   though it makes his leadership easier

afternoon,  Friday,  22  2. 19

1425,  Saturday,  23  2. 19

694 days remaining or less

Jefferson Starship  Hijack  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H57IyHNq-_8

Awah there you go  he thought   So thats what thats like

now he could relate

he finally got it

all these years he got their frustrationtheir irritation he got their exasperated expressions

but he couldnt relate 

                      he couldnt relate to their slipped straps ill-fitting bras poor-fitting cups the frustration that forced them to growl and not bother to seek privacy to adjust themselvesdamn near stopping midstridesetting down whatever might be in their handsthrowing out an Excuse me  not that they sought you to excuse them  they didnt care what you thought

he could finally relate

he dressed in a hurry

was running late for workhe grabbed a pair of Jockey briefs from the highboy drawer

threw them on  

dressed

got the hell out of Dodge

there were a lot of cases to top stock

a lot of squatting pulling product forwardfacing to determine if he might be able to stock shelves rather than climb the step ladder

not forty minutes in  into his nonstop humping squatting climbing he got freakin irritated

he excused himself to his coworker and went to the bathroom

Wha da fuck 

              he unbuttoned his pants yanked them down to his thighs he thought maybe a scrap of packing tape from the move got droppedmixed in with his underwear

NOPE

old pair of Jockeys

should have thrown them away

there were holes in the pouch

he was finding the holes with his scrotum and cock as he moved walked CHRIST

yaknow halfway through the night he found that he didnt bother going to the bathroom to adjust himself he threw out an Excuse me without lookingwithout caring and arranged himself  plunging his hand into his underwear plucking himself free

             until the next time

he could relate

2202,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20  2. 19

1426,  Friday,  22  2. 19

in 1973 Robert Dixon with the Office of Legal Counsel of the U S Department of Justice considered  . . during the past century the duties of the presidency, however, have become so onerous that a president may not be able fully to discharge the power and duties of his office if he had to defend a criminal prosecution.

for his remark – which should be remembered was tendered in light of Dixons consideration of the indictment of Vice-President Spiro Agnew – for his remark there is the belief (I believe mistaken) that a sitting president cannot be indicted

“because his duties have become so onerous”

Drumpf definitely sitting does not have onerous duties

                                                         as a matter of fact since the Democrats landslide victory in the midterm elections last year 60% of his presidential schedule has been given over to unstructured time

the remaining 40% of his schedule therefore can be described as structured time  and his structured time seems filled with MAGA rallies and golf

Drumpf can be indicted  he has ample time to defend himself

and the sooner the better for the health of the nation

0020,  Friday,  22  2. 19

1330,  Friday,  22  2. 19

695 days remaining or less

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/doj-policy-on-indicting-a-president-has-weak-basis-in-1973-memo-1446554691613

CBS  https://www.cbsnews.com/news/trump-spent-60-percent-of-working-hours-in-executive-time-in-past-3-months-schedules-show/ 

Politico  https://www.politico.com/story/2018/10/29/trump-daily-schedule-executive-time-944996

https://www.politico.com/story/2019/02/21/trump-coast-guard-officer-1179749?nname=playbook&nid=0000014f-1646-d88f-a1cf-5f46b7bd0000&nrid=00000167-851a-d01a-a567-d79e0c9d0000&nlid=630318 Lemme guess . . hell say something like You (have) some very bad people . . but you also (have) people that (are) very fine people . .  

that  made him uncomfortable

he hoped the others saw what he was looking at  he moved in his shoes

casually he stepped aside and looked at them

they looked staidlooked as comfortableas comfortable as he was uncomfortable

How many rooms did you need? the motel clerk asked as he stood up from the old caster wood armchair he sat in  

Four rooms, doubled beds, replied Manny which had been how they slept over the past week as they traveled together

Four Rooms. Double beds. We have those.

Fine . .

. . Three  Three rooms he interrupted  I think Ill stay across the road . .

. . Their amenities, across the road, pale in regards to ours the clerk said

Im not interested in amenities  A bed a toilet a shower Im good

What are you talking about? Manny said turning to him

Ill be just across the road

This is a family trip. We’ve come this far together. Manny didntwasnt reading his facehis expression following his eyes he kept turning them to the enormous antique roll top desk behind the clerk  

An amazing piece of furniture he said to the clerk he was done trying to have Manny take the bait he cast

the clerk didnt turn to acknowledge the desk Thank you.dismissing him So it’ll be the three rooms then. Just three rooms?

Manny shook his head at him You’re sure you don’t wan . . 

. . Theres probably four rooms across the street too Small town not many tourists

Then, three rooms? the clerk asked again

Yawanna step outside a moment Manny Gang  he motioned to the others started backpedaling to the door

the rest of the family looked to Manny to this point hed been lead

I think we’re fine here, Joe. I happen to like the amenities offered . .

. . Outstanding amenities the clerk chimed . . 

. . Uh, I like the amenities, Joe Manny briefly eyed the clerk glaring Don’t interrupt

Then you should take the three rooms Manny Im going across the street

What’s wrong with you?

If youll step . . 

. . I’m tired, don’t want to be doing gymnastics; we decided earlier we’d stay here  standing between him and Manny the rest of the family nodded

Take the three rooms 

Manny turned back to the clerk as did the rest of the family 

Joe excused himselfwent out the screen door into the sunlight and began crossing the sparkling graveled parking lot a blue pool at his left behind an intimidating black wroughtiron fence  the fence was out of character for the grounds

he crossed the small two lane roadnearly without looking still botheredstill uncomfortable but the distance between him and the motel at his back was making him feel better despite the annoyance Manny didnt step outside with him 

he was done a long time ago with people trying to steer himno matter if they were family

choices everyones welcome to their choices 

they laid eyes on what he laid eyes onsaw what he saw he was distracted  they werent

over the clerks shoulder on top of the desk was a freestanding sign BACK IN TEN MINUTES 
                                                                                                    if he was back
why was the sign still up  why didnt he take it down

because he wasnt back

the clerk wasnt back

colour him suspicious

later the family went to dinner together at a fish fry down by the river had some beers at a bar shot some pool retired for the evening

that night he woke to the sound of brakes on gravelpolice lights turning on the curtain hanging in his window

Fuckin knew it he cursed fuckin knew it

the clerk wasnt the clerk 

the clerk and cohorts robbed his family of whatever cash had and stole their cars

what his family did realise see was that their cars left in different directions at the crossroads

otherwise  they were safe  

violence was threatened

but it wasnt necessary

probably a good thing he wasnt there

                                        his sister said as much 

she knew him too well

but evidently not enough to cross her husband

2013,  Monday,  18  2. 19

1535,  Thursday,  21  2. 19

he listened to MSNBCs Morning cup of Joe mourning showing as Drumpfs rhetoricstrategy was discussed his repugnant accusations that mediajournalism in particular  were enemies of the people   that media is FAKE NEWS 

it was breathtaking 

the segment is titled  Only Tyrants Use Terms Like ‘Enemy of the People’  however hed push back not only tyrants wannabe tyrants and Americas wannabe tyrant should first have tried to master being a man  complicating things now because hes also a wannabe man

he takes perverse delight in inciting violence and then is offended  Who? Me?  he doesnt see how his words offend or incite he says   

the dullardthe dotard reminds him of MADs Alfred E Neuman  What, me worry?

Drumpf ought to worry

                        the shit hes stepped in he cant wipe from his sole with a stick its hit the fan  and leaves those who do not believe his lies to retch at his unwholesome effluvia

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UX3s8txYLrU

1341,  Thursday,  21  2. 19

696 days remaining or less

opium

it had been a long walk

he wasnt tired

he had anticipated it 

                     he slung a rucksack over his shoulder  inside it were four other books so he could change his entertainment between themchange channels as it were  when one storyline or subject began to weary him he entered another book 

as a result his walks were never laborious  

                                             not as long as he could read as he walked

the morning had become afternoon and afternoon was beginning to submit  the light failing the sun setting 

he pulled upstopped walking and stood in one place on the sidewalk beside Main oblivious of the sparse traffic  had there been other pedestrians he would have acknowledged them but they were few and far between

standing fast he finished the astonishing page he was reading  The Soul of an Octopus

if the light held he wouldnt have put it away 

the book was the choicest morsel and he purposefully held off for it to be like dessert after dinner he liked the idea of dessert but since he lived alone he didnt have it afterwards he anticipated hed walk unentertained though yet chewing and tonguing and ruminating upon the realisations the books offered and also on imagined possibilities that occurred to him and churned his mind 

                        recently he began texting them to himself and later able to sort them and elaborate   

he was never truly not entertained

he walked approximately fourteen milesfourteen miles absorbed in history fascism poetry and erotica Nin and Miller knew their stuff piqued his ardor by his figuring hed be home as dark fell a mere mile and a half away

the last bit of his walk now was removed from words and their characters gone he was curious what would arrest his attentionhow would he wander

he closed the book on his finger and looked uplooked at the sky

there was his ridiculous answer

                                       the clouds

an amber whale spirit surged north working its way towards the flashing sun that broke between thunderheads its sudden rays celestial beacons a brilliant lighthouse working against a quiet fog  waves broke on the leviathans flank as surf would break on a sandy atoll a reef exposed at low tide and boiled and sputtered and rinsed away

huge orange birds flew over its back eyeing the sea for hapless fish that fled before it

now walking again he slowly turned his gaze east and saw that the moon had risen it was nearly full  a gleaming white orb a grinning polished skull there for a moment then absorbedswallowed by long entwined coiled gray snakes gray thunderheads that possibly were weeping rain thirtyforty miles away or turning men and women into stone who dared to gaze at Medusa

a soft rain began he thought hed make home before it began  not a terrible game to lose he placed a bookmarker and closed The Soul and slipped it safely among its brethren in the rucksack

the whale submerged the birds dissipated the lighthouse was cloaked yet a dull coppery light persisted

the rain softly beating the trees and earth and structures made them submit  he heard them inhaleheard them exhale then speak over each other a delicious cacophony a sensuous murmuring  and in the air he could smell the perfume fragrance ordours of their breaths

                                            it reminded him of opium

2018,  Sunday,  17  2. 19 

1119,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  20  2. 19 

https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/what-led-mccabe-to-order-a-counterintel-investigation-into-trump-1444982851525

Drumpf tweets coup "a sudden, violent, and illegal seizure of power from a government" illegal and treasonous he shrills in text  

a coup isnt the beginnings of an investigation senior FBI officials commenced per dire suspicions nor is it the 25th Amendment set forth in our Constitution

Oh brother he thought or should he have sighed Oh Big Brother 

1737,  Twosday,  19  2. 19

698 days remaining or fewer

a solitary vulture circled in the sky like a drunk weaving out of a bar at the end of the night whoa  whoa whoaah whoa   Ah shit 

          then somehow other barflies found himhow they found themselves hed never knew  but he never questioned anything that happened naturally  they coalesced like lazybeads of mercury on bathroom tiles from a broken thermometer  their numbers grew  quicklyindeterminately he guessed twentysomething two twentyfive maybe  maybe thirty  thirty drunks having spun off their barstools congregating  hazardously  pointing wingtips accusing each other circling clockwise daring one among them to turn counterclockwise and bring their flurrytheir tall cyclone down out of the sky

abstractly they reminded him of the ManOWars the frigates he searched the South Pacific sky for with glasses to lead the seiner he was aboard to tuna  looking for birds or sodden logs a rope anything afloat that a food chain might gather beneath  old fishermen swore that for every bird in the sky ten tons of tuna were under it  he remembered once when there were more birds than he could count and on two successive sets they brought onboard twohundred an forty twohundred an twenty tons of fish after beginning the voyage with a drought that lasted forty days and ended only after Jamaicans performed an exorcism to free the ship of its former assistant engineers spirit  Joe Spano  who wasnt rehired was left on the beach and died of a massive heart attack not three days after they disembarked

he smiled he never questioned anything that happened naturally  amid the swirling drunken vultures he saw the sober flight of a hawk who must have wondered how it got caught up in their numbers maybe she or he was an interloper a young bird who learned to scavenge rather than the kill and because of its superior reflexes it beat the vultures to the ground and got the choicest morsels before the tribe arrived 

an elegant opportunist

adaptable 

                    the kind of thing he couldnt be  because he didnt value illgotten gains or sought profit with a camaraderie of thieves and villains or those who banded together because separately they couldnt flourish

he didnt think there was ten tons of deadmeat under these birds unless of course they were black feathered harbingers pointing their unsteady wingtips to a future beyond the arc of the horizon                 

1638,  Monday,  11  2. 19

1046,  Twosday,  19  2. 19

Jefferson Starship  Hijack  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H57IyHNq-_8

this is a theatre

                 this is where community  people  come together to share a film

if you didnt want to share a movie you could stay home and catch it on DVD or via some personal online access

catching it opening night to later boast about wasnt something he did or respected

                                                                                       Yeah, I caught it opening night.

So wha fuck you  

he hadnt been in a theatre where he didnt rub elbows with people to either side of him  the thrust thrust parry parry Excuse me Sorry their arms dancing in the dark the shared bemusement embarrassment

these were plush seats recliners frankly buttons embedded in the arms operated how far back you wished to leanhow high to raise your legs on incorporated footstools  he would have to have weighed fourhundred pounds to fill the arms  and still he wouldnt have rubbed elbows with his neighbours unless they also weighed fourhundred pounds

he was alone on a fucking island 

there wasnt anything communal about this theatre this experience

he remembered catching the Exorcist at the Ramova of South Halsted with friends

the floor under their feet was slick reflecting the muted overheard lighting before it went down for the previews still moist from vomit mopped up its smell still emanating

he remembered rounding the corner part of the line they stood in  finally able to eyeball the marque  COMING SOON! EARTHQUAKE  BILLY JACK its face swept by the flashing lights of an ambulance  before they bought their tickets knew they made the cut for that showing the attendants wheeled out an older man who suffered a heart attack 

he remembered when Regans head turned onehundred an eighty degreesspooked he rocked back hard in his seat his arms went out openhanded he slammed his friends to either side of him (he would have jammed anyone who sat to his sides) he dumped Jane on his left into her boyfriends lap she almost went hysterical nuts with fright his sudden violence FUCK! barked at the top of his lungs

sitting in this obese chair he wasnt sure he could even reach the people who sat beside him VICE however wasnt going to frighten him he wasnt going to shove anyone despite their distance it wasnt going to save them from his snake hiss his Fuucker 

            he tried to keep his voice down

unfortunately he remembered American political history more than he might care to admit 

he could suppose when something offends youmakes you feel a victim you dont forget for a long time America had offended him  asif a fat man sitting beside him at a banquet dinner helped themselves to the food on his plate eating it with their greasy fingers their bodyguards seizing him by the arm when he went for his fork to stab him the second time  foregoing the warning Excuse me fatso

at the end of VICE he startled several of the moviegoers with his applause didnt people applaud a good movie any more he appreciated the actors art the films vision the subject though he wished would have died when he suffered his first heart attack

                   the entire world would have been better off    

2335,  Twosday,  29  1. 19

1539,  Sunday,  17  2. 19

Leonard Cohen  Chelsea Hotel #2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhaPHtVUaX4

James Baldwin  People who shut their eyes to reality simply invite their own destruction, and anyone who insists on remaining in a state of innocence long after that innocence is dead turns himself into a monster.

                                                                                                       how prophetic

1558, Monday,  18  2. 19

https://www.brainpickings.org/2018/11/19/gwendolyn-brooks-james-baldwin-library-of-congress/

he hadnt cared for the mongrel since first he heard him yip yipyip  immediately he wanted to strap him with a muzzle or roll a rubber ball out into the street FETCH! before a milk truck  and fantasise about the broken bottles of cold white milk spattered with hot red blood and twisting in the gutter among the spoils curdles of pink brain matter 

the mongrel has a name Stephen

                                    he is responsible for Drumpfs Inaugural American carnage the Muslim ban SIT! he sits across from Chris Wallace Sunday and relates that Wall is a matter of national survival however he couldnt refute that none of the prior 59 national emergencies since 1976 tried to get around Congress to grab military construction funds  he stated there are 4000 troops along the Southern border  overtly  obviously  omitting that the troops are there only because Drumpf ordered them to be there or that of those national emergencies only two authorised military construction one during the Gulf War  the second because of September 11

                                                        quickly he tried to sidestep those notable examples to insist that previously we have engaged in military adventures to destroy drug fields in foreign lands in Afghanistan and in Columbia and therefore they are pretexts for Wall to combat the criminal cartels at our border the criminal organisations that are destabilising the Western Hemisphere (and) are fundamentally foreign policy 

destabilising the Western Hemisphere

                                         thats a breathtaking pronouncement

Stephen Miller a policy wonk another wannabe American oligarch

he hated to admit it but for once he agreed with Ann Coulter The only national emergency is that our president is an idiot

evening,  Sunday,  17  2. 19

1319,  Monday,  18  2. 19

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HmDFg4jJ5c8