DULL   Dull 

                    dull

nursing his Easter hangover with his cock  Hone it sez to himself 

                                                                               Is something wrong baby?

No nope gimme a sec 

                         Just  a   sec 

  simple gambit 

                   resurrection

if Christ could so could he   reserection 

There we go in his head 

                        There Ohmy!she planted her palms on the wall so he didnt bang her head against it  Jesus! 

Yah 

UhOoohmy Um  Ooooh muy 

no words

Hellhe hadnt either 

                    grunted  groaned  panted gruntedpanted groaned gasped panted panpanted they were in sync JESUSsynchronised synchrosiiighed GASPinggobblingair breathebreathe GASPed again 

                                                                                           a roar in his ears out his eyes hers fluttered her arms went slacked

   One  Last   lunge 

                       banging her head against the wall he collapsed on top of her 

they clutched each other 

                         tethered they hadnt crackercrumbs so their minds couldnt go farwouldnt get lost 

they panted in each others facepanting through outrageous grins 

gaspedlaughed like hyenas 

   certainly helped his hangover

1220,  Monday,  10  4. 23

1156,  Sunday,  16  4. 23

he angled around the front end of a huge white sedan  someones  who obviously didnt live in the neighborhood

and as he went around it He listened to the old mans breathing felt the weight of the little girl in his arms felt the tiredness in his arms felt his unwillingness to put her down 

He felt the salve of her kiss on his rough unshaven cheek

 

Oh Grampa

           her breath on his face  he wondered if he was ever that young if he was ever carried if he ever kissed his grandfathers or grandmothers faces his parents as they carried him if they did if the birds gliding from tree to tree overhead gathering bits and twigs for their nests paid any attention to things under them that didnt fly

 

1056,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  12. 14

0939,  Sunday,  16  4. 23

to hallie

this morning they made love nearly unconsciously

he didnt open his eyes  he didnt know if she opened hers

they fell into one another  the nuzzling gentle touching like blowing on paper and thin stick kindling

its razor redsmouldering edges glowing  become inflamed    becoming enraged and engulfing

he was sure if he opened his eyes after she rolled off of him that their scorch and ashes would be clinging languidly

or running like spiders on the ceiling

  

he didnt open his eyes

he liked the imagery

1056,  day-between-2-Ts,  24  12. 14

0939,  Sunday,  16  4. 23

   to make something out of nothing

                                          how hard was tha  his Mom constantly threw things togetherAlchemy his father wasnt far behind  the frig door opened cans in the cupboard clanged 

                                                                         Tha’ll work.   Lemme see. she looked  Ohyeah, tha’ll work.

DINNER his father whistled from the backdoor he had five minutes to make it homehands washed dried or he wouldnt be seated at the kitchen table his mothers mother gave it to them a huge oak table with leaves to seat a dozen  it sat their seven comfortably

WOW they knocked it out of the park 

                                         where was everything from where was the meat from

SUSPICION 

             he listened to the outofdoors noises drifting in through the kitchen window above the sink where later hed be washing drying putting away pots and pans dishes utensils silverware

it sounded like all the neighbours dogs were still there 

CATS

          if he heard it cat it ought not be stalking about

This is delicious 

                   Wha is it

It’s food.  end of discussion  as Because I say was the end of discussion

wha the hell it was tasty 

                           he could care less wha it was 

those kinds of dinners incentivised him to keep his head on a swivel keep moving

his father always said It’s hard to hit a moving target. 

                                                              he survived Korea

1719,  Saturday,  15  4. 23

he knew when he was dreaming 

he had the ability to manipulate them 

                                       NO occasionally someone referred to it as oneirokinesis not erotic

Lucid dreaming its called lucid dreaming 

                                           kinesis lacking direction orientation dependent upon the intensity of the stimuli  Of dreams and related phenomena 

Wha related phenomena

he didnt stick around for an answer he didnt care for the term

                                                                 lucid dreaming all gussiedup

   r o k smackdab at its middle screamed woke to him the last freakin thing hed wanted to contend with while he arranged adjusted honed  as he directed

if he wished he authored them 

sometimes he went along for the ride 

fired on all cylinders 

You’re killing me fuck me already! 

                                   Ohno he didnt say he was letting her off easy they twistedflounced about he went under the sheets pinching hersqueezing her her bare skin then the sheet pliant between them skin hot he tweaked herlapped hernibbled bit sucked intent on driving her mad

                                                              their bedroom second storey across from an enormous windowsun pouring in splashing them illuminating them she wasnt keen  and really wasnt when he turned the light on at night 

         shed sighed  Please turn it off.

                                         Ohno he didnt say she was beautifulspectacular   terribly selfconscious

he kept up the foreplay 

prolonged it 

                  Please . . fuck me . . . 

he wanted to 

              but he wanted more to cherish her relish her envelope her  eat her alive because he knew after they made love she would vanish 

she wouldnt say when shed return

                                          he was dreaming

his wife was dead      

1549,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  4. 23

1139,  Reggaefriday,  14  4. 23

he liked to poke beastslisten to their bellows groans  pig squeals  sheep baaas  cattle muus  animal soundsBeach Boys Pet Sounds   their discomfort made him curious

                                                  April Fools

 

that Saturday he read America had suffered 1,155,098 Trumpvirus deaths 

this morning

              1,158,017 deaths

tha difference over 12days 2,919   

                                      243 Americans died every day    DIEDADAY 

phonaesthetics 

STOP 

          Nah  coudnthelp himself 

hed been following Trump deaths since he returned home 22March 2020  driving home that sketchy Sunday on a highway along the ocean he mused  a zombie apocalypse  not smashedabandoned carsgnawed corpses  rather five lanes north south empty  very few cars before or behind him  

                                                                 he learned that on 22March 2020 an estimated 4,737 Americans had died

horrific numbers

he coudve vomited

                  because he understood former woudnt getup off his ass an attack  walking winded fat man

0029,  Reggaefriday,  14  4. 23

https://www.worldometers.info/coronavirus/country/us/ 

https://www.washingtonpost.com/graphics/2020/national/coronavirus-us-cases-deaths/?state=US

Graebers Pirates 

                 loaded  thas how he wanted it to sound

I’ll need a little more than that to go off of.

                                               she didnt run anywhere with it  Grabbers  Pirates    Wench  

The bookbooks Ive been reading

slowly she shook her head side to side

   No

No. But you’re always reading and always talking about what you’re reading and you read a lot of books at the same time too.

Too

Yes. 

      Too seemed to fortify her  like a perfect Godformed Excuse  her spine firmed up

Tha contents you lets ya off the hook

Am I on a hook?

   You are

How am I on a hook?you can’t imagine I can keep track of all the books you’re reading that are all over the place fiction nonfiction history science literature . .

. . Physics 

Yes.

Graebers dead 

                   I emphasised his unfortunate deaththa he founded Occupy Wall Streetyoull recall  you must recall 

I read his three books in a rowYes  interspersed with others but hisI thought  I mentioned most prominently

Or did I not

   I'm on a hook.

A bit donya think

I think. 

          I apologise.  Can you understand you’re hard to keep up with? 

Sometimes

             Though yare usually up to the task

You said task.

An idiom a matter of speech

But you said task.

he smiled sardonically 

                         Yare really pulling teeth for cover arent ya

she smiled beautifully 

                        Maybe.

 

Are you going to let me off the hook?

I like how ya move while yare on it 

                                     Ill have to keep tha in mind if I get an opportunity to get you in the sack

her eyes bugged 

                 he hadnt talked to her like that before but it was due  cool having a woman as a friend but having a female friend in bed was cooler 

Yare not sayin

   I . I . . I don’t know what to say.

Perhaps  Joe whaof Graebers Pirates to which Id say theres a place called Ranter Bay on Madagascar Ranters believerather embraced antinomianism  Wha youd ask Id say antinomianism Greek anti I know you know against an nomos which means law which is very pirateish against law a doctrine Christians pirates who knew are freed by grace from obeying Mosaic Law Moses Torah first five books of the Hebrew Bible sexual morality reject the very notion of obedience  I can get behind tha   they held believers are free from all traditional restraints and tha sin whas sin I don believe in sin is only a product of the imagination 

   some stiff went out of her spine 

Yah  Just tryin to provide you a little cover as ya ruminate  see us going to bed

before 1550, Reggaefriday,  10  2. 23

1133,  Thursday,  13  4. 23

What are you looking at?

I didnt realise your place was under such brisk airline traffic  routed

Ohyeah years. Not so much when we built here.

This must be the sixthseventh Ive seen since we came out here to bullshit have coffee

Coffee? Are you giving up on putsches?

Hes out of office  Klatch now unless you have a better moniker

Coffee klatch better than bullshit, we do traverse some heady ideas . . 

. . Unless were just stoned an they seem like they are 

                                                        Your fumble My balls when referring to Your Boys your sonswhile reasonable you were responsible for sexing them coud infer  not so heady

I’d like to think we’ve had knowledgeable conversations . .

. . You perhaps I shoot from the hip am easily entertained terribly distracked by vagrant thoughts rap rap rapping at my chamber door an ivory bonecoloured beak Nevermore nevermore an inarguable absolute you have nothing to do with absolutes rail at them are riled by them yet you are absolute 

                                                                Absolutely wont have sex with a guyPERIOD  Yah  Jesus. 

Im high

         So much for your knowledgeable 

Jet planes   

   You’re looking north. he was exhausted by his barrage but wasnt going to let on easier to let it go not participate get drawn in not slop gas on the fire that might flareengulf him Now if you’d taken the chair beside mine, were seated facing in the same direction as me you’d’ve missed them, you seem distracted by them.

Not a distractionnah I tend to pay attention to things over my head   Aircraft    Physics theoretical physics he laughed Geometry  These white planes passing overhead arent angels  try as they may

Angels?

Soaring angels  gliding on outstretched wings 

                                                 Take a gander  Silently sweeping cross pitchperfect blue

I ain’t getting’ up to look, I know what they look like.

Ought to 

         Coud actually be an angel transmogrified to appear an airliner  If they can appear as incubuses succubuses not bi incubi succubi  even demons keep to their heterosexual desires  like you 

                                                                                        Absolutely     

Christ. You’re out of your fuckin’ mind. 

Yah 

     No mind no mine can contain me 

   Aeroplanes 

Angels dude

        

2047,  Thursday,  23  3. 23

1325,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  4. 23

Evangelist   The World That I Created  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oqaUPki2Tuo  God Song  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gCmXCoFvCM 

Justins justices

YAAY!! happie face 

                     Awwww  a facetious unhappy face

Tennessee House speaker Cameron Sexton robbed someone ambitious of a porn name is eating crow this evening Excuse the redundancyBLACK crow  Justin serving sizes   Jones an Pearson

theyve been democratically reinstated by their districts despite the hard-ons the desires of a shitdripping autocratic White House 

he was going to stretch out  have a beer  keep his handkerchief close to wipe his nosewipe his tears according to his unbrooked spastic hellacious sidesplitting howls laughter

1717, day-between-2-Ts,  12  4. 23

Jones  https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/politics-news/nashville-council-expected-consider-reinstating-ousted-former-rep-just-rcna78924  

Pearson  https://www.corsicanadailysun.com/national/expelled-justin-pearson-could-be-returned-to-tennessee-house/article_b5193067-f371-5a17-ba25-7028c42cb6a7.html 

You’re in love with experience. her shoulders roseher back straightened  weight  gone  

                                                                                        Not me.

   Thas harsh

That’s real, it’s honest.  Can you tell me it’s not true, I’m wrong?

Experience  Theres another wordI believe  though I cant think right now

                                                                                 No  Yare not wrong

A thrill?

Yare not a thrillnot a wham bam thank you maam  if thaswha yare implying 

No? Then what? 

                  What am I to you?

A friend  I didnt mean to hurt you Ive been honest   I havent lied to you

                                                                              Have you lied to yourself  

I must hav . .

. . Donbe glib 

                Please

large singular tears rolled out of her eyes                         

How does tha happen he thoughthe hadnt ever cried like thahad tears like tha not ever  he took her by the back of her neckhead with one handshe didnt pullaway an with his thumbalternately with his index finger he wiped tears away 

I have been honest with you 

she cleared her throat

                           Yes.   I thought I could change your mind. 

Baby Ive never anya know how much I dislike using never  Ive never changed anyone mind 

                                                                                                 I take people at their word

she tried to smile but it broke in her face 

                                            I know I know.  I hoped I could change your mind.

he smiled gentlycompassionately 

                                     Experience  Insightful babe  Not tha I giveup wont think of the word  he chuckled  Thaya changed my mind 

she hit him in the chest with the heel of her hand 

                                                    My Godyou’re such a prick!

Tell all your friends write it on bathroom stalls  he laugheddeeply 

she laughedhe infected her  besides herself 

                                             You’re a piece of work.

An a piece

closing her eyes she shook her head nonodded her head yes 

                                                                  Manohman.

Thas mine 

I’m takin’ it. 

Yare welcome to it 

I know that’s why I’m helping myself . to it.  I’m helping myself. 

                                                                        I am.

still holding her he gently kissed her

   Yes 

          Yare nobodys fool 

    

2040,  Thursday,  23  3. 23

1020,  day-between-2-Ts,  12  4. 23

Of course it is he said out loud

2:34 showed on the kitchen range

                                    a moment earlier he went to his pocket to take out change he received from the drugstore to place it in a coin jar  somebody coughed up a buffalohead nickel  Idiot   wha people will let slip for prescriptions 

              not ten minutes prior to the drugstore he started at the wrongend of the marketusually came in through its first doors  when he arrived at the day-old bread rack an elderly woman with an elderly man held a loaf of sourdough the old man said he wasnt partial to sourdough  looking over his shoulder at him as he approached the woman brusquely put it in the basket the old man held  

she didnt reply to his objection 

                                 a feral look crept into her eyeshe saw  she was keeping the bread to deny him 

he sidestepped them  

                       a cellophane bag of raisincinnamon bagels remained  

the old woman turnedlooked at him  

Bravo

she didnt hide her canines

he thought Bitch 

                felt bad for the old man  he couldnt help but wonder how many years he performedwondered what baggage she made him carry for her 

   he chuckled 

                 he thought The things we do for love

the things we do consume usbecome kneejerk habits thoughtless 

                                                                    the old man  brainwashed  had likely jumped through hoops for pussy  

maybe her tantalising pussy sealed the deal 

                                              maybe  retired in a few years 

   children you know  crimp ones style

234preferred,  Twosday,  11  4. 23

1936,  Twosday

25cc  The Things We Do for Love  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cgptvsHHYK4 

Maria Maldaur  Midnight at the Oasis  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VlrKETxwRvM

Republicans are entrenched

though if one is lucid theyd realise that more than half the battle is won

hed recommend simply shoveling earth in on top of them 

bury them 

            pat the soil in place

no bother with a gravemarker a memorial

because 

         in a matter of a few years that ground richturbulent with festering greed coercion power will become black and ripe 

      excellent fertiliser to grow vegetables crops

 

1619,  Twosday,  11  4. 23

Sergio Mendes e Brazil ’66  Look Around  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4n-4utYZ7hE

Get on with it awready

he was going to mouth back but giving it a moment he realised they were right shehe heshe  he was draggin his feet   it happened occasionally

Not he was dosed  he dosed

Why don you write it

Thas your job Im only a consultant

                                     Or in this case an insistent prompter Get on with it woudya

he wasnt in the mood 

                         Yare right

Spose well see where it goes

                                        

Thas the spirit 

               heshe shehe reminded him of Varsity high school cheerleaders GOT THE SPIRIT!  YEAH MAN!  WE GOT THE SPIRIT! 

              it wasnt until he was a spectator that he heard them  while he was on the field or the floor he didnt 

he dosed Yare right   Of course I am 

                                          dosed  an inartful way of saying it 

he dosed seeing family again

when they coalescedcame together like when he was a kidwhen everybody lived within an easy halfhour of everyone else weekend clan gatheringsif not all  most

whenever flying in again he recognised its centrality 

                                                       and with people organisations who believe they are the Center others fall into it or are spunout of its orbit

they may believe he was spunout of it

   he chose to go

it escapes them to move out 

                             maybe fearful that having left someone or something will replace them

he was proof otherwise

his misfortune  an inartful way of saying it  was that they lacked consideration that if he didnt visit they wouldnt see him he wouldnt see them 

                           however he understood that before he left  a long time ago

he conceded it then to be true

the advantageHIS of the situation circumstance was that he was imminently capable of withstanding being at a remove

the center holdsthe whole holds because it craves itself more collectively than being alone

   he neither craved nor was satisfied 

                                        he was a satellite  terribly curious of the Outer 

the Other

0817,  Monday,  13  2. 23

1205,  Twosday,  11  4. 23

The Box Tops  The Letter  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyq3PUTnpd0

gerrymandered super majority Tennessee State House Republicans  Look whos coming to dinner AGAIN hurhur  huurrr

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90c_mOL2Y_4 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxHi6akdjKw 

1758,  Monday,  10  4. 23

So were coming up on the twentyfirst no  wha   cant call it an anniversary    Twentyone years since one of Americas worse calamities our war criminal yet unindicted anif I hear again about our heroic soldierstheir heroic efforts Ill puke

They were heroic.

Were you heroic was America heroic I don think so 

                                                       Heroic woudave been siding with the rest of the world rather than threatening them an let International Intelligence criminalwork police ferret out suspects and try them in Court Terrorism is a crime Imagine all the human lives treasure tha woudave been saved  Instead we kicked it in the balls trashed the region   

I think, romantically speaking, we can call them heroes, heroic.

Murders romantic

Come on, they’re soldiers.

Soldiers are romantic

You know what I mean.

I don 

      Romanticised Politically Criminally Romantic death  Aint    Romantically is living loving Really tough when yare dead 

he shook his head How’d we get here?

I said heroic is humble a hero is humble  Self-aggrandised touted no  There are very few real heroes theyre rarely acknowledged

Every soldier who servedserves is not a hero 

                                                 Heroic woudave been to not buy in to spoil the war criminals plots

I can’t agree.

Im not asking you to 

                     Tell mebout your service in Nam

his head snapped round 

                          Oh thas right Ya claim ya didnt know you enjoyed a college deferment 

Nicehuh  Go to college beat the draft    Thank your lucky white stars 

     

333 preferred,  Reggaefriday, 17  3. 23

1123,  Monday,  10  4. 23

Americas war criminals still unindicted  https://www.cfr.org/timeline/iraq-war