Pansies

he tried to remember the last time he heard someone call anyone a pansy

                                                                                pansy   his only recollection was in grade schoolnot junior highhigh school grade school  and the accused pansy beat the living daylights out of the namecaller 

the namecaller was depending on three other boys who looked likewere apparently there to back him up to add physical dimensionthreat to his insult

they didnt get into the act possibly they were shocked put off by the sudden overwhelming violence 

and then the schoolground teachers immediately descended on the two boys

the kids were too young to know exactly what a pansy wasthey acted according to its soundit sounded derogatory maybe they overheard an adult or older kid use it

kids didnt know homo

                        they didnt know effeminatefour syllables that would have been a mouthful for even the smartest kid among them unlikely she would have known

Pansy

       thats what he told the principal in his office that the kid called him

Do you know what a pansy is, Joe?

I do not sir I know a pansy is a flower But I dont think he was calling me a flower

And so you hit him?

I didnt hit him

Several teachers said you hit him.

I hit him a lothe had no idea how to cover up  youd think hed know that much

Pansies

then last week he read an article about Rodney Howard-Browne a Christian AhKahrist preacher  evangelist  Pentecostal of The River at Tampa Bay Church in Florida mocking people who were concerned with the Coronavirus  mocking those people as pansies and Rodney that sounds pansyish insists Kahrist he was crossing his fingers insists hed only shutter the doors to his church “when the Rapture is taking place”  

Pansies 

         thats the best hes got

Rapture triggered him

                     reminded him of Marshall Applewhitethough Applewhite may not have espoused it

Remember Marshall 

Heavens Gate

Remember Hale-Bopp tailed by an alien spacecraft

the Nikes 

           their kinda “Kool-Aid” Jonestown Phenobarbital mixed into applesause or pudding  vodka chasers

he wondered what bigmouth Rodney might serve at the Rapture

Remember the bodies of 21 women and 18 men were found lying in bunk beds in a mansion in Rancho Santa Fe  a suburban of San Diego

                         discovered late March 1997  Hmm

betcha Rapture tallies more than 39

current Coronavirus deaths have dusted those numbers

Must be nice to Believe

1354,  Reggae Friday,  27  3. 20

https://twitter.com/rhowardbrowne/status/1239295863173910529

https://www.nytimes.com/2020/03/27/opinion/coronavirus-trump-evangelicals.html?action=click&module=Opinion&pgtype=Homepage 

https://www.sandiegouniontribune.com/news/local-history/sd-me-heavens-gate-20170316-story.html                           

she stood in the sun and felt it caressing her face  War  Spill the Wine

                                                                            thats what worked its way through his mind  as he watched his daughter in her backyard she had kicked off her shoes and was standing barefooted on the dirt between patches of grass and weeds and rounded pebbles the dog had scattered from out under a decorative hedge that grew before the swimming pool

What are you doing

Dad. Dadu – her latest pronouncement of him – I’m grounding myself.

Whats grounding

she looked at him as if he was an idiot

I can do that

he kicked off his shoes pulled off his socks and walked into the yard and stood beside her

No rules against holding your hand is there

she smiled at himwinked

That’s not breaking any rules.

he took her hand

he liked that no matter where they were she would let him take her hand or she would take his despite her being a young attractive woman who had two daughters of her own

he didnt flinch from following her lead 

he always would have a lot to learn

she stood with him and languished 

she closed her eyes

her breathing changed

his didnt

he watched her intently

he didnt think she was daydreaming 

as he tended to do 

she was probably meditating

hed ask when she opened her eyes again

he closed his eyes brieflynot wanting to miss watching her tilted his head back his vision filled with the red colouring of the sun pouring through his eyelids 

he liked doing that since he was a kid

he brought his head forward and opened his eyes again

she hadnt budged

she was definitely seeing something other

or maybe wasnt seeing nothing at all

meditating

he wasnt into meditation

he liked that she did

                      it suited her the person she was

he liked to think she was immersing

he liked immersion

                     rather than meditation

he could probably get behind immersing if his brain wasnt always spinning a thousand miles an hour

she gave him a blue lace agate

Whats this for

To calm you.

You think I need calming

she didnt say

she had a spiritual depth that he did not

it seeped between her molecules

like sirup

not syrup

sirup

years prior he had written sirup in a letter to her describing her

cautiously she mentioned he misspelled syrupthey hated misspelling words

he replied he hadnt 

Look it up

of course she did

Oh my, you were right.

I have my occasions love

that made her laugh

he almost had to take the telephone away from his ear she laughed so loudly

when she finished laughing she said You make me laugh.

he didnt have to agree

her spiritual depth

like sirup between her molecules

made her seem to vibrate as a flame quivered

a flame off a beeswax candle

naturally

often he had a hard time believing he had any part in her genetic makeup

she looked like her mother when she was younger through her teens and twenties

in her thirties people remarked she looked like him

he thought she looked like him too

she said she did too

he had his occasions

the sun felt good

it was warm

looking at her he thought he sawknew he saw brightblue whiffs of oxygenated air queer-tined tides wash through her

making her at once part of the natural world 

like a shining transparent soap bubble

yet gently

           separate

he wasnt envious

he lacked her capacityhe lacked the desire to seek what she attained

he preferred being crude

                       sensual flotsam tumbling in Lifes water  in its turbulent brusque embrace

he wrote her that too

she wrote in return You do have your occasions.

he lost time  how long they stood in the backyard   holding hands

1048,  Thursday,  19  9. 19

1604,  Thursday,  26  3. 20

War  Spill the Wine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6qcafgLHe4

                    at the 7:40 minute-mark https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGiV5ITWVWY Drumpf touts Easter as Americas coming-out its back-to-work its churches filled and maybe  again  the Easter Bunny at the  as the President likes to call it  the Tippy-Top shape . .  that would be The White House https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dhgn03mXD-A  at the 40 second-mark

hes just saying

                   and Im memorialising it

1416,  Thursday,  26  3. 20

this is a beaut

https://twitter.com/JoeBiden/status/1241471645233053699?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw%7Ctwcamp%5Etweetembed%7Ctwterm%5E1241471645233053699&ref_url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.dailykos.com%2Fstory%2F2020%2F3%2F21%2F1929909%2F-Joe-Biden-Releases-Blistering-He-Knew-Digital-Ad-Hitting-Trump-For-F-ing-Up-Coronavirus-Response

might suppose what else one should expect from an Acting President surrounded by Acting Secretaries and an Acting White House Chief

                    theyre all Acting theyre not invested in their parts

Ohbrutha!

1139,  Thursday,  26  3. 20

maybe . . just maybe .  ..  what the president ought to do  short of eating a barrel  is shove something into his mouth that will stop him from talking

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Vn-PLK60R8

his inanity  borders on criminal

2356,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  3. 20 

“We cannot let the cure be worse than the problem.” https://thehill.com/homenews/administration/488965-trump-hints-at-changes-to-restrictions-we-cant-let-the-cure-be-worse 

Own it Drumpf

the problem as he cites is death

                                    so lemme know when an American cure can exceed death  because right now nothingnot a damn thing is in place that circumvents death  aside the presidents erroneous wishful thinking

1728, Day-between-Two0-Ts,  25  3. 20

The First Edition  Just Dropped In  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=meJP410N9Gg

Texas Lieutenant Governor Dan Patrick

I am indebted to artist Kevin Peterson

nothing has changed regarding the Lieutenant Governor  nor would I expect it had  his portraiture remains keen http://www.wrioter.com/search?q=Dan+Patrick

   

I quote “No one reached out to me and said, as a senior citizen, are you willing to take a chance on your survival in exchange for keeping the America that all America loves for your children and grandchildren? And if that’s the exchange, I’m all in.”

1202,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  3. 20

https://www.marketwatch.com/story/texas-lt-gov-dan-patrick-says-grandparents-are-willing-to-die-to-save-economy-for-their-grandkids-2020-03-23

  

Doctor W.H.O. Bruce Aylward quoted his Chinese translator a young woman then four weeks removed from her two children who were living a thousand kilometers away  she said  It’s not about me as an individual, it’s about us.

. . . it’s about us.

                   Can you imagine if the president thought this way  rather than continuing to suffer and infect and being reinfected by the Imbecile virus which has spread like a wildfire between him and the rest of his White House and his Administration   

1138,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  3. 20

https://www.msnbc.com/morning-joe/watch/who-doctor-we-have-to-make-it-hard-for-virus-to-spread-81176133965

Easter  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AIjK7R-4rWs

on a colourful placard

                        riffed with tangerine lemonpeel babyblue brief incursions lightning strikes squirrelgray mouse deepblue sea and cranberry
                                 overwritten with capitalized white letters  in square font

LET YOUR

SPIRIT

SOAR

which he repeatedly misread

                               let your spirit roar

roar  is not soar

roaring keeps one grounded

however

          to him soaring sounded too much like escaping fleeing

turning tail and running

                          not fighting 

a glimpse  perhaps  of his psychology

his recalcitrant need for confrontation

naively he didnt know how one faced death

eventually time would come and hed see for himself

2222,  Sunday,  3  11. 19

1527,  Twosday,  24  3. 20

Rolling Stones  Paint It Black  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=170sceOWWXc   

that did itthat did it  that really did it 

                                        frosted his fanny

someone crossed the line

all the years he spent picking up dead animals off roads  placing their busted bodies in cradles of tree roots and beds of grass or leaves on quiet sand sifted from crumbling sandstone on stickled broken edges of fast hard highways

that did it

someone ran over a teddy bear

its crushed body lay at the edge of the road near haphazard scraps and shreds of dead truck tires

dutifully he braked pulled aside on the highway stopped  and walking back he picked up its remains off the road so not let latter drivers furthur desecrate its broken stuffed body

he had no idea how he was related akin to such animals

but by getting up in the morning and putting on his pants he was no different than they

he hoped that somewhere his difference might be noted

                                                           although if he wasnt he couldnt help but understand the necessity to group him among his humanunkind

it was better to destroy them entirely than try to pull out the very few who tried to make a difference       

1111,  Sunday,  10  11. 19

1436,  Twosday,  24  3. 20

Spirit  Nature’s Way  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qvQa04JP73o

“Well, look, I’ll be the oversight. I’ll be the oversight.”

the man cant see his cock for his belly and he says he can oversee the distribution of a half trillion dollars to save the American economy -- with taxpayer dollars

                                                      Thank you, Republicans; and every American who voted for this Faker

1118,  Twosday,  24  3. 20

The Who  Won’t Get Fooled Again  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHhrZgojY1Q   

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/i-ll-be-oversight-trump-volunteers-be-check-his-himself-n1167491                                                                                                            

all the President needs is his red Make America Great Again cap as he flips his coronavirus pressers into campaign events

https://www.businessinsider.com/coronavirus-trump-gives-himself-a-10-out-of-10-score-2020-3

https://www.msnbc.com/morning-joe/watch/trump-eager-to-end-social-distancing-as-virus-spreads-faster-81132101988

1108,  Twosday,  24  3. 20

       Are you?

                      Are you?

sometimes in the back of his head he hears small voices

his mothers voicehis fathers

Mr Wapplers

Why do you have to call them out? they asked 

Why can’t you just let them go?

Let them go

No 

   he let go of insects spiders creatures he captured that didnt know any better

what sense was there in letting go of someone who knows better 

his answers never failed to distress them

in their own ways they said if he didnt find a way to stop hed only cause himself hardships and stress

he hadnt forced the issue

he questioned their intentions their fictions  wishful thinking their attempts to sidestep the truth of the matter

that wasnt going to cause him distress

I should let them off

I should because they didnt expect to be called out

I cant help it if others choose not to challenge them

                                                       and unchallenged

falsely imbued

they feel empowered

their voices pique louder yet                                                                                                                       

he answered the voices in his head

Im returning their volley giving them what theyre not expecting

They can explain their reasons stand up their hypotheticals  

They exposed themselves 

They can defend themselves

I have no intention of suffering their consequences

I have to contend with my own

and only then

                answering their chorus

did he realised that they who he held upwhose thoughts and opinions he valued likely didnt challenge dictators

they werent confrontational

yet

               they instructed him to be

?,  Sunday,  3  11. 19

2118,  Monday,  23  3. 20

Murray Head  Say It Ain’t So, Joe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-enIN21BWWI          

       

     SOAR!

                 it was on a greeting card

it sounded beautiful

 

                      when he imagined soaring he saw agile hawks and eagles hardsilhouetted against a blue sky
their soaring was natural  royal  and defiant

                                                  he preferred defiance it was probably some kind of slavish deficiency  a sloven genetic mutation that quietly unveiled itself revealed itself  

apparently his family was ripe

                                 and misfortunate genetic mutations have a cruel habit of suddenly exposing themselvesSURPRISE!

                       leaving them to contend with their horrible genetic consequences  consequences baked into the cake

BRCA-1

SUD-1

       lethal acronyms that had stood in line waiting to make their appearance

he detested acronyms                       

                     he had always tried very hard to deny their simplistic shorthand    

he detested BRCA and SUD as he detested CA

he wrote California

                     often he wrote Californicate or Californication

hed beaten the Red Hot Chili Peppers to the punch by years

they werent as clevernot as clever as they thought or someone thought up for them

SOAR!

he thought the card was cruel

his daughter couldnt lift her arms

the card giver inside it wrote her addressing her soul

her soul

he didnt give soul much credencenot right nownot while his daughter was fighting with every fiber of her body to survive

fuck soul 

Fuck soul he wanted her to win the longest shot of her life

it was no time to encourage her soul

2225,  Sunday,  3  11. 19

1103,  Monday,  23  3. 20

Guess Who  No Time  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yKy4qhQNTLQ

Vanilla Fudge  You Keep Me Hanging On  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cft60HYb7Fs         

SEMPER FI

             Semper fidelis  he wondered if the driver knew the Latin

he looked at slivers of drivers facehis eyes butch haircut clean shaven puss his . . well . . for lack of a less accusatory description . . his smirking radiant white conservatism through the sideview mirror and an elongated rearview mirror which was beyond a diaphanous transparency that spanned the entire back window of the Ford SUPER DUTY pickup

SEMPER FI in khaki green was the transparency

the trucks paint job was unscathed a pristine shiny black

it wasnt a work truck 

and not being a work truck 

it must have been a fashion statementCHRIST

SEMPER FI 

             maybe once they were a Marine

they werent anymore

he was an athlete once

he wasnt anymore

he wondered as he made his lefthand turn behind him the driver seemed intent on him what exactly the pose was about

he saw it often among exmilitary

some kind of latent bravado

desperate to hold onto a bygone long-time-ago time

he might suppose the handgun in the Fords glovebox helped foster it

he supposed

              because he kept a Ka-Bar in his glovebox

he never served

he couldnt stomach anyone telling him what to do let alone doing whatever was demanded without question 

that takes a certain kind of mentality or diminished capacity he wasnt capable of

SEMPER FI continued straight onto the highway overpass eyeballing him the whole time until he turned right onto the entrance ramp

creep gave him the heebie-jeebies  

2021,  Thursday,  24  10. 19

1329,  Monday,  23  3. 20

The Original Caste  One Tin Soldier  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGY9k5PeoQA