14.11.22


he asked him as a matter of fact Ifya had your druther wha woud it be

If I had my druther?
Yes 
      I have one but rather than tell you I thought you ought to say first  carry some water as it were

What do you mean?

   Not hard
             Ifya did  wha    

You’re coming out of right field on me. 
Cant think on your feet 
                            Surely something must occur to you

No.  No.   I can’t think of anything.

Jesus it was marked with some derision       

Don’t say like tha . .
. . How shoud I say Druther druthers isarent difficult   preference in a matter
                                                                                   I would rather   Wha
I don’t kno . .
. . Ill get the ball rolling  apparently your world is flat balls go nowherelay still

Tha . .
. . Thas accurate pay attention After I provide an example itll be your turn

   IF I HAD MY DRUTHER if I had my druther  the random peppermint plant outsidegrew on its own ya know it  he pausedwanting him involved 

Yes.

Good Paying attention so far 
                                When I urinate outside after dark I pee on the peppermint . .
. . I like that . peeing on peppermint.

Good 
       Wha my druther woud be is to have someone approach me and ask if they coud dry some of it  make tea

   I woud say enthusiastically While Im not keen on tea when you brew your first cup woud ya mind having it here with me mornings are usually free   Ill take coffee 
                                                         Druther 
Jesus. disgusted he smacked his lips asif someone pissed in his mouth 

   And

And?

Your druther

I can’t compete with that.

Its not a competition   A question 


I haven’t an idea.

  Ofcourse not

2033,  high Thursday,  10  11. 22
1428,  Monday,  14  11. 22


she was forwardmaybe thought she had to be 

happily she took him by complete surprise 

few and far between were women who after spending time with Wowed him  

they had undeniable magnetismreplete with sexual tension  though he was olderthought he was outside her alley 


first time he saw her she was fast asleep on her mothers livingroom couch  Quiet please, my poor dear, she was too tired to drive home. 
                     shapelytending towards exquisite  long lovely  blonde pursing her lips like a baby perhaps talking in her dreams

a friend of her mothers a mutual friend recommended him to trim trees prune fruit trees he was appreciated because he didnt use power tools 

behind the house he realised how ample her lot wasmore trees than were casually mentioned catching his expression she said  You must really let me pay you something more for your help.   No no thank you Bonnie As agreed a homecooked meal   You’re too kind.   I am not Im helping trees be happy

Happy trees? she was upshe saw in his eyes he thought her ravishing he couldnt duck the punch  she laughed gayly 
You said happy trees.  Do you think they are sensate? 
I do

she smiled I do too. 
                      My name’s Eve. she thrusted her hand to him knew how to shake had a firm handshake   Joe Joe. I understand you’re having dinner here this evening.   I am   I’m looking forward to it, to dinner conversation. You’ll excuse me but I have things to do, and you . you . . have trees to enlightenmake happy.  she turned and left
 
   he watched her go until she was gone

dinner

   then several dinners elsewhere threefour movies  occasionally met for a drink

 

Joe.  I’d like to sleep with you.

   Why but he checked himself thought betterdidnt ask  didnt didnt didnt   didnt want to gum up the works with words

Your body surprised me.
                          the afternoon before they had coffee across from the ocean and returning to the carwalking along the beach he inexorably her told her that  inexorably had to swim to the buoy 
                                                                                             Ill be right back kicked off his sandals shed his shirt pants dashed into the surf  brisk particle sand tickle sound   embrace

she didnt join him it wasnt his intent he didnt know she didnt know how to swim hed teach her

Eve You always surprise me 
                                 Yes
hypnopompic -- early Sunday morning,  13  11. 22
1119,  Monday,  14  11. 22
Nadja  Affective Fields  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=25nHmLpe7_E 

13.11.22


American Cancer Society stepping it up
                                           now recommends colon testing begin at 45
because either young adults have ingested toxins migresives think adhesives used for packaging SAY frozen microwaveable foodstuff  or or theres gold in dem thar arses 
did he have to be sarcastic
he did
          anhe was because they provided a springboard for corporations to intervene which notoriouslypredatory  are more concerned with their bottomlinepun than peoples                               
                                                        COLOGUARD not COLONGUARD might have been imperiling COLO provides plausible deniability
                               a non-invasive-at-home test why does their advertising mascot look like SpongeBob SquarePants
their hyphenated phrase sounding like masturbating – convenience – reminded him of those once-a-month subscriptions tits-an-ass magazines that came through the mail in a plain brown paper sleeves                           

   the fine print   false-positives 14% 8% false negatives  COLOGUARDs efficacywhich some may incorrectly equate to at-home pregnancy tests snapped his fingers  Hotdamn  mighty convenient 
                                                                                 Cologuard only detects large precancerous polyps 42% of the time better odds with a coin toss  Heads I do Tails I don 


Young adults most food packages and food contact materials (FCMs – of course theres an acronym) are manufactured using adhesives – migresives 
                               FCMs are regulated as their constituents may contaminate food and endanger consumers health
       In contrary to plastics – regulated by positive lists of authorised ingredients – migresives have not yet a specific regulation despite employed an deployed  hundreds of raw materials would be out of scope as they lack the standard information required by risk assessment agencies which would pose high-cost burdens for toxicity tests to adhesives industry which is dominated by SMEs (another acronym  small or medium enterprises) AHEM  more business bottomlines

0103,  ReggaeFriday,  4  11. 22
1257,  Sunday,  13  11. 22


   Inlicked the door revisitedreduxdo-over tuxedo which wasnt because Inlicked was unsuccessful or an unsatisfactory factory first attempt 
                   she decidedher decision to trip the light fantastic again
after he left she wanted more
                             she wanted leftovers

problem was

she couldnt call or text him to return

he forgot his phone at her place and knowing him he wouldnt be disturbed
                                                                            not disturbed that he didnt have it which would toss her over the moon in panicshe had to be connectedwas addicted  Addickted hed saycalling her an anyone a dick who had to have their phones in hand like devout Catholics who had to have and count and pray with their rosary beads   she had to be in the loophe could care less 


she wondered if he would want leftovers

orif there were . . . Oh go ahead an say it offered an inner  You thought itare thinking it she cleared her throat 
                                                                                                              Orif there were orifices other than hers he was filling she said aloud

Feels better yes      

Yes

Now thats behind youno pun intended what would you share to entice him to return

James Joyce.

Joyce interestingnot to be ambivalent  Could you explain

You don’t have an inkling?you should have an inkling.

Yes an inner shouldI should  but our memories at times can be like glossy Polaroid coloured snaps and what we rode shotgun on here the past threefour hours  without saying    you can imagine

Imagine.  Damn it was hot. 
HOT 
       But we digress

We have.

Joyce

Yes.

Inlicked  Which is what gave rise to Joyce that you want to communicate with him  Dare I say . . bait him

Yes.

Please

Yes. 
      I don’t think he could resist.

Resist  Very Freudian

AhFreud obsessed with sex anwhy he and I prefer Jung.

What might he not resist

she cleared her throat again
                              then recited He addled liddle phifie Annie ugged the little craythur. Wither hayre in honds tuck up your part inher.

Inher  Nice bait 
                  I believe he fonseed 
   Yes.

Suppose well have to dissemenate it mentally telepathically hopefully not tele-pathetically 
Lemme guess.
                D I S S E M E N A T E.

My turn Yes              

1234,  Twosday,  5  4. 22
1056,  Sunday,  13  11. 22

12.11.22


  :  :  Inlicked the door  rsome real possibilities 
                                                                  she meant to text Unlocked the door
in her haste she sent it without reading what she typed 
                                                           what she misstroke
she wouldnt dare text him misstroke 
                                       thatd be a gun hed immediately hold to her headMISSTROKE 
Arya kiddin me
                 Come to meIll come to you well get the kinks worked out of tha 
he wasnt one to make a misstake to 


he hadnt replied yet

maybe was outside his placeon a walk he didnt take his phone with him he was adverse to immediacyadverse to compulsions or impulsethoughtless purchases bullshit tabloids ENQUIRER Examiner Eenemas
                                                                                                  People are ridiculous
Conspiracy theorists can suck my cock
she knew him to say so 
                         but she knew he wouldnt let a cretin near his cock 
she also knew hed appreciate her phrase a cretin near his cock


  :  :  INLICKed 
Ohshit he saw it  Games on
                                what was she going to say  something lame  like the truth   
Id go with the truth said an inner she had Mariachis too
Im with you

Im with you

Of course we are

  :  :  I meant Unlocked the door.

  :  :  Thas not whaya wrote

  :  :  No I didn’t, I made a mistake.

  :  :  A misstake there he goes  she saw that a mile off
                                                         I don think so I believe not  Ill lick it

  :  :  I made a mistake 

  :  :  I wont I can set you straightrehang your door pull on your curtains   oil your hinges

she was temptedthough hadnt meant to lead him on  theyd been friends a long time  she could hear him say All good relationships grow from friendships 
                                        maybe it was time to find out                                  

  :  :  The door’s unlocked.  Why don’t you come over?

  :  :  Come

  :  :  Over.  Come over.

  :  :  Happy to oblige you 
                                  surprised hershe felt a happy tug a twinge in her clit

  :  :  See you soon 
                      she knew he wouldnt replyknew he was on his way  thought should I shower  made her laugh 
from their conversations she knew it was part of his foreplay
Is this really going to happen she wondered

Is this really going to happen

she knew it was only going to happen if she agreed
                                                        if she said No he would respect her No 
she knew that from their conversations 
they talked an awful lot 
were intimate  in that regard 


she wondered 
                Is this really going to happen

  she was conflicted
                       I suppose Ill see
    
1156,  Saturday,  12   11. 22
1554,  Saturday
Whale Fall  Tahquitz  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=se95jlt7-sM is a spirit found in the legends of the Cahuilla, Kumeyaay and Luiseno First People of Southern California 


Chief Crowfoot  he died April 25 1890
                                         What is life? It is a flash of a firefly in the night, it is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset. 

   shehe heshe reminded him 
                                who was he to ignore their spontaneous invocation 

Thank you

Yare welcome

1138,  Saturday,  12  11. 22


   4:24  that afternoon he preferred it to his usual 24hr mindset 1624hrs   

           no it wasnt that easy 
                               he glimpsed the timestood at the electric range counting seconds in his head60 two things at once taxed himhe could admit it  he preferred doing one thing at a time with the exception of the three ménages à trois he partook  before taking the boiling sugarwater from the burner it was his fortune to maintain 17 to 22 hummingbirdsanimals in extremis  winged miracles

   unfortunately a third thing occurred to him
between glimpsing and counting it flittedspasmed before him at once visualauditoryfelt
   thought he had it
                     but like a dribble of mercuryquicksilver it slipped from his grasp leaving him in its wake dumbfounded 


that afternoon was three days earlier

he continued to ponderSEE againHEAR againFEEL again what it was 
                                                                          it eluding him
an inner a Mariachi recommendedcounseled he let it go 
Cant

I saw you playing it out again yesterday when you made sugarwater You understand that time has passed

   No Timewithout time we do not exist I will learn it  It will occur to me   Ive not lost it

Wishful thinking

   Wishful thinking  I woud apply that to thingsexperiences which have not happened I experienced it Its inside me albeit a sliver  I understand from when I was a carpenter that slivers eventually emergeya remember  don ya

You remember bodilyphysical sensations more than we consciousnesses arent encumbered housedfixed in the manner you are

    No Youall of you  are not   I am disposing of your wishful thinking I am determined to recall it

4:24 branded

A brand better than a tattoo

So you say so you say

424,  ReggaeFriday,  11  11. 22
1102,  Saturday,  12  11. 22
Earth  Omens and Portents I: The Driver  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDLaPKpym3o  found it provocativestimulating to play it then a minute later to play it over itself

11.11.22


he reared up onto his kneesThas thinking baby 
                                                  he was prone to understanding that about her
You heard me?

When you talk I listen 

I didn’t think you could hear me.

Im listening for orders I want to please you 
she gasped 
             had finished herself off with her fingersclutching a breastpinching her nipple writhed  wiggled her hips
  he dug it

when she opened her eyes again  dreamy   when they refocused she smiled at him 
                                                                                          I think I think best on my back.
I like how you think  Im happy to do wha I canmy part 

  Your part.
Yes

I could use your partbut gently . . I’m really sensitive. 
                                                               Ooooooh

2142,  Thurday,  3  11. 22
1336,  ReggaeFriday,  11  11. 22


absently he took hot water for his tea off the stove the clock above the electric burners read 9:33

turninround he stepped to the sink to pour the water into his mug over it  
                                                                            Whawastha he wondered  whawas I supposed to remember 
  violently his eyes leapt from their socketsrappelled to his chestpunched through it and out his back 
                                                                                                          9:35  
as he set the mug on the counterturnedround again they speedily slopped back into his skull  he rubbed them with his knuckles 
          they were correct

  aah he recalled  eye appointment this afternoon 
                                                     he wasnt seeing things correctly though he wasnt sure that either an optometrist or ophthalmologist could help 
his eyes saw what they wanted to see
                                            he was along for the ride

0935,  Thursday,  3  11. 22
1252,  ReggaeFriday,  11  11. 22
Peggy Lee  Is That All There Is?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QPP6UgkmyM4


machnamh a dheanamh ar 
                              legit Irish he had a tough time with English   to think about  reflect   deliberate 
he thought things over plenty 
                               hed side with Lucifer when Lucifer told archangel Michael   Non serviam I will not serve
Michael chose to serve 
                         and going deep theyd side with James Joyce his Ulysses 100 this year  I will tell you what I will do and what I will not do. I will not serve that in which I no longer believe, whether it calls itself my home, my fatherland, or my church; and I will try to express myself in some mode of life or art as freely as I can and as wholly as I can, using for my defence the only arms I allow myself to use – silence, exile, and cunning.

reflect

deliberate

not time wasted to know ones self

1541,  Thursday,  10  11. 22
1204,  ReggaeFriday,  11  11. 22

10.11.22

Gene Hackman


suddenly awakened out of pure blackhe usually dreamed  made him feel awkward inept 

he hadnt been compelled by his bladder or bowelswhich would have been sound reasons to wake nobody wants to soil their bed 
         he rolled onto his side and saw the clocks hands read 2:37 a battery-powered travel alarm his wife swore by
now forty years old and since she couldnt be beside him it was there in her stead 
                                                                                    far cry from 3AM the witching hour which he didnt anticipate he was adept at placing kernels in his head if he set alarmsthough usually woke prior to them the hour did not compel himThe power of Christ compels you! he laughed Ah  that tickled him whenever The Exorcist jumped in with both feet like Indiana Jones crucifix rather than bullwhip the dynamic duo  inevitably they triggered in his head the phrases origin from the Catholic Rite of Exorcism  I adjure you, ancient serpent, he liked snakes by the Judge of the living and the dead, by your Creator, and the Creator of the world, by Him who has power to send you to hell. Depart immediately with fear and with your army of terror. Depart from this servant (name), who takes refuge in the bosom of the Church. 
                       he preferred the clipped version I adjure you, ancient serpent…to depart from this servant of God, whom almighty God has made in His image. Yield, therefore, yield not to my own person but to the minister of Christ. For it is the power of Christ that compels you. 
                                           he was certain he wasnt wakened to recite those passages in his head

Wait for it 

Woud you go back to sleep to one of his inner Mariachi

Sleep  I was but you woke me with your mumblingtumbling words longwindedness heshe shehe looked around Christ Appropriate  Its the middle of the night

Yah

So Im tellin ya  Wait for it 
For wha

Patience Crazy ya can prattle on with memorised passages but you cant wait . .
. . I don wait

I know you say you believe tha  though sometimesboobie ya don have a choice This is one of those times

he cradled one hand in the other behind his head  his shoulders groaned

Thas not comfortable

No it is not

Woudnt ya rather be comfortable while you wait

No I woud not Perhaps my duress will hasten whatever this process is

It coud be sadistic

Which woud be the only place in my existence if I was

Makes sense

Go back to sleep
Nah 
      Ive counseled you to wait  Im of my word

We are 


his shoulders were displeasedached

their groaning woke other inners Wha the hells going on

Were waiting

Waiting for wha

No idea 
         so those who woke waited too

the room was filling

 

    a belch  a smoky breathgasp 

Wait for it 


then hethey heard a solemn voice repeat  over and over repeating for him to memorise so when he went to sleep and woke again hed remember 
                            The big horse caught me in the mouth with a hoof studded with nails The big horse caught me in the mouth with a hoof studded with nails The big horse caught me in the mouth with a hoof studded with nails . . .

he took his arms down 

his shoulders sighed gratefully At last 


   the voice became more and more quiet until it utterly subsided

he cheated he kept paper and pen beside the bedscribbled it down

the Mariachi turned in

they left him wide awake

he closed his eyes

eventually hed fall asleep

he wasnt one to submit to sleeplessness and get up

he was going to get wha he went to bed for

taking its sweet time his hypnagogic state finally swept over him 
                                                                    he dreamed
he dreamed of going to a night clubmaybe Rick’s Café Americain with Gene Hackman  Hackman invited him 


waking in the morningclocks hands said 8:03 
                                                time to wake
his mouth was dry
                    despite thatlaughing like dirt he recited The big horse caught me in the mouth with a hoof studded with nails 
            he had memorised it

   Whawas he going to do with tha 

237AM,  Thursday,  10  11. 22
1103,  Thursday
Mogwai  Take Me Somewhere Nice  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CK1zCi0z_Hk