he finally made it across the parking lot to the market the wholewhile reminding himself of being a kid 

                                                                                                            How ridiculous

he knewsaw earlier it was parceledcould smell the lot had been anwas being blacktopped

he thought he provided his approach a wide berth 

                                                       just not wide enough 

he got stuck crossing a portion prepped before he arrived

but doable

            an he didnt want to backtrack to the main street

the prep if he had to guess hed call a crack filler 

                                                     sounded as crass as blacktop wasWHAT  No feathers 

hed look it up when he got home

crossing the lot he had to avoid the sticky hot crack filler it wasnt like if he stepped in it he could scrap it off his sole or dig it out wedged at his heel with a stick like dogshit

OhNo oh no nono

                   Step on a crack, break your momma’s back. 

he excelled at the game as a youngster

was a proficient Jack Be Nimble Jack Be Quick  

   then at homeclean an white as driven snow he found that the product was called  Rubberised Asphalt Crack Filler

Duhhuh

         Keep it simple fool

0920,  Thursday,  27  7. 23

1557,  Thursday

there was a productmarl in the brown grass beside the sidewalk 

                                                                     notoriously homeless productmarl 

characteristically stereotypically 

                                  they tended to be slobs happy to let others cleanup after them happy to let others hose off looseshits they left on sidewalks stairs steps 

                                                  or maybe they were comedians performance artists  hoboes no more 

the thatch of crap jumbled together caught his eye despite reading Juneteenth as he walked

it was congealed by something he couldnt see 

what he couldnt see he didnt touch

there were two large Jack-in-the-Box cold drink cups could drown a baby in one shredded translucent plastic lids cigarette butts ash four lottery tickets tornup 

                                                Hey, brother, can you spare a dime (for a bite to eat a cup of coffee)?

has degenerated Hey, man, spare a buck (for a pack of cigarettes lottery tickets or Ill find out where you live and shit on your Welcome mat)?

0915,  Thursday,  27  7. 23

1517,  Thursday

Contortionist

I balled a contortionist in the Yukon 

I can still taste her potted plants whenever I smell warm terra cotta broken glass beet greens

WHAT the fuck she was doing in the Yukon or what the fuck she was DOING in the Yukon is beyond me 

                                                                                                              I didnt ask

She may have been there like me some thing of a desperate history  a beginning

                                                                                      a tamed wild thing   at heart wild hanging by a bent hempthread wild

Her name was Jane a plain Jane so simple  then some thing realised then radically unsimple 

                                                                                                    Jane named asif it sought to hide that some thing

Since I have paid keen attention to simple 

I was astonished how her backbone worked

I wished mine worked like hers

 

She was a grocery cashierher math as fast as the gawddamned machine except for calculating taxes 

                                                                                                           Quick brown eyes a fast pleasant smile her teethyes ofcourse  uneven 

At the bar I didnt ask what she did she said I didnt ask

                                                           But for Christssake turned out this plain Jane working a cashiers line was fuckin priceless

She asked what I did

   I said I think I think shit youd think was hard to think up But not for me 

                                                                                 Thinkin wanders in like a hungry vagrant a nose full of smell finds free chowlines for soup and sandwich an doesnt say Grace leaves before Church words begin to rattle addle and isnt concerned about the watchful eyes that believe it owes them to hear what they have to say because of the charity they afforded it  The soup   The cheese sandwich 

                                                                              That isnt charity Expecting something in return for something willingly offered  Dont give if you want something back 

So. You’re witty?

I aint witless

Ah.

I smiled   fast became an eyes sprung wideopen witness

I ordered another round of drinks

And another

And another

For a skinny girl she could hold her liquor 

                                             But in the end I was bigger than she was

Later that night she slept like a baby

It was pleasant to lie beside her watch her purse her lips watch her eyes move behind her eyelids wonder what she saw  It was pleasant her occasional snortsher mumble of disconnected words like answers to a crossword puzzle in her roulette mind  

When she woke in the morning roused by the smell of coffee brewing she stretched a stretch Id never seen or imagined could be stretched

Her eyes fluttered

She looked at me

She mewed good morning

I stroked her headher sleepy head I stroked her wildpressed hair groaned good morning

Hmmmm. 

           she smiled closed her eyes again

I kissed her on the forehead  Youre still drunk  

She touched the tip of her nose with her tongue I’m still drunk.

Coffee

Tea or me.  she didnt open her eyes 

                                       You’re witty, you’re supposed to say coffee, tea or me. she stretched her stretch again opened her eyes looked into mine

   You

Me?  Tarzan.  Her body sifted towards me

Look whos witty  Yes you Jane

I like the way you think.

 

The coffee burned

8ishness,  4th of July, 2007

1410,  Thursday,  27  7. 23

hysterical -- another indictment coming tomorrow

Hmmm  formers hysterical

918AM on Truth Social @ realDonaldTrump 

                                             We’ll (who?) have fun on the stand with all these people (who?) that say the Presidential Election wasn’t rigged and stollen (one l). THE TRIAL OF THE CENTURY!!!

                                                                                           followed in a heartbeat at 920

PROSECUTORIAL (mighty big word for such a small mind) MISCONDUCT!!!

hysterical 

           he looked it up 

hyster-  the uterus  or before a vowel hyster-  combining form  indicating uterus

thereby cinches tight any argument adverse to stop him from calling the former a cunt

   hes a CUNT

1810,  day-between2-Ts,  26  7. 23

2055,  day-between-2-Ts

Murder by Death  Boy Decide  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eH0yngC7xnA 

crept up on him last night as he was watched politickles on-line 

                                                                   several times he was distractedbadgered by side-bars that promisedadvertised series as bingeworthy – to be devoured all at once

Hmmmnot his cup of tea

                          he grewup under a weekly regimentweekly programmed television series  Stay Tuned Next Week  Same Bat-Time Same Bat-ChannelOR  perhaps it was a matter of being a product of cliffhangers bred by an pair of authentic cliffhangers who weekly attended the Bijou Rialto Orpheum Gem  also absorbed weekly radio programmes

              not fodder of latter generations vehemently demanding I WANT IT NOW    

Patience motherfuckers patienceWOW

pausing a moment 

                   either his brain interrupting or a sect wellknown to him of Mariachi who assigned themselves the responsibilitynecessity of immediately responding to his outloud assault Motherfucker Motherfuckers  ears prickingup asif struck by lightning

bingeworthy

bulimia

          Hey man howbout nervosa bulimia nervosa sounds sexy

NO

   Opens the door for anorexia not in kind not sexy 

Well stick with bingeworthy bulimia 

                                     Its not good for ones health to lack self discipline will power discretion stoicism or howbout good olfashion moderation 

Everything in moderation including moderation 

                                                  Ohshit he slipped Oscar Wilde in on us again

O MY goofy Mariachi

2114,  2sday,  25  7. 23

1103,  day-between-2-Ts,  26  7. 23

Man, it’s been forever. How long you gonna drag your feet?

   Im sorry  Regarding

Please. Nuanced absolute.

Yare funny jump in you havent said

I wasn’t asked.

Not thathas stopped you before 

                                   Ive got other things on my mind

What?

Well I learned today isnt ordinary

It’s Frida . .

. . And

Reggae Frida . .

. . And 

Lookin a tad flummoxed  Irate man

And ain’t saying much.

And aint saying nothing

                          Its a question  Whaelse is today

   I don’t know. 

Hint

Sure, what the hell, I’ll play.

I thought they were Hallmark creations to move product I was wrong   Theyre legit

Gotya by the short hairs

Yado.

My daughter informed me

                           Today is also National Barber Mental Health Awareness Day National Man Ray Day

National Pizza Party Day National Endangered Species Day to my mind oughta be a standalone  National Bike to Work Day National Defense Transportation Day Each was submitted by a legislator an passing Congress went to the Presidents desk where he proclaims it is a National Day in writing Those I mentioned blow my mind  Woud think they have better things to do I didnt know when we elect people to Washington they can submit national days 

Thas something else

   Maybe  thas nuanced absolute 

Id be absolutely hardpressed to create a perpetual national day   Mebbe  National He Doesnt Satisfy Her Buy Her a Vibrator Day 

              Nuanced absolutely same thing as nuanced absolute

   

Reggaefriday afternoon,  19  5. 23

1535,  2sday,  25  7. 23

Peter Navarro is a kook 

                         Kookie, Kookie (Lend Me Your Comb)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iiYj9Ods4OQ

hes whined 

             his September Fifth cant come soon enough

he touted what Republicans called the Green Bay sweep 

                                                            “We spent a lot of time lining up over 100 congressmen, including some senators. It started out perfectly. At 1 p.m. Gosar and Cruz did exactly what was expected of them. It was a perfect plan. And it all predicated on peace and calm on Capitol Hill. We didn’t even need any protestors, because we had over 100 congressmen committed to it.”

Lets charge the over 100

1733,  2sday,  25  7. 23

https://rollcall.com/2023/05/30/judge-sets-navarro-contempt-of-congress-trial-for-september/#:~:text=A%20federal%20judge%20on%20Tuesday,2021%2C%20attack%20on%20the%20Capitol.

https://www.dailykos.com/stories/2023/7/25/2183282/-Trump-ally-warns-of-second-Civil-War-if-they-can-t-get-away-with-coup-attempt

https://www.thedailybeast.com/trump-advisor-peter-navarro-lays-out-how-he-and-steve-bannon-planned-to-overturn-bidens-electoral-win

"Because."

everyone has a story to tell

some have more

he told stories all his life

told stories to answer things for himself 

                                          things that for one reason or another when he asked were either not worth the time to explain to him or there wasnt enough – never enough time – to explain

so  stymied

             remembering all the times the answer of convenience was or efficiency was  “Because.” he refused to ever answer a question with “Because.”

if he didnt know he was determined theyd discover it together

if he knew he explained himself exhaustively or until they tired of learning    

because “Because.” is not an answer

2sday,  27  11. 01

1455,  2sday,  25  7. 23

. . . swallowtail . . .

Huh

     Whadyasay

Swallowtail. A swallowtail butterfly . . over there . in the flower bed.

Oh 

    Saw it  Thought you said Quetzalcoatl which I cant begin to tell you wha it triggeredyes I can got me lookinround for his sidekick  Xototl  the dogheaded god the pair heading down to Mictlan thas hell underground to gather bones anoint em with Quizs blood give birth to men who presently inhabit the earth Me   I doubt you 

                                                                                               Was a silly syllable longer

Though tha worked for Chesterfield 

   What the hell you talking about?

Stopyou were alive though apparently unswabbed by Quetzalcoatl the swallowtail  One  silly  millimeter   longer 

Millimeter. How’d that enter this conversation about a butter . .

. . Free association

                     Yaoughta try it Mikey  Youll like it

Mikey?

Associate man 

                Or are ya braindead  ya make me wonder sometimes snapped his fingers three times Gotta be quick in these parts stranger

he watched his mouth struggle with something 

                                                  Spit it out

   Enlighten me.

I cant tell how desperate reading is to impart knowledge or play with facts not playloose with them I alone can fix it he shoudve been fixedpithed longtime ago coud have sat drooling beside Rosemary Joe was a piece of shit twentytwo years old  spent sixtyfour years institutionalised a botched lobotomy asif thas a legit procedure lost her ability to walk an talk My  thas a fine kettle of fish Oliver woud say to Stan Laurel not shabby  passed away in Santa Monica a better place to be alive than dead I must say  Ed Grimley Martin Short whos awfully short but taller than your memory your zipability to recall  seemingly   anything 

                                   Seewha a Quetzalcoatl in a flower pot gets ya  derision  indignation  I Got to Be Me

Sing it Sammy

afternoon reggaefriday,  19  5. 23

1201,  Monday,  24  7. 23

101  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3QJnGUglTRw

Life cereal  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLQ0LZSnJFE

Sammy Davis, Jr.  I Got to Be Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oaalq3RYAyw

Trumpvirus still a killer

                          unfortunately the average number today is worse than the last time he looked thirteen days ago

as of 24July  1,169,352 Americans have died

as of 11July  1,168,533 had died

   the difference  819 

                         an average of 63 deaths a day 

may not want to know it 

                            too damn bad

he didnt peddle Ignorance

1536,  Monday,  24  7. 23

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/ 

he mumbled to himself 

she was familiar

                    hed mumble a bit longer then say something usually odd  made it worthwhile sticking around

she didnt ask What? 

                       eventually hed disgorge  blow soon enough

Yes Thas it isnt it

What’s that?

Im not going to beno one should  Im not going to be who Im not

she dug it when he resorted to double negatives 

                                                   meant he thought hard before saying

No. she agreed Everyone should be who they are.

Anyet

        Why are so many not It seems a struggle  a struggle to be who they are not

   What prompted this?

Thinkin  Beinme beinmindful  thoughtfulHA beinfull of shit 

                                                                  Takem to task ya wont convince em    

Still waters run deep?

Wasnt I mumbling

You were.

Then evidently not deep enough

Can I take a swing?

he admired her  wished he possessed a scintilla a sliver of her keen perceptionability to intuit 

                                                                                                    Please

Knock it out of the park

Florida.

          The benefits of a slave.

11PM,  Sunday,  23  7. 23

1015,  Monday,  24  7. 23

personal benefits of slavery  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6BqGKF1RV7E

Seven O five mourn a fly 

                                            who mourns a fly 

he did   briefly

hed seen it last night on the floor in the corner by the cupboard where he kept Pyrex and CorningWare casseroles

a black spot

walking over to it october and shy hot on his heels it shivered  he thought it a spiderhe was allabout spiders

not wanting the cats to eat it he reversed fieldbacked away they stepped with him turned around at the lightswitch flipped it Off and exited the kitchen

this morning he was surprised to see the spot on the floor

he walkedup on it stooped realised it was a fly 

picking it up he placed it in his palm and took it outside  

                                                           it wasnt a house fly 

he set it down in the sun in the flower bed

returned it to nature to where it was conceived

not a praying man he simply said over its tiny body 

                                                       Fare thee well

  

Monday,  24  7. 23 

Murder by Death  Pillars of Salt  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I7z-ZIoIwx4

shook his head

realised he was holding his breath

he exhaled

Man you boggle my mind 

                              Do you listen when you speak to the words coming out of your mouth

What? What did I say?

Wha did you sayyou said tell me   Please  Repeat yourself

   Ill tell you this, whenever you start up with me, get going, it doesnt feels like a conversa . .

. . It isnt I agree it becomes an interrogation I cant believe you think wha yare sayin is wha you mean

So correct me if Im wrong

Correct you, how so?

he felt his breath wanting to stop again No no 

                                                   Are you really bragging about conference standings tournaments  Jaysus games   Freakin games you lost

We played well, I played well.

Thas not wha you said

Has it occurred to you you’re not hearing what I said correctly?

Were conversing in English I speakada language

                                                     Yare bragging about second place

Hell yeah. Double-elimination tourneys, one of saytwo, two dozen teams, place second. That’s an accomplishment.

Winning it is an accomplishment 

                                   On a bio a resume youd tout brag I finished second Gimme who finished first please 

Arya truly not following my logic 

It was an accomplishment

   Ah 

        Then yare okayyoull wear a tshirt Ill have made for you  I FINISHED SECOND

No.

No

I wouldn’t wear it, save your money.

A bumper sticker

No.

If no do me a favour

                      Quit bragging to me about coming in second  Please pretty please

 

WE’RE #2!  WE’RE #2!  WE’RE #2!

1708,  Reggaefriday,  7  7. 23

1215,  Sunday,  23  7. 23

I dig hershes a swinging clit

he gulped What?

Yaheard me 

              Akin to a swinging dickthough unlike her I dislike them She doesnt think shes hot shit she is

I’m confused. You have to be more explicit.

Youll get it immediately  Sigma 

                                    Be you a college fratboy or be you not You informed me

Ah . . yes I recall. I called you tha . .

. . I took offence

You did. Surprised me.

Yare not one to give compliments Not my way

Might have been a weak moment.

Possibly 

          Took me unawares Had to look it up when I got home tha evening

You remember?

Who are you talkin todo I remember  Do you

Sketchy. Remind me.

  Arya yankin my chain

I think I remember, you do obviously.

Lone wolf Outside the hierarchy Equal perhaps exceeds the Alpha male  Swinging dick

Yes.

      So you’re friend is a lone she-wolf.

She is 

        Ridiculous the things we have in common

So are you dating.

Too late for tha

What do yo mean?

We fell in friendship 

                      An I aint risking tha Shes my girl friend 

Girl friend. As opposed to girlfriend.

Yes

I’ve not had one.

You have not 

              One of your many unfortunate shortcomings  Note I didnt say failures 

I coud have

   

1607,  reggaefriday,  7  7. 23

1241,  Saturday,  22  7. 23

Oblique Occasions  Smoking Kills  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_9lqayFomQ

What’s with the puss?

Aah Showin on my facehuh

Yes. Can’t exactly make it out, disappointment, disgust, anger . . something’s stirring.

Yah  very good 

                  Damn near spot on all those feeling manhandling me Thankgawd Im not black Idve been put down or lockedaway long ago  I really relish my white entitlement 

                                                            Toss of the dice  Why I don gamble    Ive won

Jaysus.                                                                         

Anyawanna know whas nuts Its not really tha big a dealfrankly Its something I took for grantedwhich I usually don do   I shoud have seen the shitwriting on the wall

SHIT writing?

Yah Markets mens room

                            Youll remember some slob nuked itsmeared feces bout hafyear ago  

Oh Christ! looked like he was going to retch Don’t remind me . .

. . An you didnt even witness it 

                                 Unfuckinbelievable  he rolled his head between his shoulders  Un Fuckin Believable  

I ought to have seen the shitwriting on the walls 

An then the gloryhole partit . .

. . I remember I remember. they chortled 

                                           

Yah someone yanks it off the wall 

                                       Whas the point vandalising a bathroom

I’ve no idea. No skin in the game.

Too bad they werent caught 

                              Then skin cock in the gears

Likely corporate's taught employees to not engage such individuals. Lawsuits.

Theres right an wrong Deface spoil something ya need to be defaced spoiled

You’d take the law into your hands?

When laws absent Id detain

                              Whatever however they dictate they want to be detained

Careful. You’ll get yourself in trouble.

Whadid Elijah say

Elijah? The Hebrew prophet?

Elijah Cummings quoting John Lewis Good trouble

                                                        Speak up speak out get in the way Get in good trouble necessary trouble help redeem the soul of America  You rather profess duck an cover turn a blind eye

I don’t profess . .

. . Then wha

I try to steer clear, I don’t go looking for trouble.

No 

     But sometimes it finds you Then wha

I think you know what.

                         I’m not you.

So youd leave it to me others of my ilk

If you want . .

. . Not want its not want Need  Following the compass I was raised by

That was a different time.

Thas an excuse 

   I’m not you, I wasn’t raised like you.

An excuse  Nonetheless returning to the shitwriting on the wall the expression on my face 

                                                                                               I shoud have seen it coming  So now like a schoolchild Excuse me I have go to the bathroom I have to find a market employee to unlocked the door enter its pushbutton code 

Schlage

Schlage?

Pay attention to details Maker of the lock

                                        JOY

1PM,  Saturday,  8  7. 23

1122,  Saturday,  22  7. 23