it occurred to him he might be a Jew

it occurred to him long before he questioned his parentshe knew he was of Eastern European blood  Polish

there bloods mixed

mixed happily

the only thing that clued him to his blood was his long  long   memory

hed heard Jews had long memories

his memory often confounded his parentsWhy would you remember that?

his family was from Krakow

Jews flourished there

Tell me Tell me if you can And if you cant sayif you cant say no

Then dont

Youve said many of our family died in Polanddied in Nazi concentration camps

                                                                                   We died with Jews

I dont see a separation

Not at all

I was born in Americaborn of Polish descent

Ive no problem with Jews

They make fine meals feed more better than most  Why wouldnt I assume their humanity

Though likely Id be a disappointment  

Im an atheist

2326,  Saturday,  4  4. 20

Elvin Bishop  Fooled Around and Fell in Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k33x_Efa5Lk  

our National disaster

                       a two-headed coin 

Coronavirus is one head 

Trump is the other

0037,  Saturday,  4  4. 20

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow/watch/maddow-to-trump-you-had-one-job-coronavirus-response-needs-competent-leadership-81626693942

taking things presidential to a new level

                                           a new level is often construed as something aspirant creating yet a higher bar

however memorialising this presidents callousness  it seems the only tool in his toolboxthe only chord he knows

he fired Michael Atkinson the intelligence community inspector general who recognised the impropriety of the presidents actions

         suppose America will have a new Acting ICIG -- among so many Acting -- before it knows it

after callously  though presidentially  refusing to reopen enrollment for cant resist Obamacare  actually the ACA  the Affordable Care Act  not perfect  but rarely and rarer by the moment is anything out of Washington

1121,  Saturday,  4  4. 20

https://www.cnn.com/2020/04/03/politics/trump-fires-inspector-general-michael-atkinson/index.html  

https://thehill.com/policy/national-security/491160-us-watchdog-vows-aggressive-oversight-after-intel-official-fired

https://www.politico.com/news/2020/04/03/trump-obamacare-coronavirus-164285?nname=playbook&nid=0000014f-1646-d88f-a1cf-5f46b7bd0000&nrid=00000167-851a-d01a-a567-d79e0c9d0000&nlid=630318

the fix of memory redux

autumn trees have no memory of their spring
                                                or their sapling years besides and

beneath the older trees they fought

and through odd fortune 

they grew  usurped them and fed at their decay like vibrant vampires 

seedlings come full circle

no memory

but if they did

a memory for just the past year

to remember being vigorous and green

now bare 

clutching a thin cloak of coloured leaves at their throats quietly

desperately

as the cycle is

and must be

and saplings not so very far away  flourishing

what would they think

would they think as I do

as I struggle with my infirmity

fight my regrettable emotions of being less than I am physically capable
                                                                             of my growth   

my greening and autumn

I revere the cycle

too many of my people have died to not

gentle cogs
             terrific gears
                             the spent tears of our unexpected lives

for which I am grateful
                         and saddened

such is the fix of memory

1919,   Monday,   20  6. 11

the Acting Secretary of the Navywho? Thomas Modley who the fuck is Thomas Modley?  Ah  businessman political appointee  following the Commander-in-Chief like a dog with its nose to his arse relieved Captain Brett Cozier of the USS Roosevelt for the letter he wrote to Navy command seeking to protect his sailors from death by Coronavirus

so nice a hack runs the Navy

1758,  Friday,  3  4. 20    

https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/navy-relieves-captain-who-raised-alarm-about-coronavirus-on-board-uss-roosevelt-81613381802 

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/military/navy-expected-relieve-captain-who-raised-alarm-about-covid-19-n1175351

Coronavirus Anthem

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xnzRhAy62cI

1247, Friday,  3  4. 20

Dave Edmunds  I Hear You Knocking

Thanks For The Memories

one would think one should expect that managing the coronavirus would consume Agent Orange  aka Drumpfs time  yet  his legal team is seeking to manipulate the Election  

https://www.politico.com/news/2020/04/03/trump-2020-election-legal-battle-coronavirus-162152?nname=playbook&nid=0000014f-1646-d88f-a1cf-5f46b7bd0000&nrid=00000167-851a-d01a-a567-d79e0c9d0000&nlid=630318

saddle up his accusation  the Democrats Impeachment Hoax The House did impeach him  took Washingtons eye off the emerging virus

this clown cobbles lies and excuses together as quickly as a spider spins thread

--  I don’t take responsibility at all.

--  I’d rate my response to the coronavirus a 10.

of course  wouldnt expect anything less would we

1234,  Friday,  3  4. 20

https://www.theatlantic.com/notes/2020/03/2020-time-capsule-3-i-dont-take-responsibility-at-all/608005/ 

https://www.realclearpolitics.com/video/2020/03/16/trump_id_rate_my_response_to_coronavirus_a_10.html

Bob Hope  Shirley Ross  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNpmaYMpXwY

Jared Kushner resurfaced

he remains inane

nice to know some things dont change 

still cant find his ass with both hands

speaking at Thursdays Coronavirus presser regarding the Strategic National Stockpile he brayed  “The notion of the federal stockpile was it’s supposed to be our stockpile. It’s not supposed to be states’ stockpiles that they then use." 

. . its supposed to be our stockpile

                                       who are our

hed tuck Kushner in bed with governors Abbott and DeSantis Texas deems abortion a non-essential procedure  Floridas Johnny-come-lately Stay at Home order deems houses of worship essential businesses and can remain open

  Ahbrutha

               can nearly make one conclude that the wrong people are dying

1116,  Friday,  3  4. 20

Eddy Arnold  Make The World Go Away  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3caNwl4EtE

or if you prefer Brenda Lee  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OCpW_eqXKI0

Jared Kushner  https://www.thenation.com/article/politics/trump-business-coronavirus-profiteering/

Jared Kushner resurfaced Redux

the clownAgent Oranges administration provides cover

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/the-trump-administration-just-changed-its-description-of-the-national-stockpile-to-jibe-with-jared-kushners-controversial-claim/ar-BB1288Bx?li=BBnb7Kz&ocid=mailsignout

1425,  Friday,  3  4. 20

https://talkingpointsmemo.com/news/kushner-stockpile-trump-coronavirus

say Buhbye Georgia Senator Kelly Loeffler a profiteer aided by her husband Jeffrey Sprecher and any politician who regardless of their stripe sought profit

1846,  Thursday,  2  4. 20

https://www.vox.com/policy-and-politics/2020/4/1/21202900/kelly-loeffler-stock-sales-coronavirus-pandemic   

they looked at their wristwatch then up at him not glaring  accusatory more like something didnt smell good You’re wrong, you’re off by three minutes, you're three minutes late.

No  Im on time 

Three minutes he said as he tapped the crystal  maybe growing impatient

Im on Trilogy time my time

Trilogy  tr . . what? What’s trilogy time?

Its the time on the Trilogy ventilator my daughter used

Its the time Ive run my life by since August  Ran hers life

As a matter of fact it gave her time

                                                              

Which isnt something I could do or you   But I respect it 

And why Ill be on Trilogy time until time doesnt matter

Time will always matter.

he looked him not glaring or accusatory

                                           more like something smelled bad

1008,  Thursday,  2  4. 20

Stones  Time Is On My Side  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_oSRvcdlgSI

he didnt breathe

  he sighed

             and sighing he turned his calendar to April  and caught unawares he sobbed

her birthday was this month

the day the year

through his tears trembling  after her birthday he wrote the month the day this year

her death

1101,  Wednesday,  1  4. 20

opportunities knock in the Republican world

                                                Fuck it  its a virus  a smokescreen

A brilliant opportunity! Drumpf and Barr might saymight collude

https://www.msnbc.com/the-beat-with-ari/watch/virus-power-grab-trump-admin-seeks-sweeping-powers-to-detain-without-trial-during-pandemic-81397317929

memorializing  ad nauseum

1812,  April Fools,  2020

White House admits the next two weeks will be tough

                                                          100,000 to a quarter million deaths

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KVgXV0mHtbI

memorialising  ad nauseum

1756,  April Fools  2020

Aye yai yai 

            Ey . . Ey . . . EY he knew Faker knew Spanish   Me Me  ME!

evidently according to the president  New York hit Pay Dirt acquiring emergency Federal provisions for the coronavirus

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/video/news/video-2142568/Video-Trump-says-Cuomo-hit-pay-dirt-help-coronavirus.html?ns_mchannel=rss&ito=1490&ns_campaign=1490

just memorialising – thats what he did

1700,  April Fools! 2020

he hadnt walked this wayon the side of the road  in four months  truly   itd been four months he was called away suddenlyplucked like a weed

                                a tall proud weed conspicuous 

standing up straight                                                                                                                       

righteous?                                                                                                                               

probably                       

probably

           thats what beatings get you

getting beat

then getting back up

he learned from his beatings they taught him skills

he learned to defend himself and win  and then the challenges became fewer and fewer

because those who opposed him didnt like getting beat up                                                                  

some think its a dog-eat-dog world

he preferred equality

the long string of wins he enjoyed were wins he had convincing them  dog by dog

Ah it was asif the street hadnt changed in his absence which was impossible though he liked that he imagined it hadnt

that it stayed as it was  waiting for his return

maybe it did

there werent any runover crushed squirrels to pick gently up off the street

1337,  Twosday,  31  3. 20

1156,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  4. 20

not an April Fools joke

fucking Texas 

the coronavirus provides opportunities

2-1 The Fifth Circuit Court of Appeals has banned abortions deeming them non-essential procedures

the dissenting judges name was published James Dennis however the two judges who ought to be forced as theyre forcing ought to be forced to support the children who may be born were not  perhaps they may believe “life begins at conception and ends at birth”

1348,  Wednesday,  1  4. 20

https://thehill.com/policy/healthcare/490415-appeals-court-allows-texas-to-implement-ban-on-abortion-during-pandemic  https://www.salon.com/2015/05/27/republicans_think_life_begins_at_conception_and_ends_at_birth_how_pro_life_conservatives_continue_to_de_value_life/

he closed Chazes Black Wings he was readingkept a finger in it to hold his spot and sat down on a bus stop bench to close his eyes and listen to the sounds of the construction site across the avenue the parkway listen to its hem and haw its buzz like out of a bee hive the buzz that was in his blood

he didnt listen long

the sounds these many years later werent as comforting as they once were there were no hammer blows the bang bang staccatothe measured blows that pounded a 16penny nail in with each strike

                                                                                       instead he heard the soundthe erratic pneumatic punctuation of nailguns the chachachachacha inhale of tanks filling the dry umbilicals dragged from place to place skittering like inorganic snakes and the dull slapshots they made as they banged against the plywood sheets that the workmen appliednailing the plywood to the skeletal studs while working off mobile hydraulic lifts

they were effeminate carpenters who wore fake nailbags and often fingered their cellphones fat men who pulled triggers their bellys hanging over webbed belts trussed and steadied by wide suspenders 

there wasnt an athlete among them  

but he supposed there didnt have to be the job wasnt physical any longer

there were no ladders scaffoldings or jacks lifts rather that wheezed like persistent ventilators aiding unwell patients  

AHhe shook his head and stood up  the buzz still in his blood 

he opened the book 

                     “Jeepie’s face became a tangle of shining black, a modernistic tangle of fluid and flesh where bullets from the cover tore into it . . .”

Kahrist he said closing the book on his finger again One more death Happy its literal   

1404,  Twosday,  17  9. 19

1047,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  1  4. 20

he came up to her on her bed and kissed her goodmorning then because there wasnt room to sit beside her he took a seat on a black metal folding chair at her feet

she smiled quickly at himher impish smile she was up to something she then returned her attention to her cellfone that she had been going through when he entered her bedroom  

she wasnt absently finger it certainly wasnt overtly deliberate

he sat  he began to ask her how her night wasif she had rested well

she smiled at him againbigger than the first as a song started from out of her fone

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2DXt11SMNI

he wasnt listening just yet he was still occupied if she rested or not she hadnt been and he was also still preoccupied with his own thoughtsshaking out the cobwebs of his deep sleep and the stickier cobwebs of his crazedfantastic dreams

then he heard

             . . . Toast to the ones that we lost along the way . . .

                                                                        and he stopped thinking and listened

he didnt know the song

obviously she did

he tried his best to hide the tears that welled in his eyes

when he looked up at her he saw tears her eyes We’re a pair, aren’t we? she said

Yah Quite a pair

then they said nothing more  

just listened

              and listening looked into the others eyes

0901,  Friday,  20  9. 19

1213,  Twosday,  31  3. 20

Maroon 5  Memories

she was the lifeguard  shapely in her red swimsuit  her striking blonde hair pulled back into a heavy ponytail   

Ill take a deep breath he thought hold it throw up a hand go limp and sink towards the bottom

turning lazily as he drifted he saw that the surface looked like a sheet of mercury and he watched it split and boil as she shot through it and kicked down towards him

beyond her heels it went suddenly pale like components of a lavalamp cooling  congealing and as she swam it was like seeing her through a sheet of clean green cellophane

she curved and curled around him slid along his back and shoulders she was smaller than she had looked in the distance 

her hand hooked into his armpitthe crook of her elbow at his throat he felt her brace him hard  kick up  and kicking up they rose in a futuristic love embrace 

                                        a love with all the heat taken out of it

without affection

love of purpose

he didnt want her to be angry with him so hed inhale the green water suddenlyaerated by his escaping breath so she could save him from drowning

thinking about it  he nixed the idea 

there had to be better ways to meet a girl

1220,  Thursday,  19  9. 19

1059,  Twosday,  31  3. 20

Steve Winwood  While You See A Chance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WfpTSmlyqG4