pensive choked on his heart

                                  confessed I went through old photographs today  wipedknuckled tears out of his eyes

Why?  Why would you do that to yourself?

                                               Ya had to know it’d hurt.

    I did

Coudnt help myself was necessary

Necessary?

                  What for?you look like shit.

                                                                                     

I learned something

                       I have no clue why I didnt see it before Stupidfuckin stupid   Shoud have known

Im a piece of shit

Hold on, hold on a moment.

                               Does all it fall on your shoulders?you utterly responsible?

    Cant be responsible when youre dead canya

ice cold water

trying to be sympathy What was it you learned?

We should have gone back to the beginning  We dated

                                                            But tha wasnt enough

We shoud have reminisced  Shoud have returned to wha made us  wha   why I proposed why we fell in love

Why we married

    Why we let life buffalo us push us  On

Pushes everyone from behind

We got too involved with tomorrowswha we planned to come around the corner

    Forget to cast an eye back 

                                    Forgot to remember

he got tearyeyed

                Good point ya got a good point.

Jaysus.

 

You ever go through your albu . .

. . No.   No I do not.

                       The only reason they exist is because I was honing, keeping my eye. Was making good money on the side as a photographer. Shooting family kept me sharp for gigs.

    But you don look

No.

Imagine youve offered them to the boys

They don’t want them.

Burnem

    I can’t do that.

They don wantem

Were celluloid ghosts otherwise

                                 Whos tha  Ive no idea     Family

Two generations from now family will mean shit

    That’s pretty grim.

You said it

               Grim

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gandygoin’ 

                 had a good guess

kirkyard

            could deduce “At their mother’s funeral . . . brothers . . . had been so drunk on their way to the kirkyard that they left the body behind.”   churchyard   cemetery

cherry-checkit apples

                              cherry-cheeked was written midEighteenth century  Scotland

Tobias Smollett The Expedition of Humphry Clinker  nurro geak

                                                                                     optimised nary a geek

banjaxed had to look it up   ruined 

                                         Irish

he was bettering his vocabulary

                                            better than battered buttered befouled besmirched buh buh buh

“Learning”

             said theoretical physicist Carlos Rovelli “is about unlearning things we think we know.”   

while not entirely applicable to words the thought astonished him

                                                                       his fervent humanist wish was more people would get onboard read write  put their smartphones aside away or at least minimise their use dust social medias quit apps   Microsoft relentlessly badgers him when he turns off his computer  Recommended Install WhatsApp 

loved his fixed PC had Airplane Mode

     programmed couldnt find its ass if it had hands

                                                            Send in the Drones

he hadnt contended with such malfeasance since catechism

nuns had hands

nuns had no sense of humour

when he laughed at hilarious Biblical stories he was marched into the hallway opposite the open classroom door which revealed her seated at her desk standing at the chalkboard behind it

they had him kneel on a broomstick 

fortunately he was but spit of a boy

he made his First Holy Communion

his parents were thrilled  proud

                                    they encouraged him to pursue Confirmation

with a wry smile

                   Mom  Dad  Thall be a cold day in Hell

their vernacular

he said An idiom

that he knew disturbed them

    they didnt push it

 

WORDS   

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Judy Collins  Send in the Clowns  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8L6KGuTr9TI

they were fueled on pralines and grass  

he on hash

offered him one at the getgo he didnt like its shit tan crystalline look

cautiously took a small bitespat it out

                                       What are you doing? they howled

Too sweet don like it

It’s New Orleans, man. Nothing more Creole than pralines, city’s famous for it.

Have at it I aint steppin on anyones toes

one said Mine. I bought them to share.

Anya have I aint toxic took a nibble enjoy

                                                    Lets head over to the levee  Ive never seen one

on their way down he firedup a bowl they toked joints he divertedstopped bought a six-pak of Dixie packaged goods from a bar

                              blustered  Look boys something Narlins  Creole

pissed he hadnt shared pralines with them they declined a cold beer

                                                                           No  No skin off my ass

they strolled the levee a while

across the water an aircraft carrier was docked

Hey Ive an idea  A football game

                                     Since youve been actin like cunts Ill pickup five an well have a game

There's no football asshole.

Well use a Dixie

a clutch of black fellas were sitting on a picnic table

                                                         he walkedup to them  Hey guys  Care to side with me an play some ball against those clowns over there    

I got hash from Miamiwe fireup a bowl now I promise cold beers at games end

they had themselves a game

began twohand touch

devolved into tackle

sailors onboard yelledhowled laughed AAWEDgroaned at good hits  clapped

                                                                                  they had awfully good seats

he an his crushed them

Game over

              Dixie was dented dirty  warm

he walked offreturned with four cold six-paks in doubled brown bags

                                                                           even the cunts had a Dixie

sipping the warm one

                         he savoured it

 

was the only levee the only Mardi Gras hes been at

kept the empty can for years

asked his wife Hey  Wheres my Dixie

    I recycled it.    

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Bruen

Galway’s Edge

I’m something

Else.

 

he was too

felt the vibe

               indestructible   brothersister of Immortal

best time to checkout

                      SURPRI . . dead before the word ends

couldnt tellim convinceim thats the best fuckin exit strategy ever

                                                                      briefly se it comin

then gone

Adios

Vaya con Dios

                      not that all the Spanish gets into their ears  head

    but hes never been dead

kidbrother flatlined 22 minutes

he knew what he saw

he never said he heard

 

Im something else

 

he hasnt figured out what else is

hopefully before he checks outCheck please    he will  or wont

                                                                         cant imagine else will be on his mind

if  anything

    crossing his fingers for the last picture showmaybe  highlight reel   real

enthusiastically

                               This was your Life

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Supertramp  Take The Long Way Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Pts0jqX-yY

he didnt often let his mouth fall open

caught his look reflected in the mirror once was not appealing   but knowing that he used it to great affect

it said without him having to say

                                      Arya fuckin kiddin me

    his mouth fell open

she looked off in a hurry 

he was invigorated

                        his Medusa-thing hadnt lost a step

What?

closed his mouth

                      said

Whaya said                                                                                               

 

What did I say?

                seemingly his banehis uniquekeen ability was to fall in with people who for whatever reasonreasons excuseexcuses struggle to remember the last thing out of their mouths

Wha did yasay

 

 

    Hint  givingem was getting old too

You think I need one? 

 

 

What?

Pitted cherries which was the whole gamewhoole baall of wax

What ofem?

               They’re the only cherries I eat.

You drink champagne coud have been sommelier

                                                       Have a highend palate

Yes. there was a harrumph but she suppressed it  wisely

Ya eat cherries for pits

Break a tooth.

If youre stupid

                  Some queer quare just learned it so Im gonna use it  eejit  who doesnt know cherries have pits apricots peaches red grapes other fruits on an on bones  fish fowl    Oysters  PearlsHA

Best thing about a cherry is its pit  suckin it down till theres no flesh  just stone denudedWHY

    I’m sure I don’t know.

Ya don

            An I daresay  unfortunately for you                                                                         

Youve never been gnawed downsucked reduced to stone bone crackd  marrow   be as it may    

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casuality online dictionary warned him that the words obsolete  now casualty

    he was obsolete dictionary couldnt scare him off

                                                          however

lookinovert both words he laughed

he misspelled

                meant causality

the three greased like pigs their U  an  I  slippinslitherin about

                                                                      meant causality

this shit showsup in his dreams overnight he was going to have to sit himself down for a long hard talk a heart to heart anif tha were the case beforehand hed have to rememberremind himself where he put it

    causality

                 Kant questioned

Menand page 263 The Metaphysical Club framed it “If there are uncaused or timeless entities out there, we are unable to perceive them with our senses.”

Kant concluded that the mind is not a clean slate not Lockes -- and others before him – tabula rasa it is accessorised has certain categories that organise experiences

                                                    however

uncaused or timeless entities out there he couldnt perceive 

                                                              that offendedassaulted his sense of imagination

though had to admit uncaused thrilled him

                                             hed ponder that for some time to comecould imagine it righteously showingup in the weedreamin hours that interpolateinterrupt his wandering consciousness

    wasnt sure he was ever unconscious

his old old  old exclaim

                           . . . take my brain out put it in a box bury it twothree days for a quiet quare respite relief   recreation wreckcreation

                                                    SEE  saw   up down up down up down up . . .  

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The White Stripes  Cause and Effect  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STSkGSTMr9Y

Pianza  Cloud 707  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsAHW51hCqU

    The Divil 

Gospel According to Bruen

                             In the name of the Fadder an in the Name of the Boyo an the Haunter Awgirlies

    She had a baby

She fooled everyone all this time

                                named him Kane  Please pseudonym  can fool some of the people some of the time an some of the people all the time but ya cannot fool all the people all the time  he was Abel  awnutsthought autocorrect was minding the store Able  referred to Hell  Blighty  an all those places aboveground where She bought souls  paidem billions  so they coud terrorise whomever they wanted savage the land pissanshit the water foul the air

things getting so bad insects decomposers shrugged were opting out

                                                                          Letem find their own way.

primary producers  autotrophs photosyntheticks plants algae cyanobacteria sniffed tearily  wavedem Goodbyeya  waved pretty pressed white lawnlinen handkerchiefs  thinking

                                                                   Ja Letem find their own way.

    simple physics when the legs of the ladder are kicked out from under

that upabove

hasnt wings

they will fall

and the Divil will catchem looks a bit like catechism

                                                    the very top rung Her Hellishchildren

returned to Her bosom and keep

    until Next Time

 

theres always been Next Times Eternity sneezes cant keep its eyes open if it tried hiccups  farts

Play it again, Sam.

   

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1009,  Tuesday

The Saw Doctors  Share the Darkness  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4vQo3tOqE1w

https://www.khanacademy.org/science/ap-biology/ecology-ap/energy-flow-through-ecosystems/a/food-chains-food-webs#:~:text=At%20the%20base%20of%20the,producers%20are%20called%20primary%20consumers.

Play it again, Sam.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAlzmRjixr0 

Wha youre describincorrect me if Im wrong    it sounds like a  how  to  book

In a manner of speaking.

    Is it  Or isnt it

It’s a how-to book.

I don readem never have never will

                                        In kind with whastha shit you likeHa  shitDUI

Seriously?

First thing tha came to mind

with much disdain  D  I  Y.

Acronym  Which is

Really?

          I’ve said befor . .

. . An since I have no interest I shed it  water off a ducks back

                                                                   I refuse to inculcatepopulate my brain with unnecessary information

For  many reasons

    Anya know the apexreason why

I do.

Spill it

Authority.

BAM

You don’t like being told what to do.

BAM

Know me so well

                     So where in alltha arya tryin to recommend this book to me

For knowledge.

Your excuse

You tellin' me that you don’t prefer to be knowledgeable?

Knowledgeable  according to my terms

                                           I suffered through elementary indoctrination

Wha Ive learned

The more I know the less I know

The more you know the more you realize there’s more to know.

Asshole

          Simplify  Realise is implied

I know you aint tha thick

    Or are you

I like my proposition better.

Of course ya do

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Pink Floyd  Another Brick in the Wall  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOEBUBMB00c 

You’re hard to pin down.

looked over a Guinness pint turned a large Jay with his fingers

                                                                      Pin down  Wha

Where breasts strike you.

Usually my belly upwards to my chest couple occasions   rested at my clavicles

    Really?

Wha  Where they hit you

I’m not talking about that. How you feel about them where do they rate?

I like to feelem

getting irritated  Could you rate them?

Why

       You know wha I think

Big tits little tits.

Breasts tha conform fit compliment their shape their figure

Would you commit awready?

    Whas this about

                           Sis 

Yeah. And would you quit calling her that.  

Wha of it

You can say she wasn’t blessed. She’s said as much.

As can be said about your cock

What are yo . .

. . Going on about

                     You blessed methinks not

Shes said as much 

 

She asked me.

Wha

If I like big breasts.

                     I told her yeah. Doesn’t everybody?

Why youre askin me

Kind of.

If they fit her shape

                       I likeem all

I like big breasts.

As ya told Sis

                 Christ  Not blessed

Jaysus

Lemme get to my Guinness woudya

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