17.5.21

 
he thought hed play the scenario in its traditional sense not that it was correct he was sure the sides swapped but as long as he kept things traditional he knew he wouldnt throw his buddy too far off 
                                                                                      he didnt wander well off the beaten path                           

as a matter of fact he was very Jeffersonian according to Gospel of Jefferson

Rejecting all organs of information therefore but my senses . . . They evidence realities; and there are enough of these for all the purposes of life, without plunging into the fathomless abyss of dreams & phantasms (which suggests Jefferson had them and they were vivid enough to catch his eyehis attention). I am satisfied, and sufficiently occupied with the things which are, without tormenting (?) or troubling (?) myself about those which may indeed be, but of which I have no evidence. 

he leaned heavily on unevidenced things 
                                           they appealed to him


Follow me now

You always think I have a hard time following y . .
. . Yado

I don’t.

Christ half the time you look like a deer caught in the headlights ya work too hard trying to keep up rationalising the unexpected rather than letting it flow over ya  flights of fancy of fantasy 
                                                                            Ya realise Ive begun this storypremise twice already Im hoping three times a charm

Give me a moment. You understand you come on gangbusters. A lot of people uncomfortable with others in their face.

Are you uncomfortable weve known each other thirty years

Ill tell you, even thirty years later you overwhelm me.
                                                        But you can’t help yourself.
No  I cant help you 


Lets try it again shall we 
                           Going traditional so I don throw you off the mark

Okay. Okay. Traditional.

Eminently traditional 
                       Guys are slob
I’m not a slob.

he rolled his eyes he continued to insist he wasnt a slob
                                                            Im not talking about you Im generalising

Ya remember we entered this foray about me making my bed every morn . .
. . Every morning? I don’t make my bed every morning.

he was sure his sigh was louder in his head than out of his mouth
                                                                      I do Lets segue If you had a date in the evening would you make your bed in the morningmaybe fresh sheets

What are my chances?

YARE GETTING LAID

I am? Definitely.

Okay then I wake every morning thinking Im going to get laid that night  Better

Do you really?

No 
      No Ive just made my bed every morning since I quit sharing a one with my brother as a matter of fact when I married I made the bed Ive always made my bed

So weve established having a made bed or an unmade bed  Okay

Okay. I follow.

his enthusiasm was bleeding out his coals were cooling 
                                                          Do me a favour now  follow an no more interruptions for explanations Q and A can follow if you can remember your questions

A guy invites a girl over to his place who he met at a bar 
                                                           he has no art on the walls no books are evident theres no turntable or records speakers couch is slovenly theres dirty dishes in the kitchen sink theres apparently damp towels lying on the bathroom floor  tub shower is dirty soapstreaked  from the bathroom she can glance diagonally into his bedroombeds unmade clothes lying on it on the floor 
                                                       A beer? he asks   she thinking shell need something stronger but he didnt offer  A beer would be nice, thank you. an afterthought I’ll take it in the can or bottle.  shes seen his place

he enters the livingroom with a couple of bottles of beer
                                                           he motions to the couch Have a seat.  

In a bit. I’ve been sitting most the evening; it’d be nice to stand awhile.

he does have coasters on the coffee table pushes one towards her
                                                                      Oh, man, there’s my checkbook, I’ve been looking for that. Excuse me, would you like something to nibble on? Chips, pretzels, mixed nuts?

That would be nice, yes, please.

I’ll be right back. he goes into the kitchen

she quickly set her beer down on a coaster and opens his checkbook 
                                                                         consistent five figures ledger page after ledger page  five figures 

So ya know wha she says

What does she says?

Yah Whadoes she say 

I don’t know.

Christ man 
            She says Yah, I can live with that.


Im not explaining the joke
 
1530-ish,  Saturday,  8  5. 21
1507,  Thursday,  13  5. 21
Stones  You Can’t Always Get What You Want  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZUqSNbJuGOw

14.5.21

 

         he decided to take himself out behind the barnaround the block go for a spin  go wherever he ended up 

its been more than a year since he has 


Be Cool  Have a spectacular weekend 

Reggae Friday,  14  5. 21
Kamakawiwo’ole  Somewhere Over the Rainbow – What a Wonderful World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-Ooxpz0Eqk

13.5.21

 

 

he drove Billy nuts mentioning metres
                                        It’s yards, yards! Quit with the stupid metres already.

Metres  Theyre more accurate

Jesus, Joe, Yards! You live in America.

Hey  America likes to think itself separate of the world but the rest of the world uses the metric system

The rest of the world can suck our dicks! It’s yards!

Thats such a good argument
                               Billys old man was a cop a tough guy  he beat welts on Billy and his younger brothers  beat welts on his wife 
                         You sound like your old man Billy
That’s not funny.

I didnt say it to be funny

they were riding their bikes to go fishing at Axehead Lake


Billy was always happier when he was outsideaway from home  he liked to go fishing even if they didnt catch anything

lots of pretty girls who borrowed their parents cars came to the lake to sunbathe on the grass around it

they assessed the fish would bite where girls who most appealed to them were lying
                                                                                         anif they were very cool  inobvious when the girls turned in the bright yellow sun they caught glimpses of white unsunned cleavage  sometimes an entire tit and sometimes the girls flashed them for a giggle

they didnt mind being made fun of

they got boners  or stiffies
                           Billy liked to call them stiffies

they never let onto another soul about the promised land they found




in their senior year Billy shot himself dead with his old mans service revolver at Axehead
 
1149,  Sunnyday,  23  8. 20
1010,  Thursday,  13  5. 21
Elton John  Sweet Painted Lady  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dd_162NOAOw 


YEOW 
     he hoped he didnt say that out loud  he lifted his eyes to a car that rolledupparked across the street from the coffee shop he sat outside of 

it had a really nice wood patio café tableschairs colourful umbrellas yawning overhead

when she stepped out of the car she didnt turnaround  she stood with her back to him a palegreen peekaboo lacedup pullover no bra tight fadedblue jeans sandals 
                                                the YEOW her ass  wha an ass                                                 
his quietsurreptitious glance grew wings an flew off somewhere an wha remained turned into a fullblown stare  not his usual
      although she wasnt usual either

when she turned aroundhe saw her turn in v e  r   y  slow-motion
                                                                      of course she wasnt  an of course before his consciousness caughtup she found him lookingLOOKING HARD at her


Awwell  all he could do was smile an nod 
                                            there was no withdrawingtaking back his stare he tried to remember the last time he got caught like that  highschool

she cut him a breaksmiled  nodded back 
                                           then came across the street gangbusters directly towards him

he figured she had to know she was attractive  coming or going


Hiya! she said  I think I know you.

No you don an Im not apologising 
                                   Yare a very attractive woman anya caught me flatfooted  I wasnt expecting you

Goodness, thank you.  a breeze swept her blondehair across her tanned faceBLUE eyes  she ran her fingers through the loose plaitpulling it asideheld it out of her eyes  she laugheddidnt cover her mouth  I'll cut you some slack.

Thank youthank you very much  I want you to know I was looking with appreciation  Frankly its been a bit since Ive been as arrested

Oh, stop, you’re too sweet. 
                            she grinneddimples

I am not sweet  I rather prefer to be honest my parents ate their young if they lied

Well, um, thank you again; you’ll have to excuse me, I’m meeting someone.

Certainly  Have a fine day ya made mine

Stop, you’re killing me with kindness.

An yare just killing me

she laughed out loud a pleasant happy bark an went around to his left behind him into the shop

 

You couldn’t introduce me? 
                            his buddy was sitting to his right across the table

I didnt introduce me 
                      Besides  I forgot you were there

She’s a real looker.

Understatement  Blew me out of the water

I think I know her. I think she works over at the gym . . think she's divorced too, has a couple of little girls.

They have the girls

No, I think she has custody. Her husband’s a fireman here in town, he played around on her.

Her and his kids

Oh. Yeah, I suppose; her and the kids.

A real piece of shit

You draw a pretty severe conclusion for not knowing him.

Cheat on your family yare a piece of shit


Anyway . . Looking at her I was thinking of my boy, he’s not so happy in his marriage, I bet you she could make him happy.

No

No? 
     What are you talking about?

No isnt talking  Nos no

You telling me she couldn’t make you happy?

No she couldntshe could if she wanted to have sex but she does strike me as a woman interested in fucking  Shed want more she has children shes young

I’m just saying then, she could make my son happy, and I think he could make her happy.

No

Would you quit saying no, you’re exasperating.

Better exasperating than being stupid

What are you talking about? I’m just saying.

Wha exactly are you saying 
                             because I think yare full of shit too  Your son is married and has two children  Why the hell would he leave his marriageyoull excuse me  sling a sack full of shit over one shoulderwife and children then commit to sling a second sack of shit over his other shoulder  Her and her children

Really? You’re likening them to sacks of shit? Pretty rude, man, not appealing.

No reason to make your imagined foray appealing  Your sons exwife an children will always be in his life an her ex-husband an children will always be in hers  Them in that equation is slim pickingssuddenly a family of two plus four plus two Eight  Follow   Catch my drift 


You’re not a romantic, are you?

Romantic  Aint nothing romantic about four estranged adults and four children  Ya out of your fucking mind

I gotta tell you, you’ve got some real . hard . . edges.

Yah an two sacks of shit have soft boundaries supple  molding to your body 


Blended families Gawd bless em  Few and far between Id imagine  It seems to me one shouldnt make a vow if they cant keep it  Anif they cant then they are obligatedparticularly if they have children  to see them to adulthood  on their own   Then yacan go play

You don’t see the difficult picture you’re painting. 


Listen man 
            Nobody forced them to get marriednobody forced them to have children  As my Maw would say  Ya made your bed, now sleep in it.
 
1530-ishness,  Saturday,  8  5. 21
1332,  Day-betrween-Two-Ts,  12  5. 21
Pillowfight  Get Your Shit Together  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocjP1mrZ008 

12.5.21

 

sometimes he liked a womans name more than her

before a reader gets their panties in a knot meant for men toothough they might roil that theyre wearing panties  buckup    Toodamnbad
              to be fair physical attraction preceded all else
doneup women may have had great appellationsapples too but doneup done them in he preferred freshscrubbed natural women raw  as is
                       sashimi  sasheme


Kayla Hearttongue
                   whas not to like
Shelly Content

Cherry Pricket

Kayla Shelly Cherry  truly 
                              one by  one he asked Truly   Yes.   Truly your name yare not yanking my leg   Why would I yank your leg?   he agreed  Yah rather ya yanked something other than my leg   Does that line work for you?   Its not a line a statement of fact yaint gonna meet someone as honest as me Ill neverever lie  Ya might not like wha Ill say but I got no time to blow hot air up yer skirtnot that Id mine but no time for lies


Content Hearttongue Pricket
                                if he could have gotten the three into the sack at one time hed die a happy man

nobody would have been able to get that leering smile off his face


good thing then he was to be crematedHuh

1500-ish – pretty stoned,  Saturday,  8  5. 21
1642,  Twosday,  11  5. 21

 

in response to Liz Cheneys ouster from the miserable “leadership?”Nah a murder of antidemocratic Republicants  he found a terribly accurate quote from Robert Dodsleys 18th Century book  The Preceptor

Republicants dont like history until after they rewrite 
                                                      they can try but manymore people are astute and understand that how we got to this moment was an accumulation it didnt suddenly happen 


he also wanted to preface this exercise that he expects – much like Texas senator Ted Cruz – Republicants will likely prefer to scroll through their smartphones rather than attend these significant words and realise their sentiments



“As the People are the Fountain of Power and Authority, the original Seat of Majesty, and the Creators of Officers to create them; if they shall find the Power they have conferred abused by their Trustees, their Majesty violated by Tyranny or by Usurpation, their Authority prostituted to support Violence or screen Corruption, the Laws grown pernicious through Accidents unforeseen or unavoidable, or rendered ineffectual through the Infidelity and Corruption of the Executors of them; then, it is their Right, and what is their Right is their Duty, to resume that delegated Power, and call their Trustees to an Account; to resist the Usurpation, and extirpate the Tyranny; to restore their sullied Majesty and prostituted Authority; to suspend, alter, or abrogate those Laws, and punish their unfaithful and corrupt Officers. Nor is it the Duty only of the united Body; but every Member of it ought, according to his respective Rank, Power, and Weight in the Community, to concur in advancing and supporting those glorious Designs.”


the paragraph duly made him wonder if Dodsley was clairvoyant  writing mid-Seventeenhunreds nearly 400 years ago

1119,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  12  5. 21

11.5.21

 

Gimcrackery  gimcracksgimcrack whip crack whip crack awaaay

Hmm, what are you doing?

Im havin me a bit a fun 


Sounded like you were singing.

Only the whip crack awaaay part  the bits so playful why not play  I suppose I needed to be playful if that was your next question  or accusation

My next question or accusation?

Soitenly

his expression was flat

You remember  soitenlyCurlys soitenly 

his expression remained unchanged 

The Three Stooges

a slab of ice in a yellow sun would melt quicker than his glacial face

Christ man  Yare unfamiliar with Curlys soitenlyThe Three Stooges

The Three Stooges? Stooges. Why would I be compelled to view, watch correc . .                            . . Afterschool  I beat ass home afterschool to watch their halfhour show and then went onto my homework

You might have been better served if you put that halfhour towards your homework.

Didnt
          You breezed through schooldidnt ya

I did.

Knew where you were going to collegewha you were going to study

I did.

I knew I didnt wanna go to college  Draft changed that complexion  Not for me but for my parents  They enrolled me in college  I majored in shooting pool an dropped out first quarter second year  Jesus Christ I had no business being in more school  Getting through high school was torture enough

You’re not stupid.

Im practical and practicable streetwise  Have that rare attribute  commonsense  IQs go up and commonsense moves to the back doorgoes out into the alley for a cigarette or two before returning

I take it you place me among those with higher IQs?

I do  Gimcrackery gimcrack whip crack whip crack away
                                                                  So fucking stoic man 

What do you want out of me?

Me  NothingNot a damn thing  Want isnt high on my list

Because you lack ambition.

Ah  ya might suppose ambition has to be qualifiedhas to be of degrees  Or do you disagree


I believe if you had ambition you could have had what I have

Anya have whaya wanted  correct

Yes.

Im happy for ya

                      All I ever wanted was to be happy  I was ambitious to be happy  An I yam

Yam?

Awfuck for Christssake  Popeye

Another halfhour show? Afterschool?

Why would ya be compelled
                              I am compelled to enhance your edjumication  Yam  I yam wha I yam an thats all wha I yam  Quoting Popeye the Sailor Man he an I ate mes spinach

he thought for a moment hed wait for a Whatever then immediately dismissed it  

Whatever would be beneathwouldnt occur to his gradeschool friend
good thing they were only acquaintances now


Knickkknacks  whawould he make of that
      
Monday evening,  10  5. 21
1157,  Twosday,  11  5. 21
Clint Walker  Whip Crack Away  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jGbszecoNl8

 

he wasnt one to share his spacelet alone share it with someone not of his ilk  yet when they go on recordwhen they choose to speak the truth – rare these past five years out of a Republicans mouth – he couldnt help but try to magnify their words with wha little influence he may have    

this evening Wyoming Republican House member Liz Cheney spoke in House chambers attended by one other Republican House member

"Tonight I rise to discuss freedom and our constitutional duty to protect it. Mr. Speaker, I have been privileged to see firsthand how powerful and how fragile freedom is. 28 years ago, I stood outside a polling place, a schoolhouse in Western Kenya. Soldiers had chased away people who were lined up to vote. A few hours later, they came streaming back in, risking further attack undaunted in their determination to exercise their right to vote. In 1992, I sat across the table from a young mayor in [inaudible] Russia, and I listened to him talk of his dream of liberating his nation from communism. Years later, for his dedication to the cause of freedom, Boris Nemtsov was assassinated by Vladimir Putin’s thugs.

"In Warsaw in 1990, I listened to a young Polish woman tell me that her greatest fear was that people would forget. They would forget what it was like to live under Soviet domination. That they would forget the price of freedom. Three men, an immigrant who escaped Castro’s totalitarian regime, a young man who grew up behind the iron curtain and became his country’s minister of defense, and a dissident who spent years in the Soviet Gulag have all told me it was the miracle of America captured in the words of President Ronald Reagan that inspired them.

"And I have seen the power of faith and freedom. I listened to the Pope John Paul II speak to thousands in Nairobi in 1985, and 19 years later, I watched that same Pope take my father’s hands, look in his eyes and say, “God bless America.” God has blessed America, Mr. Speaker, but our freedom only survives if we protect it. If we honor our oath taken before God in this chamber to support and defend the constitution. If we recognize threats to freedom when they arise.

"Today we face a threat America has never seen before. A former president who provoked a violent attack on this capital in an effort to steal the election has resumed his aggressive effort to convince Americans that the election was stolen from him. He risks inciting further violence. Millions of Americans have been misled by the former president. They have heard only his words, but not the truth as he continues to undermine our democratic process, sowing seeds of doubt about whether democracy really works at all.

"I am a conservative Republican, and the most conservative of conservative principles is reverence for the rule of law. The Electoral College has voted. More than 60 state and federal courts, including multiple judges the former president appointed have rejected his claims. The Trump Department of Justice investigated the former president’s claims of widespread fraud and found no evidence to support them. The election is over. That is the rule of law. That is our constitutional process.

"Those who refuse to accept the rulings of our courts are at war with the constitution. Our duty is clear, every one of us who has sworn the oath must act to prevent the unraveling of our democracy. This is not about policy. This is not about partisanship. This is about our duty as Americans. Remaining silent and ignoring the lie emboldens the liar. I will not participate in that. I will not sit back and watch in silence while others lead our party down a path that abandons the rule of law and joins the former president’s crusade to undermine our democracy.

"As the Party of Reagan, Republicans have championed democracy, won the Cold War, and defeated the Soviet communists. Today America is on the cusp of another cold war. This time with Communist China. Attacks against our democratic process and the rule of law empower our adversaries and feed communist propaganda that American democracy is a failure. We must speak the truth. Our election was not stolen and America has not failed.

"I received a message last week from a gold star father who said standing up for the truth honors all who gave all. We must all strive to be worthy of the sacrifice of those who have died for our freedom. They are the patriots Katharine Lee Bates described in the words of America the Beautiful when she wrote, “O beautiful for heroes proved in liberating strife, who more than self their country loved. And mercy more than life.”

"Ultimately, Mr. Speaker, this is at the heart of what our oath requires, that we love our country more. That we love her so much that we will stand above politics to defend her. That we will do everything in our power to protect our constitution and our freedom that has been paid for by the blood of so many. We must love America so much that we will never yield in her defense. That is our duty. Thank you."

2316,  Twosday,  11  5. 21

 

 

Que sais-je? 

What do I know
               wha did he know

he knew wissenGerman meant knowledge 
                                            wha I know 


he didnt know in German realise was realisieren detect erkennen also realise verwirklichen understand begreifen determine feststellen 
                        feststellen might stick fasten stellar a memory schtick  a gimmick 

playing it out stretching it דעת is knowledge in Hebrew pronounced da’at he had da’ates in the morning with his black coffee 
        wha he knew   now 


accurate informationfacts not opinions truth not lies produce appropriateproportional actions (police and the military could stand to learn that)
                           knowing the right thing reliably makes one do the right thing

 

Aww well Que sais-je?  thats wha he knew

late 2017
0931,  Twosday,  11  5. 21
Me First and the Gimme Gimmes  Wild World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HY_ckaT64t4 

10.5.21

 

          apparently some things never change 

remain static hungup on tortuous tines or penetratedstuck held fast

it was the first thing that caught his attention

he entered a lavatory to quickly cleanup his throat and cheeks his girl was meeting his flight an early morning one 

the flight into Seattle arrived late the cab was late the first motel hadnt a vacancy Then ya ought to kill the neon boasting Vacancy  the desk clerk didnt say a word  it was carbon copy at the next motel  There’s no vacancies, sir.  he nodded Thats an improvement but ya ought to kill the neon sign saying there is
getting back into the car the cabbie said Listen, Mack . .
. . I aint Mack I aint buddy 
                             Im your fare anif you didnt want to drive ya shouldnt have picked me up Now yare along for the ride

the third motel didnt lie

cabbie said Thanks, Mack as he paid the fare 
                                               he laid singles in his palm to cover the tip then pulled two back petty yah  he wanted to make a point likely Mack is a cheapskate the cabbie would think missing the whole exercise


in the room he set his bag on the bedpulled out clothes for later that morning hung them in the closet hopeful some creases might be forgiving  

he tossed his shave kit on the bed

he stripped naked folded and laid those clothes and underwear in his bag on top of clean clothes separating them with brown paper bags

he washed his face brushed his teeth eyeballed his razor Awright he conceded when he looked at his mug in the mirror
Sleep looked over his shoulder into the mirror We’re tired, man, you’ll nick the hell out of us. The blade’s as tired as we are, you’ve stretched it mighty thin, maybe one too many times.

Awright he conceded

he set an alarm for a quick nap and laid down 
                                                    felt like he just closed his eyes the clock soundedFUCK that was really quickhe snoozed it it sounded againI snoozed youhe killed it

 

 

he woke with a jolt 
                   voluptuous naked women were dusting the room artistically with coloured powders

he recognise two they dated 

he knew all the women

the two recognised each other  they became furiouswent after each other tooth and claw he wasnt worth it like a miraculouscoloured cyclone twistingwhorling an exotic birds plume  they enmeshed a torrent of struggle 
                                                                                                              their powders scattered seedingspeckling the others
he WOKE
FUCK 
the time
FUCK
     he snatched the telephone off the bedstandcalled a cabwashed his faceyanked his clothes free from the hangersthrew them ongrabbed his bagwent out the doorsettled up with the clerkmet the cabsped to the airport LINES
the September Eleven hangover  badly handled  They hate us! They won’t to change us!  they had changed America wholesale  they didnt miss one single unintended trickcreated niche marketsbusiness opportunitiesCorporate America said it felt the countrys pain but profited in the hunredbillions on its Fear  one had to be blind to miss the fists full of cashthe cha-ching of fixed slot machines the games not paying out  their sacks of cash growing exponentially

Go to Disneyland! Bushwhacker extolled anwhile Americans spent money they didnt have Bush & Co put the war in Afghanistansuddenly the war in Iraq on Americas creditcard 

Bushie didnt demand the country to sacrifice to pay for them

Cheney tugging his cock incited government to privatise the efforts
                                                                     who he spoke to was none of Americas business  there was no transparency they could be trusted  somehow Cheney and his crew werent accountable to anyone or any agency 
         trickledown at work  the rains been holding up for more than forty years Wait for it. Wait for it. Eventually. Be patient. they don even cover their mouths when they laugh anymore  CEOs eating Americas lunch with both hands . . .  Wait for it.


he got through the lines quicker than he thought  he had just enough time
he went to a lavatory 
                      opened his shave kit wetted his throat and cheeks lathered them with soap from the airport dispenser beneath the mirror and began shaving

he heard someone walk in behind him they urinated noisily Awshit! they said

he looked in the mirror the guy was fumbling with his cock putting it away when the man turned he could see that his trousers were speckled with urine Shit. the man wiped his slacks with his hands Sonofabitch. he walked up to the sink beside himoblivious of himsnatched paper towels from a dispenser and vigorously went after the speckles  he mauled the specklingmeld it into one darker colour probably wouldnt be recognised unless someone was looking for it

the man turned from the mirror ballingup the paper towel and tossed it at the receptacleDENIED it rolled off the lip and fell onto the tiled floor

still shaving carefullywatching in the mirror he saw the man walk past his failed shothe didnt pick it uphe didnt wash his hands
            he was a businessman
HUH
    he felt he had time he watched other businessmen enter and use the urinals  many left without washing their hands
HUH


          some things never change

he could have bet money on it
seemed the practise was more pervasive than even he would have given it credit
once upon a time it might have been a coin flip
now seveneight of ten
fifteensixteen of twenty
Dismal
Pigs
    never shake a businessmans hand
                                         like shaking their dick


he almost missed his flight

0836,  Twosday,  10  9. 19
1011,  Monday,  10 5. 21
The Who  Won’t Get Fooled Again  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHhrZgojY1Q