29.7.19



he met herrearended her at a bar 

they were moving up the aisle between the bar and bartenders the backs of customers ordering the cash register and a row of small tables and chairs and a long continuous bench against the far wall 

the aisle lead to the bathrooms and then a rear exit to outdoor seating 

someone hailed him he looked right they didnt recognise each other  mistaken identity

she stopped short

she was short

he stepped into her hardgot his hand around her shoulder to her chestpulled back so she didnt fall Are you awrightIm sorry I didnt see you pull up  Im sorry

as he spoke she looked up at him over her opposite shoulder I’m okay. she stuttersteppedstablised herself then steady she said You can let go of me now.

his hand as she worked to right herself slipped to her breast 

You can let go of me.

her breast filledexceeded his hand he hadnt expected that not of such a diminutive woman

You can let go.

he didnt want to

he did

she smiled That’s quite a grip you’ve . .
. . Sorry sorry  I didnt want you to fall

Thank you. she turned around and faced himthey stopped the line dead  I won’t charge you. Consider it a tip.

she was still smiling

Can I buy you a drinkmake up for my impropriety

Mighty big word for this bar. I’d like that. Please.

he stepped sideways and fended a space for her to enter

they stood face to chestclosely he stooped a bit over the din and asked What would you like to drink

If it’d be alright, I’d like a lemondrop martini, the rim lightly sugared.

rim

music to his ears

she was midway midway to kiss him or give him head

she smiled again as if reading his mindEdge. she said  I should have said edge, sugared edge, not rim.

Pretty transparent 

Not really. I can still feel your hand at my breast. We aren’t offended.

We

Rachel and I. Lottie’s my left breast. Say hello girls, they’re my girls.

he looked down into her cleavagenever would have seen it from behind Hello girls

he held out his hand  Im Joe

she took his hand in both of hers shook it firmly Saundra.

Nice to meet you Saundra

Quite an elaborate meeting,eh, Joe?. Though I’m happy we have.

Me too  Lemondrop  Yes  Id love to buy you a lemondrop  slightly sugared    rim  her smile returned  Just wanna stay in the moment while I plunge into this maelstrom dont know when Ill be back

I’ll cross the aisle. A couple are leaving the bench. I’ll be there.

Ill meet you



over the evening he bought her three lemondrops 


You’re fun to be with, talk with, you’re very animated. How it is you’re out, and here?

How do you mean out

I’m having a hard time understanding you’re unattached.

This is an old watering hole of mine  I used to come here every Friday after work and have a drink meet my wife

You’re married?

No  

My wife died

I’m terribly sorry.  a tear-sheen grew in her eyes

Thank you


she cleared her throat So youre single?

Ha  I think widower not single 

I havent thought single

Are you seeing anyone, regularly?

No  I date

May I ask how long has your wife has been dead?

You want it by years  or by the days

You’re still in love with her.

Ill always be in love with her

Thank you  Nobody has asked in a long time  Dates seem to be content to be dates


She died January 2010

Nine years ago.

Yes

I say you’re single because you act very much like you’re single. You’re attractive, witty, you exude a hard-to-believe happiness; confident demeanor, very masculine; very self-assured.  

I can see that women respond to you.


Do you have a girlfriend?

Do you have a boyfriend

I don’t have a boyfriend. My ex cheated on me.

If I had a girlfriend I wouldnt be here  Your boyfriend was an idiot 

I think so, I like to think so. I only hope I caught him early; that I also wasn’t stupid for long.

Him cheating on you doesnt make you stupid

I believe women think otherwise.


Nobody needs a selfish pig in their life

If they wanna see somebody else  got an itch to scratch that theyre unwilling to share with you  Then be a man be a woman  Be honest  Say so


Are you like that?

What  Honest

Yah

Im honest to the point of being painfully honest  Ive been told

But I figure this is our one merrygoround 

Rides over

Its over


Hmm. I’m unfamiliar.

Thats not true 

Youre familiar now

Would you like another drink


No, no thank you.  Would you like to walk me home?

Sweet  Within walking distance  Smart girl

It’s kind of a longish walk.

The best kind We can walk and talk  The talking always strips away distance then seemingly makes the time too short

If you feel it’s too short, you can always walk me up to my fourth floor flat.

I could do that


I bet you can do a lot of things.

Yabetcha  Just ask

0308, and 1533,  Saturday,  27  7. 19

28.7.19


nice plump tawny thighs
                           that he could leverageleave thumbprintsimpressions inside  just above her knees

she didnt struggle as he pushed her legs wider and wider and wider apart her cunt whispering his name
                                                                                                            getting his name right  whispering Kiss me kissme deeply kiss me kiss me kissmekissme  panicked 
                                                                                                 Kiss me til Im deaf


1623,  Twosday,  23  7. 19
1310, Saturday,  27  7. 19



the churchs symmetry was offputting as a child it frightened him  his parents as he walked between them hand-in-hand were confused when they recognised as they passed the church that he closed his eyes 

it wasnt his church their church but then there wasnt a church that was his

as soon as he could refuse his parents entreaty he quit attending

it was not an attractive time in his memory of family     



The First Reformed Church  
                             a meter-tall manicured hedge ran around its property a scrubbedclean white concrete public sidewalk ran before it   

a dark-red brick coagulated blood walk lead all the way up from the street  crossed the hellstrip the Church preferred parkway he didnt  then it ran between the hedges entering the manicured green property  unerringly straight it ran up to a two-step flagstone rise to the portico and the doubledoored entry artfully centered between columns 

in his teens on two consecutive Halloweens he had himself lashed between them  first as Sampson the next year as Odysseus listening to the Sirens sweetly singing 

he was not appreciated


then maybe the founders shouldnt have had erected such cool fucking pillars



he didnt appreciate the strict white clapboard structure tall and narrow a spire topped offcrowned by a tall belltower  pointing to heaven
                     or as he told the priest a bird flipping off nonbelievers


it had an elegant symmetry  mirror-imagined two halves unfolded
                                                                       Informing unity. Balance. 

No padre strictness The churchs structure forces enforces hierarchy authority  dogma 

All which are a waste of time  to me 

Ordnance Weaponry   Love Gawd or else


I like wild things

I like natural things

Church is unnatural

I’m sorry you feel that way, my son. I will pray fo . .
. . Dontdont  dont waste your time Save your prayers for those who buy into what youre selling



he disliked symmetry since he was a boy

toss him chaos

he had good hands


1746,  Sunday,  21  7. 17
1333,  Thursday,  25  7. 19
Buddy Guy/Jimi Hendrix  Jam Session  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pq3rWLySRf8


a film hed recommend to the FAKE PRESIDENT 


perhaps hed think better HAR and heel his inanespastic tweets against Representative Elijah Cummings  whose persona integrity and masculinity Faker could never equal  his fabric is too shabby unfortunately he was born into it never inspected it and relishes his entitlementhis birthright   

hed love to meet the Drumpf born black

1114, Sunday,  28  7. 19

27.7.19



Are you washed in the Blood of the Lamb?


Ya fuckin kiddin me



Dont they pay attentionfiguratively to the words they sang or is religion meant to be mindless like vomiting defecating breathing 

Breathing. That’s better, that’s a nicer, kinder analogue. someone inside him said  

You shaddup I aint listenin to your mouth right now

You should listen to someone so you don’t spike, don’t go off half-cocked and beat . .
. . Crack  some Jesus Loves You person in the mouth


Yes.


Because without provocation Id punch somebody in the mouth

Not without provocation; but you don’t need much, your fuse isn’t very long.

No Just get a lit match near it were off

Those people will turn a cheek.

Great then their bruises will match


You shouldn’t pop someone because of their religion.

I wouldnt  not if they keep it to themselves  I dont solicit  They can keep it to themselves

But many religions encourage proselytising.

Tough to proselytise with a smashed mouth


You wouldn’t.

I think you know meif anyone knows me you do 

So you’ll drag me into it, even if I believe otherwise?

Leave it at the door Should have won that coin toss so you could have skipped away with someone less confrontational that me 

You forget Im the guy who used to shakedown Hare Krishnas when they stepped off the El after shaking train cars down 

Enjoyed better than a year of free El rides around Chicago buses and trains in and out of the city


You’re being modest.

Modest

Beers at bars. Lunches at Circle. Money you gambled shooting pool.

Usually wasnt a gamble shooting pool

So you remember?

I do  I didnt want to belabour the point


That you shook down Hare Krishnas?


That people ought not proselytise Got religion Keep it to yourself

            
1813,  Sunday,  21  7. 19
1456,  Thursday,  25  7. 19


hillock  
        hillick  ever look closely at the folds of a hillock    he did they were inviting

he got up off his knees and resisted wiping the corners of his mouth with his wrist  like when he was a boy at watermelon
             Are you going to wash your face? his mother asked  she was annoyed



No he liked to annoy her   

he ran his tongue over his lip to down towards his chin 

I like that I can still taste the watermelon

Go wash your face.

No

he turned and ran

he was too fasttoo agile for her to grab him 

besides  he had younger siblings she had to care for

he liked licked being on his own



he wasnt going to wipe his mouth with his arm

he thought watermelonother melons  he thought barbecue ribs  tenderloin  filet   he thought ass she damn near shot out of bed What the hell?! 

Didnt feel good

Weird.   It felt weird.

Yamight wanna just enjoy the ride     

I don’t know.

Didnt hurt

No . .  
. . Then quiet Go with it  See whatcha think

she smiled
         she collapsed her armslaid the side of her face on the pillow  her ass up high  knees wide



hillock 
         he took her relishing his mouthful between the hillocks lapping poking jabbing with his tongue his nose gently with his finger the while he was at her clit gently with his thumb 

she pushed his hand away

went at herself

she rolledburrowed her head at the pillow sighing growling her breath heavy  heavyheavier  hoarser Yes   Oh fuck yesyes

then he couldnt understand her words

they descended into sound

her sounds bunched his balls

made his cock harder


hed come later

he wanted to turn her inside out first



You going to wash your face . . .

Not a chance in hell


1249,  Friday,  19  7. 19
1109,  Saturday,  27  7. 19
The Doors  Crawling King Snake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5cwmZxW0Jc

26.7.19


well  if that wasnt a pleasant unexpected surprise 
                                                       the nightlight in the bathroom an automatic photocell light which reacts to the lack of light burned against the bright afternoon sunlight coming through the screened window

he adored its audaciousness  its overtover-the-top desire to be recognised

to be fair it had been awhile some considerable time since he last acknowledged it  in kind to Ed Norton (Art Carney) the Honeymooners addressing a golfball “Hello, ball.”  he usually acknowledged his inanimate counterpartshousemates who assisted himprovided him a simpler life

My bad my apologises nightlight  I should have said something earlier  I am sorry

it accepted his apology

it flickered a couple of times

then it went out



he knew better  he shouldnt have been remiss not acknowledged it and the service it provided 

he certainly didnt want it or any of them losing faith in him  

1213,  Reggae Friday,  19  7. 19
1451,  Reggae Friday, 26  7. 19



Trump/Pence campaign posted an email on the day Mueller testified to the House Judiciary Committee and the Select House Intelligence Committee  “. . No collusion, no obstruction, total exoneration. .”

Phil Rucker (@ the 12:26 minute-mark) says “While the message is not true, it is effective.”    think about that

John Heilemann (@ the 13:38 minute-mark) sputters “Here’s the fake, . .false . . lying . . . . grotesque . . BS email . . . . Here’s the fog machine.”


How do Democrats gain traction against the email “While the message is not true . .”

No collusion LIE

No obstruction LIE

Total exoneration LIE

                      perhaps if one is disinclined to believe the president and vice-president are lying  hed be inclined to believe that that person is partial to slacking their thirst swig from a bucket of shit

2324,  Reggae Friday,  26  7. 19
Frank Zappa  I’m the Slime  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iiCQcEW98OY    

One Term Donnie


optics tick tick tick tick

whos sharper than Drumpf and his advance team – speaking before a rightwing youth group – One-Term-Donnie is

1125,  Reggae Friday,  26  7. 19
The Who  Won’t Get Fouled Again  Gotcha!   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHhrZgojY1Q


optics

people who are concerned with optics have bought into the production of reality  reality television he wondered if they noticed the words PRODUCTION STAGING CASTING 

look at the bimbo who scratched his way to become Americas first FAKE PRESIDENT

he couldnt help but look at the oranges of the orange bimbo thats what Faker said Oranges because thats what he understood oranges origins to be

with the advent of reality television a cancer people strivedesire to become celebrities to be famous because thats the meal ticketthats the Willie Wonka Golden Ticket to be noticed is everything to them https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UUzuNWgXCuQ


so these slavish people listen theyre told what to expect they do what theyre told  theyre told what the optics should be 

and if the optics are subpar

then the act was without substance



these are the same people who prefer shoot ‘em ups CGd comicbook films probably have never heard of the Military Industrial Entertainment Complex  or Rome  the Colosseum Give the people what they want  Bread and Circuses

they wouldnt suffer character development or an intricate story
                                                                   no they wouldnt


Mueller revealed terrible discomforting substance
   
2203,  Thursday,  25  7. 19
1017,  Reggae Friday,  26  7. 19

25.7.19



that telltale silence Silence is Golden                   
                                               horseshit

silence SCREAMS!



she used silence to answer most of his questions or offerings  neglecting them

she might try to claim plausible deniability 
                                              but her silence spoke volumes


she might say  I didnt mean that 
                                    but tagging the donkeys tailpeeking under an ohsosubtly raised blindfold is cheating

he saw her tilt her head back


maybe she suspected hed allow her that because he loved her


too bad


she had to know knowing him that he wasnt stupid that love didnt blind him he saw 20/15 he saw like bats use echolocation

fact is fact



she disappointed him

he knew her to be honest

somethingsomeone must have tipped her
                                            but that was hers to live with

not his


everyoneno one excluded chooses to live by what they decide

nothingno one  could make him do what he didnt want to do or think


Oh. You exhibit such control. snide



control had nothing to do with it

he was who he was he couldnt be otherwise

1312,  Saturday,  20  7. 19  



Christ it aint bad enough that old white men are trying to keep the mouldering GOP alive – on life support – but old white women are stepping to the plate too

on the heels of Special Prosecutor Muellers strenuous warning that Russia interfered in the 2016 Election and continues – continuing their straight white effort – Republican Senator Cindy Hyde-Smith of Mississippi of course singlehandedly blocked bills meant to help secure the 2020 Election shes also on the heels of Senator Marsha Blackburn of Tennessee of course who similarly blocked legislation in June

Hyde-Smith did not give her reasons hide ‘n seek

he assumed she did what she was told

Republicans are militaristic

theyre doing their level-best to prefer their personal power to the Nations needs and development  their level-best to enforce their entitlement privileges and prejudices  their level-best to hedge their bets and suppress the minority vote

0952,  Thursday,  25  7. 19