Czas isc spac.

                or when he was a boy and she was perturbed by him  abruptly SPAC.

he doesnt get to hear that any more

                                        cant

cant hear his mothers voice

Time to go to bed.

BED.

 

he misses that

                misses that

more than he can say

he hasnt a recording of her voice

how could he make that mistake

   he thought she was going to live forever

she promised

as a very little boy he was shaken by idea of death

Kiss your aunt goodbye your uncle  youll never see them again

returned to the pew where he sat with his parents

the final Wake ended

the coffin closed

he didnt see them again

he couldnt imagine not ever seeing his parents again

                                                       rushing into the kitchen where they were sitting talking crying uncontrollably he extracted the promise they wouldnt die

they promised

   she reneged

he wasnt able to fly home

Trumpvirus

his mothers wake her funeral her burial were the last performed by the Funeral Home the Church the Cemetery

he cant hear her voice in his head

occasionally her laughter

he lingers in his dreams

hoping shell show

four years

she hasnt yet

Czas isc spac.

time to go to bed

                  maybe 

maybe tonight

1232,  Reggaefriday,  23  2. 24

2118,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

film  The Five Pennies  Goodnight, Sleep Tight  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rStWBOcB1k

he listened couldnt believe what he was hearing

                                                          but he listened

      Tha it

Yeah. Yeah I said my piece.

Extraordinary attha

                       Yare way off the beaten path

I don’t think so.

No you woudnt 

It’s what she told me. 

In confidence

Confidence?

Confided

            You in the habit of revealin confidences

I’m explainin . .

. . You have no explanation

                               Unfortunately you continue don seem to realise thaya cant speak for her  Not to me Not to anyone  No amount of intimacy allows you tha anifya think so youre mistaken  Me ya have no credence an shoud anyone take you at wha she said Id have no respect for them either Those Im intimate with Id dare not speak for them

So man Shit out of luck in this neck of the woods

                                                        Your dogs treeing no coon

it wasnt part of his vocabularyhed heard of it but it wasnt something hed considered there was no reason he would

when it was said so supposedly confided

                                               the only thing that occurred to him was a someone bound to a wheelchair

a curious visual

   Again

You heard me.

I heard you but theres a dislocation It lacks continuity lacks truth   Wasnt uttered  If it had Id recall

Id definitely recall

   codependency

1415,  2sday,  19  12. 23

1549,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

Rockets From the Tomb  Ain’t It Fun  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TLfT2b4sZ1w

Im confused  Why does it trouble you

                                         Flipside isnt encouraging unless youre a freaking believeran youre not

I’m uncomfortabl . .

. . Thas the name of the game Uncomfortable

                                                Reality man  Real  Anal   Tee

he sneered  For you.

Fuck you for you you too

                          Otherwise jump on your horse Exit Strategy an ride into the sunset  Adios muchacho

My horse Exit Strategy.   Cute.

Try to please

               But yare a hard man to please because youve been entitled all your life an this is one thing you want desperately but cant have yare denied as everyone else walkin the planet of which wholesale many have not enjoy whaya have

                Greedy prick

Yare shit out of luck

Embrace it

Id think by now you woud have

Senescence

   I heard you . .

. . It means

You know what it means.

As do you

            Tell me I want to hear it from your mouth

Really tryin’ to drive home your point.

I am damn right

                    I got a feelin ifya were one of those multibillionaires youd be spending your money on your immortality  Your immortality

Be a fuckin mythic vampire

   Yare not going to say

I’m . .

. . Senescence  The condition or process of deterioration with age

Embrace it

Better than the alternativeduh

William Hamilton

Yeah.

You know

I do.

Evolutionary biologist

Yes.

He expressed tha when he died imagine tha  when he died he wanted his body to be laid out in the Brazilian forest to be buried by the Coprophanaeus beetle

“They will enter, will bury, will live on my flesh; and in the shape of their children and mine, I will escape death. No worm for me or sordid fly, I will buzz in the dusk like a huge bumblebee. I will be many, buzz even as a swarm of motorbikes, be bourne, body by flying body out of the Brazilian wilderness beneath the stars, lofted under those beautiful and unfused elytra which we will all hold over our backs. So finally I too will shine like a violet ground beetle under a stone.”

   Elytra The tough forewings of beetles than protects the more delicate hindwings Your nodding but you didnt know the word

           You nod right so Ill shaddup

Yes.

See  We finally agree

4 or 5PM,  2sday,  13  2. 24

228preferred,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

Pere Ubu  Real World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IViXvcmdKB4

William Hamilton:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3871365/#RSBL20130792C21

https://royalsocietypublishing.org/doi/10.1098/rsbl.2013.0367 

https://piercelab.oeb.harvard.edu/files/pierce/files/haig_hamilton.pdf 

   often he couldnt reverseengineer how he got to where he was because the road ahead was tortuous and he had to keep his eye on it

                    in the rearview mirror no one was gaining on him

he pumped the brakes

rolled easedover to the side of the road

                                           asked

Where have I been

along the roadside was a vibrator scattering pebbleskickinup dirt  must have been geared up to MAX

it was slick

it was shiny in the sunlight

looked like a fiftycalibre round onehunredthirtyeight millimetres long  fivepointfourthreethreezerosevenone inches though heftier girthier lengthier

                           slick  shiny

no offense should be taken

                           early 1880s Dr Joseph Mortimer Granville a British physician invented it for men to be employed on various body parts to treat pain spinal disease deafness? he suggested it could be used sexually on mens perineums to alleviate impotence coudnt convince him a few didnt take the plunge

had there been fine print on the packaging it might have suggested women particularly overly sensitive hysterical women

shouldnt use the vibratrode near their clitoris AS TO INCREASE THEIR HYSTERIA GREEK Origin  hustera – womb  GREEK  husterikos – of the womb  LATIN  mid17th century  hysteria

he had to admit he was somewhat distracted by vibratory hammers vibrohammers vibrodrivers impact drivers  had to shake them off but they didnt fall far from the tree like apples acorns an children

he switched the car OFF

adjusted his rearview mirror

took a good look

                  it began with exafference hadnt seen that word before

he began with Oxford Reference “The stimulation of an animal as a result of factors external to the animal itself. misspelled itself itsserf  serf being a slave servant menial villein thrall helot ceorl”

   a vibrator is a factor Xternal to stimulating an animal

                                                              although vibratrode is chicish  chichi

Oxford urged him to compare it with reafference hadnt seen that word before either  “. . . sensory signals that occur as a result of the movement of the sensory organ.”

there he was

on the side of the road

saw where he had been

                       Onward Ho!

Arya kiddin me

Woudya shaddup Nobody asked

Ya dragged me out here anya think yare over an out concluding with Ho

   Jesus  Hos an exclamation

An exclamation

Not your ho

Meaning

Really

Meaning

Ho Prostitute   Whore

An exclamation

Yah

     Look it up

   Maybe I will

Mebbe yaoughta

                   damn heshe shehe

1430,  Thursday,  1  2. 24

1227,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

https://iac.gatech.edu/news/item/631497/know-invention-vibrator-wrong#:~:text=Granville%20invented%20the%20vibrator%20in,hysterical%20women%3B%20rather%2C%20Dr.

https://royalsocietypublishing.org/doi/10.1098/rstb.2019.0764

Jesus Christ Superstar  What’s the Buzz/Strange Thing Mystifying  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-XbvDkA3Vk

they were embattled

                       buddy believedemphatically in coincidence

hed concede cause an effect

Isn’t cause and effect coincidence?

No Causation

                The action of causing something Which isnt coincidence

Coincidence

You tell me

              A remarkabletruly remarkable concurrence  concurrence   of events circumstances without apparent causal connection

                    Causal  causal    causal

Coincidence really bugs you.

   No  Not at all

                   It does not exist

though he had to laugh

                          pulling into his carport he looked downsaw that the odometer read 30999 after he came home from a drugstore stop for a prescription and standing at a distance behind a woman who divulged her birthday 9/19/1999 she wore a jersey numbered 39 which he assumed referred to the 999 of 1999  and the night before he dreamt he was 39 his girlfriend is 39

                                          they arent 

coincidence

   NO       

4PM,  Monday,  11  3. 24

1415,  Reggaefriday,  29  3. 24

she entered the kitchen  smelled of soap fresh laundry

she was coming to him to have him help her hang clothes on the line

it was a brilliant green blue sunlit day

he sat at the table head propped on a widespreadhand on elbow turning his coffee mug round round by fingertips 

Well . . look at you . . . perturbed.

he nodded nodded   I am

What’s up babe?

he smiledchuckled Keeneye  Thank you

she laughed

              Thank me?you’re obvious. If you aren’t sparking writhinground like a snake with its balls in a vise something’s off.

                  An you my love . . are rarely off.

I am arent I

You are.

          What’s bothering you?  Tryin’ to get out of hangin’ clothes with me?

Ohhellno  No

              Same old story same old song an dance  Cant ever recall wha its called

Frustrates me

So Ive been tryin

You can ask me.

I can Eventually Im sure I will

                                  Tryin to get it on my own  Excavate it

Excavate?  Deep.

Cute

she laughed gayly  set off her dimples

                                         Christ he loved her dimples they alone were worth his while keeping her happyhumoured laughing at every opportunity

he remembered when they were first dating she asked if he was ever serious

                                                                                   I can be

But I prefer laughter inanity prefer ridiculous  Keeps me on my toes

Me too. she hugged him kissed him on top the head sniffed You need to wash your hair

Your fault

My fault?

You worked me to a lather last night

How is it . . she laughed gloriously dimples deeper . . not tonight, I have a headache, doesn’t work with you?

Afterwards  Have a headache

      I didn’t.

No

     Makin loves better than aspirin

Migraine?

You don have em but Id lay money the outcum woud be the same

Out C  U  M?

Yup

Manohman.

               You rallying?

Nope

        All I got is liar Full of shit   SomebodyME ought to punch em in the throat before they can speak

May I?

Please Mother

Conspiracy theory.

GAWDDAMMIT

               his head came off his hand  he implored the sky with both  Why why why

Because you haven’t time for horseshit when something insults your intelligence.

Blithe ignorancefuckin    illiterates blindside me

Why you’re prone to humor, wit.

Possible

         More possibly because I dig your laughter an dimples

Lets hang clothes then take a shower

I showered before starting laundry.

                                        You’ll recall.

I was busy at breakfastYes  I recall

So you’re not thinking showershower.

I am not

You’re insatiable.

I am insatiable because you

I bet you say tha to all the grrls . . . laughing  threw her head back

                                                                       she was a challenge to the sun and moon

Youre glorious

she didnt hear him over her peals

1658,  Thursday,  28  3. 24

1136,  Reggaefriday,  29  3. 24

Aerosmith  Same Old Song and Dance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6C_nyZLQR8

Hungarys Viktor Orbans a punk

                                  former and other foes thinks hes the cats Meow

real cats devourentirely  punks

                                  head to tail  entirely

WOOOO  deft autocrat steely

                                 deftly curtailing the lives of his peopleXcept for the chosen whod wipe his ass if he wanted and he does

Hungarys 2024 population is 10,034,876

                                           hmmm  the USs is 341,350,674

to put it into furthur perspective

                                 to put a really fine point an atraumatic needlepoint on Orbans punkishness

there are 41 million American Gen Zs able to vote in November

Gen Z  born the late 90s through early 2010s

might suffice to say Orbans punked Trump

1549,  Thursday,  28  3. 24

2251,  Thursday

Hungary  https://worldpopulationreview.com/countries/hungary-population

US  https://www.worldometers.info/world-population/us-population/

Gen Z  https://circle.tufts.edu/latest-research/41-million-members-gen-z-will-be-eligible-vote-2024

Orban oops?  https://www.barrons.com/news/protest-in-hungary-as-former-insider-shares-proof-of-graft-49365d9c

Frida  Frida Kahlo theres only one Frida  said of surrealists

                                                                  “They poison the air with theories that never come true.”

he disagreedbelieved she was solely addressing Andre Breton

he followedgathered their nascent elicitation

                                               however

it was the creations they forged not the bluestreaks they uttered

he dug em

surrealism sought to release the unbridled imagination of the subconscious

his amicable subconscious had passions readied to surface at what others deemed misfortunate times bobbingbuffeted

on creamyslick waves on wideeyed tides his consciousness enthused him to share 

they were usually fielded lugubriously

                                            asif burdens

rather than keys to set them free

   improbable

                  not impossible

he refused to let others set boundaries

                                          his outland bled vibrantly  tossed bits of watercolours chum that spikedfocused then blurred obscured  spread shimmeringly  simmered  dissipated  waned soft floral pastels

                                                                                                         hed toss again

splash

         a child in a toy cool pool setup on top freshcut grass on a hot scalding day

Grow up.

his bestest favourites were when straitlacedstraitjacketed religious sticks attempted to chideto shame him DUH he had no shame

          When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

                              1 Corinthians 13:11

hed reply  spake

                  loved spaking cuddled it with spankings  was familiar  was regularly punished for not following refusing to adhere to malarkey descending from older people who werent adults  he wouldnt give them that  he could see through their guises  see the elasticbands the cords that held their masks in place

WHO  can you see The Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6y1c3xllo8c

NO

     they didnt wish to be revealedwished to continue their masquerades

   he

       exhibited without restraints

not that they werent appealing with the right partner

hed had three true partners-in-crime 

                                        the others

derelicts dare a lick lagan lay again flotsam fuck jetsam ejaculatesam   though fetching derelicts   

he didnt get between who he was or who he appeared

                                                          Dramatics Whacha See is Whacha Get 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmF_9agF5Og

hed given it thought

                     had he been alive hed have given Frida a go-go a goo   been agog

recently he read that Fridas art was folded into something called naïve art

                                                                               Jesus  Assholes who believe/d that crap

1839,  Sunday,  17  3. 24

1245,  Thursday,  28  3. 24

https://www.metmuseum.org/toah/hd/surr/hd_surr.htm

muttered Asshole

                    then smiled awfully big

it felt good sounded goodanointed his ears came out of his mouth like a goodlyejaculate declaring an asshole an asshole was conviviable   felt just so damn good

real fuckin  good

   downside

                he couldnt say it to the assholes face

if he could he would

the Baltimore Bridge collapses after struck by a disabled container ship  an event that could have been more deadly

everyone ought to thank their lucky stars it wasnt an everyone ought to mourn those who died

INSTEAD

            a MAGA clown

a formerly elected Florida government servant using the term loosely BRAYS

                                                                             without evidence  “DEI did this” so MAGAish

its been viewed over 2.2 million times

                                        rest assured   it was compelled by the visual of the bridge collapsing

he couldnt help but wonder if those viewers also watched James Foley beheaded on-line

DEI Diversity Equity Inclusion

                                    he could understand why Sabitini was an expoliticianexploitative

seeksbegs to remain relative

he had one for the MAGAGOTScrowd to try on

                                                  DSI

the formers legal ploy Delay Stall Ignore                

yet again

             another ASSHOLE

1542,  Monday,  25  3. 24

1018,  Thursday,  28  3. 24

https://www.wired.com/story/baltimore-bridge-collapse-conspiracy-theories/

DEI  https://www.inclusionhub.com/articles/what-is-dei

Sabatini  https://www.sabatiniforcongress.com/

James Foley  https://www.cnn.com/2014/08/19/world/meast/isis-james-foley/index.html

Who watches beheadings  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/30802079/