Ssssh don tell him its a secret hes killin his base
1757, Monday,
4 5. 20
4.5.20
Thats a nifty trick Herr Drumpf
muzzling your White House coronavirus task force members from testifying
before Congress denying Congress it
oversight responsibilities
White House deputy press secretary
Judd Deere whod
he blow for the job said in a statement “We are committed
to working with Congress to offer testimony at the appropriate time.”
he didnt knowhe could be wrong but he thought during the coronavirus
pandemic might be an appropriate time
bunch of entitled knuckledraggers
at the tippy-top shape
1514, Monday,
4 5. 20
U S A
a chant went up U S A U S A U
S A in the wings of the
Lincoln Memorial Sunday evening
then it occurred to him it wasnt a chant for the United States of
America No
it was a chant for the United
Sociopaths of America
three
and a half years in he finally got
it Fuuck
1340, Monday,
4 5. 20
Ahyah yah gotit
he remembered
it had been grating his brain like a coarse wood file Ey got it
Big Bang thats what happens when you get pulled out from
under your routinethe yokethe grind ya
gotta remember things aint at your
elbow no more
some people needed routine
he wasnt sure he was one of them
but there was that glaring obeisance to hardwork putting his head downdigging in the grunting and sweat
thats why his body was in the shape it was
nobodys going to do the lifting for younot for your benefit
it falls on your shoulders
so fuckin shaddupquit bellyaching do it
Big Bang
not forgotten misplaced but like most things he couldnt find or remember immediately he bet on a family trait
it was in a safe place
it was a trait or characteristic founded by his wife and ran replete through him and their five childrenfive daughters – he was surrounded by a hoard of old souls – he often remarked “growing up” which included him – there was something to be said about growing up in a house surrounded by beautiful fiercely-intelligent women
and he and his wife ran a democratic household
if he wanted to watch pro football on Sundayscatch a Monday Night game they voted he had to go out
it didnt trouble him as much as he thought it would
for it also bestowed upon him BEYOND HIS WILDEST DREAMS which werent democratic or aligned or a crapshoot that anyone wold have bet on that Time of the Month when all his girls were bleedingsix women and they bled at the same time I LOVE YOU GRRLS!
besides not all the games were worth his a while
so shining football the only professional sport that interested him his democracy could have been hell but he rather enjoyed the weekends with his wife and daughters his six beauties for the shortest portions of their lives
he didnt use the word knew it typically refrained however to say he was blessed wouldnt have been inappropriate
Big Bang
it had gone out of his head for the time beingother things filling itthings he didnt imagined in his life hed negotiated
Whasa time being
an extraterrestrial a sensate peeking inside his skull playing with re-wiring neurons forgetting to
post a warning or caution an informative sign of its entrance serial obscuration stretching oblong an oblonger an obloonger
hed written a text to his brotherinlaw of his dilemma hed left a key with him in case his brotherinlaw got luckyfound that he could get some loving his wife was restrictingwithholding his brotherinlaw stopped over to feed his cats
he told him which cupboard to find the coffee beans in : : Tell me, man, Peet’syah, whats the bean? It’s slipped my mind.
: : U fucking kidding me? Big Bang? A tenet of our astrophysics, our source of Heavenly Bodies? We have stardust in our bones!
he hadnt forgetten he misplaced it and he remembered before his brotherinlaw chastised him via text
: : Ahead of you. I recalled. Peet’s Big Bang is the coffee. I remembered. Thank you for looking in the cupboard.
hed written a text to his brotherinlaw of his dilemma hed left a key with him in case his brotherinlaw got luckyfound that he could get some loving his wife was restrictingwithholding his brotherinlaw stopped over to feed his cats
he told him which cupboard to find the coffee beans in : : Tell me, man, Peet’syah, whats the bean? It’s slipped my mind.
: : U fucking kidding me? Big Bang? A tenet of our astrophysics, our source of Heavenly Bodies? We have stardust in our bones!
he hadnt forgetten he misplaced it and he remembered before his brotherinlaw chastised him via text
: : Ahead of you. I recalled. Peet’s Big Bang is the coffee. I remembered. Thank you for looking in the cupboard.
if his brotherinlaw texted back that he hadnt remembered hed coldly lambast him for putting up with the poor excuse of a woman his wife was
he didnt think hed have to
his brotherinlaw knew his wife was a piece of shit
she was the right sex the wrong politics and religion
0259, Day-between-Two0-Ts, 18 12.
19
1722, Sunday, 3 5. 20
1722, Sunday, 3 5. 20
3.5.20
beat beat
beat
an the
beat goes on
everyone gets it they
get it in the tongues they speak some understand better than others
time is meant to be enjoyed
some have
oodles and oodles of it perish the
thought theyd ever be diminished or bankrupt or that they have obligations to others
like sixyear olds
the sun rises and sets on them
they have trouble understanding
the beat that theres even a beat time
is effortless
maybe if they paused listened or felt the beat of their hearts
or the beats doled out mechanically surgically sometimes the beating of someone elses heart
in their chest
because it was critical the world needed them
Awhorseshit
for instance
had he left the planet when
he was stricken by whatever the fuck it was never knew like Humpty
Dumpty he wasnt gonna be put back together
again
a lot of people would have eaten (had
omelets) might have survived or made better off his bits and pieces
truth be known
donating he would have dictated who wouldnt have been allowed
to dine or made better
he wasnt utterly altruistic
utterlyaltruistic
looks and reads like a disease donit shoot that muthafucker in the head before the
age of consent
0217, Day-between-Two-Ts, 18 12.
19
1352, Sunday,
3 5. 20
da fuckin things we struggle wid are
of our own makin
we do da things we do
did wha we did cuz datswha we wanted to do
all da mopin regret is horseshit
we wanna finger somebody elseblame
somebody else for it
for wha we did
for wha we did
fuckin natural
like da sun comin up
inda mornin
ahdashit we do
alldashit we do
somewares in our
crackpot skulls we tink we can skate mebbe
we can
ventually it catchesup wid us
catchesup quicker dan we tink an stares us in
dafuckin eyeballs
Whadafuck was ya tinkin Donsay Donsay
Yawerent tinkin
Ifnya was tinkin
Ya wouden be where ya is
Ahfuck da tangled webs we weave
Mebbe wish yawas a spider
Yid get quarry for yah efforts
Lalaladidah Forgive me Fadder for ey have sinned
Muthafuckers got thick skin ainhe Thick skin to forgive da shit hes heapd wid
We do wha we do cuzdats wha we
wanna do
Dun like it
Gid in line
Yacan blow me after ya blow Him
2312, Saturday,
2 5. 20
liquorstore clerk woke him in the
middle of the night whafuckin time was it Jesus onethirteen in the
morning why would she wake him was she going home was she coming to bed had she cum in bed she resisted him she didnt want to not just yet he respected her no he couldnt
say he wasnt disappointed he did play with her tits they were as big as her head and when he undid her braWith one hand? You
can do that onehanded? Three hooks? he
didnt say because he did undid her
breasts didnt fall they jutted forward
like those of a woodcarved ships figurehead
fake? he brushed a nipple with
the back of his finger flattered it got
up on its hindlegs she sighed he pinched it she gasped he clutched her breast she mewled he kissed itbit it something
sounded deep in her throat and as he pushed her down on the bedher hand finding
his Ca-ca-cock(?)
that something that sounded deep in her throat breached No. Please no.
Ca-ca-can you say pretty please no they were bloodflushed moist coy demur she pouted then said I
ca-ca-can. and smiled No.
Pretty please, no?
liquorstore clerk he
thought
beat the pants off cellar door
0113, Day-between-Two-Ts, 29 4.
20
1259, Saturday,
2 5. 20
68,958 American dead, Mr President
Trump
says it’s safe to reopen states as governors grapple with loosening
restrictions
Anybody ask this prick how many
Americans have died since the novel coronavirus danced into the United States
68,958
dead
Thats the answer Mr President
2135, Sunday,
3 5. 20
2.5.20
he couldnt remember any stretch
of days before that he ever lost his shitcouldnt turn off his waterworkscouldnt
breathe felt himself begin to hyperventilatesuffered panic attackshis
eyes swinging side to side in his head as if he were a trapped animal
desperately looking for a way outany way outhis skeleton lurchingtrying to deke
himbut he kept his eye on the ballthe vertebra
behind his bellybuttondrove through ittook it down hardwrapped its legs in his
armstook its feet out from under it so it wouldnt go anywhere he couldnt go
he wasnt going anywhere
he wouldnt be anywhere else in
the worldhe meant it
2234, Twosday,
17 12. 19
1209, Saturday,
2 5. 20
Kascade On Your Mind
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gr86Lw785Fo
she had a house
she and her
husband had a housetheyve had several
this house had an enclosed
claytiled patio
the tiles looked like ingots
separate
coarse
uneven
one was foolish if they didnt
wear shoes to protect their soles
on the end that shared a wall
with the rest of the house was a built-in bookcase
eight shelves
the lowest two were equally tallest and held leather photograph albums monographs folios artbooks and
atlases
the six remaining shelf heights
diminished as the bookcase approached the ceiling
the top shelf was hers crowning the bookcase with literary
collections first editions autographed some
numbered
among them were Anais Nins that
he gifted her Linotte Incest Venus of Delta Little Birds A Spy in the House of Love a housewarming gift
also interspersed on the shelf
were wheeled toys her parents gave her when she learned to walk one was a wood handcarved duck on four orange
wheels on which an oblong pastel orange yellow purple ivory egg turned over and
over on the wheels as she pulled it behind her
it was forty
years old
it was a joy to see her innocence
displayed beside her knowingness a
spectrum that could be easily overlooked if one didnt know what they were
looking at
hadnt read Nin
he first read Nin his freshman
year in the library at Chicago Circle campus
through its tall windows he
watched the erection of Sears Tower then
what would be the tallest building in the world
it was a heady time
he was eighteen demonstrated against Nam ducked Chicago cops on horseback who wielded their animals
through the crowd and swung at skulls with batons like wayward drunken polo players
his first black girlfriend first menage a trois with visiting French students
made LSD in Chem lab randomly stole cars and left them for cash with greasy men who
spirited them off to shops to be chopped hustled pool turned quick green
he was a nuisance not a criminal
it didnt hurt to have friends
inside the police force who werent riding horses and squeezed mules
confiscated contraband shared it he turned it enjoyed a fair cut
it was fun
it was nice to have assets
it was nice to have assets to be
able to split when the squeeze flipped
he had ambition
but he wasnt an implacable greedy
prick
heady times
that she knew nothing
about
never would
it seemed enough she knew he dug
Nin
2211, Twosday,
17 12. 19
1117, Saturday,
2 5. 20
Miles Davis – John Coltrane Walking
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sOGELQbbwhU
he got acquiredif yawanna be fancy his
best imagery from real fucks
they incited him
made him irate
they deniedalways
denied they were responsible
which
was what he expected
fuckin snakes
slithering
slipping
silently
NO Not me ohno It wasnt me
it was nice not to be themnot to
be who they were
if they could deny themselves
then who was he to give them personage value
not him
he took them at their word and opposed
deposed them
as they righteously would have deposed him
but ohno they
found themselves on the wrong end of a gun
not really
having a gun would make them siblings
for
the moment of climaxthe moment of death
never more nearer or dearer
he had a knife
a knife
they jerkedan shuddered on the end
of hot bloodspray throbbing then the heart failing
tamps down an down an down downdown to a sleek dribble
ooze
he thought somewhere in his thick skullwondered if it was better to be takenrelieved by someone
familiar than by some reptilian
hired fuck
their cobbled
flesh
just tactile enough to
appreciate the weight and fold and crease of paper money
which can only buy what is for
sale
who believes everything is for
sale
some kind of faith
he remains unfaithful
2312, Friday,
1 5. 20
0929,
Saturday, 2 5. 20
1.5.20
the devil is in the detail details
motherfuckers were holding their
cards tight to their chests
which was disappointing his
combatants were liars were women fuckin gatekeepers
he preferred theyd let it all hang
out
an they mightjust might
if he drank
their Kool-Aiddeclared his fealtyswore loyalty and allegiance put his hand on a fuckin Bible
Sorry aint a soul whose tits are that hot
but
theyd been raised to be
second-to-none they have been ordained theyre damn-near holy
they were as holey as the next
woman
NO I'M NOT Dont scream
they are
the Chosen
Yahwell let the cunts who vie for the Chosen jump
through their entitled-hoops
he was only mortal
he lived for the Moment
Heaven wasnt waitin on him
thered be no KnockKnock Knockin’
on Heavens Door
hed take a bus
hed thumb a ride
he wasnt standing in line with a
lot of crumbs defending their lives bleachin buffin polishin their assholes
Nein Ich kacken nicht No I do
not shit
See how pretty my star Every
cease and cranny cleansed
Not to say thatthat aint enticing
rather Take a shower he was fine with soap and water nobody had to floss for him
pickybroads
pickycunts
they could pick themselves clean
like monkeys groomin then another monkey jumping into play typically a lesser monkey
typically a monkey
look for favour
theres no favour hed ask of them
they were conspicuously vague on
details clutched details like they clutched
their cards to their chests clutched their tits
he wasnt into clutchers
he liked freaks
1541, Reggae Friday
1 5. 20
Warren Zevon Knockin’ on Heaven’s Door https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euBuVh_BUe4
I know, I know, I kno . .
. . STOP Yadont
Yacant possibly know because I havent said unless yawanna tell me right now what Im gonna say
Youre welcome to say what I was
going to say
Lets hear it
she sat on her knees looking up
at him defiantly
Im all ears Whadaya know whawas I going to say
That you emphatically know
Nothing
Nada
Youre a smart little girlfor sure but you dont know what I was going to
say what Im reprimanding you for
Last chance
Awright
I want you to admit that you dont
knowyadont know what I was going to say
couldnt
be comfortable admitting she didnt know when she tried to shut down his
explanation
Yawanna dare doubledown on
your ridiculous interjections
because if you know say
Im happy to apologise if Im wrong
If you dont know
You owe me the courtesy of an apology
Beyond the apology I wont make
you eat crow cold dead
crow CAW CAW CAW Even a crows smart enough to know when its blown its cover
she just sat on her knees glaring
at him
too bad she wasnt his kid hedve stood her upcracked her on the ass once
then sent off her to sit on her bed an think
not touch a damn thing
in this househis daughters house he could watch to make sure she didnt touch anything they had CCTV
Jesus Christ
0054, Wednesday,
18 12. 19
1059, Friday,
1 5. 20
Santana Evil Ways https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_tKIPuLfeKg
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