You know wha I think

You’re always thinking . . . sure.

You know wha I think is funny

A comedic venture, not your usual . . sure.

But not necessarily funny in a nice waykind way

There you are . . you were beginning to spook me.

I think its funny when celebrities decide to play house

Celebrites? 

Yes 

     An nowdays influencers  yes

   Why?

Avowed sociopaths cant make a relationship a marriage work An chances are theyre involved with another sociopath 

Two sociopaths don make a rite 

                                 Don want you to miss tha  Rite  R – I – T – E not R – I – G – H – T

HA no . I suppose you wouldn’t.  Didn’t occur to me.

Wha do you think

Do I have to?

No No   Have an opinion 

                            Yare more inclined to peruse entertain celebrities sport stars your televised sapiosexual significant others than I  Entertain them or have thought-processes about them because one has to have disposal income to date  prattle with on-line dating advisors 

                                                      Dare I say

Or shall I leave it to you                     

I don’t know what you’re talking about. 

You do

I don’t.

You do  

         Life coaches 

Oh. 

    That.

Yes 

So what made you think of that?

I have to think

 

Nothing

   Out of the blue the locus coeruleus  Blue spot

What?

Its the nucleus in the pons of the brainstem 

                                              The blue spot Derived from its azure appearance in unstained brain tissue Tissue  I like to think my brain is more substantialsignificant than tissue  Blue The colouring is due to light scattering from neuromelanin in noradrenergic nerve cell bodies

he blinked

Noradrenergic  Produces norepinephrine A neurotransmitter a hormone critical to the fight-or-flight response Which ultimately intimately may suggest why I havent a blue spot per se  Im prone to fight 

                                                                                         However tha doesnt exclude something out of the blue occurring to me 

he withheld a shouldershrug  I think I shouldn’t let you think.

    

1502,  Twosday,  17  1. 23

336preferred to 1536,  Twosday

https://neuroscientificallychallenged.com/posts/know-your-brain-locus-coeruleus

he was an optimist

his barber died

his barber died

he was an optimist  didnt matter that Milo had been cutting hair longer than hed been alive

Milo cut his hair last why wouldnt he cut it again

an adage he adopted No news is good news

no news was good news 

                            until it wasnt 

the news didnt work its way to himfind him

he had to go out of his way                   

missed Milo by a month

Milos granddaughter worked at the barber shop

he Walked In and stood at the entrance beside the first chair where Milo cut hair where he kept his appointment book on a shelf above the counter beside threefour old cardboardbound family photograph albums 

                                                                                                     Hello

she had someone in her chair 

                                   distracted working with a razor Just a moment please.

Please at your convenience 

she excused herself came over to him 

                                        Yes, how can I help you?

Id like to make an appointment with Milo  This Friday if possible

If  possible . . . 

                I’m sorry, my grandfather passed away just before Christmas.

tears were out of his eyes before he could form words

                                                          I    I  My condolences 

Youll excuse me  he used his body to open the plate glass door to escape 

   he was an optimist  until optimism was crushed

2311  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

1123,  Twosday,  17  1. 23

he was becoming musey  Seeing

                                     confirmed it when he read page 29  Cormac McCarthys Stella Maris 

“How many people if they could snap their fingers and vanish would do so? . . . All trace of both being and ever having been.” 

        “To wish oneself never to have been. Again, not the same as no longer to be.   Who was that? Anaximander? Anaximanders conclusion  when considering the underlying foundation of the universe this world has the capacity for infinite plurality  thereby things within our universe are unique   The same for whom?” 

 

he considered disappearing to suicide several times and thought it was his until he read McCarthy

he would concede

who was he

             he wasnt in McCarthys league few were  but he wrote  and in near-vein he wrote How very nice to disappear rather than die  atomise 

                                        he didnt think as McCarthy did  negating ones life their history erased too   he may have been influenced by Ambrose Bierces The Devils Dictionary  Carlos Fuentes  The Old Gringo  example

Bierce left his correspondents job for Hearst publications and riding a horse into Mexico disappeared off the face of the earth   

   lotsa people disappear in Mexico

he conceded

              but was pleased that he and McCarthy concurred

1419,  Martin Luther King, Jr Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

1044,  Twosday,  17  1. 23

You don think thas a gamechanger

nonchalant  It’s not. 

   Well  ya knowan Ill give ya credit Ill not pursue on-line datingwont ever have dating apps  but I gotta disagree Put that out there an itll he hahaed change the game  

Clever.

Not so much you can take a joke 

                                   So how do you see it not being

It just isn’t.

It isnt for you 

              Itd kill me    Ahh but   but I see the rest of your equation  two sides to every coin

Equation? You’re working too hard. 

No

    Yave said so

   I’ve said so? 

Yes As a matter of fact when you did I mentionedI blurted out I ought to buy us tshirts

Tshirts?  I don’t remember.

Oh come on I havent offered to buy us tshirts beforewhich isnt to say tha thought hadnt crossed my mind  many times actually

I don’t remember.

Try these on for size 

                      Yours was going to read I DON’T CARE FOR ORAL SEX   Mine  BLOW ME

he saw somewhere in the mire between his ears a neuron fire  but seeing he also saw a wet blanket tossed on top smothering it 

              then he saw the sputter of false equivalence

NO Cant compare smoking to a blow job man

he preened I wasn’t going to say that.

Maybe not tha 

                But a false equivalence nonetheless

 

   I gotcha man I gotcha Save it

1508,  Sunday,  1  8. 21

1241,  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

Fleetwood Mac  Rattlesnake Shake  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ob5Q_daCOB8

Whadja get

Nothing for you.

I asked wha you got I wasnt thinking of me

Nothing, looks like a goodie bag, it’s not.

Have to admit it looks like a party favor an the fifthgrade girls were gathered in the auditorium

We were.

Did you have a party

No. 

    We did not.

Anyet you got a pretty white bag decorated with flowers

   Yes. 

         What did you do while we were gone?

It was great We had gym the whole timeya really missed out  Yawoud have loved it 

Oh what a gyp. I would have rather been at gym too. 

So really  whadja get were friends 

                                      You know I woudnt say a word 

   You promise. 

Cross my heart hope to die he crossed his eyes

she giggled despite herself  You do I’ll kill you.

I know you woud

                   So

It was a lecture about our bodies, sex, menstruation, products, pregnancy.  Fun. rolled her eyes up into her head

Jeez arya kiddin  For tha ya should have gotten a real goodie bag 

Ya think.

Yah 

     You really woud have liked gym

I would have, yes. My parents already sat me down and talked about all this stuff, the birds and the bees . . and in detail, real detail.

Mine too First my Dad then my Mom then both I had so many questions They had books an they explained from their experiences 

             It was kinda cool

 

I agree, me too . . it made me feel closer to them.  But they’re cool. 

They are 

           I really like your folks

   Thank you.

And you know I like you

she smiled a mischievous smile theyd been in third fourth now fifth together 

                                                                               So tell me.

Wha

If you got a goodie bag after sitting in the auditorium forever . . what would be in it?

You said products

Yes. Samples, coupons, pamphlets.

I’d like rubbers lube . .

. . Lube?

My parents talked about it

Huh, mine didn’t, I’ll have to ask.

Yah  Ask 

           No pamphlets though  A Playboymebbe a years free subscription 

Are you kiddin me?

Oh no  Truly 

              Actually   Yawanna know something

What?

I mean this nice

                  I think when yare older you coudbe a model 

Thanks. 

         For Playboy? Thanks a lot.

I think youd be pretty nude

I think you better shaddup or I’ll sock you in the mouth.

Bust me he winked  in the mouth  

she pounded his arm 

she was pretty nude

1500,  Sunday,  1  8. 21

1049,  Martin Luther King, Jr. Day – Monday,  16  1. 23

Jewell Akens  The Birds and the Bees  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p8fLheex1nA

she mumbled 

he heard 

          I know baby I know he didnt know like she did  had he theyd both be in there 

she mumbled it again

he knew 

         however to admitconfirm it would exposehave him walking the street in broad daylight 

he was looking for a gangway alley dirt path founded by animalsanything to take him awayto obfuscate  duck into if only to buy him five minuteshafhour

No no she moaned I donwanna be here I want out I want out  I want out

 

   she wasnt talking about the hospital 

he knew that 

             he was trying lies on to comfort himself     she wanted out of the hospital 

I want out

I want out I want out 

                       froth on top the saliva he wiped from her lips

knowing her shed manage

perhaps not to her plan

but shed manage 

   she did

“ . . . general vacuity aside there seems to be a ceiling to well-being. My guess is that you can only be so happy. While there seems to be no floor to sorrow. Each deeper misery being a state heretofore unimagined. Each suggestive of worse to come.”  Stella Maris  Cormac McCarthy

1PMish preferred,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Robbie Nevell  C’est La Vie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGtf9QfITQw 

 

   Really?  he didnt even try to hide his rolling eyes

which humoured him 

                 Yesreally  You know of the cloth Im cut 

I hope they threwaway the damn bolt. 

NAH 

      Have theythe goddesses I know your homophobic reaction if I insinuated the gods had their hands all over your mould 

        Have they smashed it 

What are you talking about?

might have been time for him to roll his eyesbut he didnt  he was confident if he had he wouldnt be able to stop

                                                                                                           Doncha get tired of me refreshing your memory 

I don’t know what you’re talking about.

Idiom idiot he didnt say they broke the mould when he or she was born referring to ones uniqueness smashed so they cant possibly be repeated duplicated 

                                       Goddesses kept mine

When I croak theyll repeat me

OH excuse me all to hell. 

   No need

             Mould status

I haven’t given it any thought.

Ive returned times over

Knock yourself out . . doesn’t matter to me. 

                                             What does bug me is your . . your . I don’t know what to call it . . . attraction . affliction . . maybe that’s it . .

. . Devotion 

            I don know bout youya havent ever said if my mother hadnt breastfed mecollected the sixpak of wet nurses  I woudnt be here  Had starved to death

I wouldn’t ask.

Why

It’s a personal question. 

Of whom

Whom?

   Yes

My mother of course.

Your mother woudbe embarrassed if you asked her if she breastfed you

We don’t talk about things like that.

My turn Really still kept his eyes from rolling 

                                                Correct I did say lactating teen  Yet another jab at Tolkiens cellar door  

Jeez.

Crazy how one word upsets you 

I don’t see anything attractive about it.

Well I cant make a horse drink once Ive lead him or her to water  I relish not being a prude

I’m not! 

Ask your mother

1403,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1105,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Stones  Get Off of My Cloud  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1sWqmMAvmdU

fivesix minutes in he said Ohmy 

                                  clear as a bell over the running audio

this was a first 

hes had lotsa firsts  dreamedFIRSTs that some may never  they had his sympathy

   A O D versus D O A

audio only dream versus dead on arrival 

                                           he enjoyed the former  better former than Former

referencing a former earthling

   pitch black oilyblack an obliquesense that the words cries echoes conversations sharp dialogues retorts soliloquies stirred it 

          sounds lapping sinuous vessel walls

on an on

   eventually he opted outchanged the channel   met the cratered

before 4AM,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1009,  Sunday,  15  1. 23

Pink Floyd  Echoes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KBca3xf-j3o

. . . almost cratered my crater

                                woke him 

he didnt say it

didnt recognise the voice

cratered my crater their crater their anus

                                            NO doubt

what almost cratered them was a huge zucchinishaped cinnamonsugar brown turd fist to elbow that possessed a highfashion models complexion 

it clogged a pristine white porcelain toilet 

the craterwisely decided not to try and flush it

they used a 15 GAL plastic trash bag horsed it out tossed it in an outdoor wheeled trash receptacle 

                                                                                                         he didnt get a good look at their arms or hands

NOW

      he might think he was crater if it wasnt for the voice

whomever had they been silentnot said a word could have convinced him that the cinnamonsugar zucchini was his

nonetheless 

              it was flawless something to behold 

not held

fathomed

deep-sixed

   as he said it woke him

he kept running it over and over in his mind

sleep stayed in the wings

Woudya write it down awready 

he said it

he did 

went to sleep like a baby

bout 4AM,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

2215, Saturday

Guess Who  No Sugar Tonight/New Mother Nature  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xzjfw6I78jI 

he wasnt suffering this by himself  thank you

Throw me a bone  was he a year older than you or did he looked older than he was

Does it matter?

It matters

          Your storys validity yare fallin on your faceaint telling it right

I’ll tell it my wa. .

. . Yare not a storyteller Don start now   A kissing well

That’s what we called it.

Whos we

All us kids.  blood pressure ticking up 

   A shallow swale between the grade schools playground the disabled handicapped schools playground chainlink fence separating them

Yes.

Wheres the well

That was it.

A wellused well

He used it . .

. . To kiss Katie Rose who was a year younger than you Twopossibly three years younger than Alvin who was older or looked olderhow old were you

What’s that have to do with anything?

You were seven Katie six Alvin eight nine 

                                             A torrid kissing well

Maybe I was eight . .

. . Katie seven Alvin nine or ten  Katie the youngest in her family

Katie was an only child.

   But sophisticated enoughnaïve enough to  an you said   make out in the kissing wellMake Out  With Alvin

We were kids.

Elementary school kids kiss

                              You hardly share anything about your years in elementary school  Where did this recall come from

Was thinkingwe were talking about dodgeball, we played dodgeball on the playground.

Katie wear a skirt a dress white cotton panties  six seven only child pretty innocent

I don’t know.

She make out a lot with Alvin

I don’t know.

What was the point of your story

I don’t remember.

   But you remember the kissing well as the kids called it

I didn’t say that.

That’s what we called it  Whos we    All us kids

You’re mixing me up.

Maybe we leave storytelling to me

                                                   

round 3PM,  Reggaefriday,  6  1. 23

2126,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

Herman’s Hermits  No Milk Today https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdCHlJoAP8I

two of his cat usually wake him if the sun didnt  

however recent rains Cry me an atmospheric river very cool Fool on the Hill thinks but only because a flood of biblical proportions could touch himU CANT TOUCH THIS  wet his tootsies  have laid his waking at their feet

                                                                                           theyve been early

probably compelled propelled by their bellies

                                              Awrightawright IM UP IM UP IM UP LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD

he tosses off his blanketrides his rumpswings his legs over the sidesnatches a fresh tshirt socks shorts off the nightstandslides to the floor donning sweatpants standing slips on flips and makes his bed 

                                                                                                  routine

like breathing

since he was young 

strict times

accountability

taught him to assess if crossing lines were worth the punishment WHEN he was caughtfound out  not IF

he crossed plenty

took the punishment

then

      an Now

which troubles him

because so many are slippingsliding their accountability thinking it their due U CANT TOUCH THIS 

good thing he and they dont meet

   he has scars

hed bet money they dont

round 4AM,  Saturday,  14  1. 23

1055, Saturday

MC Hammer  U Can’t Touch This  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_NNYI8VbFyY 

Michael Stanley  Let’s Get the Show on the Road  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jlz_dLcYPQw

 

   That’s ludicrous.

Were stoned  everything is ludicrous   or lewdicrous

Repeating yourself.

Nah  Just putting a spin on it

A spin?

Yah

What spin?

   I donwanna work that hard  Good for one goosegood for another  

You know how hard it is talking to you?

I do

      Hard as it is for me to talk to you   But in another life why ludicrous

Are we really going to labor this?

Is laboring when you have to use your imagination step outside of the box

We’re talking about farts.

No  We were talking about whether a fart is conscious or not

It’s a function of your body, an endgame, not conscious.

Like seeing so you don walk into a wall can be titillated by the pleasant unctuoussway of a womans hips an fanny in a skirt 

      Function

No.

Give me more than no

                        Or do you mean know  We agre . .

. . We don’t agree on a lot except politics.

So not know rather no

                            it looked like his blood pressure ticked up  a reddeningflush at his throat  made him think he looked like a rooster 

          Wattle

What?

Nothing  conversing with myself

Your angels?

Theyre not angels At best an unselected entourage whove made their way to me Ive become their stomping grounds gerunds verbs nouns  Me Magnet They Iron filings  Ironic huh

I don’t know what you’re talkinbout.

Never mind 

             The never mind proves ignorance  absolute ignorance refuses to probe 

Conscious farts  They are

How?

I believe theyre performative  no audience yare off the hook  may trouble you with something sounding like the old soft shoe  A doodle dee doodle dee  do 

   What? 

Yah 

      Anthey don sour your nosebitchslap you something offensive Their sounds an scentssmells are for audiences

Jesus. 

Im sure he does Rips one off in church organist starts playing to hide or minimise it  Why else call them pews

he looked around

there was nowhere to run

1420,  Reggaefriday,  6  1. 23

1433,  Reggaefriday the 13th,  1. 23

off the radio  Dean Martin  Carol Richards  That Old Soft Shoe  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPraPAxVc0c 

’33  Wilson, Keppel & Betty  Sand Dance  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2fqjsijaMM