bassline begins  drum picks up 

                                                why 25 or 6 to 4 jumped his head he didnt have a clue there were manymany things he didnt have a clue about or jumped onboard like a journeyman hobo at a freight train   maybe in time hed remember why lotsa things traipsed across his mind although they dont walk heavydont stomp their feet leave footprints  hed need an Indian tracker to learn their waywhere they went

                                                                               sometimes acid helped elucidate  happy hallucinogens   hogtied rope around his ankles yanked him up in the air swinging swaying above the neocortex terra firma only a thin silver of occasional drool spittle laces the dirt suggesting where he passed in pursuit

real slim pickins

the tracker shrugs

Cantya see the real me

Look harder

I don bite

              hard

Comon now smile   that was worth a smile 

                                                grin  and bear it 

 

25 or 6 to 4 mounted him fourfive times through the day out of sudden speakers to either side of his head

25 or 26? to 4  maybe he was picking up

334  335

4s Happy Hour

where he lived he could walk to the bar in 5minutes 20 to burn

Whadaya mean No

No  Ya mean its morning

4 was Closing time in his heyday

leave the table

leave the sticks on the table

head out separate from the others to clear his head

a bite to eat

Superdawg Drive-In

Parsies hot dog stand

maybe breakfast  coffee   a greasy spoon

then beat it back to the bar

opens at 6

the 2hour delay making it the longest time he ever took to clear a table

severe straight pool clever manipulations English draws combinations

the next rack will be the nail in the coffin

cat was returning they had to leave their stakes there he tucked his cash in a corner pocket

he tucked his in a side pocket

if he ever got too fucked up there were only 2

he could count to 2

if not in one side he could lay across the table and reach into the other

cant do that from one end of the table to the other

he knocked them down

left one to the right of the rack

he muscled it into the cornersmashed the other balls

real easy pickins

shy half the rack he dropped the 100th ball

                                              Thank you

616

a thick fold in his pocket on his thigh

cat had small bills against their big bet

25 or 6

 

2121,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

1202,  Monday,  12  7. 21

Chicago  25 or 6 to 4  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUAYeN3Rp2E

The Who  The Real Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2h1MY70uag

Green Day  Brain Stew  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjBHiX9agSw

lemmings

   awbrutha  when youre tossed a reprieve catch it and run like hell

the lemmings were smiling

                          ridiculous grins smeared across their pussgivin each other thumbsup highfives

after all these years it was nice to witness

                                           and stepping outnahreally they were forced out  forced to concede

they knew they were licked 

so they obliged

              snickering as they walked away from the cliff and the sea below

a new life form was replacing them

a new life form willingly taking on the ignominy that had been the lemmings since   wha 1958  Disneys White Wilderness

Step aside vermin; it’s our turn now.

                                       they didnt want to share the limelight

the new life form 

formed by denial

                     acquiescent thats a big word  yathink theyll understand   Republicants

2300,  Monday,  12  7. 21

1202,  Twosday,  13  7. 21

White Wilderness  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xMZlr5Gf9yY  https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2021/jul/08/fears-of-new-us-covid-surge-as-delta-spreads-and-many-remain-unvaccinated 

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/state-republican-chairs-become-chief-enforcers-trumpism-n1273935?cid=eml_mra_20210714&user_email=e4c91d00eead6d858374885584701152a02c6d873bb23bf387b4583a289e5951  

abject lemmings

 

she texted  :  :  How are you? What are you up to?

she obviously hadnt seen but he emaled her articles and copies of antique folios regarding flowers exotic South Pacific reef fish and jellyfish 

                      the folios preceded the advent of photography biologists artfully reproducing what they saw 

unfortunately common folk didnt see

he texted  :  :  I’m writing and managing a bee sting, inside my left forearm – first time I ever saved a bee from drowning and was stung for my effort – I’m sorry to say the little bee died for stinging me.

                                                                                               he thought  Man thats all in lil bugger didnt sit on a fence But maybe his attitude got the better of him

he also thought 

                 I had skin in the game but it wasnt gonna kill me

Was this a cautionary tale

Nope

      next time in a pool and he found a drowning bee hed do it again

  :  :  What are you up to?

writing is an unsatisfactory answer

when he finished upwhenever or if unfinished hed stop pour himself a beer after 4 keep writing by 5 his brutal housemates cats would inform him it was time for their dinner outside cats tooby default

sip beer watch politickles pause start reheating a lentil/leek soup

dinner

dusk

outside to gander at the new moons and Venus proximity last night they virtually sat in one anothers lap before going down behind the hills the horizon at the same time  for Gawdknows what kind of mischief 

definitely again tonight

simple things 

he could scarcely wait to see  experience it 

                                            then memories firingtrying to see through the haze of gunpowderthe illumination of the unearthly the imagined 

                                             then  maybe see through a neighbours window their nubile teenager experimenting with her sexualityher budding prowess

                                                          safely 

he didnt start it

he was the recipient

her family was religious

they thought he was a kook for not believing

Gawd works in strange ways

                                malicious blackhumoured    fuckin hilarious 

if He existed 

             they probably would have gotten along famously

1330,  Monday,  12  7. 21 

Emancipator  The Way  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TosjHtgQxII

 

  Pennsylvania

                  Republicant 

                                  PA  R  hed bet the clown had to cheat to make par  his name

gotta have a name or a piece isnt legit 

not he 

they

them

non-binary

          thatd make this cuss choke

hes State senator Doug Mastriano hes got a Mangobug up his ass the Former he fills his cup frequently and enthusiastically drinks the punch

punchdrunk beyond reason rationale or truth he projects 

                                                              “What we are seeing is a convergence (whos putting words in your mouth Dougie) of scare tactics . . . to intimidate county officials (who on January6 made known their tallies and winners and presented them to Congress for certificationDONE) and obstruct a forensic investigation.”

if he and his ilk werent antidemocratic  pitiful   he might have sympathy for the pudpullers

  

1049,  Monday,  12  7. 21

The Castaways  Liar Liar  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDEdFxUZ01s 

Emancipator  Elephant Survival  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kRGMIN8UmrI 

 

jac – ti – ta – tion

JACTITATION

excitation

 

   the restless tossing of the body in illness

                                               or a twitching limb or muscle      when he listened to music

he knew a girl who restlessly tossed a tit 

she was no Jacques

though she was a Jacyln

she had ample to toss

he hoped for a concussion

a nippleprint smackDAB in the middle of his forehead

like an attempted bluntinstrument frontal lobotomy

but ones gotta have a brain to be lobotomised 

he was a naïve 2dayold OZScarecrow

AwShucks  ya missed 

Wanna try again

                   rearing back to try again she snarled Screw the lobotomy, I’m cracking your skull wide open. but before she lunged he stepped forward and took her rabble in hand

he wrestled themtook them both on reduced them to a pair of young pups who prior played together inside her sweater

HANDS ON

             bridled  confined

his juggling 

her jiggling

                Uhoh awawawaah ejaculation

by jactitsation 

other volcanic flashessplashes going off around the room were fuddy-duddies heads blowing up  HOWD THEY GET IN

             Awawawaah Jaclyn  like moths to a flame   

1838,  Reggae Friday,  31  3. 17

1541,  Saturday – 104degrees,  10  7. 21

Bicep/Boiler Room  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wPIFUWOLc2A

 

       musing

                     musing while taking a cool bath to offset the heat of the daythe continuing heat at night   

thank Gawd it wasnt humid it wasnt that kind of heat the wholesale sweating  lying in it until the sweat chilled the sheets and he was able to fall asleep as he did in his youth in Chicago

a nice cool bath

he thought it would ease his body his mind

rather he mused about mortal remains 

                                                 he hadnt given a thought to them in a very long time

he had to seriously considered them when his wife died 

when he stoodup in the gathered room and excused himself  Everyone youll forgive me I have to go the chapel to the crematory he upset the entire room

                                   virtually everyone there  his entire family his daughters his parents her parents their siblings other family close friends stood and barred him from leaving She’s gone, there’s nothing more for you to do. Why would you submit yourself to that?  there were whispers of That seems ghoulish. 

                                                                                           the reality was the truth was

they wouldnt submit themselves to her cremation

when he tried to press forward through them the tears and wails began  No no  NO hands gripped him held him fast

he tried to escape but he wasnt able

nothing short of violence would free him 

on the wall above four doors that exited the banquet hall a huge round whitefaced clock read Ten her cremation began at Ten

he was late

he hadnt conceived of a wholesale deployment of grief of repulsion frankly revulsion 

she was the first of the family who wanted to be cremated

                                                             that she was being cremated not buried upset a slew of them

but thats what she wanted

she was going to have what she wanted

they didnt talk of anything beyond that

maybe they should have

then it would have been known he wanted to attend her cremation

since

       given that upset then that near irrevocable violence  hed missed two cremations

when they died he was at their bedside  

he was keenly aware he missed them 

though it seemed no one else was

in a cool bath on a terribly hot night he mused regret

0111,  Sunday,  11  7. 21

1206,  Sunday,  11  7. 21

Cream  White Room  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5BF1V1pbTs 

Emancipator – Rena Jones -- Flowerpulse  Iceland  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a7RSaFAnu04

 

he was mistaken

 

it wasnt the weight of their deaths that confounded him

rather he struggled the weight of their transformationstruggled to affirm honour  relate to their beliefs

he loved them deeply

they were irreplaceable 

he hoped desperately that they did indeed transform

                                                        that spars formedtheir sails filled with whitehot or coolblue breaths of rare atmosphere and that they sped unerringly to their destinations on fleet ochreyellow sienna wings gloriouslyconceived one with them as a birds butterflys dragonflys

    

1323,  Twosday,  5  6. 18

1514,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

Jefferson Starship  All Fly Away  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48dKEtrK7xU

 

he heard Al Greens voice in his head as he laid in a cool tub eyes closed running circles around himself Im so tired of being alone Sing it Al  he couldnt hold a tune for his life  he didnt mind a singer fronting himpleading his case

Im so tired of being alonehere by myself

the dumb fuckinretarded  redundant circle   what didnt they get

                                                                    they knew he lived alone 

they knew when he returned to the real world he had to react quickly to a virusthe Trump virus  which he didnt know existed 

       THEREFORE  safety demanded he disappeargo underground

during quarantine he took or made only occasional telephone calls  once a weekmaybe 

                                                                                             he didnt talk with anyone regularly 

NOW

            What’s wrong with your voice? You sound funny.

Really My voice

Yeah, you don’t sound like yourself.

Ifya don use it ya lose it

Do you got to be cryptic, cant you just say?

Cryptic  Just say

                  Whas so cryptic bout ya lose it ifya don use it  Everything weve enduredeverything befallen us  we are still livin on the same planetarent we 

                                            Unlike you I live alone  

Yes, I understand you live alone.

Good Got that straightgot that out of the way

                                                Livin alone a year an a half  Who am I talking toexercising my voice so I don sound funny when I talk 

I suppose you’re not talking to yourself.

Yare sharp thickskulled Polack 

                                My voice is different because I don use it I don sing to records I listen to jazz asya know  Dig

I do, I do, I’m just saying your voice sounds . . weird.

Deal with it or don call

 

he imagined he sounded like a Trappist monk who completed a vow of silence    HA  closer to Gawd 

2304,  Reggae Friday,  9  7. 21

1439,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

Al Green  Tired of Being Alone  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tdw7kxD8eUc

Nina Simone  I Put a Spell on You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ua2k52n_Bvw

Jefferson Starship  Miracles  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7m8izf-oXY4 

appleseed

 

under flickering yellowlashes candlelight soaking in the tub he looked up kittycorner to the corner above the basin cabinet and mirror 

                      there was a pitiful spiderweb he could scarcely make out the spider in it

he took a sip of his whisky then set it down on the tubs edge over his left shoulder he held the liquor in his mouth mused  before he swallowed

                                  he mused that it had been four years since a spider attempted suicidehiding in his bathwashed towards the drain

appleseed had tried three times in just over a month

she was huge

her web in the same corner was fastidious

he cleanedup the countertop the desiccated deftlywrapped insectcorpses he gently swept them into a small dustpan and laid their bodies outside in the poppy planters maybe someone one day would accord him the same respect  it shouldnt be hard to respect an extinguished life

yaaintnoappleseed after appleseed disappeared squatted in her web  

he attempted suicide once

                           but appleseed had prepared him no suicides on his watch

he again proved nibble shutdown the waterdammed the wash to the drain with his handsaved him

appleseed proved stalwart after her attempts hed take the stepstool and standing on it he blew into her web shed rush fearsomely out of the corner at his face  then heel 

theyd converse 

rather he talked to her

                         it wasnt until he said goodnight or goodday and stepped down off the stool that she retreated

the evenings when his illness reduced him to crawling out of the tub shed come to the edge of the web  he either hadnt the strength to coordinate to squat to stand or couldnt endure the pain in his wrists and hands to push himself up

so he crawled out of the tub 

maybe his crawling made she suspect he was a big spider

 

when she disappeared the last time he realised her grace

                                                              by disappearing she didnt let him confront her dead body on the countertop 

which would have crushed him 

given his healthhis state of mind

  appleseed had been his companion for more than a year 

                                                              it didnt strike him odd to say that he loved her

1230,  Twosday,  6  7. 21

1322,  Reggae Friday,  9  7. 21

Doors  Love Her Madly  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5iqfXaGliq8

wouldnt it be wonderful to disappear rather than die

Jud

   mebbe   mebbe  if he reached deep deepdeep down inside himself  he could find a spot that  reaching    reaching  NAH there aint no spot in him no place that held sympathies for white supremacists seditionists   bootlicks following the fray  the whining that theyre being political persecuted                                                                                                                               whiners like the Formerlike Putin  FOX  Gosar  degenerate Republicant lackeys who say It wasn’t that bad . .   They were tourists . . .  but in the moment of the Capitol insurrection ran for their lives when things got realHANG PENCE  an had the rope and noose

prosecution is not persecution

         they listened    they made their bets  doubleddown

                                                                    like his Maw would say hed love to hear her say it again They made their beds, let them sleep in 'em.

1646,  Reggae Friday,  9  7. 21

1022,  Saturday,  10  7. 21

Oklahoma  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Euq8Z4l6Iwk 

Louie

 

Awshit scuse me   I ah didnt meandidnt expect  to ah  interrupt ya

the tree gruntedfroze in midcurl

Yawanna finish out I can wait aint going anywheres special  No ticktock no time constraints

it jerked its crown right indicating him to proceed  some dried leaves shook free a squirrels nest shifted

I am sorry  Excuse me

the tree grunted again

after he passed behind it and was out of the way he glanced back

the tree went back to curling a rectangular slab of concrete with its roots that it had broke free years ago

often passing hed smell tree sweat

hed stop and look at the tree

it played dumb

first time he caught it in action

                                though over the twelve or something years hed been passing this waydescending the broken sidewalk and steps he suspected as much

 

 a nice treat

1500-ish,  Thursday,  31  12. 20

1349,  Saturday,  16  1. 21

 

 

awwell  some miserable entity was trying to bugger the tree 

                                                                the bustedup slab of concrete it curled was demolished removed and fresh concrete was poured  likely some clown tripped on it fell and enraged approached the bank above off the parking lot  the nearest business to the old broken steps and threatened a lawsuit

bitch bitch bitch 

                 he didnt feel a clumsy lummox was entitled to sue

Pickup your feet when ya walk idiot

he was assuming 

rather than striding up the fresh steps and landing he took the dirt path to its side avoiding the green concrete and stepped on it only to cross to the tree

Awshit big guy he stroked the rough bark of its trunk  Im awfully sorry  A facelift destroys character 

                                                                                                           Im awfully sorry

No worries it grunted  I’ll knock the hell out of it again, gimme a few years. We'll call it isometric training in the meantime, eh? 

he was flabbergasted  the tree talked to him he gulped 

                                                        Yah yah  its been some time since Ive heard isometric exercises said out loud

Yeah, well, I’ve been around a long time; the stories I could tell ya that I’ve witnessed, overheard, by the screwballs coming down the hill from the sex shop next drive over. Curl your hair. Humour you to no end.

he musedsmiled   Well Louie I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship

                                                                                       Casablanca

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Nah ya wouldnt  not unless you grewup in a yard outside a house outside the livingroom 

Yard, livingroom? 

No rush  We got time 

                          I gotta go now but thanks for speaking up 

Whenever you pass you always say Hey, how’s it going? 

I do 

Louie? 

A name  Ill call you Louie an you can call me Rick 

                                                      Until next time 

the tree had gone mute 

he smelled tree sweatmaybe heard a grunt 

                                              Louie was already after the slab

thirteenhunred-ish,  Twosday,  6  7. 21

1204,  Reggae Friday,  9  7. 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vY-4zWKsJM