he thought there was his mistakehe thought 

                                                  he didnt think like others 

Maw  ya drop me on my head when I was a baby

Heckno . . maybe your father . you were fat so I was always very conscious of where I was where you were so we didn’t have an accident.

Dad  ya drop me on my head when I was a baby

No. Why do you ask?

I don think like other people

No you don’t, never have.

                           But you understand that’s not necessarily a bad thing.

I don think it is

Good, that’s good.

                    Son, you know your mindwho you are . . so don’t back down, and when you’re wrong admit it . . which I also know of you.

Thas because you and Maw raised me right

We raised youthat’s all we can take credit for, whether we were right or not I can’t say, though I appreciate you think so.

he chuckled  You can poll your brothers and sisters, they may not agree with you.

No no thank you I know they don think like me  I have a hard time asking them for the time of day

Oh, son, that’s harsh.

I am I know  havent time for ignorance or stupidity although there are vastly more who are ignorant  seems they don wanna work that hard

Well, son . . different strokes eh?

Maybe different if so many werent the same

2040,  Twosday,  11  10. 22

1206,  Sunday, 16  10. 22

it was a bookcase a barrister bookcase not a sexy birthday gift utterly functional  she always knew exactly what to give him 

         she knew he was simple

                                               

Awbabe I love it

Yes you do.

he laughed 

             Yare not even going to feign modesty 

  No.  she smiled sensational dimples 

                                       Many books you have most people don’t . or even know exist and, besides, the girls will eventually be interested anif the books are laying about they’ll get into them without us knowing . . they’re not youthey she noddedshe nodded absently when something worried her  they have to be older than you were when you first read them . you were precocious for your age   I didntwe didnt have vacations as kids so books were my escape   Yes, I know, I understand.   I wasnt necessarily precocious   Stop. You were.   Keeping the books in the bookcase, your library, you tell the girlslet them know . they have to ask you if they want to read them . . then we’ll know together what they’re reading . . . your parents never knew what you were reading.

I understandsmart However if they ask theyre welcome to whaever books I have

Yes, but they’ll have to ask first.  You didn’t, you sought them out, bought them . . how . when so many were banned . . how?

he winked I knew the right people impressed booksellers I was parchedthey coudnt resist satisfying my thirst 

                                                                                                                     So you understandwere in agreement  girls ask  my books are for the taking

Yes, yes . I do . . but they are not as . promiscuous . as youdespite what you think.  Girls are different than boys.

Not my girls . .

. . Yes your girls. They, despite what you think, are not as outrageous as you. They’ll look at the books. Wonder. Maybe even try to acquire titles without coming to you . or me . but despite your, what shall I call it . . . heavyhandedness . that’s correct I think . . they aren’t you.

Heavyhandedness his turn to nod   Theyre not like you

No.

    No, you’ve made sure of that . but they have my tact, share some sensibilities that you  have  not.  They have my measured sensibilities.

  they did 

              he teased her and the girls that they raised him

                 

2147,  Saturday, 15  10. 22

1105,  Sunday,  16  10. 22

Zero 7  Home  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZW2gw58spU

the badgering continues 

                        cunt Dior cunt Ralph Lauren now joined by cunt Facebook the only distinction is BOOk played the intrigueFear card in an email “Someone tried to log-in to Your Account; user . . .” 

                                                                                          he doesnt have an account

nor will he ever 

               he could hear his bro bray Nothing’s absolute, man. 

  Wanna bet your left testicle Tommy

                                      his name wasnt Tommy but it played nicely off testicle had he said ball he would have said Bobby he found doubleconsonants ending in y fuckin hard to resist  he had been a good Catholic Deny Deny Deny though he quit practising  joking Gawd had let him out of the yellow Presley Cadillac on a deserted shoulder then drove past him time and time again asif the highway was an oval  Hed slow downhe had his thumb out hitchhiking then act asif He suddenly recognised him All-knowing Matthew 10:30 and spedup again Gawd wasnt funny  but maybe if he wore wings Hed stop  however angels are forbidden from attending race tracks so he couldnt shear one jerryrig himself beatific 

                 he practised a face in the mirror with wings he could pull it off  fool Gawd

he wouldnt be in this mindframe if cunts left him alone

1403,  Saturday,  15  10. 22

Nice Inch Nails  Heresy  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fh31JDDpM5k

as he walked towards the front of the market along the refrigerated premixed salads chopped kale collard mustard paltry display of tofu vegetarian options he saw her  she was deep in thought wore her store smock was holding considering two small prepackaged salads possibly for her afternoon break 

                                                                                 through his mask  Hey ya how ya doin 

  she surfaced  recognised him   through her mask  Oh hi, fine, how are you?

Well thank you

                 Need a coin

Yeah tell me about it, stopping here I thought I knew exactly what I wanted . . 

. . And

Lousy wandering eye.

Impulsive

she eyed him smiled 

                      You’ll never know. he thought he might Hispanic creamedcoffeebrown dark eyes crazy lashes  Built

  Say.

Yes

I understand you went out with two of the girls from here.

No  I ran into them at the bar we shared a couple of drinks

Shared a couple of drinks?  her eyes twinkled

Conversation

That’s what you call it . . conversation?

Awshit couple of kiss an tellers . .

. . Oh yes.

I thought that nonsense was reserved for guys in locker rooms who want to brag

We have a locker room here, in back.  eyes twinklingmask creeping a bit up her face

Havin a good timehuh  howbout you pull your mask down or aside so I can see your ridiculous grinsee your lips curl at what I think are sharp canines

Howbout you imagine? 

                            And who knows . . maybe we’ll run into each other at a bar . . we can have conversation.

  When

after 2300,  Thursday,  13  10. 22

1107,  ReggaeFriday,  14  10. 22

  a penisee 

   virgin

her sanctity

he tried real hard to tempt her

in the vicinity of bed

Ohwell  took the blow job

1149,  Thursday,  13  10. 22

1222,  ReggaeFriday, 14  10. 22

Dior came first hard to believe cunt Ralph Lauren followed in his footsteps 

                                                                               algorithms aiming high just what did they takemilk from their sneaking of his perceived preferences or rather make of their gigabyte desirestheirs to try to manufacture him

they were way offbase

                            without feigning he threw from the rubber to first Ralph wasnt paying attentionmight say oblivious he lead too far offcaught him dead to rights on the base path the first baseman chuckling casually walked towards him Ralph broke for secondSMACK ball in the secondbasemans glove 

                                                                                     he should have an ampoule of cyanide to bitehe wasnt escaping hed been caughtBIG as life on the infield dirt telegenic but got nowhere to run  he broke back to first had he been Ralph he would rather have been tagged out trying for second not capitulate

                                                                                                     capitulate capitulate

a bitch conceding defeatSMACK ball in the first basemans glove who rapped him hard on the skull with his glove like it was a blackjack he was too far from the bag to even attempt to slide   WAY OUT 

talking to the algorithms 

                           Sorry creeps I prefer colourful local motels to upend hotels an concierges     

1845,  Thursday,  13  10. 22

1010,  ReggaeFriday,  14  10. 22

Zero 7  Destiny  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6gmGJvAc-ws

I didn’t know that was a thing, is that a thing?

Im tellinya

           Pretty innocuous off the tongue should you say in a nonparticipating salon you can easily excuse yourself  say never mind or yogurt 

Yogurt?  

  TCBY the cluelessness in his face was uncomfortable to witness anhe was usually one who dropped acronyms because he thought them clever The countrys best yogurt

                                                But  as I was saying a hairdresser isnt likely to press you they consider their tip the customers always right  right

Ohright . . that makes sense, no pun intended.

not clever None taken 

So how would you bring it up? continuing proof he wasnt

How woud you 

                   the vacuousness continued Ya keep your ears open eyeballs peeled seques  it killed him Yare clever

I’m not sure I’m that clever.

Then be blatant but keep in mind Never mind keep yogurt in your back pocket

he laughed

            Yogurt in my pants sounds unpleasant.

Id agree

TCB huh?

Yes correct 

            Anyet again  participating salons  Yare in the know he wasnt  he was yanking his chain  he had refused to alter his online dating resumerefused to appreciate that a single dealbreakernot three or four killed the pursuit the appeal   So if a woman owns a dog, you really have no interest in dating her?   If she has small children yare not interested   No I’m not, but they aren’t dogs.   Arent they

he rolled his eyes  Again, TCB means?

Trim cut blow

Trim?

Aesthetician you see one on and off hence trimtrimming things up Cut cut your hair Anablows a blow 

                                                                                                              Theres no expectation of you returning the favour unlike wha I an others woud consider normal sex

Yeah. he sneeredsmacked his lips  Not so much. 

Ya really need to alter your resume man

I'm not going to minimise my chances.

  Yare lying

             For someone who says theyre honest tha behooves me

It’s just a little white lie.

Keep tellin yourself tha keep tellin yourself that  Jaysus

0736,  Saturday,  17  9. 22

1324,  Thursday,  13  10. 22

they were introduced by a casual acquaintance 

he bumped into themhadnt gone there expecting to see anyone 

he went because the bar played pro football games on a big screen muted

                                                                              thats how he watched them at home could do without the gasbaggingthe commentary he knew what he saw      

after a pleasant hello a brief exchange he excused himself and made his way to the bar where he moved a stool aside and stood to watch the game 

                                The usual Billy his usual a double Irish Uinta Detour on tap 

a while later she came up on himtouched his shoulderwound around and stood with her back to the screen so he was able to avert his eyes catch the game

smart cookie  

team he rooted for was up a touchdown driving  inside field goal range 

he asked if he could buy her a drink   

Let me think.

he liked women who thought 

I see you’re wearing a ring.

he didnt follow her eyeshe was 

                                   I am

It’s okay you’re out?

he thought but didnt say what he thought 

                                                Im a big boy Why wouldnt I my wife doesnt mind

she tipped her head like a dog catching a dog whistle

                                                         She doesn’t mind? You have an arrangement . . an open marriage?

She doesnt mind 

                   he let her dig a hole  she could as easily have said no thank you 

but she was interested 

he was interesting

he ask if she wanted a drink  not fuck   

So you have an open marriageyou’re upfront about it? 

                                                           a spade full  then another  

She doesnt mind 

                    he wasnt helping

I don’t know if I want to have a drink with a married man.

Im not married

A divorced man . tried that . . messy.

  No  Unfortunately my wife died 

                                    her hole was pretty deep but he thought if shed like hed buy her a drinkhelp her refill it

I’m sorry.

Me too

I . . I . .

Made an assumption

embarrassed Made something . . didn’t I?   

Buy you a drink

Yes . please . . that would be nice.

Fine  Billy 

             Youll excuse me if occasionally I glance at the game he was up ten

I like football, we can watch together.

Cheering for one over the other

she glanced at the screen looking back he saw she recognised their uniforms 

                                                                                  Who are you cheering for?

No  Rooting for one over the other 

                                    Billy came up  What will you have? 

I’ll have what you’re having.

Double up the usual please Billy

Yabetcha.

  And

You’re sparse with your words.

I am

Chiefs.

Yare beginning to see the light                                 

1840,  Monday,  3  10. 22

1411,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  12  10. 22

Dior showed up at his door 

                           not his actual door rather a pestering online ad Johnny Depp playing guitarair guitar wasnt a Depp fan either apparently algorithms jimmyinglooking over his shoulder under his bed in his closet around the corner had their heads up their e-asses

                                   Ee-i-ee-i-oh

                                                          missed the memo

phoney shit need not apply hence scents colognes cosmetics fashion or influencers

barking up the wrong tree

this coon fooled em

could have been the mask 

                          maybe e-asses thought a cyberbandit broke in compromised him were trying to sell the bandito on Sauvage

              Dior stood a better chance plying him with Sausage  Nahnot really

2051,  Twosday,  11  10. 22

1238,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  12  10. 22

Jimmy Jones  Ee-i-ee-i-oh  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yTN4BtfXug4

so many bugged that marriage should only be between a man and a woman

It's more than four thousand years old. 

tried and true 

tried and true 

                  hmmm its originalprimary purpose was to bind think about that bondage bind a woman to a man “thus to guarantee that a man’s children were truly his biological heirs” and what of the children he conceives outside of marriage 

biology he wants to get his rocks off  marriage also provided that a woman became a mans property

put the shoe on the other foot

 

would a man submit to marriage if he became a womans propertyOH stop it some might scold Times have changed 

bottom-line

            marriage is a contract between two people antes upped when god is tossed into the mix nevertheless a contract 

 

he was sick and tired of politicians running on the sanctity of marriage between a man and a woman       

1518,  Twosday,  11  10. 22 

0958,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  12  10. 22 

https://theweek.com/articles/528746/origins-marriage 

Beatles  Ob-La-Di Ob-La-Da  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_J9NpHKrKMw

if one doesnt know where hes coming from its a worthless line (Marv Sin City “Now that’s one fine-looking coat you’re wearing there.”) 

                 he said Thas one fine-looking dog you got there

 

she was a small groomed yippee mutt 

                                        might have been purebred but he couldnt give two shitshe wasnt fond of dogs

unsuspecting the dog-walker said Thank you.

  Yah

        Now do me a favour shut her up  cuz ifya don Ill either break her neck or fuck her cant tolerate yippee-yi-o dogs

evidently he proved credible 

                           the walker snatched her up  indignantly Well I never! 

Maybe shed quit yappin 

I NEVER.

Have now

the bitch yipped 

Gag her quick or her worlds gonnabe woeful 

                                               since walker held her Maybe ya can tuck an run

evidently he proved convincing 

                                  walker took off on a dead runrunning faster than he looked 

funny how when incentivised someone can lend if not assure productivity

he turned his backwalked in the other direction 

from afar he heard a yip 

                           bitch has to have the last word

  

1408,  Thursday,  24  3. 22

1245,  Twosday,  11  10. 22

Marv  Sin City  1:46minute-mark  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkIwopkWD_M 

NSync  Space Cowboy  (Yippie-Yi-Yay)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aS-cymQhbzk

Viktor Orban is full of shit 

                           which is what he shares with the former president should never have been

https://www.politico.eu/article/viktor-orban-donald-trump-end-war-ukraine-russia/

Hungarys autocrat then wonders in a tweet where Former is

                                                                  a funny funny man

https://www.politico.eu/article/hungarian-viktor-orban-to-twitter-where-is-donald-trump/

Orban follows 42 people – including Giorgia Meloni Matteo Salvini Recep Tayyip Erdogan Jair Bolsonaro Tucker Carlson Jordan Peterson 

                     OH  the pope

https://twitter.com/USAmbHungary/status/1579855367181565955?s=20&t=J7CQNY1U775SHm17mOl-cw

    hmm   abductive reasoning if it looks like a duck swims like a duck quacks like a duck its probably . . .

1031,  Twosday,  11  10. 22

cats got into his papers againscattered them everywhere across the studio  looks like they had a ball

he wasnt upset

like people cats will be cats

the only daunting thing was that he didnt number the pages or date them he had written at a fever pitch the day beforeexhausted himself he went to bed without undressinglaid on top the blanket 

                                                                                        there were better than thirty pagesboth sides though curiously he failed when finishing a side to turn it rotate the bottom up whichhe usually did had he he would have halved his work IDIOT  Lamebrain

                                                                   anwhen he became consumedexcited his handwriting suffered  even he struggled to read it most people found his quiet handwriting illegible

he had his work cut out for him

he went at it with stubborn humour

after shuffling the pages togethergrateful the cats hadnt shredded any though they liberally puncturedtore holes with tooth or nail he put on his reading glasses to assemble them

ten minutes in he found what looked like beginhere if it was that was where he started next word was either stroll scroll scrawll he took liberties spelling if it suited him or his purpose the two were not the same 

                                                                                                      what followed was something like a text bubble cartoon bubble textburp cartoonburp evidently he couldnt make up his mindliked options they looked wet how does a simple line drawing look wet at their edges he could imagine they were silverlighted slick as spit expectorated crudely on the page 

                                    either stroll scroll scrawll an ancient bug swallowed in amber  an unidentified bug  Nope, never saw anything like that before.   Things got twelve legs   Is it two bugs? two insects six plus six is twelve.  Don see two heads   Me either.   So what did you mean   I don’t remember.   Its not even written in the same ink as the rest of the page   Like a lace a splash of magma.   Yah 

eventually he cobbled the piece together

if something would have given him a headache this ought to have done it

Knock on wood

zip headache

1341,  Thursday,  7  4. 22

231preferred,  Monday – Indigenous People Day,  10  10. 22

Loure  Ruminate in Blue  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iFw-EaiRtSU

muzak

so unappealing

                who are the clowns that decide the crap pumped through speakers onto the heads into the ears of patronsconsumers 

                     perhaps it speaks to corporate worlds callous take-it-or-leave-it attitude their top-down quiet disdain Sssh . . We got em by the balls, where else they going to go? 

                                                         hed paraphrase vice-presidentthen president Calvin Coolidge after elected President Warren G. Harding died in office – the only good vice-president who ascended to the presidency after the presidents sudden death was Theodore Roosevelt -- the business of the America is business 

                                                                                                          thats their valuation of hard-earned American dollars their sacred bottom-line their exceptional indispensable primacy 

   perhaps 

              what did he know

although he knew crap when he heard it

he had to listen to it as the elevator rose

                                        entering in a rush behind him she pressed 20  Goddammit. she turned to him  apologetically  I’m terribly sorry . I meant 22.

he was riding to 28

                     Don sweat it accidents happen I appreciate your consideration  Thank you its fine

Thank you.

the doors shut they began to rise 

                                       OhmyGod I hate this music.

Muzak

Yes, correct, muzak.

You understand why they play it

Why?  There's a why?

he smiled it looked like she could take a joke despite the obvious dismay that chased her in

she smiled back 

                  I’ll bite . . why? 

he liked bite  looked like she could help herself to big mouthful 

                                                             Its to give people cover when they fart

OhmyGod! dismay fled her face she laughed mighty hard  didnt cover her mouth

1550,  Thursday,  6  10. 22

1038,  Monday – Indigenous People Day,  10  10. 22

http://www.thisdayinquotes.com/2010/01/business-of-america-is-business.html 

muzak  Beatles’ All My Loving  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Taz7Zi7BEcw