1.1.25

excited for spiders

Ohmy.

    I like tha

Ohmy . . you like that?

I do

Despite it in regards to looking directly at it  that . . veryuncomfortable . piece of . . . art?

Contemporaneous creation

Haphazard?


    No

You’re affirming that?

You a dick  an attorney
                          I can     I fashioned it Found art
Japanese aesthetics  Wabi-sabi

Imperfection

Transience

Personally I expect more from art.

Take a look around
                        Thas here too

she looked around


went wall to wall room to room  unattended
                                                                   returned

Eclectic.

    Yah

Has it a name?

Untitled entitled

That’s its name?

Its untitled


she stepped close to it
                           examined it
It has a . . scent.

Yah


You consider it a collage.
                            Loose slips sheaves labels . some torn.   Pencil ink paint water crayon 
Held togetherfast by pressure of the backing against the glass.


Uncontained by the frame.
                                     An. . . unconstructedragged . . . halo.


In a wordyes though not conceived as such
                                                Not one for keeping between the lines   Even when instructed   Punished
A plus

Plus?

Incentivises  living
                            Feeling
Awareness

    Im excited for spiders to come

prior to 7AM,  Wednesday,  1  1. 25
2105,  Wednesday

she was critical of spelling
                              seemed to him she could almost smell an error or misprint
was anal about having either corrected

she was critical of him
                         The English language isn’t good enough?you confuse the hell out of people turn them off I’d think as a writer you’d want them to read you.

If they read me Im tickled  Truly
                                    If I provide them a new way of lookin at something  all the more so

You look illiterate.

I look like I talklike others talk
Whatever.

he  not hated  did not say hate any more than he said evil   he disliked with extreme prejudice her  Whaever

If I may he said it gently unpeeved

You gonna pull Mother may I on me?

Youre not my mother are you my mother
                                           Actually was P D Eastman at times confused with Dr Seuss Theodor Geisels pen name nom de plume

    The way you regurgitate . .
. . Spew
          I prefer spew as often I spewed holdinon by a hand to a pear tree limb in the backyard with my mother shouting into the night Who’s there?

She was my mother

Once I puked I coud answer
                              I donknow Maw Who were you expectin throwinup in the backyard at night

Without answerinmind you many times  shed back inlet the screen door slapshut snugclosed the back porch door

    Your . . usual barrage.

You asked


    If I may gently unpeevedthough he could tell her temperature was turning up

Sure. Why not? Pretty sure you have an elaborate defense.
Ohyafuckinknowmesowell
                                maybe delivered a bit too gleefully
Don’t push it cowboy.

Yatryin to turn me on
                         Shall we call time  dress properly for our cosplay
Chaps boots deerskin vests hats
                                    Naked otherwise
You wish.
Id rather bucknaked  black feltribbon pendant at your throat
                                                                  Thas still kinda cowboyishyah
You said

    Would you please just saymake your point?

Regardin my elaborate defence he lingered purposefullyloved when her colour rose


Your point. make an excellent dominatrix

Stay the course cowboy  felt a thickening in his cockkept with this hed be able to flip dollar coin into the air
                                                                                                       Awright  Awright
Youre fond of Butterfinger
                               I believe last we went to Dairy Queen your Blizzard was tha

You remember correct. her eyes started shiftinround looking for a clue 

A detective  trussedtight in black leatherstrapsSTOP
                                                   I do  Remember correctly
Youve yet to crucify the Ferrero Group

Crucify?

Too strong
             Correct

Correct?   What?

    Ah
         So you really cant smellwas sure you coud a misspelling alternate spellings  such as mine tha you ridicule

Ridicule?
            I think too strong.

Though you are critical

For reason I’ve mentione . .
. . Pronounced

    Alright. Pronounced. Not haggling. 

Hag wasnt  still stiffness slackened
                                     Ad nauseam

Agree.

We agree
              Ferrero

What are you going on about?

Butterfinger is a product of Ferrero Group

I wasn’t aware.

Its on the label

I buy it to eat not read.

I read everything

You do.
         An attribute I appreciate.

You read a lot too

But not candy labels, is your point?

No
    Butterfinger  At liberty with the English language

Crispety  Crunchety  Peanut-buttery

1122,  Wednesday,  1  1. 25
1414,  Wednesday

How do you live with yourself?


Im excellent company

According to you.

Obviously
              Its nice to get along with me be able to entertain me

    I believe you really mean that.

Apparently your belief system is sound at least in regards to me
                                                                      Beyond me    Somewha questionable
Wha . .
. . Ya donwanna go there
                                     Let sleeping dogs lie

 

    Good   Exhibiting wisdom

Live with myself

the grimace hadnt worn off his face he was sorely tempted to question the dogs but  knew that hed pull no punches be ruthless  excoriate him
               his honesty could be cruel
Yes.

How so

So fuckin esoteric.

Which stands to reason

    I suppose so.
Not suppose
                     Greek esoterikos  derived from esotero which means inner or furthur inside
Which seems to me a classic introvert
                                         An I know worse if you wish to classify abundant introversion as worse
I do not

Have perpetually playmates


The way you think.


Commented on frequently
                              Elsewise commented is tha we are friends

Their confusion tha you remain mine

I tell those questioning souls they believe they have souls Im not confirm tha   I tell them firmly  You  tolerate  me

    Tolerate.  Weve recently had that conversation.

Yes  You remember

I remember because of your . . unkin . .
. . Black humour

As you call it.
                 Your unkind assessment of relationships.
Hangings on
               In kind Your ability to tolerate me


Is there something I’m supposed to say about that.

    No
           Thank you for the compliment

1122,  Wednesday,  1  1. 25
1212,  Wednesday

happie New Year . . .
                           off an running again

obviously to run into brick walls
                                    but as obvioushe believes to run through more than a few


recorded this in 2004
                         Clarity is always ideological . . . reality always adaptive.
Such a demand for clear communication often proves to be nothing else but an intolerance for any language other than the one approved by the dominant ideology. At times obscured and at other times blatant, this inability and unwillingness to deal with the unfamiliar or what a language different from one’s own, is, in fact, a trait that intimately belongs to the man of coercive power.
                                         Trinh T. Minh-ha


whatever one takes from that he refuses to submit to coercion
                                                                       always always always ask the question until it is firmly answered

often questions that beg to be answered remain begging
                                                                    . . . without sustained dialogue with the foreign . . . surrealists . . . believed that “nothing really new will have taken place and (that) interpretations (will remain) unacceptable from the start.”

2PMish,  Tuesday,  6  4. 04  waited long enough to share sheesh
1059,  Wednesday,  1  1. 25

https://blackflash.ca/2021/04/27/two-names-the-ideological-construction-of-multiculturalism-and-its-mechanisms/#easy-footnote-bottom-1-10478

what is called reality
                        One thing is important: to shake what is called reality by means of non-adapted hallucinations so as to alter the value hierarchies of the real. Hallucinatory forces create a break in the order of mechanistic processes. They introduce blocs of “A-causality” the ability to act unrestrained by conventional cause and effect in this reality which had been absurdly given as such. The uninterrupted fabric of this reality is torn, and one inhabits the tensions of dualism.

                                                                                          Carl Einstein  Negerplastik  1915

https://watermark.silverchair.com/afar_a_00104.pdf?token=AQECAHi208BE49Ooan9kkhW_Ercy7Dm3ZL_9Cf3qfKAc485ysgAAAzgwggM0BgkqhkiG9w0BBwagggMlMIIDIQIBADCCAxoGCSqGSIb3DQEHATAeBglghkgBZQMEAS4wEQQM-ADpSSjFOEWvpaa5AgEQgIIC6xc1qWJ33HWBkAvMR0EPeqcJus2aJLblx_TB8GR685IK4bf3-cQ_gVAsoUtw3SDXk9iBjWvt-1_mXHk6-tGOkaLP4IPAaFHXIfOBIFDn_p72ZiiJJP9Bii9UUgzKo_LNCRgMEX5NNTgtS2_CRAPX7PJoPZkWnKoawRZ5DaS2QrY-bhVm8MIIUL_9tcMhCPcgVECt-5lv2_nkZSJIHc7EpRN4WlqocdCg0iEOremx9zvb2jlOsvTv8NUIb4Ad9MHRB2PWWuJ-IyQLsQGKh4uoiMAK8i8hCKRvOaJp_M4UC87CTxdfU0kMb2pee1mw07KrHjw0SdS0Zx0G2Bo5E96APN_6FrXebYXu0Ijifs9dEKCMts7aHZtiZpqn8ienRs2Theo5PQ3N3G7LDFFAi9GjVdfbXIEvo42yE4kNlCqV971N-CgDPrbd0LO6siiuDRo4x-SX5-b0FuXWpkGh9oOFCX7ld8zR9Quz7b0wbMeDIe5IhYEooEVBzeeIzA_6ZEqk8aR0-2Kg1od7F08YbyzNWhM3jijYKv4OQ1sOfIigZDV6YJ0dX--rLdhMkxaBhpu07Fa7DHitC58wqVzUODqyaSofAzbRHIzzXvfesXKGflT9ZUEpOcot1pgBeCjElQyguFl5SWN20dmyPPvYF4CcS1xlxHDxFq8HCRlQmG48AVvvEyPWTN2SFr5L5wuURgJ5pF2mv9ovI88pSCHtw2ydk5fPu05l4Z5QOXX_igChNhjgxCEe1xRxgWr_grpriRUKPv59hnZmtJUeLkfUvQApnlVE6XH_v0auX_WSH82PsqjTJckQeXB8pbaEipD4GHHi703UyeVSMsZMxemWlHtJOlux0Qxsu5NOOIXy_iPUbfqn087BErUEhDgkUNecFcmmgRF8m1MWrzUTrDDxR7NAcOtW63PPXCZn4-Hk8k-2zgeJjDmIDbCOSTy8dGPp5d5nqj9IVB_6RqTYWTdZFA8E0KeqcM3f2bLaNJ2LdQ

31.12.24


. . . thas irritating  so fuckin irritating

What’s that?

Bullshit reply
                  I am not ready to receive

    Ohyeah.


Ohyah
        Got something elsesomething moresomething other  than    Oohyah
Sez shit

But you know what they mean.

If I knew wha they meant I woudnt be irritated suppressed an lacerating eyeroll

    They’re . . they’re not ready to hear what you have to say.

Not their choice
                  They don get to posit an opinion then dictate my reply to question it or remark or make an insight
Growup

But you can appreciat . .
. . No  I cant   I cant
                       They cant take the heat stay the fuck out of the kitchen
A time-honoured classic oldfashion  fuckinlegacy idiom

Know idiom

I do.

Im all ears


    Maybe I don’t.

Why are you engaging me on their behalf  in their defence

They’re friends.

Shoud have taken them home earlier or better yet not have brought them in the first place

We met here.

Then  youve no reason to standup forem

                                                    Idiom

Phrase or expression tha largely or exclusivelyknow exclusive they nodded  exclusively carries a figurative or non-literal meaning cant take the heat stay the fuck out of the kitchen rather than makin literal sense

Can you convey tha toem reduce their barriertheir inability  to receive

Unlikely.
             You understand they’ve said as much.
No
     Cunts
  
757preferred,  Tuesday,  31  12. 24
2302,  Tuesday,  31  12. 24

he exhausted the notes he made on his salvaged BEAR-OF-A-CLIPboard

paper one side naked

opposite sides scribbled on or THIS PAGE INTENTIONALLY LEFT BLANK
                                                                                if printed on
IT AINT BLANK

though maybe someone had patented INTENTIONALLY and any-an-all business transactions bills what-have-you contract language  demanded a page that was blank had to be branded such
                                                                                    off the top of his head  probably had near a dozen clipped

WASTE NOT WANT NOT was a fan of President Carter  fan of his malaise speech
                                                                                         though even before Carter made it he had made sure the apartments thermostat during the winter was set at 60degrees made his wife furiousbut she was from southern California

they lived in Minneapolis

Put a sweater on

I should be able to enjoy warmth in my home.

You do Thaswhy we took an apartment with a fireplace an why I  we  stock cordwood on the patio Throw on a sweatshirt sweater make a fire
Play Jack London with me

Hell I let you put your cold feet on my belly at night

    To Build a Fire?

Correct

Man died.

Correct
            I wont let you die

Then let me up the thermostat.

Whats up he refrained from saying Doc

    Say . . . seventyfive.

she was negotiating the Jew in her coming out despite no Jew in her
                                                                            No
Seventytwo.

Jew

Ill build the fire Put on laye . .
. . You’re not being fair. You grew up out here made it sound like the fuckin wilderness me in Californ . .
. . Where do you live

 
    Put on layers
                      Ill stoke a good fireso good  I bet you fall asleep in front of it


a client of the construction company he worked for had apple trees they wanted cut down
                                                                                                You cut ‘em down I’ll pay ya your time.

he liked his sentence ran-on  a bull rushHA  bum rush
No thanks
            I cutem down  hewem   woods mine

look at him being a Jew

    Could I have some of the wood?
Whas some If I can stackkeep the wood here    Some
                                                           guy was urban  notoriety of burning wood would recede building a fire took effort

very unJewish he tossed the dice

OHCHRIST did he slay him
                               urban took a deep sliver  let all the wind out of his sailsank his coloured balloon
imagined it wasnt gayly coloured  black balloons   like when a clown turns forty or fifty


I got ya babe



there were notes that didnt appeal to him at the time
                                                         for shitsangiggles flipped the page

(Plan you will revert to after the service agreement period expires)

like any cellular phone user would remember on the anniversary of their one-year two-year plan that their signing benefits disappeared and their rates per phone would increase substantially  A LOT

remembered keenly
                      by his own discretionbehind managements back he let them suffer a months expense at the reverted rate then altered computer code to restore their signing benefits because the company hadnt a plan to reach out to them and negotiate new contracts
                                         their business model
Fuck their business model

It was being a Jew

 

almost lost his job over that horseshit
                                       however  he argued persuasively
his clients would leave
because they were cheated not really
                                           and his company would suffer dramatic CHURN which upper management received monthly monetary bonuses keeping low

he had the whole wide CHURN in his hands

anif he went
              hed blow the whistle on them

which would require them to repay months and months and months (re: year/s) of generous bonuses (with interest) and explain how an underling had access to proprietary computer coding that they hadnt created safeguards against him from accessing them

    did Jews use blackmail  strongarm tactics

he believed they were among their arsenal      

Monday,  29  3. 04
1501,  Tuesday,  31  12. 24

Sonny & Cher  I Got You Babe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKGjCPBSG38

he urinated outofdoors whenever he could wherever it was appropriatepossible   sometimes not

figured ifever caught hed tell the cop
                                          have to be a cop commonfolk aint interested in a man goinbout his business Nature calls  who was he to mess with Maw Nature  
clearing his throat
                    One Im tryin not to waste water flushin  Two Im watering plants like rain Three I make damn certain Im not publically exposed  Don own a trench coat sprinklemix it with a little humour

hes not been caught
not that he would

decades of practise


was visiting a friend who lived rural remote
                                                 Need to take a leak

tossed a thumb over his shoulder There’s a can off thewhere you going?

Outside

What do you mean outside?

Might ask wha you mean as he went to the back door

Outside?

assumed rhetorical


    hoppedup on roughly a foothigh wall fashioned of broken stone separating a paver patio from earth and plants naked ladies belladonna lilies deepgreen leaf sheaths prolific impressiveobviously enjoyed the few winter rain squalls
something to ponder while takin a leak

leaking pondering flipped
                              earth at the mouth of a downspout was heavilylittered with pebbles gravel  and between the boil of his stream and its shifting like squat on a toilet staring at textured linoleum  faces
                                                                                                   beneath the billowing shag of an afro a Negroid face peeredup at him apathetically  which evolved shapechanged  eyes agape blinked averted closed brow furrowed smoothed unconcerned head leaned left profile yawned jaw snapped shut grimaced turned back  shapechanged  crown of thorns  Jesus
                                                        JESUS said it
then the whole collapseddisassembled into a fast play of assimilatingmugs  broke  cast about like marbles rimshots parcels took a breath
                         submerged


  shook his cock

walked back inside


I can’t believe you pissed in my backyard.

I saw Jesus

after 5PM,  Saturday,  29  12. 24
1132,  Tuesday,  31  12. 24

Jesus Christ Superstar  Trial Before Pilate – 39 lashes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m_FnL7mKhFg

30.12.24


their paths crossed

should have assumed it would happen one day


she was working

she looked beautiful

seemed happy  healthy

they were startled

he was passing through a store

taking one of his notorious shortcuts


they nodded

he kept walking

she caught him outside the rear exitWait.

he turned

Can we walk?

he held out his hand

she took it

they walked for a while without speaking

looking at each other


You still eat figs off the trees

Yes.

Thas wonderful




What happened?

she asked honestly

she had been part of it
                           their separation
it wasnt angry

then it was terribly necessary

health concerns needed devout attention


they still loved each other
                             it seemed at that moment Time had stood still it hadnt

he smiled at her

she smiled at him

there were tears in their eyes

he answered

    Inevitable      Unexpectedly

early AM,  Monday,  30  12. 24
1405,  Monday

    Blessed
                 You run with it
Yahavent said    Yawont say unless I lean on you
                                                                      Wha

You brought it up.
Occur to you I usually bring most things up
                                                  You come along like a beat dog a dog on leash

That’s rude.

    Its honest

Like tha bullshit art your friend tried to pawn off on me

You knew better

Said shit


    I thought it was nice that she wante . .
. . To troll me
Youve been in my house

Seen anything comparable to that drivel


She meant it to be whimsical.

Asshole
           You shoud have corrected herput your foot down   You knew better

It was a Christmas presen . .
. . Thaya put your name onwrapped
                                         You wrapped it      Wrapped it shittily
As the shit it is Im not keepinit

Return it to her She can use it next year as a white elephant gift

                                                                            Besides the point   Blessed

Blessed?
Run with it

What do you mean?

Whadaya mean

Mean?

Blessed

    What’s it mean to me?

Ah  apparently your brain showed
                                           Yes

What do you want me to say?

Whaever ya have to say


    I don’t know.

Gimme something
                       Ive told you
Told me.
FUCK
          Leftie
Oh.
      Yeah.



    Bliss?

Arya askin


Bliss.

 

Go a step furthur

Further?

Like yanking teeth
                       Yah

 

I got nothing.


Flawless

after 3PM,  Saturday,  29  12. 24
2024,  Monday,  30  12. 24
Moody Blues  Procession & The Story In Your Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6EFytM1sxM