Auden

Poet

Ever read him

Noted for Funeral Blues

    I don’t read poetry.

went slackjawed   mustered

                               You  you don read poetry

Nor do I like somber ceremonies.

Somber ceremonies  I like tha  Phonaesthetics  Euphony

                                                             Pleasing to the ear

As typically poetry is

Which you don read

No.

Why

I might ask why of you.

Ask

Why?

To be human

                I quote Auden  Truth, like love and sleep, resents approaches that are too intense.

Poetic

If you like.

Resents  Intense

It does nothing for me

Shoud do something

Nothing. Nada. Zip.

Ah  Seems weve reached tha place

Place?

Kindalike a Paul Simon

                          Not his Al  Ill call you  Alex   Spelled A  L  E  X not A  L  E  C

Ohkay

From here out

    That’s not my name.

You love to nickname peoplestruggle to call them the name they asked you to

How so?

I meet someonesomeone is introduced to me My name is James their names James I call them James as they asked or were said to be called not Jimmy Jim Jimbo    James

Youre Alex

Smart Alec

No  Again   With an X not a C

You’re confusing me.

Shoudnt

               Why woud I call you Alex

That’s not my name.

Alas  Ive christened you

                          Youve a nickname now

Unfortunately  Not an endearment

I’ll not respond.

You don respond

 

Alex  Short for alexithymic

                             Emotionally unavailable detached  withdrawn

Why I beat you up for your lack of EQ or otherwise EI  Emotional Quotient like your beloved IQ  Emotional Intelligence

Lowest one can go on IQ is wha  Seventy   I believe the military is 85

Your EQ EI EIEIOcant help myself

                                      Youre deficient   laughed

snide sharpWhat?

Its in your DNA  which was another of their disagreements

                                                                     he was turning the knife

 

1240,  Tuesday,  3  6. 25

0951,  Thursday,  17  7. 25

Paul Simon  You Can Call Me Al  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b9UcXl6lQgE

they hadnt seen each other in over a month since the last he was invited to party with him

                                                                                                What’s with the hair?

nobodys fuckin business  fail to understand theyre intruding

                                                     his hair was long

an homage

his barber died

hed let it grow a while longer

                                       eventually  hed cut ithed cut it

humoured him 

                 an awfully good reason not to cut it

It’s gettin’ kind of long.

Spendin my money otherwise

What people must think.

Like I care

    Why wouldn’t you care?

Butch reference to his hair not his name

                                                Im not you thankgawd

glared

he didnt care thought that was established

You’re a good-looking man . women say . . I’m not saying . . . but they said last that you would be more appealing if you cut your hair.

They

         You know they goes nowhere with me

Ya remain unlearned

They women I’ve invited for parties at the house.

                                                    Them.

They have names

                      I know

Isn’t that you know sufficient?

    No

You’re not fishing?

Im not

            Youre influenced dictated  Thas as you say  is how you roll

Anya shoud be unapologetic

 

You should cut your hair.

1159,  Wednesday,  16  7. 25

Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young  Almost Cut My Hair  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=as5lE64J1hQ

UNKNOWN

              Hug me as if I were to die tomorrow, and hug me tomorrow as if I were back from the dead.

    it isnt necessary to be known

though not currency in this country  its culture

#illtakeitintheasstobeknown

                                     mighty proud his first ever hashtag   which was going nowhere

hed leave hashtags to hashtagwhores

why did goulash come to mind

                                   whats that

is there hashtaggoulash that looked appealing    Hungarian?

                                                                      YES

slow-cooked pork or beef onions paprika other spices served with eggnoodles dumplings

spices his hangup

                     his palate sohammered spices would be a waste of time on it

French cuisine a waste

any cuisine a waste

that was okay

there was

           Once upon a time

Times gone

happy for what he had

                               not lookin back

now  coming back from the dead

                                       no small feat

    back  hugged

                       maybe tastebuds return too

THAT would be a kick

1306,  Wednesday,  16  7. 25

a love letter

heard a vehicle

rap at his door

             Package.

vehicle left

 

was a brownpaper wrapped taped soft package

                                                    his address

brought it inside

moved the mug of black coffee aside

carefully unwrapped it on the Formica kitchen table

it contained an envelope  his name on it   handwritten

                                                           inside  another wrapped package

he recognised the handwriting

he left unanswered telephone messages the last weekanahalf to her

as shed know

                hed open the envelope first

Joe

     she didnt have a pet name for him

he had two for her

I do not want to talk with you. Please do not call again.

                                                           I know when you receive this you will honor me.

We have enjoyed, loved, may I say, definitely loved, our time together.

Unfortunately, our together has growing less and less frequent, according to our unrelenting unnegotiable passions.  I know you do not frown. Others might, But they may not be prone or disposed to passion as we.

We have discussed this.

There is nothing more to discuss.

I love you.

I always will.

It is time we move forward entirely separate from one another. separate from one another  this ink dull dabbed  tear stain

Open the package now. I know you read this note first.

I laugh.  Bad is good.

I love you, me

 

he didnt fold itput it back in the envelope   later

                                                   laid it gently  flat  beside the package

it was folded closed

unfolding it imagined her hands folding it  sharply   folded before she placed the item

                                                                                unfolded a lime green tshirt

across the chest  italicised font  done in complementary blue

                                                                    bad news

a strip of manila cloth fluttered off its back

                                              on it she handstitched  I love you very much. me

the date sewn smaller  vertically  up the right hemmed end

                                                                    he fingered the end    sighed

early AM, Wednesday,  16  7. 25

1143,  Wednesday

Pianza  The Victorian Waltz  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPA_oLdqPMk

Raw oysters. cringed  nose crimped  unsightly   but maybe that was the point  unsubtle

                                                                                      Really?

Youre makin a face like a broad

                                      Unbecoming

Why donya spit

You’re really ordering 'em?

Seafood house you wanted seafood here we are whacha gonna have

Not oysters.

Too bad They also prepare delicious oyster an uni shooters

    Uni. like he didnt hear him right  What’s uni?

he loved he asked  bet hed see his stomach flip

                                         Sea urchingonads  Liquors sake tequila whiskyOh a raw quail egg

flipped  JesusChrist

                     What the fuck’s with you?

Its offal

         Id eat everything but a dogs bark cats meow rats squeak

Christ.

But his speech

               Whacha havin  Great menu

 

Salmon or Swordfish.

Sablefish Black Cod same  Yelloweye rockfish

No.

he should have spit bile in his mouth he tipped him

                                               No

Salmon sword same old change it up live it up on me

I’ll pickup the tab . . if you not have oysters.

Cold day in Hell

1106,  Tuesday,  15  7. 25

his dreamed self quizzes 

                          Really  UCSC SC USC  Easy for you to say . . .

while his dreaming self knocks his dreamed

                                                  Colleges eejit  UCSC  SC  USC  e  c  4  u  2  say

meanwhile his hypnopompic facets shards shared selves wants them to shaddup 

                                                                                       the first time

theyve fascinated over a blackanblue sixteenounce filet mignon  cutlery a surgeon could use  bonechina plate goblet of pinot noir

dreamed dreaming   watchingsalivating ask

                                                What sides

Garlicky parmesan mashed potatoes  asparagus spears  sauteed morels

OhGawd

           Appetizer

A dozen Kumamoto halfdozen Coffin Bay halfdozen Hog Island Sweetwater

    Shit they said

                    For a hypnopompic simmering to the surface youve an astonishing palate

Not me  Him

    Ja  Hes a case

                     Fidgets  A limber limbic

Plasticity comes to mind

Ja  Bendy motherfucker

                              Truth be known

It is

A great place to hangout when called to front

And he remembers

Ja

    Brother does he      

0616,  Tuesday,  15  7. 25

https://www.tastingtable.com/1367424/best-oysters-types/

he didnt like to refute someone who was deadwho couldnt refute him

                                                                              however

safety in numbers

the score 1 – 0

one alive nil dead

                    harsh                                                                         

though confoundingly correct

    Walter Benjamin

he wrote in Theses on the Philosophy of History

                                                   The past can be seized only as an image which flashes up at the instant when it can be recognized WRONG wrong   pops like paparazzi shooting glammedup fish-in-a-barrel celebrities dressed for an evening out bedazzling on the Red Carpet  WARNING:  His myriadpast contains flashing light/bright/strobe lights that may trigger a seizure if he had epilepsy – doesnt.  Viewer discretion is advised.   and is never seen again.

Never

doesnt inhabit his lexicon

                            occasionally not ever

he witnesses his past his memories via cinematic replays

                                                             he summonsesem

plays seesem againanagain an  again

Benjamin

            sorrowfully  committed suicideoverdosing on morphine or was murdered by Stalin agents

coin toss

    scoreboard above may come into play yet again

 

his point

          given Benjamins preoccupation the era a Jew in Germany  the rise of Nazism

                                                                                               understandably

he contemplated mortality

however to render his past memories  to flashes in a pan disappeared forever

    only when the projector dies

                                   do memories  disappear   forever

  

2026,  Sunday,  13  7. 25

1559,  Monday,  14  7. 25

https://www.prospectmagazine.co.uk/other/43071/walter-benjamins-genius-for-surreal-visions

Im stoned

That was the idea.

Were seein Aristotle through

I don’t think that sentence makes any sense.

Ja it does

             Sensense  Dropped the T excised the C for an S

    We’re seeing through Aristotle?

In a manner of speaking

How manner what manner?

Manner or manor

                    After all Aristotles thought is an edifice

What?

          Comeon man I’m high, ought to be kind to small animals.

M  A  N  N  E  R     M  A  N  O  R

Now you want me to spell?

I spelled

           I differentiated for you

Whatever.

               I’m not keeping up slow down.

You followed the two

    I think . . I think I did.

                              Aristotle. A manor   M  A  N  O  R?

Excellent

And why we you talking about him?

Look at you excelling with your pronouns

    We’re not going there are we?I don’t want to go there I’m binary boy girl all that confuses lemme enjoy my high.

I was complimenting you

Lemme be like you no compliments, at least right now.

                                                           Finish your thought process.

Aristotle

That one.

Was tha an order

Certainly sounded like it, didn’t it?

Or panic

Certainly sounded like it, didn’t it?

                                       This boat come with lifesavers?

Lifesavours  But of course

 

You just slip something past me?

Did I

Please. I’m beggin’ youhave pity.   Aristotle.

    He said there were three kinds of life

Were entertaining one

He didn’t say turn on, tune in, drop out?

Leary woud liked you likened him to Aristotle

I was leery.

Im ahead of ya

FACK.

Set

On my mark.

GO

 

What are we talkin’bout?

    Aristotles three lifes

I’ll shaddup.

 

A productive life

Awright.

A life of reflection contemplation

Awright.

Antha were currently enjoying

                                   Can you say

Did Aristotle encourage people to get high?

Possibly

           A life of leisure

Man.

       Cat was cool.

1942,  Sunday,  13  7. 25

1230,  Monday,  14  7. 25

    Ironic

Are we playing?

Do you want to

You want to.

It won’t cost me clothing, will it?

he laughed

Like I’ll ever forget that.

You were a good sport

                          Too bad not a better pool player

You hustled me.

You were worth hustlin

                            An look at us now two peas in a pod

Still fuckin’ like we did then.

Ja well Ya raise my ardor an once hard got to do something with it cant let it go to waste

Waste not want not.

Grrl after my own heart

Among other nether parts.

Arya gettin more clever

Ya must be rubbin’off on me.

                                 laugheddimplesdove You’re welcome to rub me raw anytime.

But we’re gettin’ off the beaten path.

Ironic.

Ja

You want I say or are you saying?

Whawoud you like

You began.

              I’d really have to dig to come up with something ironicwasn’t on my list of things to do this morning over coffee at the kitchen table.

Love it when you talk dirty to me

It’s been a stout table. Has taken a lickin’ an still keeps tickin’.

I love you

I love you.

    Ironic

Socrates

Will I be able to keep up? Philosophy’s your game.

You know Socrates

He was Plato’s teacher, mentor.

You know

Awright.

Socrates said about writing

Uhoh.

Tha writing will produce forgetfulness in those who learn to use it

                                                                      They will not practise their memory

You belie that.

Pain fixes memory  Sets it

Yes.

Ironically we woudnt have Socrates words if Plato didnt writeem down

 

    again

                they didnt break the kitchen table

1715,  Sunday,  13  7. 25

1147,  Monday  14  7. 25

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