they were discussing  gradients  how one exhibitsare simultaneously introvert and extrovert

they his friendnot an acquaintance arguedwere adamant that they were an extrovert only went so far as to say extra observant

he let the moment ride   took a breath   yes he was an extrovert 

                                                                    Yare extraobservant 

I am.

Evidence

You don’t think it’s obvious?

  Obvious  No 

                  Im majority introvert however were I to place my situational awareness beside yours the Venn diagramwe know how they an graphs excite you my sphere woud dwarf yours my perceptions understanding if I woudthough I don predictions   exceed yours

An whilein this moment you might say otherwise that Im wrong defensively saw the colour was rising in his face theres no need to be offended  I am more observant than you 

                                                         No  I don notice men runninghe couldnt resist the dig however I am aware of them They don attract my attention because thad be a waste of my time 

he took a moment 

let the blood fall 

                     I disagree.

Then lets leave it at tha

What if I don’t wish too?

   Id remind you you said you wished you coud defrag your brain  Unsolicited   

1409,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22

1218,  Saturday,  1  10. 22

situational awareness  https://www.ckju.net/en/dossier/situational-awareness-what-it-and-why-it-matters-management-tool

Putins address yesterday:  http://en.kremlin.ru/events/president/news/69465

evidently batshit isnt in sole possession of Former 

or other autocrats who call themselves President

1046,  Saturday,  1  10. 22

Dionne Warwick  What the World Needs Now (is Love)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDLymfXVqYc

   Wha  what to make of wakingup at 0404hrs back to back then this morning 0606

first inclinationhis by his daughter hop on numerologys back 

                                                                 8 plus 8 plus 12 equals 28  2 plus 8 is 10  1 plus 0 equals 1

1 is fiercely independent competitive determined values their freedom are original authentic exhibit leadership qualities are self-reliant 

                          theres thatwhich sounds like him

 

but tomorrow theres tomorrow morning 

                                            and tomorrow morningthis morning  0707better 

an hour later figures still hungup on Chicago time  had visited

he waonders 

               7 plus 7 equals 14  1 plus 4  5 

                                                  28 plus 5  23    5  Nawhat

5 is curious craves freedom adventure is able to flow and adapt when experiences feel too routine or predictable they leave 5 is truly attached to being unattached

                                        SO WHICH IS IT

zero digit zero digit is four days long

but then theres tomorrow morning 

                                       and like shooting craps his run was over  it didnt matter what the time  it wasnt zerodigitzerodigit looks like a food dish from a foreign country 

so according to the scheme of thingstaken as a whole he determined that this queer 4day exercise ended in 5  a number without any significant appeal to him 

                                        playing roundball or hardball in high school he didnt elbow his way to the front of the line to get the jersey numbered 5 it was 9

                                             the number that represents completion not finality cyclical ending one cycle and the potential for another to begin 9 acts as an usher in this process of transitiontransformation it absorbs from a spiritual source and delivers the real world

                                              a humanitarian at heart who seeks the greater good and having passed through hardshipsharshestships is wiser stronger more aware  thus making them able to understand those who are struggling and is willing to help 

                                    NAH  didnt sound like him either

449preferred,  Reggaefriday,  30  9. 22

0945,  Saturday,  1  10. 22

the cluster around the bar looked at him uncomfortablycouple gals muttered What a mean thing to say

                                                                                                            I didnt say it

he did I repeat it because I agree 

he said  I think I could do with having my brain defragged.

 Yes  Thawoud be beneficial he couldnt have been more enthusiastic 

they viedengaged in maddening back and forths as he stubbornly disremembers who he either conversed with or saw on youtube recently confusing him with the woman who talked about October 28 kind of glaring a year wasnt attached to it it was his kidbrothers birthday '69 

they had been texting about the upcoming Oath Keepers trial  jury selection completed early that day

  :  :  Just for the record  October 28 The March on Rome 

just for the record was nomenclature he used that he disliked  

                                                                  :  :  Out of context – what are you talking about?

  :  :  Deduce. Strongmen (book u got me)… fascism… March on Rome.

deduce again vocabulary meant to incite him  suggesting he arrive at either date or march with reasoningdraw a logical conclusion

  :  :  Saying March on Rome means nothing to me. Or Oct28. What?

  :  :  You told me yesterday the March on Rome was nearing its 100th celebration… but not until Oct28… That’s all.

he imagined Porky the Pig That’s all, folks! 

                                           :  :  I did not – only handed the book off to you from the library because you wanted to read it – otherwise had I said I would have recalled the date – news to me. 

he didnt text for five hours

                             when he did it he replied to a text he sent him minutes earlier  :  :  Sweet moon a new moon slivered brilliantwhite low in the sky 

                                         texted he saw it was watching 7 Years in Tibet on Netflix 

maybe if his brain was defragged he could recall

                                                    but in the meantime they were going to have to remain dependent on his recollections his relatively unerring long long  long  memory 

                                                                           if he didnt lose his mind first

420preferred,  Thursday,  18  8. 22

1110,  Reggaefriday,  30  9. 22

  Christ  how many times on a single occasion is one supposed to be honest  really

she handed him nine dollars the difference of three dollarsthe difference between $21.99 and $18.99 times three holdingreading his store receipt she somefuckinghow concluded he bought three bags of catfud three times three equals nine or three plus three plus three equals ninehe didnt know how she did her math  the total purchase on his receipt was $30.87  three times the erred $22 is $66 less three pennies is $65.97 

                                                                              he hadnt a clue how she devised he bought three thirteen pound bags  over his shoulder a canvas bag  the catfud stuck out of the top of it 

                                                                                                     seemed  Obvious

he handed the nine dollars back explaining she made an errorwas wrong

she blinked real big nice eyes  a petite young gal 

                                                     thats when she said I thought you bought three bags

handing him the five spot back Thank you for your honesty.

he pondered

let the five lay flat on his palm

  Yare welcome

he withdrew his hand folded the bill into others in order before he excused himself thanked her for her time 

walking outadjusting the bag on his shouldercrushing the top of the catfud so it wouldnt jab him in the armpit as he walked the mile and a half home he decided one time is honest two times stupid 

                                                                                   he wasnt fond of stupid AND this was an ongoing trifle between him and the market it repeatedly erred in its favor that how business works it was his business to catch their errors 

                                 BUYER BEWARE

1419,  Thursday,  29  9. 22

  . . . wasnt something you see everydayin fact he hadnt seen it before   but he was in Chicago

hed seen women applying makeup in their rearview mirror it turned sharply left so they could see themselves without leaning he assumeddidnt see that they returned it to its functioning position after they finished their face 

he was grateful he wasnt born a woman not with the expectations societyculture heaps on them 

                                                                                                     had he been born a woman he would have been a real bitch

truth be known he preferred unvarnished women women raw  occasionally a quick toucheyeliner blush  occasionally lipstick 

        he didnt trot after those who were high maintenance 

his patience didnt soar to those heights 

what he saw in traffic waiting at a red light was a man behind the wheel either trimming his moustachehe hoped in the rearview orhe hoped not pulling hairs out of his nose

he looked to be of Arab descent

                                  he was able to watch because he wasnt drivingsat in the backseat inbetween  and did notdid not point it out to anyone in the car 

was too busy thinking

                       Thas not something ya see every day

when traffic beganlurked forward the gentlemenstill his hands at his facewhat-have-you veered left into the lane he was riding in then corrected abruptlyright 

                                      as they passed he glanced and saw the gentlemans eyes shining

                                                                                                        convincing evidence 

then quickly out the rear window he saw him wiping his eyes with the heel of his hand 

SOLD

noonish,  Monday,  19  9. 22

1126,  Thursday,  29  9. 22

When you knock on a door after youve knocked step aside  Do not stand in front of the door

he was teaching an employee how to repossess furniture

his employer rightly  thought that his practises were too  dramatic  for the company  he walked a fine edge between legal and illegal  he assured him that when he let furniture he told each and every customer that if they refused to work with himhad money issues if they were dishonest crossed him hed come for the furniture  that was sufficient to be legal 

         he also told his boss if he took repos away from himhis methods theyd never have a successful repossession again

You teach them what you know.  And we’ll see. 

Why step aside?

Because 

           I told you to 

   Im not keen on because because when I was young whenever my parents had no intention of discussing whaever matter I brought up or questioned them  that was their single word answer  Subject Closed

Well . . I’m curious . .

. . I was too

              Suffice to say  you familiar with no knock warrants cops pull them off

Yeah. They go through a door without warning . .

. . Guns drawn

                 Because theyre fearful but the laws on their side Lotsa people have ended up dead

Standing aside is the oneeighty of a no knock warrant People on the other side of that door want what they have an yare there to take it away 

                             Its not a pretty situation Things can get hot

Don stand in front of the door 

he learned the laws end small claims court did not lose a case he brought

    company did not conduct a successful repo after he was relieved of what he believed was a promise to his customershis responsibility

1338,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22

1014,  Thursday,  29  9. 22

Doors  Break on Through (To the Other Side)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NFeUko-lQHg  his repo theme song

   his father is 93 

                    he wants only to Eat Drink and be Merry 

they havent found the right dress yet

 

0404 back-to-back mornings,  Thursday,  29  9. 22

Kinks  Lola  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LemG0cvc4oU

he slowly peeled the package she gave him 

                                              her handsanxious fingersentwined    she couldnt take itgasped  It’s a tshirt.

he smilednodded expected that  Thank you sweetheart 

                                                         but did not speedup his unpeeling

You don’t shake your gifts. I like to shake mine for hints.

  No still peeling I don 

                            casually distracted However knowing that bit of information baby Im terriblytempted to gift you a vial of nitroglycerin

Hahaha . . you’re funny.

   he liked teasing her  just enough for a little BANG 

he finally reached the pink cardboard box inside

                                                   maybe the tshirt was a ploy  rather she filled it with sticky raspberry-filled Bismarcks  a faint fruity scent emanated 

she noticed 

             I slightly sprayed perfume.

Aw its fragrant very pleasing like the lipstick kiss marks on the back of her envelopes

I thought you’d like that.

I do

     it smelled like the insides of her wrists elbows at her throat behind her ears behind her knees 

                                                                                                          Really  a tshirt

Yes. she trembled with excitement Open it you’re killing me . I want to know if you like it or not.

he grinned 

            Im sure Ill like it 

You’re stalling open it.

                        just like a kid  nice how surprises could still render her 

Yes

     Im opening it 

  Quit saying so do it.

he pulled the top free undid the paper a green tshirt embroidered Provocateur mimicking her handwriting 

                                                                                                               she genuinely touched him                                        

she smiled It’s what you do.

I love it 

         Though the catll be out of the bag

  There’s that, but I like to think when you wear it there’ll be no excuse from someone not to know and take offence.

You enjoy offending people.  

Not necessarily  if they earn it

Seems it’s earned . as you say . . frequently.

Frequently not always

Would you say very frequently? smiling like a Cheshire Cat dimples to die for

  Id say  Idsay I read a lot about a lot of different subjects

Very frequently?

                  Answer the question.

Apparently

Yes . apparently . . casualties of one being well-read.

Oh I like that  Can I cite youquote you

Sure. That’d be nice I’d be happy if you did . in a sense would complete me.

Complete you  How so

Citing me . . exciting me. 

Oh  I like that too 

                      Thank you baby

You’re welcome, love.

1523,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  31  8. 22

1139,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  9. 22

Oohbrother

on-line dating advisor

  Wha the fuck

he knew the nations adults were majority illiterate but he didnt think they were majority stupid 

dating advisor 

              Lemme guess Theyre akin to those hacks who wrote pamphlets How to Pick-Up Women advertised in the backpages of comicbooks and Mens magazines

                                                   If you need an advisor maybe you shouldnt be dating

he was on-lineon his PC when the advertisement populatedflickered at the right all the so-very-clever they-think games programmers play to attract attention not unlike flashers dressed in raincoats reminded him when he was flashed by a female friend for Halloween Trick or Treat! she criedconfusing him briefly  wasnt the Trick and Treat the same

   they were 

 dating advisors

   life coaches

    CHRIST 

              if people think Putins threat of deploying nuclear weapons threatens mankind  he can get in line 

  

1638,  Twosday,  27  9. 22

0946,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  9. 22

Hedgehoppers Anonymous  It’s Good News Week https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4KzGKnuUuc

not liquorLick her 

                 his mother said 

was the quickest way to a woman's heart.

he took her at her word

evidently he was a talentproved his mother right

now most mothers wouldnt availenable their son that tidbit

but she liked him more than his brothers

Keep it to yourself she cautioned him 

                                        If they figure it out on their own, God bless ‘em; but I doubt it.

prior to 1300,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  14  9. 22

0855,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  28  9. 22

Leonard Cohen  Avalanche  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3f0ADuVJhYQ

he went homehome was where his parents made theirs because to date he hadnt found a place he might call homeset roots

   all things temporary since he left home

he went home to attend his fathers transitionalfluid he hadnt sought it ninetyfirst birthday

when he left home his father older than his mother by almostexactly two years the eighteen the twentysecond she drafted off him

     50 60 70 80 drafting48 58 68 78

his father would be 89 

                         but that early Spring Trumpvirus his mother quit drafting 

  her death astonished himhe was devastated

if his father turned 88 of course she would too 

                                                   she did not   she let loose the reins

letting loose 

             she diminished his sense of homeof belonging reminded him of mortality to a degree he thought prior he understood 

               he did not

a broken tricycle is not a bicycle

                                 his mother was the wheel who turned and dragged his father and him forwarddragged them in her wake

now they were static 

side by side

             while they embraced their shared axle-axis their unbroken spokes did not turn

 

he still hadnt figured out what to do

griefs funny that way

approaching 1700hrs,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 14  9. 22

1558,  Twosday,  27  9. 22

    Ouchie 

Stop doing that

beat up with a bowling ball

wasnt his usual tavern

but the barmaid was hot

0535,  Moanday,  26  9. 22

1127,  Twosday,  27  9. 22

The Power Station  Get It On (Bang a Gong)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O2vHbXI2p4k

He understands that everything he observes doesnt have to be recorded documented chronicled commentated yah

Youve seen him workthe stacks of paper wha do you think 

                                                               when his innerMariachi talk about him behind his backso they think he listens  they thinkincorrectly that because hes able to shut them out of his internal dialogues their conversations are private 

often forgetting

                 no him no them

I think nobody has that kind of time

That kind of time will always be a matter of how one chooses to spends ittha he makes the effort is sufficient  He understands hell fall short

An thas because he doesnt seeNo no see is wrong   perceive doesnt perceive things like others do

Evidently 

           Recall the feather molt this morning bobbing above him  it coaxingcircling many many times before disappearing above the overhangthe hummingbirds at the feedertheir shadows on the window  a teeming he coudnt take his eyes off Whered he go  Suddenly he was vacantya did feel that

  Yes 

       The scant shooting star last night his riveted appreciation  he thought he might be the only person in the world who witnessed it

Yes The ghost of the English walnut in the yardthe apricot ghost beyond it vaporous but there

The bird shadows thrown on the ground around him as he walks and readscatching them peripherally then gazing at them

Then suddenly gone  Vacant

Wha is tha

I don know

addressing them they flinched 

                               Shoudoccur to you  Times I don feel Im of this place don belong  Long to be where I fit

Fit Thas odd to say 

Odder to be 

the Mariachi shrugged  the many gathered beyond them shrugged too

1045,  Sunday,  25  9. 22

1047,  Twosday,  27  9. 22

E.S.T.  Inner City, City Lights  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iajtly6zH1U 

a pensee

   phonebook 

new black ledger

need to bring it up-to-date

never wise to procrastinate

for those to learn Im dead

0535,  Monday,  26  9. 22

Hmm . . she said feels like he’s decided for us.

                                                   his girlfriend wasnt being accusatorycondescending she could be OHbrother could she honestly but no she was being considerateconsidering him and her in the sudden realm they only teased about while lying in bed until they silenced each other his cock in her mouth his mouthtongue in at her pussy hard to hear when at opposite ends an over slurping an sucking occasional gags 

it was golden hour

                    sun was setting 

in a new bar

             friends told them about it krazygood mixed drinks his girl was a witch an alchemist how could they not give it a try

the front door swungopen it was their habit to sit side by side facing it 

                                                                      in breezed a raspberryblonde more raspberry than blonde the sun behind her illuminatedpainted a vivid aura halo around her head and shoulder 

                                                                                                     they were struck

his eyes slid to hers she nodded

the woman enticed themrarely were they enticed 

                                                  such enticements most often played out in their bedroomthey enjoying separate imaginings  he was always curious of them what each saw  anif they could share show  would they

since very few men caught her eyethey had to compete with him he teased they usually acknowledged handsome women they had similar tastes the women looked like her

this one did not

through the doorinside she recognised that they were enjoying her she noddedsmiled said good evening as she passed their table

           there was outdoor seating behind them and while they were attracted to it the inspired décor within held them inside 

after a couple hours a couple drinksmaybe courage he asked his girl what she thought if he bought raspberry a drink he admitted he hadnt shaken her yet 

                                    Funny you should say, neither have I.  

he asked the waitress she floated in an out if she might know what the raspberryblonde outdoors was drinking 

  My kittycat? 

                This is her haunt I know exactly what she’s drinking, or what she might like, sometimes she leaves it to me, leaves me to read her.

Yes please wed like to buy her a drink 

                                          he upped the ante And well have what you serve her

You got it.

Dirty Bird martinis extra olives 

                                  they were stunnedpleasantly flummoxed a favourite of theirs 

not five minutes later raspberry came in to thank them for her drink 

                                                                       putting her hand on Esmeraldas shoulder Thank you for the drink, I’m Madeleine.

Esmeralda said youre welcome her name and Joe We’ve been calling you raspberry, your hair is beautiful.

piqued You’ve been talking about me? Are you the reason why my ears have been ringing?

Intermittently he said We cant be responsible the whole while likely others have noticed you and are intrigued

she smiled big dimples slyly coy I intrigue you?

humoured Esmeralda answered As you know . . yes . you’re very striking.

Thank you. 

            You’re a handsome couple, I noticed when I entered.

We may have noticed you longer finally I understand a sustained glance

                                                                             they laughedharmonised he was in heaven neither Esmeralda or Madeleine covered their mouths

That’s rare, choice, a sustained glance, I haven’t heard that before.

he nodded Its an innarestin story

Perhaps you’ll share it with me, however, I’m with friends, I wanted to thank you for the drink. It’s wonderful to meet you. 

     she shook their hands had a firm handshake and returned outdoors 

later raspberry returned the favourbought them a Dirty Bird 

                                                               Esmeralda said Well, this might be one too many. sighed Could you get me a water? I’ll have to nurse it . . and I have to go to the Ladies room.

he stood helped her with her chair not that she needed it 

                                                           he watched her walk to the rear of the bar until she was out of sight

he dug how she moved

when the waitress passed he asked for two waters no ice

                                                             he thought What a pleasant evening  he gave a private thought about Madeleine and Esmeralda 

it slightly aroused him 

he stopped thoughting 

                        made him laugh 

Esmeralda didnt return for a long while

the bar had filled  he was too involved with Esmeralda 

                                                           only time he looked away from her was when someone or a party entered  it was a popular place 

I’m back I’m sorry you’ll have to excuse me . . I ran into Madeleine in the Ladies room.

   And

And what happens in the Ladies room stays in the Ladies room. she laughed 

                                                                                  I crack myself up.

Clever  clever  She seems nic . . 

. . She is nice, I like her.

You like her I like her 

                       Weve had very few differences while weve been seeing each other  Its nice  Yare nice

Flatterer.

Get me closer to getting into your pants tonight

If you play your cards right.

Whaif I said its in the stars

Optimism dies hard. 

An Im a diehard optimist

casuallysubtly she reached between his legs and gave him a squeeze You hardly disappoint.

Clever clever Yare on a roll 

                              he held up his martini  To stars optimism you an erections

she took up her glass  I’ll drink to that.

they sipped

he stood Baby got to get the blood flowing Im going to settle up so when we finish our drink we can vamoose 

he found their server she pulled his tab card he settledtipped with cash 

                                                                            he thanked her for knowing Madeleines drink affording them an opportunity to meet her 

in the aisle walking back to Esmeralda Damn she was something to behold she couldnt have heard him though she turned precisely to his approachsmiling Maybe she did  Witch  Alchemist  Who knew a womans powers 

                                                                                                            a strong hand at his shoulder enough to stop him short of the table he turned  raspberry 

                                                                         Leaving?

No Settled up Well leave after we finish your drink I assume Madeleine thanked you in the Ladies room  I thank you

You can do better than that.

Esmeralda stood

                   if she could read his mind she could certainly hear Madeleine 

Better

Yes. raspberry put her arms around him and gave him a delicious warm soft wet kiss

he kissed back was pretty sure she felt him grow against her belly

the kiss over leaning away she said We should fuck. 

                                                         sidestepping him she went to Esmeralda embraced herkissed her as softly sweetly warmly wet 

                                    We should fuck . you make me wet. I’ll be outside for a bit. she walked to the front door

he walked up to Esmeralda  Innarested

she stepped close to himobscuring her handgrabbed his cock 

                                                                 Hmm . . feels like he’s decided for us.

  

2210,  Sunday,  17  7. 22

1222,  Monday,  26  9. 22

BeeGees  Lonely Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3YC5sc_V6I