he loved a challenge

took off his clothes and jumped in

the water looked marvelous

she said a young attractive blonde despite he wasnt attracted to blondes with gleaming white teeth a tan a tennis outfit highlighted with babyblue panels

                                   she said I’m really good from behind. who was he to argue then put her hand to her mouth as she laughed disingenuously

he disregarded her remark was fascinated rather by the syllables in her sentence couldnt have been too attracted seven in a pensee the second line action is described in seven syllables

                                                                              thisll be a riot in real time

the final thought is six syllablesEASY DOES IT  Innuendo  no doubt

                                                                        thats two of five elements

subject two syllable  A tease

three of five

description second line  four

setting third line  eight

                          Shes preening on a tennis court

four of five

description One hot Mama

all jumbledup like wooden balls turning in a Bingo cage

Stop stop turningplease  Im dizzy

                                  Awright Were done

A tease

One hot Mama

I’m really good from behind.

Shes preening on a tennis court

Innuendo no doubt

afternoon,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21

2304,  Twosday,  28  9. 21

Sam Cooke  Wonderful World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdjgj5A2gOs  

 

Alex Smith 

its unfortunate

                Smith is a favoured former Fortyniner QB of a buddy who overcame a spiral compound fracture of his tibia and fibula November 2018 against the Texans he endured seventeen surgeries over nine months refused a recommended amputation and in 2020 was named NFLs Comeback Player of the Year he was playing for the Chiefs

which was fortunate

howeveras he saw it the misfortune lay in the fact his buddy likely suffers alexithymia

                                                                                          no words for emotions

an inability to recognise or describe his emotions  frankly lacking the emotions themselves

while he knew something was off with him he couldnt put his finger on it he thought it was a defense mechanism when confronted with difficult emotions in others

couplethree years ago he related to him that over Thanksgiving his eldest sister took him off to a side and asked him if he had ever heard of alexithymia

he hadnt

she said she believes his lack of emotion which she has noticed in him since he was a boy might be due to it 

Your sisters not a mental health professional

No, no, she read an article and it piqued her attention. She then read a series of medical articles researching it

Wha do you think

It is what it is.

I hate that lineone of my few hates  Thats feeble man

Well . . I’ve come this far.

Did she say there was a therapy

I didn’t ask, I’m not interested.

 

hes come this far

he lives alone 

has few people he needs to negotiate

hes probably happyfeels good that emotions dont tear him up 

hes watched him struggle threefour times shows in his face to comprehendunderstand other peoples emotions  particularly sorrow  exit stage whicheverway to get the hell out of Dodge

                                                                             sympathycompassion must be in him somewhere locked in a cagekept in a soundproofed room atrophied  no exercise no muscle memory

its something hes put in his back pocket to remember  to pulloutto temper his own emotions regarding him when hes chill or vacates the premise when a confrontation – not a better word for it – becomes apparent

alexithymia is probably an excellent explanation why his buddy invokes IQs or dimensionality a continuum on which an individual can have various levels of a characteristic in contrast – who doesnt love contrasting – to a dichotomous take a breath categorical approach in which an individual not a persongawd forbid does or does not possess a characteristic HA he cites IQs or dimensionality in contrast to EQ  emotional quotient   Duhhuh

knowing this little wrinkle  helps him keep things even keel if if he can quell his emotions to remind himself

catchword Alex Smith alexithymia

afternoon,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21

1117,  Twosday,  28  9. 21

War  Bare Back Ride  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLWoPKH2E6A

 

Was it just himhe didnt think so

                                      Tiny Tim

he looked like he could have been related to Ozs Wicked Witch of the WestEXCEPT his skin wasnt green OR WAS IT  makeup is a staple of the Stage

it was queer to learnnever read any of the Baum books that the Wicked Witch ruled Winkie Country why a country named Winkie just asking to be invaded by hordes or Vikings or something Teutonic  they preferred the color yellow Winkies he knew preferred pink – painted their freaking house pinkFollow the Yellow Brick road  he wondered if Winkies were road builders labourers

he had to be careful when going down roads

                                              always figured he knew the way back but didntgot lost more times than he could remember  no real sense of direction no onboard compass  OR maybe he wanted to encompass everything

Are you lost, little boy?

I am

      his youth was filled with the kindness of strangers the neighbourhood police knew him by name he became a something of a nexus for police in adjacent neighbourhoods  

after the first halfdozen times his parent and grandmotherthey lived with her  quit fretting

                                                                                               though usually when coming through the door  hed be punishedspanked  his grandmother was busy at her rosary praying in Polish he was afraid to ask her what she was praying forhe imagined two alternatives

                                                                      he was malleable  he could have been raised by gypsies who his parents threatened his younger siblings with if they acted badly

I’ll put you out on the doorstep and let the gypsies take you. 

Sounded exciting to him

Yah easily  Tiny Tim might have shared blood with the Wicked Witch

1202,  Monday,  27  9. 21

Tiny Tim  Tip Toe Thru’ the Tulips  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mpq-pGDgKXw

Jack Leopards & the Dolphin Club  Look What You Made Me Do  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2gwl_e_cjzg

The Coathangers  Watch Your Back  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=va5DcgSSDos  

 

she wasnt being specific

therefore he parsed her words

she asked What do you think?

he answered what he thought not what he was thinking

                                                          think and thinking are different

I think the Niners listened to AIplayed the odds why they lost to Green Bay Human beings think play differently than uninspired cold hardware an hot software Ones a fool not to back an athlete on the field

                                                                                             what he was thinking was of the ramifications of a study regarding evidence found that humans lived during the Ice Age in North America 20,000 to 25,000 years ago far earlier than believed

                                           he was also thinking of the discovery of childrens handprints 200,000 years old believed to be either Neanderthal or Denisovan  not Homo sapiens  once upon a time six types of hominids wandered the globe concurrently

So you think that computers . .

. . Are toolsexcuse me for cutting you off A tool like a senseless hammer

                                                                            A tool is a tool is a tool Gertrude Stein

I was thinking of a cat a paleoanthropologist Tocheri from a found pinkie finger science utilised its DNA to fashion the head features of a Denisovan child Tocheri questions the accuracy of the predictionscomputers give us predictions he said he didnt think were there yet where were able to look at aspects of genetic data and then predict morphology

Its funny computers arent named Nostrodamus

That was a mouthful, babe; though I did ask what you thought

Yadid but Im always thinking

                              Im thinking yare a mouthful

Stop . . how you bring all things back to sex.

Sex is proto Greek  First foremost

                                    Why I get up in the morning   Ya following my play . .

. . Your UP? 

Yare

       I love ya buckwheat

2334,  Sunday,  26  9. 21

1054,  Monday,  27  9. 21

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/footprint-study-is-best-evidence-yet-that-humans-lived-in-ice-age-north-america-180978757/?utm_source=smithsoniandaily&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=20210924-daily-responsive&spMailingID=45677072&spUserID=MTIyMTUxODU5OTExNgS2&spJobID=2084635114&spReportId=MjA4NDYzNTExNAS2

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/these-200000-year-old-hand-and-footprints-could-be-the-worlds-oldest-cave-art-180978702/?utm_source=smithsoniandaily&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=20210917-daily-responsive&spMailingID=45639039&spUserID=MTIyMTUxODU5OTExNgS2&spJobID=2083949126&spReportId=MjA4Mzk0OTEyNgS2

Denisovans  https://www.nbcnews.com/mach/science/first-portrait-extinct-denisovan-human-relative-created-pinky-bone-dna-ncna1056436

Deep Purple  Strange Kind of Woman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UMCpy1Qfie4

their conversations ran from highbrow  literature history politics science mathematics togratefully profuse banality

he was the master of Banal

he accused his cohort  master of Anal

                                       he couldnt push him out of his tight prescribed narrow lane just refused to venture into the unknown

Unknown  Really 

                    he memorised Rumsfelds beaut raged as he listened to the national news conference A-hole  he knew it better than Bible passageswhich would have offend his areligiousreligious parents

                                                                                               “Reports that say that something hasn’t happened are always interesting to me, because as we know, there are known knowns; there are things we know. We also know there are known unknowns; that is to say we know there are some things we do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns (JesusHChrist) – the ones we don’t know we don’t know (ought to have run that on a loop – pure genius). And if one looks throughout the history of our country and other free countries (“You’re either with us or you’re against us.”), it is the latter category that tends to be the difficult ones.”

he braced him about letting his hair down Take a chance throw it against a wall see if it sticks

No, isn’t happening. Why put myself at risk? risk averse  return on investmentROI

Risk is exhilaratingFun

Not if you lose.

Ive lost more than Ive won

Not me.

Makes one resilient adaptable  got scars to prove it

Not me.

 

his cohort loved cars sport cars strictly appreciated their superficial cosmetic appealamongst other things

he didnt see cars any more than he paid attention to men

                                                            it was nothing more than transportation from A to B

his cohort sallied forth on what he thought he understood about transmissions powershifting shifting gears

he was killing him

                    might as well have been rattling on about stocks pork belly futures the commodity exchanges money money money ching ching ching  centless

                                               Awwell made sense he was raised affluentdidnt think twice of his entitlement actually fought him on the premise that he was entitled

                                                          Dude white affluent  male  just jump in where Im off base

he was getting off base

                        manual transmissions he handled them on the column on the floor thats all he needed to know of their machination

he was gonna take a leak

                         Listen man yakeep talking to yourself Im hittin the head

in the head he paused  Comon gotta go   then he farted tickled him pink gears shiftedhe urinated

                                                                                                       he was so pleased with the juxtaposition shifting he was sharing come hell or high water

he wandered back to the patioalways admiring his cohorts in-the-ground swimming pool Hey man  Ya know something

What do I know?

In regards to your . . fuck no words other than lectureshootin from the hip I might add . I have a response

he sneeredhe was an accomplished sneerer

                                            What do you got?

Opened my pants stood there a bit I fartedthe works began  A transmission of sorts smackdab in the midst your yammering

Yammering?

Yes

Why yammering?

I told you in advance of your questionable scholarship I wasnt interested

                                                                             Yetya persisted Soyah

So yeah?

Youve farted sparked your piss I know you like that word I DONT Correct Its happened

DUH.

Thank you

             Smartest thing youve said all day

1530,  Saturday,  25  9. 21

1336,  Sunday,  26  9. 21

Pink Floyd  Money  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpbbuaIA3Ds

10cc  I’m Not in Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PC2HkP5gR2g

      

     Awshucks Cant plead Executive privileges Donny    

Yamay still tout yourself the 45th President Yawere however theres a 46th President

Your contempt of Law all things American your ghastly attempt to overthrow the government  inciting an insurrection

like Seinfelds soup Nazi  NO SOUP FOR YOU!  Nono no Executive privilege for you Former

Unfortunately President Obama played alongplayed nice and didnt purse Bush & Company for their neocon instincts Afghanistan Iraq abductions black sites torture Guantanamo drone strikes  twisted laws 

1723,  Reggae Friday,  24  9. 21

1137,  Monday,  27  9. 21

Soup Nazi  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVm1KcrHM6s   

https://news.yahoo.com/biden-not-interested-giving-trump-223132648.html?guccounter=1&guce_referrer=aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuZ29vZ2xlLmNvbS8&guce_referrer_sig=AQAAADTUCR6o_JhW5ruYPLqZSMDg07RhOQUrxwDNgbnoxqCuYxu070A_VxveCmXE3G2v1UdezkAS-PyYIlPjVFortH9Mr8ksLdOGhGm2hXFp0MuRIFL8cHFKYE5_tjhZAInYkz2AelrBlm6X_DK43hTYyPsoJMI_3cYrqNqoKeiaDgm-

 

Your parents . . . they were crematedcorrect

Yes.

Were they interred

Yes.                                                                                                         

 

Yes

        You uncomfortable talking about this

Depends. 

           What are you driving at?

Im not driving  Im asking

                           Asking because I have a sense theyre nearby an youve not mentioned visiting them since Id guess  they were interred

he shifted his stance

It isnt my intention to make you uncomfortable We can change the subject if you rather Im curious is all 

 

I don’t visit because they’re not there.

Their mortal remains ar . .

. . I don’t have to visit their  mortal  remains . . to remember them.

No  Yadon

            The cemetery throws you off 

he stood boltupright

                     Throws me off? How do you mean throws me off?

Makes you uncomfortable

Uncomfortable?  Why would I be?

Because people donusually do things theyre uncomfortable doing

                                                                     Your mothers been dead fifteensixteen years whichif Im correct means you visited her last when you interred your father Wha its been three years

Yes. Three years.

Is there a family plot

he turned his head to a side like a perplexed bird

                                                    Family plot?

Other crypts for family members

Crypts? No.  No.

                   They chose to lay there.

Do you think they laythat they chose crypts because they thought family would visit

his countenance hardened I don’t know what they thought.

Awright  Cant assume I understand

                                          Your Dad visited your Mom

Yes, he did.

Is it likely because he did because from what youve said he understood he was influential particularly for you that he might have thought youyour siblings would visit his grave site your Moms

Your sisters visit

They do.

Yadon

   he slumped his spine give way a bit  

Why donya

he cleared his throat As I said . . they’re not there.

No  Theyre not

                 However their graves are touchstonesaffirmations They were here They are memorialised 

Visiting them would be a genuine acknowledgment of what they meant to youthat they provided for you and your siblings

he shook his head

                    What’s this about? You trying to guilt me?

No guilt  Its about being human  an recognising your mortality

                                                                   I understand that aside from your immediate family you grewup with few other family I grewup surrounded by family dozens of aunts and uncles sixtysix first cousins  couldnt toss a stone without hitting one 

Ill be cremated though not contained Then ifyawill part of their atmosphere my girls can take comfort Im about he chuckled Aroundanabout

Yet you interred your wife’s ashes in her mother’s grave.

Yes we did

             Since the day her mother died Cindi desperately missed her The girls and I decided that laying her with her motherthem being together would be comfortingwould be right

Comforted in death

A sentiment that eludes you

Yes.  I suppose to each his own.

 

Yes

     Yare missing out  Yare choosing not to celebrate life

full moon -- Harvest moon rising,  Monday,  20  9. 21

0930,  Saturday,  25  9. 21

 

the stuff that interrupted his YouTube music selections

Stitch Fix Freestyle kinda flows give em that

                                                       touted a clothing shopping experience 

 theyd dress you    

                                     theyll dress youwhen he was a child his parents dressed him

he couldnt wait to dress himself

when he went out it wasnt a touted shopping experience it hadnt appealedappareled to him in years he was ever comfortable in his own skinthough he understood societys need to have something hung over it so not to upset others

his inimitable style

                    shortsleeve pullovers pullup button pants socks shoes Done  hell with collars shirt buttons cuffs at his wrists  bondage   if he wanted bondage there were a couple gals who knew hishe knew their safeword

such was the extent of his clothing

                                     hed happily wear a feed sack

seriously Stitch Fix Freestyle  a clothing shopping experience

                                                                  he thought Yacan say that againDONThe knew the interlopers who attended himwho he contended with would be hot on it like stink on shit 

Awcomon.

            Unlike you being Johnny-on-the-spot.

I felt yer breath on my shoulderYa slumming

Self-disparaging this evening.

Self-deprecating

                  More a matter of keeping the ball aliveplay alive Shouldnt wait for some loudmouth to try an steal yer fire Self-deprecation keeps the water still keeps it from heating I can take my horseshit though Ive found that those who dish it out often cant upsets their applecart I aint about to chase nobodys applessoothe someone featherstalk someone down whos butthurt

An orator this evening.

No rather irritated Irritation lubricates my jaw greases my gears I open my mouth an it blows

So yadon need me?

I donneed ya

a bit crestfallen they walked away leaving him to the modern hazards of immediate gratification

Siris

Alexa

Cortana

they sound like courtesans guarded by Nubian eunuchs

why not Bob

Bruce

Wesleys

then theyre hungry

Grubhub

DoorDash

Uber Eats

Instacart

would gave him indigestion

solutions

Alka-Seltzer

Tums

Pepto Bismol

Milk of Bismuth

hair of the dog

HEY  Wait a sec

they stopped Me?

Yahyou 

         I don feel like being manipulated amputated pithed tonight Yawanna crack at em

May I?

Yamay

Oh boy, oh boy, ohboy!

he did like their enthusiasm

                              better theirs than his they would tell him all about it later

2110, Reggae Friday,  24  9. 21

2247,  Saturday,  25  9. 21

 

What’s this?

Whaswha

This?

      she showed him he typed d-n-u-o-f 

he suppressed backpedalingrunning off hair on fire 

  then coolly he read the entire paragraph for context

                                                         Ah thats found Makes perfect sense

Makes perfect sense?  You wrote found in reverse?

A hiccup

Hiccup? That’s not even dyslexic, you didn’t flip syllables, Mississippi, Issmissippi; that’s wholesale assbackwards.

Or ya might wanna look at it this way  s-d-r-a-w-k-c-a-b-s-s-a

                                                                  Flickers a bit like a bad bulb short in a wire poor connexion  the flickering provokes odd elocution  an for such elocution a keen execution  reveal  shabby missteps

s-p-e-t-s-s-i-m   Ya neednt be pessimistic  Im not

S-p-e-t-s-s-i-m?

Sure . . kinda like sputum unlike phlegm

You trying to make a game out of this?

I am  since I havent a reason or excuse why I wrote d-n-u-o-f dnuof  Thinking dwarf

Dwarf? That’s a reach.

it occurred he was maligning himselfmaking himself suspect

                                                                he desperately needed a fall guy

she knew he was prone to talking about the many hes inhabiting him  they were often desirous to take forestage bathe in the hot spotlight

                     Youah   Yayou comere

they nearly tripped over their feet coming forward

                                                    De boss, he wants me.  they uttered to the others gathered at his back                     

they came on cocky  assured  a true believer before a genuine guerilla who didnt have to work to convince them to strap on an explosive vest and detonate it

                                       an apple no one should have to polish

or a knob no one should polish

Whassup?

Ya been listenin

I have.

Interloping

Nah, always within earshot, boss, curious; that’s not interloping.

Yawanna take this nonsense on

Nah, above my pay grade.

                             Ya might wanna strap-on.

I thought yad like to impress me

Nope. Mebbe whashisface might.

Whos whashisface

Whas his name? . . hmm . . . I forget.

Thats no help

It aint . . but I also aint yer man.

So

So.

    Yare on yer own. Likeyalike to say . . accountability.

There is that

There is.  It’s a bitch, boss.

                                 Show us how it’s done.

he looked her in the eyeballs

                                I have no idea why I wrote that Im gonna hafta be vigilant so it doesnt happen again

Maybe we can get back to Bremers fuckup the CPA Coalition Provisional Authority Iraq annot being able to crown Ahmed Chalabi king He cost us a heap of treasure and hunreds of thousands of human lives untold suffering

Fuckin Bush awarded him the Presidential Medal of Freedom for his horseass efforts

she sighed  If I forgive you, can we drop the politics?

Done

      Water under the bridge

0805,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  15  9. 21

1456,  Reggae Friday,  24  9. 21

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2015/nov/04/ahmed-chalabi   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WEvEFk1aB6Q