petite

          just a spit

blonde

        wouldnt usually attract his attention  not either

what did

           she lead with her chin

a slimpointy prow

                    a ship of selfperceived worthiness  haughty   selfcontained

he liked what he saw

hed bet no nonsense naughty

yah

     haughty rhymes with naughty

Excuse me

Yes.

   I coudnt help but notice . . .

she appreciated his notice

   he did too

1012,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  9. 23

1438,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

nine years ago  lighted from within marvelouslyoceanblue in the dark under a full Blood Moon  he killed a god fleshed as a deer

   He brought him here today

HERE

         Americans dead by Trumpvirus

he wasnt going to forget

                           he wouldnt

1,178,171  today

1,174,580  September11

     3,591 lives lost – families smashed  in 27 days 133 Americans each day

NO  he had no intentions of giving former a pass

1523,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/

In Praise of Rump

he called his Dadhed appreciate it  

                                      Heya

Hiya! What are you up to this morning?

Callin you Had something to share

Something to share with your old man?

Dad youll never be old it aint in ya youre a perpetual boy

I don’t see a boy when I look in the mirror.

No  Hes inside

                 Look inside there he is

That’s kind of you.

Not really I like to think your boys informed my boy Im as old as I feel inside   Nine

his father laughed

                     Funny you should say. I'd say I feel like a teenager, able to get away with a lot more than if I were nine.

Ah Sounds like youve given it some thought

Not really, only since you’ve said.  I like the way you think.

Mirrored minds

I . . I . . . I’m not sure I know what that means.

Whaever yad like it to mean But thasnot why I called

Yes, no, you have something to share with me.

I do

     Rump roast

   Rump roast.

                 What’s that supposed to mean?

Im redefining it

And what’s that supposed to mean?

I was at the airport flying home from our visitIm a people-watcher Not so much these days as when we were younger when everyone dressed nice a banquet then now more like a bus depot in a notsogood part of town

I hear you, a far cry from the day.

Yes

      So Im in the airport fingerscrossed  AnmyOHmy  My prayers are answeredthought of you almost immediately My first thoughts naturally were reserved for her

Dad

Ya should have seen her caboose youdave fainted Im tellinya  A meaty round ass fittight inside a greenskirt wavy thick ivoryblonde hair a braid to the small of her back  like an arrow pointing to Valhalla   Heaven  Im in Heaven

Then I thought of youMyGawd  Wha a caboose 

Then just before I lost hercrowd got in the way  a last glimpse  right flank  meaty   MyGawd the meat

Hence rump roast

Follow

   I do.  I like it a lot.

Thought yawoud  Anyway  thas all I had to say well talk soon  I love ya Dad

I love you too son. Thanks for the call.

0921,  day-between-2-Ts,  20  9. 23

1106,  Sunday,  8  10. 23

STOPhe glaredhe said abruptly interrupting conversation   You stop

I’m not stopping for a squirrel, you straddle it let be what will be will be.

Speed limits 25 in residential areasThe Law

                                               This quasi-gated community you live in is no different

You can brake You can stop

It’s a squirre . .

. . Yare retired

               Where you have to be or else life will changeutterly as we know it

Ill answer FUCKINNOWHERE

I’m wasting tim . .

. . Whackin you woudnt be a waste of time

   You’re equating me with a squirrel?

Hmmhuh

          Earthling versus earthling  Yare no better

You truly believe that a squirrel and a human being are on par?

A slug an you 

                On par

Yare fuckin ridiculous

Yare okay killin an animal thaholds you up 30seconds in your ohsomeaningful uncompromising life

                                                                                                        Ooops  Entitled oops

Privileged

   When youre able to suck your cock Ill give you a second thought In the meantimeSTOP

3PM preferred, Reggaefriday, 6  10. 23

1837,  Saturday,  7  10. 23

to himself not a hafhour in Aaah shoudnt have come   Mistake

she came up behind himtouched his shoulder

                                               Having a good time?

he turned

seeing  Not having a good time.

I shoudntve let you talk me into comin My mistake

she smiled

           You surprised me when you agreed.

I wanted to see you again  Its been awhile

Aww, you miss me.  she teased

he hafsmiledshook his head I miss you on the dailyhowever you have things to do people to see  Have your approaches been successful

I’m networking.

Advertising

tippingtouching her brow to his Networking.

Sayin it softer doesnt change what it is I understand

You do?

Yes

I watched you go up to threefour groups around the pool.

I tried

May I?

Of course

What’s trying?

I introduced myself Learned their namesIll remember theirs  they wont remember mine . .

. . You don’t know tha . .

. . Care to bet

                Go up to the last group I spoke with on the other side of the hedge seated at the picnic table Say youve forgotten my name had seen me talkin with them coud they help you out save you a wee bit of embarrassment being unablejust now unable to bring it to mind

I’m not going to do that.

Yaoughta Id take you for some change

Really?

Definitely

Nevertheless.  she smileddisarmed him with her dimples she knew what she was doing  

                                                                                               What is trying?

After introducing myself one askedthey always do What do you do?

   Oh shit . .

              her smile broke in the slightiest dimples less deep too much went on in her face at once not to look like something other than it was four cars converging on an intersection at once  hesitating who has the right of way  wha was the right way  

Nice expression baby

she disregarded that 

                       So . . what did you say?

Did

     What are you reading

Yaknow 

         I don think anybody reads anymore

So I mentioned Jungs Red Book Ballards Crash Winslows Winter of Frankie Machine Katznelsons Fear Itself had to mention Graebers Wengrows The Dawn of Everything

I said A few Im currently reading

Still waters

I excused myself to freshen my drink

                                       Might think Im a souse as I downed my whiskey as I walked away Feel a bit naughty guzzling RedBreast

her smile broke out the life rafts Joe, Joe, Joe . .

. . Epizeuxis  tough act watching her smile return as her head had slowly began to shake

                                                                                               Don shake your head baby

Not important

I was humoured

Right. Doesn’t take you but just a little.

Yah I appreciate you bringing mesharing your network  Adore the hosts  RedBreast  Didnt see tha comin

I may have.

Seriously

Yes. They’re very generous.

I sought them immediately after the bartender said it was one of the whiskeys whiskys  poured me threefingers

I liked them

              They didnt ask wha I did

Gratefully

bout3 preferred,  Reggaefriday,  6  10. 23

1353,  Saturday,  7  10. 23

Jesse Ahmann  cellist  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDqJFXaFLzc

. . . squatting on an ottomanWOKEUP

he could have been more gentle with himself

                                                but

it was him afterall

                    anif he couldnt abuse himself then he certainly couldnt abuse others

tit for tat he wished his nickname were Tat for Patric rather than Butch

                                                                           Butch  Really  Where did that come from

he caught his parents at once in the kitchen talking

they looked puzzled

that wasnt encouraging

                         Well  Butch   Whered tha come from

his mother cleared her voicehis father spoke 

                                               When you were born . . you looked like a Butch, a tough cuss no nonsense.

But.  his mother spoke

                         We wouldn’t have that on your birth certificate, Patric.

   An Patric not ending with a K   Not clever

his father laughed 

                    We weren’t trying to be clever. Patric’s was a corner tavern in the old neighbourhood. 

Bucktown.

Yes.

      When no one knew where your grandfather was he could usually be found there, throwing darts, shooting pool, making a few buckskeeping things interesting, nothing serious. Your grandfather was amiable if he was anything.

And decorated

Yes.  Decorated. Respected. Kept his word.

A really good man. his mother said  Like your father.

Apple doesnt fall far from the tree

Or a peach. his father laughed Cuz, Patric, you’re a real peach.  he laughed more heartilyhis mother joining in a real couple of characters

 

squatting on an ottoman was hissed in a very strange voice in his dream hafexpected to find a serpent coiled to strikeADIOS

              not ever had a door hit him in the ass on the way out or snakebit

easier ways to wake

not ejected

           he was out capital O capital U capital T  OUTwasnt stickinround to find out what emitted that soundsentence didnt sound appealing

                                         and the dream preceding it he didnt touch it  whenever he was in a labyrinthnatural or constructed he let himself be played figured one day itll be revealed why labyrinths mazes were so prolific

had an inkling

revealed

death at its enddying in his sleep

                                            foreverdreaming

AM,  Saturday,  7  10. 23

1122,  Saturday

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”

                                                                                      Marilyn Monroe       

he couldnt say where he found the quoterecovering it this morning from a hasty untimed undated notation in a Canson Sketch pad his daughter thoughtfully gave him for Christmas in 1999 she had written on its first page  The only boundaries we have are in form. There are no obstacles in thought.

                                                                       a second fantastic quote

on the face of the notebook featuring a sketch of a hatted man in a forest clearing sketching an eight-point buck in profile above it he printed undated untimed “Where are they? Where are they?” Dylan Thomas’ last coherent words beneath that he wrote his last incoherent words were probably more important they may have been his attempts in a newstrangewonderful tongue to describe unearthly visions images artfully beautifully brushed on an undulating fog of approaching annealing death

                                   perhaps

since a boy hed been impressedappreciative of hard gems such as they slivers shards chunks that when theyre held  turnedslowly deftly in different coloured lights intensities magnifications imaginations  beyond what the words said meant their MORE their DEPTH  poetry 

                                         incoherency   to be divined

Thank you for this morning, Marilyn.

1259,  Reggaefriday,  6  10. 23

1024,  Saturday,  7  10. 23

after a brief conversation with his brotherhis wife pulled him away for something that couldnt wait

                                                                                                         that would be the extent of them talking

a family gathering

it was huge

the hellosgoodbyes were designated

lotsa luck in-between

too many people

too little time

after their brief conversation  others

after all the goodbyes

after sharing a nightcap with his Dad  always Drambuie

after his Dad went to bed

                            he thoughtspooled out  considered his brother was a cremator not that hed be a death row prisonerbut what if he knew he was to have his last meal

what would it be

he ponderedhad another Drambuie scribbled down some ideassome fantastic most modest   realistic

put his pen down on the paper

went into the livingroom pulled out the sleeper sofa made the bed

did his toiletry

opened the window across the endtable for fresh air and going to sleep mused over the list he made

in the morning he woke stripped the bed folded the bedding closed the sleeper dressed made coffee

he poured himself a cup and sat at the kitchen table  mused over the list  crossedout some ideas

Good morning, son. he was in his robe pajamas slippers

Excellent mornin Dad Im with you he got up from the table crossed the kitchen to hug and kiss him Yasleep well

I did, thank you.  You made coffee.

I did Hope its the way ya like

Smells good, smells the way mine does.

Thas a positive Why don ya sit I brought the paper in have it at your place  Ill bring you a cup

Don’t mind if I do. Any good news?

I didnt get into the paper thought Id leave the honor to you

So I can tell you.

Exactly Why read if youll tell me as you read

                                                 he always stayed with his father when he visited

this like the nightcap was what they didhad done for years

tradition

          yammered across the tablethe same table he sat at as a boy with his father on weekends after finishing his paper route they were the only two up rest of the family still fast asleep

they prattled

 

What time is it? his father asked

No idea but the coffees gone

Time to get dressed. Would you like to go out for breakfast?

Woud think its nearly lunch Dad

Would you like to go out for lunch, my treat.

We can do tha sure he stoodcrossed to his fathers side of the table and helped him up once he was standing he went to hug him  Not too hard son, I don’t want to wet us. they laughed he hugged him gentlykissed him again  I love ya Dad Sure is nice to be with you again

I love you too, son, it is real nice to have you home again.

 

he sat down again after his father left the kitchen  

had halfcup cold coffee

sipped it as he went down the list again

he pickedup his pen emphatically circledcircledcircled the meal chub of Liver sausage carawayseed rye bread onion horseradish almond peanut M & Ms quartcarton whole milk

1054,  Sunday,  17  9. 23

1221,  Reggaefriday,  6  10. 23

Max Richter  Written on the Sky  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VonndzPDoYM

somebodys got to do it

think about all the things somebodys got to do that you wouldntcouldnt be paid to do 

theyre willing to pay you handsomely

                                         but nothings that handsome

smacks of . . . I wouldnt have sex with you if we were the last people on Earth

How long you been doing that

                               he was talking to his brother they livethe entire country apart hes makes trips to return to visit  the price exacted of having been the only sibling to leave   rest of the family live within an hour of each other

Its been a long time yah

I’ve been doing it twenty-three years.

he said it like someone whos been incarcerated and counting down the daysknows precisely  soon  so near yet so far but soon

Youre called a cremator

I don’t know. Is that what I’m called?

Its wha you do

I do. I didn’t know what I did had a name.

 

somebodys got to do it

0847,  Sunday,  17  9. 23

1055,  Reggaefriday,  6  10. 23

Deconstruct the government!

                               yaps Bannon

what makes him yap?

the formers yanking him

no surprise 

             this has been the Republican point of view since Day One of the formers administration it hit the ground running  recall his Inaugural American Carnage speech

it wasnt that long ago

he remembers like it was yesterday

                                        maybe because he takes his vitamins daily

they offset what he calls American Amnesia

 

1951,  Thursday,  5  10. 23

1015,  Reggaefriday,  6  10. 23

https://www.npr.org/2017/03/06/518403153/trump-has-many-jobs-unfilled-is-he-deconstructing-the-administrative-state

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2017/jan/20/donald-trump-transition-of-power-president-first-speech

https://www.c-span.org/video/?c4650187/president-trump-delivers-inaugural-address

https://www.politico.com/story/2017/01/full-text-donald-trump-inauguration-speech-transcript-233907

bro was convinced he could persuade people

                                                . . . the Art he enunciated of Persuasion

Yare no artist buddy

But I am.

Pray tell

         Times as they are people are beyond persuasion

I refuse to believe that.

Adamant huh

Yes.

You truly believe through reasoning argument you can change someones mindmake them do something they don want to do

Yes.

Works only if they want their mind changed

But then I would have, you see?

he was getting cocky

   Awright Lets say we take onehunred people one at a time have no idea how long thawoud take Itd takeyoud have to concede a considerable substantial amount of time given tha yare tryin to convincechange their mind . .

. . Reasoning with them, yes.

Reasoning

Of course.

Ofcourse so   of the hunred people ya laboured over how many do you believe believe mindya   how many do you think yacoud persuade

Of one hundred people. he muttered

                                          I’d say . .

. . Not say believe

   I believe I could convince . . three people . .

. . Of one hunred Three

You think more?

I woudnt waste my timethas a horrid return on investment

                                                                    Woudntya agree

You don’t think it’d be worthwhile changing three . .

. . Three percent of people NO

                               Lemme ask you

How often do you think someone can change your mind an because I always saythas an absolute no matter whaya think about absolutes  I always say exactlyprecisely where I stand so when I askya ya know Im not settinya up for a fall 

    Because I speak from a place of knowledgeif I don know I cannotdonot participate I do not say  An because I know me neither you or anyone can convince me to change my mind once it is  set

Three percent of the time

I don’t know.   I’d have to give it some thought.

Because yare thoughtful

I am.

Don go off halfcocked

No. I try not.

                 But think . . if I can convince three percent, to use your terminology . .

. . STOPnot my terminology math three of a hunred is three percent

Please don’t interrupt me.

he cocked his head

Makin like a dog Proceed

You wont interrupt me?

Don’t you think three percent would be a worthwhile start?

No

    Not at the expense of time lost

Whatif the three I convinced then each convinced three from among the ninetyseven I couldn’t? That’s twelve percent.

May I

What?

Speak

Go ahead.

I didnt want to interrupt your train of thought Once its left the track it rarely finds its way back

I’ll remember, I’ve set momentum into play . . twelve percent.

If  A hypothetical

                     Id say implausible improbable

But not impossible.

Yareally using an absolute in defence

his lip curled like a dogs

                            I misspoke. Improbable.

Unlikely

          The ninetyseven have already heard your argument The three woud be spinning their wheels wasting time

Today

          Persuasion does not exist

That’s not very optimistic.

It isnt

       I keep mine to use when its reasonable justified   Its too valuable to waste

1600ish,  Reggaefriday,  22  9. 23

1359,  Thursday,  5  10. 23

   the conversation

“Violent rhetoric and violence is as intrinsic to fascism as free speech is to democracy.” 

                                                                                              Rick Stengel

Democratic Party v. Republicans its not a party  an equivalence cannot be invoked

Deadline: White House  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pg8GlCshXjY

makes him sickhe shakes his head

he grewup steeped in politics

this is not politics any longer

353preferred,  Thursday,  5  10. 23