nothings freenot even dreams

he always ended up paying for them

their long receipts tethering them to himproviding them avenue to his consciousness where during any brief pause in his dayBAM theyd be there bees busy at pollen  army ants swarming at forage or prey 

There you are, buddy; would you believe we were looking for you?

Been right herebeen busy Ya can keep movin Im not interested in your attention just now its unnecessary 

                                                                                                                but then hed hear a crude laugh a knee slapped foot stomped a high fart  Ahright, we weren’t really lookin’ for you, we knew exactly where you’d be. 

they found him slathered him 

a real hoot

            he was employed in a uniform to arrange cars for arriving dignitaries  airport to hotel  ThankGawd went off in his head  ballrooms for the scheduled events were at the hotel  but due to Trump virus reality bleeds in dreamworld only one car rental that could provide highend vehicles remained unshuttered  Uber Lyft Zipcar were deemed undesirable transportation  chauffeurs were require

had to love what dreams tried forcing down his throat 

                                                         although with little effort he could change themgo lucid on them but when the virus Uber stuffy dignitaries leaked in  well he was tempted to see where things went

he convened four teamsheaded up one they were to maintain a vigilant effortremain as-agile-as-possible to contend with their tenuous circumstances often they were forced to entertain dignitaries at the airport while negotiatingstretching transportation 

                the dignitaries were too polite to question their delay he had counted on that  

during a respitegetting a bite to eat building sandwiches from coldcut trays accompanying sides and salads off the top the rental managers wood desk someone under their breath uttered Man, this is heinous.

someone misunderstood them What? What?  Anus? then laughed wholeheartedly at their ridiculous question what could anus possibly have to do with anything

Asshole? someone ventured

Thats enough gang he said

Anus? the car manager askedconfused What’s that? 

                                                       to have not heard anus and running a car rental operationno less from out of the mouth of a man he deemed a straight shooter delighted him 

                                                                               how could he resist 

as a matteroffact he sallied forth not knowing if this was his dreams gambit or if inadvertently he had taken hold of the reins 

      usually it was more pronouncedevident  Anus

Yes, anus, I have to confess I’m unfamiliar with the word; my mother and father ran a tight ship, we’re religious.

Religious he smiled gleefully one by one at his gathered cohorts 

                                                                    Religion shouldnt curb ones knowledge Anus is a practical practicable termhe smiled despite himself An anatomical term If you have one you ought to know you do

the manager shrugged unperturbed

Have you not seen or heard of the old black and white television show Anus and Andy  to his dismay it went over everyones head 

                   No huh

Howbout music Lesley Gores Its My Anus 

                                             his dream ended abruptlyhis frenzied swell of laughter pushed him out its crescendo finding him thrashing his bed with his arms his fistswaking to his howling 

quite a way to begin the morning

he really hoped he wasnt lucid dreaming

early AMish,  Saturday,  5  6. 21

1022,  SunnyDay D-Day,  6  6. 21

Lesley Gore  It’s My Party  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acRMALrg1t4

Mulatu Astatke & Black Jesus Experience  Living on Stolen Land  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MK-2tjA3VN8

D-Day

 D-Day  a lot of soldiers died this day in 1944 fighting an existential threat

untoward partisan effete White American fear provokes an existential democratic threat

its not just another D-Day

1254,  Sunday,  6  6. 21

                                                                                              

Paris -- 2 part

 

So tell me a story.

What kind of story

Intrigue. Sex. Maybe mayhem, the threat of mayhem; threats are delicious, will he, won’t he, will she, won’t she.

Elaine

Sun ray, Greek origin.

I didnt know that

Tell me something I don’t know.

Elaine 

       She was engaged to be marriednot a year out of high school A yearcouple years younger than me Id seen her around she was a looker

Blonde like me, I think.

No ones like you Yes  Blonde

Ran into her at a bowling alley her fiancé was there Those days we bet on bowling She was hanging all over him I can see his facecant remember his name now We played softball a mens league A big deal in the Midwest Some retired Major League players played in the league It wasnt for fun  It was money 

Her fiancé wanted to know what I wanted to roll a gameplay for money Elaine was making eyes at me She wasexcuse me a piece

He said a hundred dollarshe could have said two hundredthree He was a jewelerworked for his old man He was moneyed as a teenager She was attracted to money a nice piece on his arm An attractive coupletruly  though venial

I said twohunred

He wanted to see money upfront

Ya know me Im good for it 

                             Yawanna show your money

Jokingly he took Elaine by the armpushed her forward pushed her hard enoughunexpected she stumbled a bit I caught her by the ribcageshe jiggled

It was a close game I expected it to be he didnt  Lost his lead in the ninthlost in the tenth frame

I walked up to Elaine put my arm around her squeezed her firmly bunched her tits  she was too fetching

                                                                                                              Mighty sportin of ya Ive wondered what it would be like to make out with Elaine

Up for that Elaine ya worth two hunred dollars

She delivered a lecherous smile I am. Warmed the cockles of my heartdid wonders for my cock too 

                                                                                                        Which to my surprise she noticed

Of course she’d notice.

To my surprise youd notice

I would.

Ill keep that in mind

I’ll hear you.

Before we go furthur with that 

                                Lets finish this

Then well return to that 

I hadnt realised  there was a bar behind us  Id given Elaine some money to wet our whistles Id join her  at the bar were several guys who were friends of his

I was fuckin with himplayin out the ridiculous skein

He threatens mehe sets his eyes to the bar over my shoulder I could hear bar stools squeal on the wood floorpushed rather than picked up set down Who the fuck do you think you are? I'll kick your ass if you think youre walking out of here with Elaine.

You put her up you not a man of your word

I said two hundred dollars

Oh man shes easily worth two hunredI cant wait But in the meantime were having a drink a little foreplay  Youll excuse me

I turned within fourfive steps I walked through his knot of friends it was a rude pass

Elaine was oblivious of whawas transpiring 

                                               I had been jokingbut when he brought his buddies in on it I got serious  Anshe smelled awfully good I hadnt ever been that close to her

Your boyfriend lost  

My fiancé. she corrected me

Your fiancé lostlost his bet He bet you

Me?

You Instead of two hunred 

                              I asked ya if you were worth two hunred

That’s a bargain, a basement bargain. 

                                         She was peevedlooked up the alley at the congress standing at the mouth of the bowling lane

Lets drink to a bargain betcha I can make you feel you were in the penthouse

                                                                                  Had to flirt we sipped whiskysipped beer

The bartenderthe owner caught the drift he kept a couple of pins behind the bar 

                                                                                    There a problem? he asked 

I don think so

Aw, don’t have to think, there’s a problem coming up behind you.

Cant have that 

                 I turned an stood

One of the muttsI knew these guys one said You’re not leaving here with her.

Why you talking to me You her fiancé 

We’re talking for him.

Such mooks 

             Over my shoulder I said Bobby a pin please an reached back with my right Bobby pressed a cold wood pin into my hand 

Odds went upsoared in my favour They had numbers but they also had to reckon if they were the one that was going to get hurt 

         Knew Id be hurtso no matter Powerful leverage

They mulled a bit

I also knew I had Bobby on my side

They mulled then back off

When they went backup the aisle to lover boy I reached back blind and Bobby slipped the pin out of my hand

I turned back to Elaine our drinks Thanked Bobby Bought him a drink 

                                                                            Not necessary. he said

Necessity is the mother of pins Thank you  Please Bobby

Awright, if you're buyin I’m having a double, an not the cheap stuff.

If thats the case pour one for Elaine and me too please

Please, please. Elaine, this guy is so fuckin polite; what a silver tongue.

Elaine looked at me as if to ask if I had a silver tongue 

                                                          I cut her off Mine feels like mink

The clique hung out

Finishing our drinks I settled up with Bobby Elaine said she was going downstairs to her carshe drove a classic ’68 Olds babyblue Toronado sweet fuckin ride she said she was across the train tracks in the parking lot

I dug it she arrived separate from lover boy 

I guess he saw her leavethought the gambit was over 

Maybe he didnt think I could heat Elaine up or thought maybe I had I did

                                                                              He walked up beside me asked if he could buy me a drinkbuy me a drink end the confusion

No confusion I told him

Elaine’s gone.

Shes waiting for me

You think you're gonna fuck my girlfriend?

Girlfriend Girlfriend Yamean fuck your fiancée 

                                                  Im thinkin about it

Guys eyes begin tearing up 

                              Let me buy you a drink, talk about this. He choked

I don want a drink I donwanna drink with youya got your buddies buy them drinks  Way I see it you owe themsaved a couplethree of them from serious injury Im not drinking with you Im up an out of here

He grabbed me by the shirt as I turned towards himturned in between the stools 

                                                                                     He whines Shit waterworks commenceroll down onto his cheek I mean cinema quality tears on his cheeks Please, he said please don’t fuck my fiancée.

Gotta go man happy you were able to grasp the keen distinction between your girlfriend and your fiancée

I turned an left the bowling alley

 

What happened?

Ah the intrigue

                 Youll have to read my mind Paris

 

 

Paris fit well inside our small town 

                                     it really liked her presenceher aplomb Hell Sammy liked her  she was one of its daughtersborn and raised there Paris circulated its air gave it atmosphere 

                                                                               he dug her light

0749,  Twosday,  1  6. 21

1428,  Wednesday,  2  6. 21

 

the shit that comes out of his buddys mouth tickled him

have a coffeemeet give him a halfhour he steps in it 

                                                       most recently he related a conversation he either had with an old woman or had watched an interviewWHAT she was askedWHO HE ASKED what she missed most of youth

wistfully he said she said she missed most breaking into a runrunning for the joy of runningfeeling the air play in her hair he continued nodding even after he spoke

Yare lamenting          

Lamenting? I’m not.

You are

I was not.

Gotta ask the old woman  she have hair   Maybe she misses her hair

Why would you ask that? I don’t remember.

Yare lamentingyare a lamenter

No, I wasn’t. I'm not.

Im not entertaining a childs argument with ya Yah-no yah-no Admit it  The truth shall set you free 

Alright, alright, so I lamented . a bit . . 

. . Horseshit I saw your faceheard it in your voice  You werent lamenting a bitmore than a bit  yawere full out lamenting It was a fervent lamentation

It was a bit.

Don get terse 

              A bit really awright  Lets parse it in terms you love throwing around  Gimme a percent a fraction ya enjoy value judgments  Evaluate your lamentation  Quantify itbecause yare certainly in no frame of mind to qualify it

I’m not.

Yawont

I'm not.

Awright 

            I don think there was an old lady I think you were talking to yourselfmusing to yourself in a mirror to your reflection in the microwave door

Yawere youngnow yare not yacant do wha ya did then Hang yer hat on itya did once

                                                                                             Please no remorse

1530,  Thursday,  3  6. 21

1051,  Saturday,  5  6. 21

Steam Down - Etcetera (Visualiser) ft. Afronaut Zu  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WL6mMhkkyL4

Paris -- 1 part

 

she said her name was Paris 

                                  off her lips it sounded audacious his mind prattled London Chicago Miami Seattle

she saidlike she was reading his mind  her mother knew it was audacious she consciously spitefully chose it After she named me, had my name committed on the live birth certificate, she gave me up for adoption.

I think she didn’t love the man who impregnated her, I am fatherless; but she loved me enough to give me away because she couldn’t raise me by herself.    

The story is my birthmother told the doctor, the nurses, appropriate staff, whoever adopted me couldn’t change my name. First, you see, she said, Paris will know they did; and when I find out, and I can, I will, if they change her name I’ll come after them, find them, and cut their heads off.

You tell them that.

It’s not an idle threat.  

Paris, obviously, will have been without a mother before; she’ll survive being motherless again.

My birthmother, I never met, although I seem to take after her. I’ve been a handful for my mother and father. They have often told me that I know too much for my own good. I remember them telling me that even as a small girl.

I was a handful.

she took the words out of his mouth  but he saidoverwriting it so she wouldnt read his mind again  she was a handfulhandfuls happy handfuls  My folks didnt tell me until I was a teenager

she mused as she looked at him 

                                 maybe she picked up on his blatant thoughthappy handfuls  overtly sexual  he wouldnt mind playing with her if she wanted  If yare reading my mind 

spookily she smiled simultaneously

Jesus Im fucked he thoughtthen he thought he heard a thought raised in his head not in his voice  Maybe.

she was still smiling      

 

he took her for a drink The Black Ram

Is this your watering hole?

Watering hole  I like ithadnt thought of it in your vernacular  Yes mebbe now that I think of it my watering hole  Have you one 

How do you mean?

Bar tavern restaurant his face screwed uppleasant confusion  Whadaya mean how do I mean

Good, on your toes, maybe you won’t bore me.

Yare not afraid youll bore me

No, I am not afraid.

her fearlessness got the better of him

                                      he got his arms around herinside of hers and hugged her tightly fullbodied

she hugged him back

Man you feel good

You feel good too. 

Whaya having this evening 

                             he got the bartenders attention sealed it hugging Paris Sammy

Sammy Joe called out she began making her way over to where they stood at the bar he liked to taking his drinks at the bar tip Sammy directly then hed take a chair a table or went out back outside where the Ram had a seating area tables under trees hanging lanterns candles on the tables nice melon coaxing  confessionallike

What should I have? What would you order me?

Id love ordering you

                         Sammy this is Paris  Paris Sammy

as the women shook hands he realised they were nearly spitting images tall athletic wellbuilt  Sammy dark Paris light

Paris, it suits you, what will have tonight?

Ask Joe, he’s ordering.

Sammy laughed she had a big laugh 

                                         Ordering?  Because he’s here he doesn’t have to breathe a word, I can read his mind.

I can too.

You can? very good. Strange place, huh?

Yes. In a word, strange.

Hey gals Im standing right here

It talks.

Sammy, I like you, I really like you; it talks.

An right off I think I like you too. 

                                   You’ll excuse me, I’ll be back

if Sammy hadnt been engaged when they met he would have made a play for her  sometimes he thought he should have  he heard her marriage lasted a year and a half two  by then they were too deep into their friendship  sex would have been incestuous 

                       but had she not been engagedmarried had they played she was an ample playgroundlikely an adventurous playmate had they played those two years foreplay would have been fierce climaxes mindblowing

There you go, kids, Joe’s patent chilled double Dirty Bird martini, three olives. Starting a tab, Joe?

Yesplease Sammy Have something on me later this evening awright Ya look parched

I might, I might, mebbe I will. 

                               You’ll have to excuse me again, gotta go; nice meeting you, Paris.

Wonderful meeting you too, Sammy.

She’s quite a girl; very attractive, dark, statuesque.

Got a head on her shoulders too this is a part time gig

                                                         When I feel Id like to have a drink if shes not here I don  Nobody makes a Dirty Bird like Sammy

It’s the secret ingredient, Joe.

Secret ingredient

Yes. Love. 

           She loves you.

We go way back 

Ah, so four words, not the standard tried-an-true three?

he smiled 

           Maybe once upon a time  My ardor was forged into adore I love her like a sister

That’s incest.

You been listening

You’re funny, I don’t have to listen; you’re an open book, you're not selfconscious, you don’t care, you don’t give a damn. 

Paris I definitely wanna get to know you better

I’d like that. 

            she held her glass up  they tapped glasses vodka bright olives greenslightly trembling  To what may come.

To unexpectedness

they sipped

             Ohshit this is delicious! This is delicious, Joe; Sammy’s a goddess.

Yah shes perfected it  but not too loud itll go to her head 

So tell me a story.

they were having a third martini 

                                  unexpectedly Sammy brought them their second and had one with them under the trees and sky My break, thought we’d get caught up, and I could get to know Paris better. she pointed at Paris I shouldn’t have a reason, but I like you.

I think it has something to do with Joe introducing us; he’s a good calling card.

he chuckled 

              Im sitting right here

Shh, Joe, Paris is talking. I like her voice, how her mouth moves.

                                                                    turning her full attention to Paris  You strike me as a woman one shouldn’t fuck with.

Sammy, you strike me as a woman one shouldn’t fuck with also.

Mirrored minds . .

. . You want to shut up, Joe; no one’s talking to you.  they said it together

Jesus Christ excuse me

Sammy said to Paris You or me?

May I?

Please.

they laughed togetherbright laughter neither covering their mouths 

                                                                      Paris said There’s no excuse for you, Joe.

Ohfunny a couple of comedians 

                                  Lemme know when I can come into the water and play Ill sit tightlisten enjoy my delicious drink

Sammy reached overput her hand on top of his Good boy, you’re such a good boy.  looking over at Paris Isn’t he a good boy?

Paris said I’m counting on it. 

                               You were saying, Sammy.

 

 

So tell me a story.

0749,  Twosday,  1  6. 21

1428,  Wednesday,  2  6. 21

 

lifes going right when you catch a fluttering paleyellow moth inside a Welchs dinosaur jelly glasscapturing it against the bathroom mirror where it was fascinatedhappy with its reflection 

                                                                      not often an insect gets a look at itself in glass

godlike he released it outofdoors after flipping the bathroom light off enhancing the moths nightvision 

                                                                                                          a considerate god 

the moth was unmolested

free 

      all anything wants to be 

                                   anythingeverything

unfettered                                                            

unbiased

              Aahyes  able to spread its wings an fly

2229, Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  6. 21

 

Allen Weisselberg 

                        abracadabra 

  abracadabra 

                     Allen Weisselberg

five syllables apiece

Plop plop fizz fizz  Oh wha a relief it is

Weisselberg  Jewish  hes probably aware that abracadabra has Hebrew Aramaic origins  perhaps derived from Hebrew  ab  father  ben  son  ruach hakodesh  holy spirit Sound familiar Christians or the Aramaic  avra kadavra

It will be created in my words

Mr Weisellberg finds himself leveraged  in an undesirable position to testify against the Former et alia to use his tonguehis knowledge be utilised by his sworn depositions affidavids to put a criminal/s away  put a great vile American mistake in our rearview mirror

Abracadabra 

Goodnight Irene

Say goodnight Donald

1500,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  6. 21

1202,  Reggae Friday,  4  6, 21

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iENQXIQ8wH0

Leadbelly  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xn50JSI0W-E   

  

Vong Co didnt go over wellplay nice with his cats

maybe they realised or knew Asians ate cats

no accounting for collective unconscious

he figured it was easier for animals

closer to the earthferal not homos

homos got a lot to learn

they keep things up as is

that time will elapse

                       Ooops!  

STOP   

    fuckya ya didnt see it coming

he could hear freight trains coming before he ever saw them

freight trains 

No Vong Co didnt play well in his kitkats ears

usually threefour hung out with him as he wrote

Vong Co began

they gave him Eat Shit glances and booked

    Hmmm 

              he wondered if they played him cannibal drumming or oogachaka oogachaka if he wouldnt have also left the room in disgust

1157,  Twosday,  1  6. 21

Vong Co  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eB0-gTqN9qo

Blue Swede  Hooked on a Feeling  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NrI-UBIB8Jk

Whoa, I know you’re enthused . .

. . Understatement

Let me finish please . . let me finish  she paused to see if he was gonna jump in with both feet as was his tendency to get ahead of argumentsahead of all things that perturbed and irritated him  I know you’re enthusiastic, however I also know that you’re not prejudiced, or racist . . but that was crass. 

Crass hes a liar a thief Nationalist  a one-state fuck Palestine proponent From the getgo hes hoodwinked Israel He stinks

Still, you understand what you said is offensive, can cause affront.

Affront Whos affrontedthat the best ya got hes an affront to democracy Not all Jews have suffered him quietly but evidently the right ones did an they allowed him to hold powerallowed them to hold power Governance democracy shouldnt be about power  rather leadership selflessness not lining ones pocketslining his supporters pockets Hes corrupt an finally Israel has seen its way fitat long last  to remove him from the levers of government

He created an apartheid Israel 

                                 Our government actively quashed any attempt to boycott or sanction Israel despite it using similar leverage to help dismantle apartheid South Africa  

Negroes and Palestinians unfortunately have and are suffering

Yawanna offer me differences in their plights

I cannot  gently she touched his shoulder  You feel better getting that out? 

Not really Netanyahus been crap too many years shamelessly encouraged an coddled by governments on both sides of the Atlantic

He was elected to serve the people of Israel.

I cant refute that  butbout time they pulled their heads out of their ass 

                                                                           I hope they remember to retrieve their yarmulkes Been a long time

she smiled 

            You’ll quiet your torrent, not be crass?

You really think that was crass

Yes.

It was musically inspired

Im gonna kick myself. Musically inspired, how?

Bye Bye Birdie Ann-Margret

Bye, Bye Birdie?

Bye bye Hebi  Netanyahoo  Im not gonna miss you so  Bye bye Hebi Comonbaby sing with me . .

I don’t think so.

                 You’re quite a peach.

Allman Brothers  Eat a Peach prettyplease

1810,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  2  6. 21

1101,  Reggae Friday,  4  6. 21

Ann-Margret  Bye Bye Birdie  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1t3cBTb3xPc  https://www.nytimes.com/2021/06/03/opinion/israel-prime-minister-netanyahu.html