he wokeup with this bangingslogging around inside his head 

                                                                  MAGA   MAGA whawas it maggot   Awwhawas it

AHyes flock fuck of unerring MAGApies magpies chanting the erroneous lies of their Dear mindless Leader it was like Whac-a-Mole them ducking back into slimy wormholes unlike scifi holes having emerged from wells caverns gross subterranean bowels in the earth as found in Lovecrafts writing Cthulhu sister Kassogtha then Ghast Mi-go Shoggoth Dagon Azathoth not to be confused with Azazel the Jewish Scapegoat Night-gaunts Y’Golonac Yog-Sothoth or shapeshifting crawling chaos Nyarlathotep gawdblessya slithery  it was these names  physicalities he imagined that averted him from reading terror and horror 

                                 not his cup of tea 

                                                     anyet his misfortune to be awakened by

he had to admit the crosssection he saw of their shallow underground hemisphere was quite cool very steampunkish hellish  ample turning cogs gears worm gears to toss ironwrenches into to bring their foul machinery to a halt the atmosphere spoiling growing foetid

                                    an him aboveground with a ball peen hammer in either hand to WHAC what came up their mouths wideopen gulping blue air smashing faces shattering teeth

0730ish,  Monday,  9  5. 22

1119,  Monday

https://bookstr.com/list/top-ten-h-p-lovecraft-monsters-who-arent-cthulhu/

Walter Lippmann  The Stakes of Diplomacy  “When all think alike, no one thinks every much.”

poorpoor Supreme Court justices who have decided to overthrow Roe v. Wade

it occurred to him during a White House press briefing the whining of the Press the dire insipid whining of FOX  their the fake moral indignityfew more indignant than Peter Deucey “These activists posted a map and the home addresses of Supreme Court justices, is that the kind of thing the president wants?” 

hmm

      didnt remember outcry outrage grievance when antiabortion activists posted the home addresses of gynecologists lawfully practising abortion their pictures posted  identity of family members license plates vehicles they drove then asked when they were murdered please X-out their picture at the site

                                                                           how convenient not to remember that

405preferred to 1605,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

1625,  Monday,  9  5. 22

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2001/mar/30/internetnews.usnews

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bRr7HUtf9cs 

 

he liked simple equations 

                             1 + 1 = 2 

if the Court overturns Roe it sanctions rape and incest 

                                                       the Court overturns a womans precious right to control her person body and health 

                seemed simple enough  seemed distilled to its primacy

1933,  Monday,  9  5. 22

Man she frustrates me. 

                         We went back and forthskirted the issue, I certainly didn’t want to come off halfcocked . . I wanted to be reasonable, I didn’t want to text something I couldn’t take back . . . so I wrote herconcluded our conversation: My pleasure.

gobsmacked

            he nearly shook his head like an animal a fighter fighting off the haze of an unchecked shot to the chops he didnt grope for the ropes 

                           then clearing his throatAwh  awh  he croaked Your pleasure  

Yes.

Why the hell did you do that not pleasure wrong message  Now ya texted something yacant take back  Ya realise that 

      An ya lied

Lied?

Yah   Lied 

             It wasnt not as yave related to me  Now yave called it your pleasure Yacant go back on that  Should have said you were miffed been honest

                                      Yave lied an given her cover 

I . . I don’t see it that way.

No ya don  Ya spared her feelings at the expense of your own 

                                                                   Annow yacant take it back

his surly expression suggested he wanted to argue

                                                     Don go there buddy  Ill rip your tongue out of yer head

it wasnt often their conversations ended with a threat of violence 

                                                                     but he wanted to be honest with him

1543,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

1003,  Monday,  9  5. 22

 

  trepverter

                 standing at the bottom of the stairs when it occurs to someone himNAH  he was in full occupancy of his thought when My pleasure came out of his buddys mouth but in that moment had he said so he would have been cruel

so rather then

             NOW  at the bottom of the stairs  to himself and his gleeful interiorselves interior yes slaves he could say it out of earshot and howl with gay abandon 

                                              I wannabe dissed by you just you and nobody else but you I wanna be dissed by you  alone   Poop poop poopy doo

fuck he cracked himself up

had he said upstairs his buddy would have been butthurt and humourless not a good combination or look

  I wannabe dissed by you

                            Jesus wha a riot

221preferred to1421,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  4  5. 22

1207,  Monday,  9  5. 22

Marilyn Monroe  I Wanna Be Loved by You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWHsAmTrOIA  &  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WQIvhotZSUw

he was Proud Maryin 

                      rollin down the river   back late Muthas Day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02QUmKVsyFY

hed beg patience 

  couldnt give him that

                                Awwhell fuck ya

 

1018preferred to 2218, personal reasons,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

Happy Mother's Day           Happy muthas day

he wasnt in the right mood   nope notatall something was grating him 

he closed his eyesheld them shut with his fingertips in the dark he imaged his brain candled it like a sharks egg sacmermaids purse watched the embryo shivertwist  better imaging that than pearlymaggots writhing in rotting meatanimals unfortunately crushed under could-care-less-could-give-two-shits drivers wheels

                                                                                                     wasnt in a good mood

he continued watching the palepinked embryo it had grown quiet   maybe it was aware he watched  shy   coy         maybe

he leaned backtook his fingers from his eyes sparklesfragments of the exploded purse purse LIGHT LIGHT  his mood wasnt alleviated the ceiling looked lower walls closer  even the window looked smaller

he stood up and went into the kitchen    no mother no little helper

had to help himself 

                       Ya concur he asked himself he nodded like an obedient dogthrew a stick now hed hurtle after it no throwing  no                                                                                                                              he went into the cabinet where he kept his booze last flight he was oncross countryred eye the flight attendant plied him with miniatures On the house, sweetie. she was based in LA Louise   she liked he called her la Louise he liked that the she embroidered her serving garment with her name cursive right breast the floridfont leaned toward her cleavage it was late her blouse was unbuttoned two buttons further down than usual  inviting

he didnt mind if he did

he stowed away four glass miniatures Stolichnaya la Louise was liberating First Class product They won’t miss it, doll.

Yare sure woudntwanya gettin in trouble  she leaned down he looked in she whispered They won’t.  I like trouble. Have anything in mind?   Yave given me a couple ideas   Excellent. she stood up winked sashayed up the aisle away from him gave him a nice showas much bump an grind as was possible in the narrow darkened aisle

he twisted the metal cap off a bottle tipped itgobbled it whole

la Louise almost killed him

that memory helped

he gobbled a second bottle 

her breasts an ass were even better than he imagined

memory helped

she loved his cock

he loved her pussy

gobbled the third

la Louise lit candles knew Shadowfax had vinyl stacked three LPs played them fucked in the livingroom

mood was lifting

  he sipped the fourth

                             mood definitely was lifting

hadnt thought of Louise in a while 

hed keep that chambered loadedup for the next bout 

                                                              or whenever                                                                                                

2349,  Sunday,  1  5. 22

1134,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

Stones  Mother’s Little Helper  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-ahSGQ0CcA

Shadowfax  Dreams of Children   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSduXmyCLQ0

performing like a circus seal carnival barker huckster before a congregation held by Advancing American Freedom Mike Pence said piously

                     “As we stand here today we may well be on the verge of an era when the Supreme Court sends Roe v. Wade to the ash heap where it belongs.” 30 November 2021

the speech was interrupted by smatterings of applause it was a small roombut ash heapashheap  that really irritated him

   it was derogatory however whawould he expect from a born-again evangelical Catholic an whadafucks that

correction  a white born-again evangelical Catholic had to get his descriptors right  lilywhite if he wanted hi-octaneNuts almost forgot another descriptor  entitled stuff it in there somewhere                                     

not having any idea what Advancing American Freedom (AAF) was he looked it up turns out to be a non-profit 501(c)(4) founded by Pence delving deeperwho served on its Advisory BoardAwChrist like a hit list of Republican politicians operatives and assorted other bottom feeders AAF believes in God, family and country in that order  that was plenty for him

     ash heap

                    from where the Phoenix rises

    

1908,  Monday,  2  5. 22

0939,  Thursday,  5  5. 22

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tOcRP_1Wrbo  

https://www.influencewatch.org/non-profit/advancing-american-freedom/

https://www.ncronline.org/blogs/ncr-today/5-faith-facts-mike-pence-born-again-evangelical-catholic 

Beatles  Girl  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-8l3ntDR_lI

quivering puckers were noticeable in the seat of pants worn by FOX associates and a myriad of Republican operatives politicians when DHS announced its newly formed Disinformation Governance Board 

                                                                                          he was lead to believe if one happened to be in a room with several at a time it was virtually palpable

                                                                             an ofcourse their kneejerk concern their immediate inflammatory language was to decry it nearly shrieking Orwellian 1984 Ministry of Truth  whelping like whipped pups to first protect and safeguard their quivering puckers  but secondly as another opportunity to misdirect to cover up obfuscate lingering plots to overthrow the legitimacy of the 2020 election to provide hail smokescreen throw shade on their antidemocratic schemes for the January 6 insurrection 

                                                                            I’d like a presidential pardon, please.

Aw boys not really disinformation

1533,  Monday,  2  5. 22 

1051, Day-between-Two-Ts,  4  5. 22 

https://www.hstoday.us/federal-pages/dhs/dhs-standing-up-disinformation-governance-board-led-by-information-warfare-expert/ 

https://www.dhs.gov/news/2022/05/02/fact-sheet-dhs-internal-working-group-protects-free-speech-other-fundamental-rights 

https://www.politico.com/newsletters/playbook-pm/2022/05/02/jan-6-committee-looking-into-potential-trump-pardons-00029338

  maybe

           wha politicians wha Republicans wha Christians have bargained for justices nominated lied about will be the devilmade bargain Putin made to violate Ukraine quick and easy  greaselightning 

                                                                                        then suddenly the West coalesced helped weaponise Ukraine to batter his forces NATO united hunkered down an Finland Sweden are throwing off their historic neutral mantles to submit applications to join NATO

  maybe  

           theyve cut off their nose to spite their face

his fingers are crossed he doesnt have to hurt anyone

  he was terribly grateful to the leaker they stepped up to put America on notice  gave it breathing room an options

perhaps nuclear option   they are heroic like Chelsea Manning Edward Snowden

1018preferred to 2218,  Twosday,  3  5. 22 

https://www.politico.com/news/2022/05/02/supreme-court-abortion-draft-opinion-00029473 

https://www.msn.com/en-us/sports/more-sports/edward-snowden-on-roe-v-wade-draft-opinion-most-fundamental-of-our-freedoms-are-inabrogable/ar-AAWTGvA?ocid=mailsignout&li=BBnb7Kz

 

There he goes again railroad logic

                                      It’s called railroad logic, you know what that is?

I do

I’ll tell you.

I know wha it isyave said

A runaway train’s coming down the track, you’re at the switch, you have to decide to throw it or not, which track you’ll send it on . . your father stands on the track, a child on a siding, which track do you send the train down?

Its common sens . .

. . NO, it’s philosophy . a choice . . yours to decide . what would you decide?

Its not a decisionnot a choice Ya run over the old man

Hes getting exasperated flushing 

                                It’s your father.

Ansomehow hes younger than me

Best part he shuts his eyes excruciatingly tight rubs them vigorously with his fingertips

he shook his head closed his eyes rubbed them with his fingertips says 

                                                                              He’s your father.

Sorry Pops common sense prevails its not even a coin toss 

                                                               The hypothetical is dismal  illegitimate

Illegitimate. Why would you say that?

As I said its not a choice 

                          Frankly the nonthinkingthe reflex is an ideal

Ideal? It’s nah . .

. . Saying its not doesnt make it so 

                                     If you believe fervently religiously adverb in something if that thing defines you ya stand up for itya stand behind it anif ya have to ya stand in front of it protect it 

                                                                                    To my way of thinkingmy belief if ya can overthrowbetray something you say ya believe have said is a core belief thereby an ideal  Wha wouldnt ya throw over 

       Ya telling me youd recant

If someone threatened meput a gun in my fac . .

. . As theyre swinging it up ya throw yourself at them 

                                                           Youd overthrow a belief to buy a few more days of wha life  now bitter food foul air  Yave denied yourself 

                                                    Yawillin to defy yourself

1832,  Monday,  2  5. 22

2126,  Twosday,  3  5. 22

Peter Doocy pronounced deucey drop a deuce

                                                     Awh makes perfect sense now  FOX nepotism his father is Steve Doocy FOX and Friends cohost howd he know drivel didnt entice him apples don fall far from trees 

                                                                                              despite an apple himself he not only fell far from the tree but rolled down a hill into a creek bobbed along awhile before captured in an eddy wedged among rocks cool water keeping him fresh and crisp 

                                                        he couldntdidnt abide his fathers politics or racism

however Peter probably recognised his telegenic father made a good living as FOX talking heads do Peter isnt a reporter

maybe hes as talented or not  not that his talent would be held up discerned candled like an eggNO boy had an In

Its not whaya know but who ya know 

                                         an knowing-Who an determined to stake his primacy among White House reporters flaunt his babyblonde virility he put his question to Press Secretary Jen Psaki who inevitably turns him upside down by his ankles an shakes the change out of his pockets for herself DHS Secretary Mayorkas said “We know where those forty-two terrorists are, why isn’t he saying, ‘We know where those forty-two are -- they’re in jail?’” patience hes warming up bounding back up onto his feet again a stumbled Inspector Clouseau a real wisecracker he continues “What is the president’s priority, would it be stopping potential terrorist attacks or letting these migrants come in? patience he cautioned patience the infamous Chinese water torture curiously detailed in the late 15^th early16^th Century by Italian Hippolytus de Marsiliis  NOT to be taken off scent failing to recognise it was his blood in the water Deuceyoops! intrepidly steamrolled forth “But, if, it takes nineteen people to carry out the September Eleventh attack, what do you think forty-two people on a terrorist watch-list might be capable of?” 

                                              the allusion perhaps delusion – despite Border Patrol apprehending them since President Biden took office saay 20 January 2021 – the nineteen terrorists fifteen from Saudi Arabia two from United Arab Emirates one from Lebanon and one from Egypt plotted in concert that their murderous efforts could be realised by this significantly greater terrorist-watch-list-contingency without even knowing if any of the forty-two know each otherhave nefarious connections  Hell Timothy McVeigh was a lone wolf an many of Americas Own homegrown white supremacist terrorists are 

                                     which didnt make him feel all warm and fuzzy

              

1543,  Monday,  2  5. 22

1446,  Twosday,  3  5. 22

White House Correspondents’ Dinner  https://twitter.com/mattwilstein/status/1520588204373463041

had to listen to Beethovens Opus 132 to get through Deucey  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zyDs0wb3FAE 

https://gazette.com/news/us-world/white-house-says-dhs-tracking-42-terrorists-proving-the-system-working/article_e6ec2f81-a2b3-556f-8d38-00bfc2b169bb.html 

https://www.csis.org/analysis/war-comes-home-evolution-domestic-terrorism-united-states

 

   I’ve had you fame.

                       So long.

wannabe celebrities wannabe influencersjust fuckin wannabes might wanna pay attention to those words they were uttered by someone who knew betterprobably better than virtually anyone 

he scratched his head

                       seemed being  outlegged wannabeing

 

the quote is Marilyn Monroes captured on tape 

it unfortunately is a pull-quote lacking context he hadnt any idea when it was recorded or did he know why she declared it

            he could say however that her deliverher voice was tender  utterly heartbreaking

everyone brings something different to the table

                                                  thereby everyones unique a story unto themselves he believed they should be content with their own story 

                                         he also believed that people wrestled their own particular troubles he didnt call them demons he refused to invest more than an occasional heartbeat to religious sensibilities religious evil a long time ago he determined that somethingsomeone was either positive or negative that appealed to him

                                                                                                     it didnt bother him if it didnt appeal to others to each his own he wouldnt proselytise an woe be to him or her who might try their hand at him there is rude then there is what he was he still hadnt found that word or fashioned it

   wannabe

                  or be

1643,  Saturday,  30  4. 22

1041,  Twosday,  3  5. 22

as Mothers Day approaches this Sunday May8 we can see it differently from the last 50

                                                                                               for the immediate future we can call it Forced Mother’s Day

                                  put that on a pretty Hallmark card   

the United States is saddling up with only 24 other countries many third world countries one or two that former brayed were shithole countries

he couldnt refrain himself

                            an Exceptional country Indispensable country   Horseshit

1039,  Monday,  2  5. 22

Lawrence O’Donnell  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E20xhRrR18w

Hillary was offbase  https://time.com/collection-post/4521509/2016-election-clinton-exceptionalism/

Degradation

he was for womens rights was pro-abortion 

he was against amateur-abortion back alley abortions

he hopes politicians who want women to suffer the “opportunity” to birth creatures of rapists children of incestuous uncles brothers cousins have plans to build thousands of orphanages across the country to house children they demand are born

         those children belong to them  

                                         they are not going to be as white as those politicians think

  

2057,  Monday,  2  5. 22

https://www.politico.com/news/2022/05/02/supreme-court-abortion-draft-opinion-00029473

                          

https://www.cincinnati.com/story/news/politics/2022/04/28/ohio-republican-calls-pregnancy-after-rape-opportunity/9568456002/

https://theconversation.com/children-of-color-already-make-up-the-majority-of-kids-in-many-us-states-128499 

   They

        persistently they  Carlson doesnt say who they  are

convenient 

     though its understood who you are who us is 

                                                    whites fearing “the replacement of legacy Americans” Jesus legacy Americans

            asif there is such thing  such a thing   THEY are people who have their heads tucked up their ass like ostriches hiding their heads in the sand which they dont do though is an apt an colourful comparison flamboyant FOX flamboyant Tucker Yes  he resisted swapping out the first consonant of his name despite how appropriate it might be  look at him being discerning

                    an ofcourse other whites who stand to cash in

Tuckers a cunt Ohwell so much for discerning

    lastly critically

                         what is Tucker FOXtheir bottom-line teaching children they ought to be ashamed

    

1732,  Monday,  2  5. 22 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jr40n2VCCQ&t=1024s  

https://www.seattletimes.com/nation-world/inside-the-apocalyptic-worldview-of-tucker-carlson-tonight/

https://www.vanityfair.com/news/2022/04/tucker-carlson-covid-vaccine

made him blue yesterday 

gently pushed his buttons turned down his dials

   quieted  his mechanisms

wetted his flameAries don like being wetted against their will 

                                                                he had to concedeif he were honest hed been taken off his game

this might be the stuff one takes into confession

                                                not that theyve done something wrong had sinnedNo just needed to get it off their chest share it

over the past couple of days he watched a documentary and heard tapes of Marilyn Monroes voice

he and she went back a long time

                                  first Playboy he ever got his hands on as a boy was the December first issue 1953  Marilyn graced the centerfold

he knew he liked girlshe really liked Marilyn

                                                then that was fortified a black an white televised Sunday Matinee  a broadcast of Some Like it Hot  light effervescence Marilyn exuded it  he remembered looking around to room at his parents brothers sisters friends who had stopped specifically to watch the movie  a classic they said theyd seen it when it was first released in theaters in ’54

                                          he wondered if they saw what he was seeing 

furtivelybriefly he spied them while Marilyn was on screen they didnt seem to

                                                                                      he reallyreally liked her

in his early twenties he had a dream he made love to her

                                                              to this day he can close his eyes and see the dream fresh as cream rouged like a pinched cheek red as a handprint after a crack on the ass

                                                                                   it was a story beginning to end they met in a soda shop palegreen appliances harshwhite tiles shiny metal darkred upholstered swivelstools bolted to the floor

they shared a chocolate malted sipped it through red and white striped straws the whipped cream was cold giggling shed take dollops of it with her finger shared with him  a brilliant red cherry was on top

                                                                                             they walked in the dark on a city street to her apartment went up three flights of silent carpeted steps slowly undressed each other laid on her freshlaundered bed

they were eagerrolled tussled went back and forth laughed breathed heavy then she was on top of him she leaned down kissed him her hair across his face

                                             he whispered Marilyn, you’re dead. 

she smiled beautifullyplayfully 

                                 Does it matter?

  it did not

                 sometime during the night exhausted they collapsed into sleep 

                                                                                     he woke beside her in the morning didnt disturb her he watched her sleep admired her face her body

       on a tape Marilyn asked 

                                   Happiness, does anyone know that?

evening,  ReggaeFriday,  29  4. 22

1229,  Monday,  2  5. 22

Eddie Higgins Trio  Begin the Beguine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rc6iJswVnUc