the physician entered the room  

                                  wasnt a pokerplayer

should have proppedup  a pair of  phony eyeglasses because this is when had she shed dramatically take them from her face and utilise them  a  prop     a sympathetic prop that would perfectcomplete her bedsidemanner

I’m afraid . . . I’m afraid . I have some bad news.

Why are you afraid   Not like its your bad news

Your had she glasses she could have fiddled with them  your illness  can be lethal unless . .

. . Itll be lethal

Hmm  thaswha dumbfounded looks like

We can . .

. . Im not  Theres no we    I aint letting medicine leech bleed my hardearned money my savings

                                                                                                        Save the wholesome oneinamillion shot optimism   Im a bornsceptic

Id rather you said Time to return to Time

                                              From whence we came

absently I like whence  Donoften have the opportunity to use it

As your physician . .

. . My employee

                   Save your breath your Hippocratic Oath doc  Yaint causin me any harm

We can . .

. . Drag it out

               Ill tellya wha You pickup the tab an well playout your rosy optimismDeal

that humored him he couldnt help but wonder what shed be doing with her nonexistent glasses now

1741,  Sunday,  14  4. 24

2008,  Sunday

Stones  The Last Time  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycoJSzjJDJc

Temptations  Psychedelic Shack  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93uFrmSfgSw

she commanded the room

                          torched it

hadnt seen her before

he casted around to see if anyone else had

everyone was as haplesslyconfused as he zero hints  of recognition

loud  brassy

made him feel punkish  overwhelmed

                                             secretly grateful

when everyones attention was attracted

                                                moths to light

she grabbed the neck of the ribbed dago-T she wore  ripped it down and out 

                                                                                 tearing it free of her unboundbreasts

not overtly large

suited her frame

attractive aureoles  happy nipples

concluding

           she leaned wellback againt the bar exposed    still clutching fabric in her fists

challenging

 defiant

she closed her eyes

                     beatifically

the room men and women  admired her unabashed nakedness

                                                                            if like he feeling raw ashamed of their modesty

pitifully  embarassinglyshy

approximately 1140,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  4. 24

1308,  Sunday,  14  4. 24

Iration  Fly With Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k0W-GEPzFg8

James Gang  Woman  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7TycD7dUDU

Remember

   you remember

                       how that worked

the subtle twist of her neck

curve of her throat

her chin leading

                 eyes brilliant   white flash  momentarycomet

that you saw

gratefully you had

                   and believed  no one else did

   her smile

               for you alone

Remembering

                 she meant it only for you

2007,  Saturday,  12  3. 11

1233,  Sunday,  14  4. 24

James Gang  Ashes The Rain and I  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUr1wVf29b8

looking out the aircraft porthole

                                    a cloud carpet for as far as he could see

chuckled

         recalled on the way to the airport  descending the grade the valley below was clogged by marine layer that created an invaginationwhich  he couldnt resist commenting on

                                                                   Reminds me of downy blonde I dated  she sported the sweetest little trimmed curlysnatch  See the hills to the sides  Like her thighs gripped em held her spread under my mouth

Of course it does. I saw that coming.

Good

      For someone tha cunnilingus doesnt appeal to or inspire  happy you coud recognise it

he didnt reply

Pussy got your tongue

Hey man. Let it go.  Wouldya let it go?

You trouble me . .

. . I trouble youyou’re the troubler.   

                                     I can’t understand your fascination with that that’s below the bel . .

. . Theyre delicious . .

. . Ya tryin’ to make me lose control of the car?

Hellno Im enthused

                     Im headin out of town to celebrate my birthday an this is wha greets me  An awesome omen if ever was Im over the moon got my face tuckedup tight between her cheeks

OHJesus.  Shaddup would yayou’re making me ill.

   Making love makes you ill

That ain’t making love.

No complaints  They were thrilled I was attentive an took my time

                                                                       Im not youyour Wham Bam Thank You Maam

Pleasing yourself forgetting their pleasure

I pleased ‘em.

Rutted

        A woman is a sevencourse meal not a snack or a drive-thru

You’ve never . .

. . Of course I have Of course they have too

                                              Though the majority we relished an languished  How many times have you stayed in bed all day blown off work blown off prior engagements  made her your sole priority

   Never.

Never

         Arya kiddin me

No. Never. I have things to do.

Great attitude

dropped off at the airport he leaned back in held himself up on his arms on the passenger seat

                                                                                                     Thanks for the lift

You’re welcome.

I suggest you give some thought to what I was sayin

About the invagination?

   Yah

No thanks. Have a good flight a good time.

I will  Thank you

                   Ill seeya when I return   Breakfast  

Breakfast.

115preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  4. 24

115,  Saturday,  13  4. 24

    hardboiled eggs

                        Easter had come and gone  he dutifully played Jesus Christ Superstar vinyl had stewed fruit fresh smoked Polish sausage ham

                                     but

no coloured hardboiled eggs

missed the boat

hed been invited to a family brunch

                                     not his  they were eighteenhunred miles away

after eating the children raced around finding plastic coloured eggs filled with coins occasionally paper currency and sweets

no hardboiled eggs

he missed them

Monday he bought a dozen Jumbo eggs

boiled half

later ate the other half raw

six were sufficient to please what he missed

evidently he wasnt greedy

                               he wonders how that happened

1644,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  4. 24

1210,  Saturday,  13  4. 24

The Undisputed Truth  Smiling Faces Sometimes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zo1DxtI73SE

blame Deadeye Dick another candidate in his unending attempted overthrow of Tolkiens cellar door as the most beautiful sound in the English language fuck him  Vonnegut   second page

. . . he was an almostonly wanton child

hows tha one might thinkimagine

firstborn

         he was such a pain in the ass as a baby a young child his parents werent surewerent convinced  they should risk another

               almost asif he were a Downs child

had he the knowledge then he would have described himself as a strange beast

a kaiju

        uncommonly romanised kaijyu or kaizyu  all three attracted him

romanised

           “. . . the conversion of text from a different writing he loved to write to the Roman script, or a system for doing so. Methods of romanisation include transliteration, for representing written text, and transcription, for representing the spoken word, and combinations of both.”  he wouldnt have been able to say  Whereof Thereof  Wittgenstein

   a strange beast

as it happened as it came to be

                                   his brother was an oopschild

if the gods who invest a child with or without certain or no abilities werent on their game or distracted they oopsedmissed the window to impair  or not

                                                  turned out

an oops was better than an almostonly

oops was angelic

AO excuse the acronym was a holy  terror

                                            he did say kaiju kaijyu kaizyu stuttered k k k

    

1644,  day-between-2-Ts,  3  4. 24

1054,  Saturday,  13  4. 24

Doors  People Are Strange  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N23X70m37L8

Hidee hidee hi

Hidee hidee ho

                he gonna hidee hidee high away awhile

Catchyas on the flipside

Friday 12th

day-between-2-Ts,  3  4. 24

Cab Calloway  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jDK7sRLn-3E 

Awgawd  sorry sorry     Im sorry

                                       it takes a big man to apologise when hes wronged someone  something

say  alligator lizards

                       Im sorry

hed leaptup onto a short drystacked threestacked bearing on three surfaces stone wall an leapingup found himself betweeninterrupting a sweated amorous pairSURPRISE ofcourse youNO he coudnt speak for you  he never hear bedroom doors open they hustledoff in opposite directions throwing disconsolate glances over their shoulders 

                                                                                                          he was familiar

seen them all his life

dejected

cheerless

gloomy

         though he thought he only provoked them in his family

outside its confines he found them too

   Tough he thought  they overevaluated him

                                                 Thas on them

spare the rod spoil anticipation

he was kind

enjoyed an abundance of initiative

goodnatured

did things because he wanted to 

despite being aware that others may try to take advantage of him

                                                                      those  who when he put his foot down

felt he denied something he owed them

  How to  how do I say this properly he would say

theyd be pensive or in their faces seemed pensive  although positive  assured    he helped before

Yes

      How can I say this properly

                                        Aah

Fuck you

didnt do what they wantedassumed hed provide again

                                                             really upset them

who was hehow dare he   how dare he change thingsup

when he helped he was conscious some would feel enabled  anassuch feel they had a perfectright to compel him

WRONG

          he didnt bellow

he helped because he wanted to  not because he was obligated

                                                                     I aint a kidney donation

finished urinating he jumped down

                                     I am sorry

walkingoff he muttered Jesus  Cockblocking lizards  Wha other surprises are in store for meWho knew

NO ONE knows

couple hours later jumpedup on the wall

                                             cockblocked two lizards

couldnt say they were the same pair

early afternoon,  Monday – April Fools,  1  4. 24

1142,  2sday,  2  4. 24

he had the time of his life

                           at least he thoughthad a vague sense  it was his life   His

hed been accused of a lot of things

                                     fessedup to a majority of them  they sounded like him

coudave fooled himself

though some were too sweet not to rollup take advantage of  take the fall

                                                                                accountabilitys a bitch

   yet had met many bitches he was fond of

Sure  Thas on me

                    I woudnt have done it if I coudnt endure the punishment ifIF   if I got caught

1116preferred to 2316,  Sunday,  31  3. 24

0943,  2sday,  2  4. 24

Iron Butterfly  In the Time of Our Lives  James Gang;  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwjsmmM450oc

James Gang  The Bomber A: Closet Queen B: Bolero C: Cast Your Fate to the Wind  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWiQ6k4HCwo   Tend My Garden  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Ui2Q11IbAY

lost and found

Yah

      went over hard

fell on my face

cut at the knees

                   although I felt no disgrace or embarrassment

at my cries

              my misplaced tears

No

      I really didnt know what happened  what took my place

   standing again

still not understanding

not all me was there

parts of me I didnt think I could shake

ended up in the Lost and Found

ended up in a lousy box overflowing with needed and needless things

                                                                          things that didnt matter a damn

that anyone looking through it

wouldnt waste their time stealing

other things were tempting

but they didnt fit

werent the right size

would have looked odd on

because they didnt belong

so they waited

                 weighted in the Lost and Found

waiting         

in the time that followed I wasnt as fast

sparks cooled

juices chilled

yet I waited

I don know if family or friends knew

and didnt say

or made excuses

for what went away

I sat still not knowing my colours had changed

or that I ate myself

in ways different and alone

waiting

Lost and Found has its place

I have mine

   then

           unexpectedly

you arrived

you recognised something of yours

something you didnt lose

but hoped to find

and the waiting  the waiting

fell behind

though other things were tempting

they wouldnt fit

they werent the right size

they would have looked odd

     they didnt belong

now were not waiting

weve been lost and found been lost and found

Nah

      we arent waiting

weve been Found

day-between-2-Ts,  1  10. 08

1136,  Monday -- April Fools,  1  4. 24

he wasnt in the habit of being anywhere

when someone posedoffered  invited him to a get together

                                                                  Who with

his first question

Where

When

should have been a dick

cut to the chase

times awastin

his social skills wandered out the backdoor some time ago

                                                               hed left it open encouraged them

Lettin our hair down boys Don have to jump through hoops nomo

no sooner than he stepped aside they hustledbolted out

                                                           hollering over their shoulders Seeya you big lug

he wasnt

his skills had no comparisons

a captive audience

he feigned well

                 though easy to fake Ignoramuses

some believe they were dinosaurs from the   . . . you know . Dinosaur Age . . yah . that.

   Which

Then.

The Mesozoic

                So which we talkin Triassic Jurassic Cretaceous hed bet if he were a bettin man Jurassic probably heardfiltered in Jurassic Park franchise

Yah, that one, it.

Jurassic

Sure.

couldnt stand watchin a dog chase its tail

                                              he let it go

it was a family invite

                       AH

tyranny of family

tough to sidestep

he had some remnantmodicum of civility  sociability

                                                         though razsore thin

chalkscribbled graffiti  a brick wall

talkin real thin

   he conceded

Ten A M

FUCK

       have to set an alarm

shower

   wash his hair

                   usually oncemaybe a week

usually brushed it out

in the shower the shampoo it leaked into his eye

                                                   he flashed back to being a boySOAP IN HIS EYE  BURN

yah it burned

but he wasnt a boy

it was delicious to have a flashback without aid of hallucinogens

approximately 9AM, Sunday,  31  3. 24

1757,  Sunday,  3  31. 24

. . . as I’ve said, it’s so freaking wonderful, amazing, and, as I’ve also said . .

. . NO Ive said  Thank you

                                Thank you but no

You’d love . .

. . Not interested  Uninterested

                                     Treat yourself have another go

How can you possibly know you wouldn’t like a massage if you’ve never had one?

I don like to be touched

   You give monster hugs.

I do

      Hugs are brief

I don’t get it. A massage is so exhilarating.

Knock yourself out  Please yourself

                                         No thank you

Like that. No.

Just like tha

               Makes sense  Im surprised yare surprised

Makes sense, surprised, how?

Most things I do are solitary

                              Being touched is like being told a story have to suffer an audiobook I cant abide either  You know I write I tell the stories

                                    Why the hell woud I want to listen to one

Im a teller  Active not passive

There’s that, yes, granted, but I’m payin . .

. . No

         I swim laps Thas solitary  I write an read  Solitary

                                                                      I workout alone

Im NOT a team player

There’s that.

   Pretty fuckin  obvious

But . .

. . NO

2200,  Saturday,  30  3. 24

1437,  Sunday,  31  3. 24