29.9.24

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=STSkGSTMr9Y

casually
            not good

causally
          cause and effect

Causality

Casualties
               collateral damage

seems acceptable
                     as long as it is not happening to them and theirsTHEN they lose their mind   rightfully so
casualties hurt
                if theyre able to survive  walkaway
but
      nobody walks away from being violatedHEY
                                                      Ive an idea
Whachagot

A woman has to bear a rapists child

Some states

Wha about therapists

Youre breathless
                   The Rapists

Thaswha I said yah

No
    Two different things

Sometimes theyre not

Probable  Ill grant you tha

Thank you

Youre welcome

Whaof them

Theres law

Does the law have them on the hook financially for their bastardstheyre bastards know it sounds harsh an may no longer carry the weight it once did but they arethey are they on the hook while theyre getting three square in confinementif if theyre apprehended tried found guilt

I don know

Donya think yashoud

No

Thas unlike you truthseeker anall

Anall
       Cleverly close

Aint it the truth aint it the truth

Im not looking
                 If I had my druthers every rapists forced baby every incested forced baby ought to be raised financially by the six kowtowing Supreme Court judges
Ooh  Judges

    Ya caught tha

Yes
      Justices
Not to me
           Theyre a kind of rapist court  Fucking the American people

Yah
         Well this was nice
A long conversation 

Youre my shehes heshes
                           Friends Romans countrymen lend me your ear

Mark Antony Shakespeare Julius Caesar
                                            We know because you know

Thanks for saying so Were blowing my mind

Our mind
           Unblowable Though occasionally bulges

Granted  Occasinally

1856,  day-between-2-Ts,  25  9. 24
1222,  Sunday,  29  9. 24
song by White Stripes  Effect and Cause

Unask the question
he flinched
             Is that a word?

Certainly You follow the premise   Undo the asking

Why would I do that?

It may have impressed you  zilch inane to me
                                                  Youre not familiar with Japanese mu nothingness  no thing
I am not a little disconcerting you are.

Wideread Perfect little gems one comes across
                                                  In another sense  why I refuse to answer hypotheticals an . .
. . You should . .
. . Don interrupt
                    Anya ought to know tha by nowya know tha   Don

Then you’re curtailing censoring our conversations.

Youre welcome to play Ill listen I wont have an opinion because wha youre expressing is tha

No opinion.

How can you just not have an opinioneveryone has an opinion?

Theyre a waste of time They  beliefs  of imagined situations conditions tha do not exist  Lets hoe the row keep to things tha exist are factual 
                             Dare I say provable

You often stretchout . . imagine.

Yes
     I do not ask for your opinion

You’re opining.

Imagining
Dreaming

No real world consequences albethey dramatic

Albethey.
           Another not word.

They replaces it A word
                             Again you followed it
he sneered

You don like following me

No.  It irritates me.

0952,  Sunday,  29  9. 24

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZhSdNy1snaU

 

    Whell  whell    well        well   filled with freshwater
                                                                    muttered to himself
mused  never met a gal with that problem
he hadnt known that it was
                                 was yet another Pharma advertising blitz on youtube
“. . . ask your doctor today.” 
why it plied him made no sense

Revaree

he SKIPped it in the allotted 5 seconds but he wasnt going to get those 5 seconds back

youtube took it and would suffer no financial loss for interrupting him
                                                                         his time   day dies  25Sep ’24
never again
like human beings everything living

despicable how drug companies dipped into his life
extracted moments from him
                              SO
what the fuck is Revaree
wasnt curious
                just wanted to know what Pharma thought to gain off him   Ah
                                                                                    Spit on it
vaginal moisturizerHAWK TUAH
                                     two can play that way Ms Welch
read she was finally making some cash off her inadvertent Tiktok interview
                                                                                 unfortunately late to the game
others gamed it 

what they hawked he hadnt a clue


that said
          he was sympathetichad empathy for those with dry arid chasms

he hoped freshwater would return soon 

1856,  day-between-2-Ts,  25  9. 24
1016,  Sunday,  29  9. 24
song by The Who  Love, Reign O’er Me

28.9.24


epiphanies

they came an went
                     he couldnt keep up with them
one would appear
                    a second shove it aside third likewise ARE YOU MESSIN WITH ME  third buttfucked by the fourth
toughass epiphanies
                        but if they couldnt hold their own
why would he mourn em


they piledon
               all he could do was witness see if he could make hide or hair of em
NO
      like tryin to take a solitary frame from a rollin reel
cut your fingers off

he had need of em all
                       Sorry babe   Cant digitally please you
trifecta
          cock tongue fingers  ruined

    What did you do?

I  I tried saving an epiphany

But you have them all the time.

Yesyah
          But it intrigued me  I didnt want to let it get away

    Lost fingers. Got away.

Yah

Fuckin pitiful.
                Fuckin pitiful.

spread her legs
                  Get on it.
she was upset
                 but he still had his tongue
On it
Shaddup.
             Ill let ya know when you can talk.


he really surprised her with an index up the ass
she tried to bolt

his other hand was unmolested

she wasnt going anywhere


    she said she lost her mind

he saw exactly where it landed
                                  Whas it worth
More fucks and sucks and pleasures than you can imagine.

he thought shed have negotiated harder
                                            but  brain vacated

he had the upperhand  despite digits missing


that wasnt an epiphany

2219,  Saturday,  28  9. 24

had been flying

crosscountry

back again


meeting his ride at the curb he got in and said Terminal

bro replied Terminal?

Yah  I still have a hard time with tha
                                        Yad think it woudnt affect me since I only fly once a year
Terminal.
            What’s with that?

Id rather theythe recorded loudspeaker system say   concourse

So you don’t distinguish between the two?

Howso

A terminal is comprised of several concourses.

No  Theyre coequal

I disagree.

Youre right
            Like men an women coequal Theyre not   Women are superior
We’re coequal.

Fuck we are
              Youre living proof men are at a deficit  deficient

I pick you up and you berate me?

Im not berating you brother
                               Plain truth
Whatever.
            What’s your hangup?

Terminal or not coequal

Terminal, Christ.

Whaelse is terminal

What do you mean?
Us
      Were terminal   I really need to be reminded of tha when I fly
                                                                         If all the folks who suffer fear of flying  dig  aerophobia . .
. . Yamade that up.
Did not  Fuckin phobias for every fear
                                          Coprophobia  Fear of shitting  Imagine  Kakorrhaphiophobia Abnormal fear of failure or defeat Cant imagine  Athazagoraphobia intense or irrational fear of being forgotten or of forgetting someone something

Nothing to fear but fear itselfJeez
                                    My point is all those folks who fear flyingmedicate themselves last fuckin thing they want to hear at an airport is  terminal

   You been storing this up for awhile?
Canya tell
            Thanks  I appreciate the ride your ear

0558,  2sday,  17  9. 24
1259,  Saturday,  28  9. 24

   obstinacy

obstinate


   Yah

“But because the violence of my early life when I could put a name to it, even a terrified name, I remember details of it very vividly, as well as the fact that none of it ever affected my habitual (you could say even feline) curiosity, despite my awareness of what the results of such curiosity were likely to be. I, like too many other children in my predicament, had discovered that I possessed one ultimate weapon against abuse: obstinacy . . . Humiliation and obedience, ultimately, were and are more dreadful solutions than resistance, even if the latter results in painful defeat, because in resistance lies self-respect.”
                    Caleb Carr  My Beloved Monster: Masha the Half-Wild Rescue Cat Who Rescued Me

 

he entertained anal

admitted to his daughter he was
                                   Yathink? she responded
Hold on a second
                    Arent you curious how I arrived at my assessment
No.

Really

I’m teasing, of course I am. How?

   I was giving it some thought It occurred to me all these years Ive been very thorough
Very thorough.
                 Though that’s who you are.
Thank you

You’re welcome.

Yes Granular  I enjoy research
Minutiae.
I do
History.
          You constantly drag me through years that precede your explanation, help define your argument.
I do because it is critical to understand tha something has had to come before  thathey create the chain of events which culminate in what I understandbelieve  is the present

Always. Laboriously.

Boringly

   Sometimes.

Perhaps

Not perhaps.
You slay me
              Anywho   I was thinking
Maybe my thoroughness is analness

I am anal

Papa. However you want to describe yourself I’m cool.

Thanks baby

You’re welcome.

 

anal didnt fit

he went back to being thorough
                                  however
while reading Carrs passage it occurred to him that he was that
                                                                     obstinate
stubborn  hardnosed  fight or fight no flight
adored confrontation
provocative
ASSertive

   factual
maddeningly so

circled his wagons

his chainlinks blacksmithed wrought by vigorous blows

 

   obstinate
                 not anal
he had to call his daughter to advise her

2230,  Thursday,  26  9. 24
1134,  Saturday,  28  9. 24

Friday all are reggaefridays
                               hes called it that for years his coinage  went over huge with his family and when they dropped it on others it stuck


how now reggaefriday
                         was an illuminating day once he brokeout of dreaming
which no small feat
leftie
      a female cat
roused himbumped his face with hers  hinted FOOD 

she was followed by the queen october shy firstborn bomb tomboy stood in the doorway FOOD
                                                                                  GET THE MESSAGE
he had for years
                   Awright gang Up an Adam colloquially up and at ‘em time but who likes colloquial  Time to get the show on the road
got his ass out of bed
had to make it first


Grrls bomber  Time to eat

they hustled into the kitchen

waiting outdoors were four ferals too

he was an ample provider

gotta to love pussy to be able to contend with eight



early afternoon 

work complete

he went on a walkread occasionally lifted his head when sensingkeening something may be afoot worthwhile presenting
            sometimes something was butifnot he wasnt one who ever lacked inspiration
shit fireworks went off in his head
never a dull moment
his blue eyes shined

 

in the evening he had a scheduled phone call with a friend

he had a habitwas  haBITCHualised
                                       while they yammered he liked to sip a Lizards Mouth beer

also habit was having a couple tidbits at the ready to share with her  curios

he ran into Dave Dyslexia Dave the Church Caretaker whose name he humourously recalled by the Cheech and Chongs bit  Dave’s Not Here  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dX8lZduI8ac

Dave however was not late to churchwas religious as a boy teenager he could stream psalms backwards

he was utterly unfamiliar with Cheech and Chong

    a tidbit



he picked up a Lizards Mouth nineteenounce can from a small local liquorestore whose attendant he was acquainted with she wore a tightfitting black tshirt emblazoned in elaborate white cursive font MULTITTASKER   across her tits

maybe because she wasnt young wasnt beautiful she could wear it to work

he was fifth in line

no one behind him


Heya

Hi. How are you?

I love your tshirt

her eyes startedshe blushed

No ones commented on it
                                  Youre blushing her rouge brightened
she cleared her throat
                          I’ve worn this on occasion onanoff for two years. You’re the first person whose noticed. Not even my boss has.

Maybe hes not a tit man
                           You might imagine I am her rouge became fiercer 

Threeeightyfine I have exact change
                                       he paid slowly with three  ones  two  three  a  quarter  six  dimes
counted them into her palm without looking up

by the time they completed the transaction her usual countenance was restored

he smiled
           I must say  blush looks good on you
it hustled back
he laughed
             Ill see next reggaefriday babe



A titbit  Whacha got for me

his phonefriend almost dropped hers

1524,  reggaefriday,  27  9. 24
1002,  Saturday,  28  9. 24

27.9.24


You know anent

    Anent.   No.

Me neither  Youd think one of us woud
You.
      Not me. You’re the wordsmith.

I cobble words together though Im repeatedly surprised how oftengiven my reading I discover ones Im unfamiliar with

An anent means?

Concerning  About

his expression went flat

A sentence
             Ill say a few words anent the letter

Ah, thank you.  Concerning about didn’t qualify it.

No  They did not appear to
                               Something else huh
Then not five minutes later campanile

Campanile. Campanile.  No.
                                  Can’t say that rings a bell either.
he laughed
               Was hoping youd go there

Go there?

Ring a bell
             A campanile is a bell tower particularly a freestanding one

A bell tower.
Yah
     Which unfortunately brings to mind the ’66 University of Texas bell tower shooting which killed if I remember right  better than a dozen   Fourteen
I do not remember the murderers the snipers name
                                                      Christ  I believe thamay have been the first school shooting
Anwe havent learned a fuckin thing in sixty years

American amnesia
                    Cant remember a fuckin thing from yesterday

I can’t believe you remembercan recall that.
                                               If you hadnt said I wouldn’t have remembered.
Another amnesiac

I wouldn’t say tha . .
. . I did
         Bell tower is nothing more than a Jungian word association
Campanile  Likely Id have ventured an Italian dessert
                                                          Or a paddle
Paddle?

Sex S an M  Appealing  Rihanna   Hot
                                           Jung woud pop a stitch Id reckon
Me too.

Howso

How your mind works.

All doors flungopen Gapin  Wide
                                    Take it Doors of Perception Huxley
Stop.
Ive just began

Yeah.
       I can’t keep up.
You’re too exercised.

Fuck no  just stretchin   

prior to 2sday,  17Sep '24
1250,  Reggaefriday,  27  9. 24

Rihanna  S & M  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KdS6HFQ_LUc


it began innocently enough

later went off the rails

the whole unexpected


Seat 34B
          Christ
last row middle seat

he parked his bag overhead Row22
                                      no need to carry it all the way back rows immediately before and after seats were filled only a few entering the craft behind him
he was considerate


then to his surprise
                      a knockout seated at the window 34A
Looks more like a 38doubleD
Shaddup
           
his Mariachi shehes heshes often provided unwanted commentary
                                                                                 Arya kiddin
Im not Annot tha I disagree

She cant hear

You effect my eyes
                     Anya know  Windows to the soul

But you havent a soul

Awright awright Howbout windows to peer inside through

Don look now
                Shes lookin

Yes she is


What did you do wrong

she smiled all teeth  amused 
                                Excuse me?

To be confined to the back of the plane
                                         Im aware of my transgressions We may share onetwo   Maybe more

she laugheddidnt cover her mouth which was appealing he hadnt the words how appealing
                                                                                                   Transgressions?
Have a seat. You can elaborate.

OhChrist Tell me you work at a brain factory

Brain factory?

Psych

In fact I do.

An overseer

Psychiatrist.

We talk you gonna charge

Not if you’re interesting.

Well kiddo I believe youll have your hands full
                                                  before sitting he extended his hand  Joe
Raquel.

cleared his throat into his fist 
                                 Any relation
Excuse me?

Welch

Oh stop.

OhHellno Take a compliment

Well . . alright . . . thank you.

Thank you



the flight was fouranahalf hours
                                   during brief interludes when they werent talking he fauxgazed out the window enjoying her profile the curve of her breasts the back of her shapely head


Montana  Were nearly over Missoula

Excuse me.

Over Montana

Oh.
     Raquel looked again facing the window murmured It’s beautiful. 

It is Nearing Missoula
                       his voice cracked surprised him   he teared up
turning she saw
                  Are you . . are you okay?
I I am

What? If I may ask.

he choked a bit voice upset  Todays my wedding anniversary
                                                                  An this is the closest weve been since she died
Shes buried ninety miles south of here We married in Hamilton  Spent two awesome years before we had to leave
We wanted family but unfortunately coudnt afford one in Montana
                                                                         Two wonderful years
Rachel reached out held his forearm
                                        I am sorry. My condolences. From our conversations, I take it, she must have been quite a woman. she chuckled
                                  You’re a handful.
You know it You know it

she squeezed his arm firmly
                               She was a lucky woman.
Yay thank you
                 Im an awfully lucky guy

1500 midair,  2sday,  24  9. 24
1119,  Reggaefriday,  27  9. 24