20.2.23


Retard  Tard 
               today people freakYacant say that! 
Just did
           I just did 


   true or false   it was True
                               when he cut the article from the Star and Tribune it was a kneejerk reaction to the headline ‘Grossly retarded’ 
                             he was obsequiouscaught his eye it was odd to see it in papers unless they were tattler publications  National Enquirer New York Post Wall Street Journal



her name was Kimberly Bowie 

she was 12 when it was published in 1980 

the trouble with sensationalism is that its rarely followed up particular human draumas are nothing more than a blip brilliant Fourth of July rockets colouredsplashesFLASHes then disintegrating  remnant smoky jellyfish tentacles dissipating
           10minutes of Warholian fame  ill-repute   arrhythmia 

nothing to hang ones hat on

   True tha

7AMish,  Reggaefriday,  17  2. 23
1214,  Reggaefriday
Black Eyed Peas  Let’s Get Retarded  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LX-7AnOx22k

 
   page onesixtynine
                     he didnt remember where he read it happened when he kept fivesix books in the air at once  similar subjects

Senator Joe McCarthy COMMIES not that communism is a bad thing 
                                                                     an also howbout in '50 June another hot shot jumpin on a bandwagon Clyde Hoey Democrat senator from North Carolina

he opened an investigation into “sex perverts” in the United States government

OHbrother

I hear ya

I havent words

I do


   Im listenin

he chuckled Thas a lot of hooey     

afternoon in February 2023 before the 18th
1141,  Monday,  20  2. 23


Hey buddy, spare some change?

guy may not have recognised him but hed hustled him beforean he wasnt his buddy
                                                                                         Havent any
he had cash  no change 
semantics 
          he didnt think so 


Dad?

Yes little girl

You know what I’ve noticed?

No  Wha

I’ve noticed that when homeless people approach us outside a grocery store for money for food you say No yet we’ll come out and you have bought them food from the Deli, soup and bread or a made-sandwich. Although you have me give to it to them.

Yes

Why don’t you give them money?

They asked for money saying they were hungry So I fed them

What if they wanted just money?

Then they shoudnt lie when was the last time I rewarded you for lying

incredulous For lying?

Yes 
Never. No. You punished me.

I did I don tolerate liars 



Spare some change?

hed told him No several times before somehow the guy cant keep his Nos straight

   Didya just laugh

shehe heshe Mariachi 
                      I did

Are you laughing at his circumstances

Im laughing at semantics 
                           I don know the guys circumstances how they presented if he was at fault or they were beyond his control  If he said he was hungry I woud have fed him

Thas not true

No

No You remember the guy who asked you for money in the city

Hone it

He had a dog

Yes I do
He said he was hungry

He asked for money first

He did 
        But then he said he wanted money to feed himself and his dog

A homeless person with a dog

Maybe protection

Dog looked wellfed

It did 


You turned him down

he knew where this was going  who knew a Mariachi woud try to play Conscience fuckin hilarious 
                                                                                                     I did 
Yaremember
I do 


Ya didnt just turn him down

No I did not 


You told the man . . 
. . Guy 
       Don credit him with being a man

You told the guy if he was hungry he could eat his dog

I said he shoud shoud eat his dogkeep our story straight

212preferred,  Monday,  6  2. 23
1033,  Monday,  20  2. 23


he startedwas surprisedcouldnt believe his fortune 
                                                             but that dribbled away when he leaned over to pickup one of the brightshiny bathed in white sunlight coins

   Ah  twerent coin you gazed upon eh

Yakiddin me Twerent

Twas appropriate

Appropriate

I believe An humourous  I don believe weve ever bent over birdshit mistakin it for coin
 
It looked like money
It did
       Must have had just the right moisture content eh
Eh
   Whaswit the ehs 

Believe cant use twerent without its aid  like dredgingup bunghole  Eh

Twerent to bunghole to  lemme    ballsack

Balzac 
        La Peau de Chagrin  known also in English as The Magick Skin The Wild Ass’s Skin isnt often one get to write four ss in a row

Oh man Messedup 
Me is you were messedup 
                            I know ya havent forgot  eh

Coud we quit with the eh

Really riles ya . . 
                     See  I didnt 
Though tha begs for it

It does beg

   Awright One last time 
Thank you 
            Really riles ya eh
It does 
         If it twerent you I woudnt have put up with it 
Thank you

Yare welcome

Were so polite

We is 
       However I woud be reticent if I did not also  I believeremind  remind you  it may have slipped your mind . .
. . Our mind

   Wha am I thinkin

I don know

No you don Im contained impenetrable impervious to you  though you are not to me   Aint seeing it on your slate

Yare killin me 
                Say it awready

I shall 
         Twerent is slang for taint for perineum 


Aahyes yes  Now thaya mention it I recall

Better boneup my li’l Mariachi

heshe shehe nodded emphatically
                                          May I ask 
Ask

Why Mariachi

You descended like a gaggle but were Mariachi garish

Ah

   Ah  I like tha

thinkin 2PM,  Saturday,  18  2. 23
1129,  Sunday,  19  2. 23

19.2.23


he bought her Trolli gummi octopus though in his note wrote I know youll love these gummy octopussies 
                                                                                                             he dug them because she did but also because they were as close to a tasty coloured psychedelic trip he could find they begged Peter Max posters begged Robert Crumb his worntattered tie-dyed Keep On Truckin’ tshirt
because she was his wannabefreak daughter

she called 
missed him
left a message on the machine
spokechewed with her mouth opensmacked her lips Can you hear me chewing the gummi octopus you sent? You totally stoked me. And I love the note you included.

   stoked her 


still on the machine all these years later

he held onto her any way he could  

2254,  Saturday,  18  2. 23
1017,  Sunday,  19  2. 23
Rod Stewart  Reason to Believe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XJylcQ7CGfI

  
  he may have heard her incorrectlywas punching pre-set buttons on his car radio 
. . . de pièce de résistance
punched the next Don’t ya love her madly Morrison Doors wanna to be her daddyWha she say 
                                                                                                  Doors fell out of his ears was it pièce de résistance

or appease the resistance

he punched back dagnabbit commercial  of course hed return to a commercial  commercials formed a daisychain pleasured each other
                      his ears whispered Coud we move along please If its killin us it ought to be killin you 
Sssh give it another few seconds
Wanna bet
Earwax to wha 
Wed dig deep malleus stapes incus  
Cochlea
Whaya putting up 
I donwanna be deaf in one ear
Bets off
Yah 
Its been a few seconds  Music

   Awright  Music 
                    he punched what had been the Doors I know I keep you amused but I feel Im being used  whawas he complainingbout his buddys cousin was four years older than him 
                                                                         a piece he couldnt resist

3PM  walking at the timebest guess,  Saturday,  18  2. 23
0938,  Sunday,  19  2. 23

18.2.23


returning to the car with a sixpak a forty pound box of cat litter Well tha was worth it despite being an additional stop

turning on his hip in the drivers seat eyeing the cat litter as he set it down on the backseat
                                                                                                That’s huge, I didn’t know they made em that big.                  

Tend to be hard to come by but theyre just four bucks more than a twenty pound box  Thank you I appreciate you driving

That’s cool, ya baited me with beer.

I did Yare getting clever friend

Perhaps. 
            Soo yasaid it was worth it. 

sitting down in the passengers seatshutting the door Yah
                                                             Yare familiar with my luck ya really oughta come inside the market next time with me stop sitting on your ass waitingplaying with your smartphone

it was still in his hands  he laid it in his lap You don’t think I might screw up your juju.

Impossible Ive had it since I was a little boy Your presence woud make no matter

Maybe next time.

Ill remind ya

You don’t think I’ll remember? 
No

Jesus.

Nah Jesus
            Im up against your affliction your addiction Cat needs his fix I dig 
I’m not that bad . . 
. . Yare tha bad
                 Whe we go out go hiking go for coffee do I ever carry my phone 
Your choice . .
. . Your choice 
               Like yare going to miss something twentyfourseven world babe Youll catch it Shit will still have its stink on it

Christ. Really?

Really

Enough.
         You said that was worth it.
Awyah 


You gonna say? 
Yagonna put on your seatbelt

You telling me I need to?

If I have your undivided attention  Yah Yaneed to

he set his cell in the console between thembuckled up 
                                                         To Infinite and Beyond.
Yah
     She had big round titsfirst thing I noticed I was in the aisle behind her Then turning she had a big round ass an she set off the whole sundae with her big brown Hispanic eyes

Oh man.

Her purchase concluded she stepped out with her bag passed right in front of me an as she did the bag split her tequila tumbled  I was able to set the litter down an catch the bottle midair An bent forward as the other items toppled out she gave me an expansive gander at her cleavage An beyond 
                                                               She blushed beautifully

1600,  Saturday,  18  2. 23
1726,  Saturday


   dictum occurred to him
                            word made him laughlaughed because because his very next thought was alwaysalways Damn near rectum


talking aloud to himself often cause friction 

Excuse me? 

he looked across the café table at him 
                                         No I wasnt talkin to you
But you said something. 

Yes yes I did 
               Eavesdropping

No. You said something.
I did 
     Although I didnt preface it with your name did I

No. 
Then obviously wasnt meant for you besides  excuse me  ya waltzed out of our conversation when your cellphone buzzedya had to take it  It didnt ring buzzed  Text  Ya had to take a text 
                                                                               Addict 
I was expecting someone.

Didnt share tha with me

No. I suppose I didn’t.

Suppose

   I didn’t.
Thawoud have been courteous

I wasn’t thinking.

Ouchy he was being ridiculous 
                               Not tha I havent called you out before  Leading an entitled life man  
he didnt like being dressed down 
                                 What do you want me to say?

Nothing Not a damn thingnothing to be said ya keep to your script Ill keep to mine  Mines better written more considerate

Yet you talk to yourself.

Yah Talkin to an interested party

no idea when I scribbled this coincided with Miltons Areopagitica opposing licensing and censorship,  2023
1238,  Saturday,  18  2. 23


scapegoat 
           
   he wondered as he began leafing through the dictionary 
                                                             not that he really had tohad a creeping suspicion 
an as familiar as he was with it he named his Gary after Gary the Snail SpongeBob SquarePants pet 

YUP  as he gathered  on a brilliantlylit marquee LEVITICUS  Tha hobo yet again 

Old Testament 

mussed with Moses fingerprints Thirteenth Century BCE Before Common Era  not Before Christian Era  not BC AD ABRACADABRA hocus-pocus mumbo jumbo open sesame gibberish gobbledygook double talk jabberwocky   Take a breathtake a breath  Breathebreathe  breathe   Better   Yes  yes thank you   

cat with the Burning bush 
                           Exodus  3:13 – 14  I AM WHO I AM   Gawd 
                                                                            isnt everyone who they are
and to be who one is is to be true to themselves 


I’ve been thinking . . . I think you ought to take one for the team.

he might count his lucky starshis fortunate that she was able to pull back on her angerlimit him to a Fuck you!  she stoodturned went to the door

No wait stop, don’t go, wait, stop, I don’t think you ought to be alone right now.

You’re right she said over her shoulder as she opened the door  You don’t think.

he said something

she didnt hearshe had closed the doordidnt slam it 



it was so much horseshit if it was said on Sunday after Super Bowl after the children were down said face to face this drauma could have been alleviated
instead 
        she was fingeredmade the scapegoat Leviticus pair of kid goats one released into the wilderness taking with it all sins and impurities the other sacrificed to their thinking for their convenience   a convenience covering a convenience 


   she asked what he thought 
                                Be true to yourself baby  Ive got your back

0948,  Saturday,  18  2. 23

17.2.23


a really random true or false

1980 
         ‘Grossly retarded’ child found in unheated house is the article headline from the Minneapolis Star and Tribune 
         AP Associated Press

Philadelphia, Pa.


A “grossly retarded” 12-year-old girl who weighed only 39 pounds was found Monday in an unheated and abandoned house. Police said the screaming child was curled into a fetal position among debris infested by roaches. 
reads like a dystopic horror 

Officers responding to a report of a possible burglary discovered “a screaming child curled in the fetal position” Kimberly Bowie in a rear upstairs bedroom of a two-story brick rowhouse, said Capt. Dorothy Cousins of the Juvenile Aid Division. The house had no electricity or heat, and temperatures overnight were in the low 30s. -- his brother-in-law texted him  38 degrees overnight at your place deserves a place in your resume

The girl’s mother, Denise Bowie fingers crossed not a relative of James Bowie of Alamo fame 27, surrendered to police yesterday afternoon and was charged with attempted murder, recklessly endangering another person, endangering the welfare of a child and abandonment, according to the Juvenile Aid Division.  
                                                                                Why surrender?

She was arraigned last night and held in lieu of $25,000 bail for a Jan. 9 hearing. bail bondmen could have released her on $2,500 – bag of dicks to suck

Bowie, who has four other children (27 – has five children), told police she had gone to her mother’s house about 15 blocks away for the holidays. She said she had not taken Kimberly because she “felt ashamed and guilty and upset (Kimberly is 12),” police said.

She said she had tried to get help for her daughter through mental health agency. She said she had sent food back every day and had left the heater on, adding she didn’t have money for oil, police said.

Defective Jerry Whartenby said there was no sign of physical abuse, just neglect (“charged with attempted murder, recklessly endangering another person, endangering the welfare of a child and abandonment”). He said the child Kimberly – she has a name does not talk, but screams.

She was admitted to Hahnemann Hospital for tests and her condition was termed “good, a ‘12-year-old girl who weighed only 39 pounds’said Phyllis Fisher, a hospital spokeswoman.

   true or false 
                  hed say later
   
2156,  Thursday,  16  2. 23

the Biden administration seeks to hide Israels apartheid apartness   separate of the Two State Solution separate from Palestinians living on the West Bank and Gaza Strip

rather it ought to be calling balls and strikes pointing fingers   its not like the United States We  do not have leverage

Netanyahu is an authoritarian he is an authoritarian
                                                        and his administrationhis darlings are working hard to cement his power which eventually will be theirs

apparently within the majority of American politika  thats okay

1543,  Reggaefriday,  17  2. 23

afraid of the dark

Our nations afraid of the dark

Nation Hell, most people are afraid of the dark. It’s biology, genetics, packed in our DNA, dates back to when our primitive ancestors were prey.

   Are you afraid of the dark Im not

he eyed him suspiciously
                           No, Im not afraid of the dark either. 

lyinghe knew it thought it a question of machismo it wasnt it was an honest ask but something he wouldnt be honest about 
       not if it coloured him in a light he imagined masculinely untoward

Why do yasay tha Yare being dishonest 
You’re not afraid of the dark?

No I said I wasnt 
                   Lemme ask you How long did it take you to shed the fear of the darkit took me most of a yearmust have been nine ten we lived in a hunred year old house brick foundation gargantuan oilfed furnace that looked like a monstrous hydra Id go hanging lightbulb to lightbulb deeper into the basementturning one on going back to the last turning it off until I was in the farthest reaches depths with one bulb burning above my head  Id take a breath yank the dangling stringhard so it bobbedbounced over head an I coudnt find it if I wanted to  Id steep in the blackness til I thought Id lose my mind then fleerunning into things running up the wood basement stairs up into the house then out the front door onto the porch an through its dooroutdoors onto the front lawn panting  Better part of a year   Until I slayed my fear of the dark 
                     Had I not confronted it Id still be frightened today
Howd ya process yours beat it

Eventually I did, I grew older. I didn’t have a process like you.

   Yours evaporated

I supposemust have. I’m not afraid of the dark now.

he wanted to cry Horseshit but didnt when someone lies eventually itll creep up on them an it will  then theyd have to contend with it 
                This is a nation of fear exacerbated  manipulated  by fear 
Maybe because I put mine away long ago I can clearly see that

I can see too.

Sure You can see
                        he doubted it

afternoon 2ish,  Twosday – Valentine’s Day,  14  2. 23
1347,  Thursday,  16  2. 23

16.2.23


1155
its not early

   Place of Still Births

is not the same as Birth of Still Places 
                                       Steve Roach off his Dynamic Stillness album
gotta wonder why he read it that way

still births arent still places 
                             he couldnt imagine the roilingshattering emotions 
his births were forgiven 
he and his wife hadaside from morning sickness otherwise effortless pregnancies and births  textbook 
                                                                                                             they did not take that for granted and were grateful
healthy happy babies ten fingerten toes
                                          only hitch in the gittyup was their first baby 
who didnt look like any of the names they selected and she set precedent  thereafternever learning the babies sexes they refused to pick names for them  those names mad-near-magickally mad-near-magickally isnt damn-near-magickally for some reason a tough morning  their names damn-near-magickally presented on their own almost as if the babies named themselves 
           think about it how many people wish they were given different names

he didnt mind his 
he even liked who he was named after
it wasnt a family name 
                         Right on Mom and Dad 
but he digressed

   Place of Still Births

paints a picture he imagined Hieronymus Bosch might paint

Thursday,  16  2. 23


he didnt take dictation
whamade her think hed take cuntation

whenever people tried to lay down the law he couldnt help but wondered who the hell they thought they were

they obviously believed in some kind of hierarchybelieved in top-down  he didnt 
                                                                                   he was a leveler 
if they thought they couldshe thought she could  tell him what to do how to do it  they were mistaken  they could do it themselves 
something was needed 
                         he provideddid it in his manner


the person he would mind would be who could put their slacks on both legs together  otherwise  like he  they put their pants on one leg at a time 
                            obviously theyd have to levitate 



cuntation came to him in a dream 

womanly wiles fell short with him 
did she really believe he followed his dick around 
                                                     maybe her success rate convinced her
NO 
    Barking up the wrong tree sister
he knew where it came from  he wasnt going to say   nobodys business but his
 
AMish,  Thursday,  16  2. 23
Sade  Nothing Can Come Between Us  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxewBXRs4yw