guys gather get a few under their belt no wimen round  things deteriorate degenerate get raunchy  had to be their nature

        that said  asocial  ahole   wasnt his usual fare

                                                             yet

he found himself a link in the chain arc in the circle

                                                       gratefully

wasnt a circle jerk

yet

this evenings fare

                    ASS

not getting ass but rather ass  fanny  apple   heartshaped ass

                                                                        gluteus maximus

and Word When Where Name winged its wayround to him on him before he could dodge

Yareally wanna know

they Fuck Yah

Not going to top my predecessors

they  Fuck Yahed

made him laugh

                   the circle guffawed

Youll not be impressed

ON WITH IT they shouted

Awright

          Sweetest ass I ever laid eyes on was in the film Mr Jones twentyminutesthirtyseconds in

Anyone learns who she is lemme know 

                                           Please

  

310,  Saturday,  9  3. 24

he pushed back didnt care how attractive she was  probably rode on it

                                                                           No  no such thing

What are you talking about? her eyes bulging a bit  It was a nightmare.

A dream theyre all dreams

eyes still enraged You don’t distinguish one from the other?

No

You voice high in her chest haven’t been terrified? 

Ive been frightened but I remind myself Im dreaming   I cant wont be hurt

Have you been murdered in a dreamdied . in a dream?

More times than I can say

   And yet . . you don’t call those nightmares?

No Dreaming

              Which isnt to say they werent awful   But I knew I wasnt at risk

They didn’t wake you?make you sit bolt upright?

No

      The French call nightmare cauchemar Irish broingloid

Learned both from Ken Bruens book The Killing of the Tinkers

   Why . . why are you telling me this?

Because someone others agree with you  An I like how they sound

How they sound.

Yes Not harsh like Night Mare

                                 Takes an edge off

You’re a real piece of work.  And terribly unsympathetic.

Difficult to sympathise when one disagrees

                                             Lemme say  Im disagreeing with you also because I can lucid dream manipulate scenarios outcomes I can decide to either let it ride or alter it I can disarm the stranger rarely ever dream of people I know or die

Yet another thing  I refuse to suffer tortureFinis

   Finis.

Yes

Then you’re lucky.

Not really

           Took me a long time to learn lucid dreaming  Luck plays no part

Try keeping a dream journal

Learn

   Nightmares efface dissolve  Become dreams

1630,  Monday,  4  3. 24

1237,  Saturday,  9  3. 24

You know whaya ought to suggest

she chuckled

                 Sure. I’m open to suggestions.  I’m at my wit’s end.

I can hear it in your voice

Thank you.   I wish you were here, Papa.

Ah thad be nice  I do too

                             But weve had our timeknew we were having our time

We did. We didn’t take it for granted.

No we did not

               Happened too fast Seems stuck on fastforward

Doesn’t it?

             What’s your suggestion?

A suggestion box

I’ve suggested it.

   And

It was declined.

The reason

They, management, called it arcane.

They said arcane

Can you believe it?

No   Shit

           Yareally got your work cut out for you

Tell me about it.

                   Didn’t you recommend a suggestion box at your employment? I seem to recall you did, think perhaps that’s why I recommended it for my company.

I did

Doesn’t sound like it was successful.

It lastedif I remember correctly fourfive months

                                                  Went to the lunchroom to make a suggestion an it was gone

What happened?

It was taken down because I was the only person making suggestions

No shit.

No shit

         Found out other employees felt intimidated to put their name on a suggestion

Cowards.

Im afraid so

   Well. It’d be unlike you not to accept it’s removal.

Few steps down the hall from the lunchroom then right an at the end of that hall was the CEOs office I went to see him he laughed   Dave said he had an open door policy It was closed  I rapped on it an let myself in

You let yourself in.

Open door policy

How’d that go?

Told Dave that since the suggestion box was no longer Id come directly to him Afterwards Id submit it to the rest of the company through interoffice email

How did you not get fired?

My concerns were legitimate

                               Works like intelligence Foundational  Call it the ruthless pursuit or quest to see what is not what one prefers

   That’s not going to fly here.

Sorry baby

             So sorry

0838,  2sday,  5  3. 24

1108,  Saturday,  9  3. 24

Peter Green  I’ve Got a Good Mind to Give Up Living  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1XWzbVktTQ

   muses

           Piece of shit presumptive Republicant candidate Unfortunate someone hasnt lead him to the top of a flight of stairs mans terrifiedscared shitless of steps  lead him to a flight of stairs only way down all the buildings elevators and escalators disabled

Got to wonder wha odds the bets Vegas would make accept  mount

Headlines Former Takes A Header

                                      Who then

   Jesus man, the way you think.

Im always thinkin  Always

                                I churn twentyfourseven

No can do.

But I do

At night you sleep.

Im churnin even then

                      Arrived in a panic at a clandestine airstrip after escaping peopleSomething got onboard a Douglas DC-3 you know the kind twin engines wings sweptback happened there after racing out of a devastated inner city neighbourhood in a black boxy van think composite skin raced along a LA-like concrete viaduct that transformed reconfigured into a weedy canal an seeing it I thought itd be ideal to grow rice in shoots fertilised with nightsoil

Wanna tell me Im not churnin 

You’re . . . somethinging . forsure.

Tha visual the thought under Zappas It cant happen here

                                                            I remember Toto I remember Totothey had a swimming pool and they thought it couldnt happen here  I remember Toto I remember Totothey had a swimming pool they knew it couldnt happen here

                         SueZe

SueZe Creamcheese

                      Weve been ah  very interested in your development

For Getit

Im tellinya I cant stop

                       I can see everything still see everything even as I tell you

It plays in my eyes

1159,  Reggaefriday,  8  3. 24

1014,  Saturday,  9  3. 24

Zappa  It Can’t Happen Here  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yEbjInR6irI

feeling silly

              not a typical mood unless he was high but it was Reggaefriday  had been since he christened it

after his wifes death he found the music

                                           found solace in reggae  embraced it

thought likely it embraced him first

                                     had been waiting in the wings

   need

opposed to want

had tea with a friendcouldnt say he ever had tea before with anyone

                                                                                 Hell Why not

Tea? cocked his head like a small bird

Yes They have a ginger turmeric tea

                                          Appeals to me

I’m not drinking tea.

Didnt say you had to  I am

I’m not.

Jesus  Then don

friend ordered a tea too

he didnt say a thing

seated on a tall stool at a tall table beside a tall window bathedglittering in sunshine he mentioned offhand a need was seemedwas beginning to surface

                                    A need of knead

I hear you. Ain’t a soul I know who refuses want more than you. Often I think I remind myself of you and your carbon footprint.

Footprint

Yes.

     Ever thought that if you were walking on sand . . you’d scarcely make an imprint.

Thas extrem . .

. . It’s not. I’ve mentioned you to people and they’re dumbstruck.

You ought to consider the people who you hang out with Lotsa conspicuous wealth disposable income

                                                                                                              Nevertheless thank you   Quit talkin about me

I can’t help myself. We’re friendshell . usually we talk every day.

We do but we don talk about other people

   We don’t . . . do we?

No

HUH.

We have better things to talk about

   I . ah . . just . realised that we don’t talk about people.

No he saw the expression on friends face 

                                            An epiphany    

Ya know.  Yeah. It is.

he took a deep draught of his ginger turmeric it cooled sufficiently

   So   My need to knead . .

. . Excuse me for interrupting, let me conclude my thought.  Your negligible footprint?

   I hadnt planned it It occurred to me   Like reggae

You didn’t discern, think it out? 

No Not really  Im cheap

                          Ive not been one to treat myself You can take the boy out of religion but not its training out of the boy Denial is a central tenet of Catholicism

I was a good Catholic until I wasnt

I was raised Catholic too.

I know

Okay. Thanks.   This conversation is already more than I’d anticipated.

   Really

Yes.

Its me

         Arent I He Who Blindsides   My Indian First Person name if I were

Yes.

      Yare.

My knead

   Yes.  Your need.

                      What of it?

I think I need to move on it

Is this kindalike a confession?

If you wish  Perhaps

I feel honored.

Don let it go to your head  Youre the only person I talk with face to face

So, you thinking of putting up your asocial behavior.

If I knead Ill have to

You have a plan?

No   Im just putting out it into the world into the ether  Suspect it will evolve as reggae did

If you had a plan it might happen quicker.

Im patient

If you need it . .

. . Its not an addiction

   I’m just saying.

Awright  Guess I better let you in on my knead

                                                     I thought you knew me betterwoudve guessed

You’re a hard fish to figure.

Ill take tha

You’re welcome.  he smiled blissfully

Thank you

   My knead

Yeah?      

K N E A D

suddenlytipped forward like he was kneed in the balls  Jesus.

1432,  2sday,  30  1. 24

1102,  Reggaefriday,  8  3. 24

Zappa  Help I’m a Rock  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ukbu9dmmzJg

Choo-choo Charlie was an engineer trolley car trolley car pick a track or have someoneanyone throw the switch

      Choose-You-choose  Trolley Problem

a thought experiment create by British philosopher Philippa Foot in ’67 expanded in ’85 by the American philosopher Judith Jarvis Thomson no longer the engineers choice which track but rather someone on the ground who determines to throw the switch

                   save five kill one kill five save one

NO MATTER WHO THE ONE IS

   in his thought experiment

nobody dies

he had two

first

      choose between inhibited & uninhibited

second

         choose between Faith & atheism guess he could have jumbledflipped em so they werent blatantly parallel   aah no matter

       two sides on the same coin

it was his experience once chosen one couldntwouldnt revert

                                                                although  hed recommend enjoying some real life experiences acquire definite baggage before making a choice

he also believed no child should have to endure any kind of indoctrination

                                                                              they can decide for themselves when they were older more sophisticated  wellread

1433,  2sday,  30  1. 24

2228,  Thursday,  7  3. 24

Good & Plenty Candy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExSlyoVTX3I

The Small Faces  Itchycoo Park  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fayL1WTR1Go

Let Go

with an edge of disgust in his voice Jesus, man, how you think.

I think

        My inhibition distresses you

My willingness to speak freelyspeak my mind unafraid  Were you heeled been heldkept  on a leash

What are you talking about?that’s nonsense.

No no   I don think so

                        You were checked Id go so farwoudsay  you helped  aided the processrefused  refused to challenge

           You went along

      You don’t know what you’re talking about.

   You paused

I paused?

An a second time

                   Yawanna let your hair downfuck just you an me talkinconversin  Nobodys listenin no condemnation no judgment   Let go

gentlyhe shook his head  It’s easy for you.

I condemn tha

                 Accept  Accept accountability    Punishment

It doesnt hurt too long or too much

   For you.

Defeatist

No.

Wha  wha

              Wha Im all ears

   I’m not you.

Im not asking you to be me

                             Im asking you quit  quitcensoring yourself worryinbout wha people will think  Theyll think wha they will despite your best effortsBEST  fuckin   intentions

Human  Nature

   Tell me Im off base

I’ve never.

Absolutely  he knew how he felt about that

   Never.

Too bad

            Id like to know who Ive done it with thahad the ability to sing

Sing?

Yah Trained to hit octaves Sharps   Flats

                                               Half steps  Semitones

Imagine

I can’t.

No  No   Maybe I have but didnt know it

                                            NO   Youve not throatfucked

Jesus.

Full circlehuh

1432,  2sday,  30  1. 24

1300,  Thursday,  7  3. 24

Fight Club  Let Go  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38FMDG7tiA4

Zappa  Hungry Freaks, Daddy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IDE9MC3jnl0

crossing the flagstone patiowalking up on a small group of people gathered around a plexiglass topped picnic table if a woman sat in a skirt its texturing obscured their hiked hems or relaxedspread legs he overheard . . . I’m bonafide . . the real deal.

he interruptedrecognising the brayer 

                                      Whadaya deal in

I missed the prologue the setup  prequel   Prequel

                                                     Am I right  I recall youre longwinded untiring when you hear your own voice although  admittedly  hearings different than listening

Ifya listened to you  youd have interrupted as Ive done for the nonsense

people began quietly moving off like a clean pane of glass broken by a smooth round stone

squaringup angerflushed  grimacingsneering   I know you?

   Weve met

             At the time you conceded you were poor with names an faces which I found queer because with an effort one coud if they wished an try as I may I havent  I cant forget your face or name   Suffice to say you made an indelible impression upon me 

Where’d we meet?

No no You woudnt recall tha either

                                     At the time you concededconfided hard to tell  tha youre so in the moment tha nothing precedes it or comes after  I immediatelythought akin to a watchs second hand ticking

                                                                                                      Is tha a thing

Second hands

Secondhand

the broken glass slid away dispersed

he ruined bonafides assembly

job one job done

                  as he was approaching he recognised that despite the panes fidgeting they were too polite

Eidgets

real deal remained standing at the head of the table

                                                       he at its foot

ball in his court

he  a simple jester

                      Well

Well, what?

I havent left havent milled away

                                  Complete your thought if you recall  In this moment the preceding

he picked up his wine glass fingers round its rim

                                                    I’ll save that for those who are interested.

Careful friend  Innarestin is ambivalent

                                            Noncommital

after1432hrs,  2sday,  30  1. 24

1134,  Thursday,  7  3. 24

Phelian  Sydura  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ms9cRDJw0tU

   really

          he couldnt help himself

struggled to get aboard a bus

driver thought he was high and was considering to not let him on the bus

                                                                             standing he swept aside the plastic shield made no bones about it

                         Listen man, if you’re high you can’t ride.

I get tha a lot

               Im not

Well, yaint stabl . .

. . No  Im not

              he made a feeble attempt at humour Kesey said youre either on the bus or you are off the bus

fell flat

the drivers glare intensified

Im sorry I have a neurological disorderhad a fall I suffer tremors  Sometimes theyre worse than others  Troubled today

driver seem unmoved

Awcomon man look in my eyes you look like youve been around the block

he jutted his jawleaned in sniffed

                                    Awright.   Get on the bus cause any trouble I’ll bounce you so fastso hard you won’t know what hit ya.

Thank you

the driver seated himself

staggering up onto the platform across from the him he fumbled with his wallet he kept it inside his sport coat

Sorry sorry  Ive a bus pass

Christ.

       Lemme.  aggravated he stoodreached over the shield pinchedplucked his jacket forth groped for the wallet

roughly  I’ve got it.

Thank you  Itll be front lefthand side

I see. 

       under his breath How ya make ends meet man?

he chuckledhe smirked

                         Funny you shoud ask  the driver swiped the card  My involuntary tremors the shaking has its benefits

tucking the wallet back into his jacket

                                        Yah. What’s that?

   Im a handsomely paid fluffer

1410,  Thursday,  30  1. 24

1022,  day-between-2-Ts,  6  3. 24

syphilis on the rise

     DUH

                unfortunately syphilis cant tell the difference between pro-life Republicans or Democrats for that matter and people who recognise the liberty of personal choice  of freedom  arent at home within confines of majority obsessed white Christian male politicians – who have put their bias prejudice hatred at the forefront of their decisions

“Last June, Pfizer, the lone U. S. manufacturer (can you say monopoly) of their injection, notified the Food and Drug Administration of an ‘impending stock out’ (thas crap – thas coercion) that it anticipated would last a year (that’s extortion). (Pfizer) blamed ‘an increase in syphilis infection rates as well as competitive shortages.’”

he was stoked

                syphilis came to mind not through his reading hearing reports but rather intertwined with laryngitis – syphilis laryngitis – perhaps the –itis endings fascinated him as he dreamed or as he woke  perhaps hypnopompiced

no matter  front an center

                             likely steering him towards the ProPublica article he later found

 

7AM,  2sday – Super Tuesday,  5  3. 24

1625,  2sday

https://www.propublica.org/article/how-federal-government-fails-stop-syphilis-babies-pregnancy?utm_source=sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=dailynewsletter&utm_content=river-links&utm_term=The%20Daily%20Digest