29.5.23


Kahrist 
         that crap always got his attentiontugged on the rag of his ire particularly when they couldnt back into a parking space cleanlywasting other peoples time with their ineptness
                                                                  But hey, the World revolves around me. 
Ill revolve you 
               he caught the calamity out of the corner of his eye as he walked and readlifting his eyes to glancetake in the lay of the land
                   some yahoo in a late-model silver Subaruknew that only because a couple of family members had sipped the KoolAidwent away from Toyota was making a showtrying to park it screwed it up so badly that people waiting in either direction began honking their horns he rarely honked histhe sound rasped at his nerves rather than honk he preferred a rocket launcher but that upgrade wasnt available yet 
                                                            had he been waiting on this schmo from Yiddish shmok penis fool prick hedave rocketed him

he stopped walkingput his finger in the book to keep his place

he waitedwanted to see this cretin for Real get out of the clown car 

   PARKed
 
            the traffic jam in the lot quickly cleared
whoever  sat tight  likely fearful someone might be lingering to brain them
   finally they got out an walked around the front of the SubaruHOLY SHIT spitting image of Birtman a kid he knew in grade school  I’m Zeke, Zeke Fellows. thats how he introduced himself  turns out they were in the same classroom  David, David Birtman.   Here.  
                                 the guy walked the same way splayfootedduckfooted it was a crime to see David try to run pitiful he couldnt run for his life   probably why he ate his old mans service revolver put an exclamation on what a piece of shit Davids old man was a cop nonetheless   a cop

   the Desk Sergeant lived next door to a friend 
they were friendlyplayed catch in his buddys backyard when his dad threw a barbecue 

playing ball couplethree months later after Davids suicide he casually pumped him  where the old man livedheard he lived in a neighbouring city   No no, in order to serve ya have to live in the community. He’s over off Home, can’t miss the place, has a black lawn jockey holding a lantern to light the walk leading to the front door.   

Know it  

Yeah, kinda hard to miss.

a big tan brick house bucks  somebody croaked for him to afford it

he hid in bushesin the backyard saw headlights play on the doublewide garage doors he didnt usually park it inside unless it was inclement weather didnt lock it either as he walked around behind the car towards the back door where he hidtossed a rockstruck the garage old man turned to the noisehe was on himstink on shitsideswiped the back of his head with a stump iron pipe old man went down in a heapCOLD no harm nothing inside his head anyways he broke his legs an for the fuck of itfor David he broke his hand too he wouldnt run David down wouldnt beat David 
   he wished David had said

queer to have suppressed memories return stare him dead in the face
   doppelganger duckwalked into the market

he began walkingtook his finger from between the pages an began reading again through an evaporating image of Davids face as he remembered him                     
1500,  reggaefriday,  26  5. 23
1228,  Monday – Memorial Day,  29  5. 23

28.5.23


not comfortingNo  not at all 
                             not that he was looking for comfort it rolledup on him abruptly 
thats what reading and walking flung at his feet 
                                                    not that hed tripfall over it was agile like a cat
the paragraph concluded 
                           “Every step traverses death.” 

OHthank you Cormac McCarthy 

his book The Passenger 
                         “Every step . . .” isnt a thing to read while walking 
he knew

plenty of miles have passed underfoot with scarcely a stumble catching his toe

incredulous How do you do that?!

short answer Practise

long story only literature was allowed in his parents home not comicbooksHardy Boys ducked a bullet only literature 
James Baldwins Another Country did not prove to be literature anif a black writer wasnt at home in his parents house 
fuckNO science fiction 
                       so he kept paperbacks in the garage that his dad wouldnt keep his car in because he thought itd fall any day
              an rather than riding his bicycle to a friends he grabbed a canvas bag – as he uses today – tossed books in it to read going an returning

practise makes perfect

he wasnt perfect

but every book he learned was banned he sought a copy and read 
                                                                       they have formed who he is 

an he is untroubled offending anyone because few have the depth an breadth of his unbridledfreed reading experience

   obscenities have made him the man he is today

1510,  Sunday,  28  5. 23
2023,  Sunday


he climbed back into bed as gently as he could so he wouldnt wake her  he woke her
sonofabitch 
            her mind once kickstarted went millionmiles an hourthings coursedflung through it through her big beautiful questing braintoo sharp for her own good  was tough to curbto quiet its inertia

Huhwha . what?   Ssssh sorry baby go back to sleep   What . . what’sah . ahwrong?   Nothinbaby   Whaatswrong . you okay?   Yes close your eyes go back to sleep Ill rub your fanny until ya do   Sumptin’s wrong.   Got the night trots thasall   Nitrous?   he chuckled Wheres tha from No love night trots   Nitrous. Oxide. Tha’s funnyyou okay?   I am he suppressed laughing she was killing him   Why nitrous oxide?   Not tha night trots shouldnt have had the hot Italian sausage but I know you like them 

he started rubbing her backher fanny Ssssh go back to sleep Ill tell you in the morning

Morning.

Yes in the morning baby

In the morning.

   Yes 



her breathing became deeprhythmic
 
                                            Motherfuck  another nitrous

AM,  Saturday,  27  5. 23
                                                               1137,  Sunday,  28  5. 23


wetter the better went off the rails
Is tha a thing 
              then in his head he heard his daughter mock him Whenever you wonder if something’s a thing Papa . . it’s a thing. 
Jesus 
       looked it up  Yah
though he knew it by another name embalmed specimen  his high school biology teachercant remember his name offhand   aahMr. Demarestknew itd kick in kept specimens in an humongous glass an oak display case he taught at the same Chicago school in the same classroom for better than forty yearsrumoured since the school was built in 1915 students taking horse and wagons to get there  

   wet preservation 
like a gleefully little girl Preetty!  patting her hands together in excitement 


its different when the earthling curled inside the glass or an organ isnt a scientific specimen but a pet

Roy Rogers had his golden palomino Silver stuffed his german shepherd Bullet too  his wife Dale Evans survived him likely compelledincentivised by the fact he might have her stuffed

   No
         he didnt want that for indie

particularly since hed be dry ashes in an urn

0954,  Sunday,  28  5. 23

27.5.23


Theresa the waitress took their orders

he hadnt been to a restaurant in a goodly while and was far more interested in talking with friends who he hadnt seen in years than looking through the menu

one deviated from her usual didnt order the breakfast burrito 
                                                                      so he did 
Theresa one thing please could you ask the kitchen to make the eggs as wet as possible  To understand I usually eat eggs raw

Raw? he could see her stomach flip in her face

Yes thas a tell  Ask the cook to cook them as little as possible 
                                                                  Howbout this refrain  The wetter the better
his galpal sitting beside him rapped him in the ribs 
                                                      You really just say that? 
Theresa straightened up smirked 
                                   The wetter the better.

he yesd Theresa an to his cohort I did  True yah

Oh my God.

Theresa smiled at her He took the words out of my mouth.

Quit girls were talkinbout my eggsjust talkinbout how I like my eggs  Wet

Right. they rolled their eyeslaughed together

the gal across the table was clueless 
                                       What's this all about? 
How I prefer my eggs

Yeah. sarcastically How he likes his eggs.

Ya really gotta say it like tha

So how did you order your eggs?

Wet

Ugh.

I second her ugh.

An neither one of you are eating my burrito
                                             Be grateful I didnt order eggs sunnyside up Theresa  make sure they jiggle when you walk 

they looked at one another

The eggs jiggle while Theresa walks

almost over each other Well . . she certainly has plenty to jiggle had you ordered sunnyside up

She certainly do
                 Though Id hate like hell to tip her in the manner or place Id tip a stripper
OH MY GOD!

Ladies  Churchgoers   Each better hit up the confessional Sunday

noon,  Thursday,  25  5. 23
1939,   Saturday,  27  5. 23


euphemistically 
                  he was thinking
in reality
            he was sitting on the pot

one can think or can read

likely fourfive in the morning his second trot


Shaddup Lemealone

Let you aloneO Hell  NO 
                           We woke youinterrupted youyour lucid dreaming so ya didnt soil the bed  Say thank you 
Thank you 
            Though you had a hand in this
NO  No
        You chose to eat hot Italian sausage whichya know doesnt agree with your system thas on you  Quis custodiet ipsos custodes 
Not now 
Yes  Now
           Juvenal Roman poet  not how yare acting  Juvenile 

I knowI know it Who will guard the guards themselves

Was is up to you 
                  Our job when you violate your tenet is not to stop you but have your back when notif things go awry 
Wake you so you dont shit the bed  You are welcome 


he shook his head   it was hot not pleasant Thank you 
                                                           I did hear yas muttering 
Yes Yare a big boy Accountable 
                                  We giggled when you crossed your fingers an thought Mebbe not this time We love your fatal optimism

I ought to listen to myself  I do know better

You do 
       However we understand your    sometimes cruel  gaming

I know better

Until the next time 

   Yah 
           Is a bit of a game

Thas awright got your back  Were game too

AM,  Saturday,  27  5. 23
1215,  Saturday

26.5.23


Absolute crawledup his partners – not tha way! – crawledup his partners ass  didnt fit well with his  temptinghuh didnt fit in well with his worldview 

he argued with him When I talk to you Im talkin to you Im not talkin to this creature tha takes it upon himself to defendspeak for the world If I want the worlds opinion Ill ask it

How are you going to do that?

Ive no ideabut I woud be more comfortable tryin to determine a way than have you step forth an be its spokesman Capeesh
           I don know Polish for understand

Czy rozumiesz

Wow Howstha spelled

C Z Y  R O Z U M I E S Z.
Crazy 
         You understand tha Im askin your opinion not the wordsopinions as they occurs to you in your mind
Just yours

I think we’d . .
. . No no no  You are not a we
                                 Speak only for yourself  whafuns tha
Perfect?

Yes

Does perfect have to beJesus . . absolute?

Thas wha I asked

   I’d suppose perfect would . . . be . . .

I understand Capeesh  Czy rozumiesz   Its hard for you

he cleared his throat I suppose perfect . . would be an absolute.

   I disagree 
You’re disagreeing with me the king of absoluteabsolutely!

   Yah

he sneeredwasnt pretty What would supersede perfect?

Superperfect  Uberperfect  Urperfect 
Fuck you . . you fucking with me?

No Im no salesman but I thinkI believe theyd keep tha in their toolchest Everything can be more than it is 
                                                                                                                A gimmick
Absolutely a gimmick 


Why do I talk to you?

So your thinking evolves 
                           I unearth you from your tedious little rut 
My rut? 
Rut It runs deep an wide
                            My purpose is to provide you a handup a different way of lookin at things disgorge you from the box you residestew in 

Yare welcome

357preferred, Twosday,  23  5. 23
1336,  reggaefriday,  26  5. 23


she slept in woke late 


   no she didnt

she dreamed late
                  she could have gotten up twothree times but she didnt get enough  she wanted more

 
after attending her animals she made coffee 
                                                cup in hand she leaned against the kitchen counter 
she thought I hope when I die its one long dream

1023,  Reggaefriday,  26  5. 23

25.5.23


Remember the old shell an pea game 
                                             he did 

sidewalk hustlers carnival huckstersbarkers  Tunnel of Love it aint 
NOW 
       the Former the phony the fraud the LIAR chubby fingers et al  has decided to play the shell pea game with the FEDs move documents around  play hideanseek 
one of the shells
                   his deskHIS DESK                      
so savvy 
            chucklechuckle  chuckle They wont look there

an audaciously submits I am running for President of the United States  
                                                                              huckster
                                                                               grifter 
                                                                               fraud
                                                                                liar

   the only thing he vote for him to do is to turn it  Off

603preferred,  Thursday,  25  5. 23
2137,  Thursday
The Music Man  Ya Got Trouble  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W2ySBtVLCYA

Rhodes  https://www.npr.org/2023/05/25/1178116193/stewart-rhodes-oath-keepers-verdict


Nebraska Representative Don Bacon “argued in no uncertain terms that (Republicans are) entitled not only to pursue dramatic spending cuts, but also to threaten our collective well-being in pursuit of far-right goals.”

   taking a step back 
                         Mr Bacons oath “I do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States (14th Amendment) against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; that I take this obligation freely, without any mental reservation or purpose of evasion (George Santos); and that I will well and faithfully discharge the duties of the office on which I am about to enter: So help me God.” 

Bacon was elected in 2016 – maybe winning three terms he knows it rote and therefore does not understand what the words mean  

I do not believe within our Constitution it is written representatives are entitled “to pursue drastic spending cuts, but also to threaten our collective (financial) well-being in pursuit of far-right goals” over the full faith and credit of the United States 

either someone is in office to help better the American Project or they are there for the selfish betterment of themselves     

1603,  Thursday,  25  5. 23

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24.5.23

 
he kicked his ass in 8-ball three straight games  little competition
                                                                      Howbout we play 9-ball you fare better at it 
I could play 9-ball.

Thas wha well do I rack you break

No no his voice lilted feeling confident had been really competitive no, you clobbered me fair and square, you break.

Ifya insist

he rocked the rack

sank the 9-ball 
                 Rack em 
What?

Sank the 9

he was dumbfounded

Right corner pocket

he walked over  stared into it 
                                 I’ll be a son-of-a-bitch.  
Later lets play some 9-ball 
                             Rack em

he broke again dropped two took the 1 the 3 4 toohard banged around between the point got spat out

he picked up the 4 screwed the pooch on the 6 
                                                 Dammit!
Ya rushed it 
You think?
             Thankfully I didn’t set you up.
Yadid

What?

I can play the 6 off the side up the table an back  play it into 9 in the corner

You don’t have to call your shot.

I want you to know wha Im attempting 
                                         When it falls you wont think I was luckyit was slop
Fine. I’d bet against you.

Youd lose Be happy Im not a betting man 
                                                 For the time being 
Son-of-a-bitch!

Thawas a sweet shot 
                       Your fault though 
My fault?

Yah Yare playing reggae I always shoot better when ya play reggae

You’re crediting the music?

I am 
      I gotta say  after my wife died four years later  some of the best times I had was dancing by myself intimate venues reggae concerts  I turned my kids onto it

What? That makes no sense.

So  I told you somethingmakes no sense
                                            Yare an idiot  Rack em up

1800,  Twosday,  23  5. 23
636preferred,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  5. 23
Billy Idol  Dancing By Myself  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FG1NrQYXjLU
Bruce Springsteen  Dancing in the Dark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=129kuDCQtHs


usually got together once a week 
                                 sat outside had coffee smoked a little weed yammered about the three things anthen some people arent suppose to talk about in polite company

buddy sought to be polite

he wasnt

buddy roundly condemned him for saying nigger  Why do you do that? I know you’re not racist, nigger justicewhat’s his name . . you know his nam . .
. . Yasay it Ill know it

   His name is Clarence Thoma . .
. . Correct thasit  His name is Robert Paulson his name is Robert Paulson his name is Robert Paulson 
                                                                                                          You know why I call him nigger

You should call him black.

You know why

I don’t think I do.

   You do 
           How do I feel about him

Well, you call him the N-word.

Yare so grownup the N-word 
                                  Whastha 
I’m not saying it.

Yare repulsed

I don’t think it is necessary, or correct . .
. . But yare polite the last thing you want to do is offend anybody  Anbecause people know tha they walk all over you 
They don’t.
They  do 
              However back to our conversation I despise him  I believed Anita Hill I despise whitey Kavanaugh  another Court fuck Christine Blasey Ford  Ya think they were lying  They called a spade a spade  So   My animosityya didnt listen to the ‘91 confirmation hearings 


Are you asking me?

I know the answer I want you to say

If you know, why do I have to say? 
Because yare defending him

I’m not defending him.
Sticks and stones will break my bones but names will never hurt me You act butthurt when I say niggerwhich I get you associate with me yare known in the community an it hurts your standing  with those who woud run over you   
They don’t! 
You follow the confirmation hearings 
                                           Don glare 
You know . . 
. . Im askin

I know Biden . .
. . Held the hearingyes botched it Fiftytwo forty-eight Fortyone Republicans elevenJesus eleven Democrats 
I followed themyou

   No.

So 

   So what?

Yave only recently began following the news about himhis billionaire Nazi-loving Garden of Evil buddy

They’re all over the news.

They are however my animus towardsdespise of Thomas goes back to ’91 I refuse to offend black people by calling him black 



a little later when the weed kicked in

. . . I’ll be honest with you . .
. . Don 
         Howbout ya tell me when you lie

I don’t lie . .
. . Ya drag your feet  Butno ya don lie 
                                          I didnt bring her name up so you coudbe honest with me Thas between you two   Im not interested

   Not interested . . . maybe a little jealous

Weve had tha conversationya know better

Christ, you’re . .
. . Uninterested  Wanna get tha off your chest go to the gym have your locker room banter

1557,  Twosday,  23  5. 23
1229, day-between-2-Ts,  24  5. 23

22.5.23

play hardball

he couldnt help himself 
                        likely a flaw in his righteous personality that he didnt mind expressing countervailing arguments welcome 

he wanted to continue on in the vein the lack of equivalence false equivalency between the Democratic Party and Republicans 
              it aint coin  not heads or tails 
that said 
           if Bush the Younger could roll out Office of Legal Counsel  OLC John Yoos decision regarding Enhanced Interrogation – in violation of US lawAMERICA doesnt tortureAbu Ghraib God bless you – Ofuck no we didnt  we handed that deal off to black sites scattered around the world countries coerced “willing” to torture people for us – products of Extraordinary Rendition – which only makes sense  Americas Exceptional shes Indispensable 

   if Bushwhacker and his Neocon cohorts got away with it  President Biden can play the Full Faith and Measure card the Constitutions 14th Amendment 
                                            not like it is a Zero-Sum game 
nobody has to die because Biden played his hand

  Whadahell  fiscally the whole world hangs in the balance     

1951,  Monday,  22  5. 23