he was always discouraged when he heard anyone apologise then complete the apologycome around its end with an excuse  excuses  

its not an apologybegan an apology now its an Excuse 

they are not looking for forgiveness for their apology

                                                       they want you to acknowledgeunderstand their excuse

he was discouraged when an apology is minimised and belittled

                                                                      hed walk offover his shoulder he saying loudly Save your fuckin breath

this time the apology came out of the mouth of the mayor of Buffalo New York  Bryon Brown

Mayor Brown apologised for two officers who were clearing a plaza in anticipation of curfew and pushed downass over teakettle an elder man Mr. Martin Gugino 

Brown described the 75 year old Gugino as “a key and major instigator of people who engage in those activities”say  not activities say a peaceful protest  

Mr. Gugino known as a longtime peace activist who lives in Amherst outside Buffalo has probably been proselytising for Peace longer than either of the two officers who ruthlessly pushed him down have been alive

“(The officers) are trained . . to advance, keep going, not break their line . .

“Am I happy with the situation? I absolutely am not.

“Uh, was it very disturbing, very distressing, uh, to watchthat gentleman be pushed, and fall back, and hit his head?

“It absolutely was very distressing.

“We are working hard to provide the best training for our officers.”

then here it comes he knew it was coming

                                             “This has been a very difficult situation, where we are having police officers working around the clock, they are working long hours, uh, they are very tired, they are near exhaustion; it’s no excuse. No excuse for misconduct, uh, no excuse for not following proper procedure, and in that particular case, proper procedure, uh, was not to push that gentleman to the ground.”

Awright  if it is “no excuse”   why mention it

evidently the entire Emergency Response Team 57 members resigned in an apparent show of force coercion ah   ah support of the two officers who shoved Mr Gugino ass over teakettle

his guess is that the 57 officers however did not resign from the police force NOW THAT would have been something THAT would have been SOLIDARTY THAT would have been putting money where their mouth is

but THATS not going to happen

                                  its like the kid who doesnt like how the game is going so they take their ballthat everyone was playing with and they rush home 

                                                    he thought thats spelled WAAUGH!

if someone is too tired to distinguish right from wrongcant check their anger WAIT they are cops  and everyone knows how special cops aretheyre treated special theyre treated with kid gloves

                                                                             because police offers DONT BREAK THE LAW  they are the law

                  DO NOT CHALLENGE THEM DO EXACTLYIMMEDIATELY AS THEY SAY Dont think about it because theyre certainly not thinking either They dont have to

They should

They dont

And when they violate the Law the Law should hold them every bit as accountable as its holds other Americans

If cops dont like it

                    They ought to find another line of work

the militarisation of Americas police force a September11 reaction should be ceased all their cool toys either returned to the military or destroyed they should quit their “warrior” mentality they are not supposed to be warriors if they wannabe  they can join the military  

Americas police force ought to go back to being beat cops walking the streets not cruising meeting getting to know the people the representthey protect

Paint the sides of their vehicles again TO PROTECT AND SERVE

                                                                     If they dont wanna do that  Find another job

NO EXCUSES  please  tired of fuckin excuses

Saturday evening,  D-Day,  6  6. 20

1109,  Sunday,  7  6. 20

https://nypost.com/2020/06/06/buffalo-mayor-calls-protester-shoved-by-police-an-agitator/

https://www.forbes.com/sites/tommybeer/2020/06/05/57-buffalo-police-resign-from-riot-unit-in-protest-of-officers-suspension/#fb4bf62473e1

Time is the most finite of all our commodities

                                                Nancy Pelosi she got his attention

he paraphrased she actually said Time is such an – the most important commodity, the most important commodity, the most finite of all commodities

he didnt think of Time as a commodity 

it was that that arrested himmade him pause recognise realise  yet Time  commodified it wasnt necessarily “a raw material or primary agricultural product that can be bought and sold" copper or coffee were examples

he didnt want to get into the economic definition  fungibility

it offended fungi

he remembered the Speaker said it

                                      but he couldnt help wonder if she didnt borrow itliberate it though didnt accredit it  she was speaking had she written it he felt a footnote would have been appropriate

ofcourse he Googled thats what we do

                                          as a boy and a young man he preferredrather enjoyed ferreting information through the librarys card catalogue he was a good researcher often he walked off path to research something that captured his eye as the Speaker had

one place he inadvertently descended briefly  idling – wasting time – burying thy talent – if idle ones talent would be buriedwasted

he exposed himself to Doctrine and Covenants 60:13 

                                                        that wasnt in his King James  where the fuck was he  OhChrist 

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints  

he was usually cool with peoples religions as long as they didnt proselytise and steered the fuck clear of him  however robbing soulsworse than grave robbing unhinged him they tout  they is Latter-days tout scripture that speaks of the soul three ways One spirit beings both premortal and postmortal – if that doesnt creep one out what would Two a spirit and body united in mortality Three an immortalresurrected person whose spirit and body have become inseparably connected

                         the creep got worse when he read  The thing of most worth unto you is to bring souls unto Me  as cited D&C 15:6

                    NOW

from what he read earlier D&C would be  not physics or brain science Doctrine and Covenants 

                                                                                                     however a monkey howled at the back of his bony cage and rushedhurled forward to grab the bony bars just behind his eyeballs shriekin D and C! DanC! D&C! the muscular cringing ape was right D & C Dilation and Curette now the Latter-day Saints could posit their D&C preceded medicines D&C

                                            with a little digging he found France’s Dr. Recamier’s 1850 notice Memoire sur les production fibrouses et les fongosites intra-uerines

                                                             with a little more digging he found The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints was founded around 1830 by the living prophet Joseph Smith who dug up in September 1927 golden plates which an angelthe angel lead him and from which he translated and transcribed The Book of Mormon

Smith was forbidden by the angel to show the plates to anyone though they could heft the box the plates were inside eyewitnesses attested Smith translated the plates not by looking at them but by looking through a transparent seer-stone in the bottom of his hat -- beside the rabbit

Awright the word of a scientist versus the word of a living prophet

                                                                      hed go with the scientist uteruses exist  the miraculous Golden Plates written in Reformed Egyptian were found and seen only by Joseph Smith  then three witnesses  then eight new witnesses Smiths and Whitmers who swore they saw and handled the plates  Hmm why did not Smith listen to the angel

hed saddle up beside Mark Twain I could not feel more satisfied and at rest if the entire Whitmer family had testified. 

with D&C put to rest

                       his mind at ease

he returned to D&C 60:13 Matthew was cited the Lord instructed his early missionaries to “not idle away thy time, neither shalt thou bury thy talent that it may not be known.”

                                                                that made sense why would anyone bury their talent

why would anyone not want their talent known

                                                   Ooops talent not talent  he had to remember this was Godspeak or Godwrit

          since God didnt speakhe wouldnt listen a good deal he had to read His word from the quills of others  even if originally scribbled on Golden Plates

so he opted to take a lookie-see at Matthew in the King James Bible  a good reference source and he found in the New Testament Matthew 25:25 And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine.

that didnt sound like any talent he could think of and dug deeper

The values of a talent

                        A talent Ancient Greek talanton (had it been Latin he might have been closer from the start) ‘scale’ ‘balance’  a talent OhBrutha was a unit of weight of approximately 80 pounds (36kg – whynot) and when it was used as money was valued for that weight of silver as a unit of currency a talent was worth about 6,000 denari (an ancient Roman silver coin worth ten asses -- thats better – although the asses he was thinkin of might not flatter the women whose they were)

                            as an aside 25 denari were worth one ancient Roman gold coin

a denarius – singular – was the usual payment for a days labour at one denarius per day a single talent is worth 16 years of labor

Ohwell  so much for an unwanted economics lesson

                                                        ones usually not paid what theyre worth

their talent is a haggling point 

though unfortunately most people usually sell their talenttheir TIME too cheap   

                                                                                                                                 Tuesday Tuesday evening,  2  6. 20

1536,  Saturday,  6  6. 20

Speaker Nancy Pelosi’s remarks on President Trump’s photo-op before St. John’s  awkwardly holding a Bible  like holding a viper https://www.speaker.gov/newsroom/6220-0

D & C  https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5488972/pdf/transedinobsoc81722-0095.pdf

Mormons  https://www.cnn.com/2013/11/12/us/mormon-church-fast-facts/index.html

Moliere

         Nearly all men die of their remedies, and not of their illnesses.

to keep in mind  Moliere was comedic

                                         though what could be funnier that when he died 17 February 1673 actors had no social standing and had been excommunicated by the Church a cruel joke by a Joke

therefore no priest would hear Molieres confession 

but hadnt he truly confessed what he needed or sought to confess in his plays and writings    

he believed he had

according to French law talk about jokes Moliere also couldnt be buried in consecrated earth

King Louis XIV the Sun King le Roi Soleil interceded on behalf of Moliere and he was interred in Cemetery Saint Joseph

King Louis  Frances absolute monarch  was Molieres patron

                                                                 the kings Absolutism apparently held for Moliere

not to get lost in the weeds talking of humour being pigeonholed is a kind of perverse humour Louis the Fourteenth a king preceded by thirteen other Louises

                                          which isnt to be confused with several women who are named Louise multiple women also Louises Louises or LouisesWhat confusion? during the Age of Reason women didnt have souls  apparently or legendarily the Synod of Macon in 585 “denied that women had a soul” gee  women could share one soul

there were lusty debates humourous he thought they hairsplit homo the Latin word homo primarily means “human being” but also means “adult male”  

Johannes Leyser a Lutheran pastor got his panties in a bunch touting polygamy in his Polygamia Triumphatrix -- looks like fun  meet ya in the pantry --  “Among the holy fathers there was one who insisted that women cannot, and should not be called ‘human beings’ (viz. homines “men”).” Pastor Leyser essentially quoted St. Gregory of Tours his book The History of the Franks frankly -- humour  

                                        “There came forward at this council a certain bishop who maintained that woman could not be included under the term 'man.' However, he accepted the reasoning of the other bishops and did not press his case, for the holy book of the Old Testament tells us that in the beginning, when God created man, 'Male and female he created them and called their name Adam', which means earthly man; so, he called the woman Eve, yet of both he used the word 'man'."

                        comedic splitting hairs

apparently Moliere succeeded with the Sun King by having the good senseexhibiting good sense humour not to proselytise but rather to animate the absurd

absurd lends itself to a kind of funny

Hell it was absurd he found himself reading Molierequoting him to help him offset the stress he suffered because of his daughter and mother deaths 

                               who died because of their illnesses

                 they did not have remedies

                                                perhaps because they werent men    

1358,  Sunday,  31  5. 20

1155,  Saturday,  6  6. 20

The Kinks  Lola  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LemG0cvc4oU

D-Day: $111K (Killed)

D-Day 1944 an estimated 10,000 Allied antifa deaths today 111K novel coronavirus death in America

once we and our Allies did something right 

hard now seeing any nation aligning themselves with US

1026,  Saturday,  6  6. 20

they were having a riproaring time stoned caffeinated now sipping beer on the backporch and eating wasabi rice crackers  broken sunlight coming through the crown of an enormous live oak

It occurred to me I was talking with my brother my earliest memories are associated with pain my first memory before I was two I wasnt even walking yet I fell out of bed and split my chin on its illfitting metal frame I laid on my back on the hardwood floor I could feel my blood warm oozing on my chestdown the sides of my neck  

Jesus.

That was nothing compared to the doctor stitching it closed No painkillers My father wrapped one arm around my bodyholding me real tight With his free hand he held the top of my head pulling it back jutting my chin so the doctor could stitch it I still remember his sleep-rheumy eyes his bad breath as he breathed in my face Nine stitches Of course

Of course?

Nines my favorite number It might have started right then and there My lucky number nine

Before you were two? You can remember before you were two?

I asked my folks Asking made my Dad uncomfortable Why would you remember that, Joe? my Dad askedhas asked every time I bring it up I dont bring it up much not no more its been confirmed I use my parents to confirm my early memories to be sure I wasnt making them up or dreamed them

Theyre memories

Fixed by pain

An you

Memories?

Yes

My earliest memories?

Yes

School. First, probably second grade.

Not kindergarten

Definitely not kindergarten.

Mrs Shot Older Short hair Silver Mrs Shot was my kindergarten teacher

You remember your kindergarten teacher’s name. That’s nuts.

Long memory Teed up by pain

What was it you remember from first grade

I think it was second.

Second

Yeah.

Werent we seven in second grade

Six, then seven. I turned eighteen February of my senior year, before graduating.

Okay  So six

Closer to seven.

What

My brother, a year younger than me, broke a window while we were playing catch at a neighbor’s. We lied. We said it wasn’t us.

Did you say it was someone else

Never occurred to us. We felt like criminals.

And

And we were seen. And the hardball had my name on it. We had to replace the window, pay for it.

And

That’s it. Me and my brother disappointed my Dad.

You didnt get a strap across your fanny for lying

No. He told us he was deeply disappointed.

No strap belt hand No real punishment

We disappointed my Dad.

Man thats gettin off easy

It didn’t feel easy.

Thats gettin off easy

What did your brother say about his memories, his earliest memory?

He said it was when he wondered who the hell I was I wasnt Thensuddenly I was Which I understood Were not a year apartso much for the break women are provided now sex after childbirth  doctors orders

You were his earliest memory?

Yah Hes always believed he was born first but he walked before I did I remember ballingcrying when my ball got away from me a goofy clown ball like a clowns head I made such a stink I think I compelled him to get up walk an fetch it for me so Id shaddup

Jeez, that’s remarkable.

Yah That put his first memory around a year old He says thats his earliestbut he couldnt say what his next memory might have been

Actually  thinking  before the split chin I split my eyebrow My grandparents babysat me and I pulled an end table over on top me I took its corner above my left eye

Got my left hand slammed in the car door at three I was in the back seat We were going to a drive-in I was dressed in my pajamas

Fell down the tall wood front porch steps and broke my arm

I thought kids were supposed to be bendy

I wasnt

Jesus.

And then the hit parade just kept coming

Man, oh, man.

Ready for another beer

Yeah.

Im still pretty stoned

Nice shit, huh?

Yah Thank you for sharing

reaching across his brotherinlaw for the beer bottle his brotherinlaw said What the hells that?

What

Top of your right hand.

a pale white circular scar

That

That’s a scar?

Yup

From what? Curious location, between your index and the next finger.

I got shot with a nailgun Youll remember I dont like nailguns Not when yagot a hammer

You shot you?

No I dont like nailguns I was accidentally shot by a carpenter I was paired with Muthafucker loved nailguns But he would he was a lazy bastard Redhead bushy red moustache He was usually drunk by three

I didnt wanna work with im

I wasnt asked if I would

I was told

Two man job

I was holding sticks for a skylight descending into the diningroom

He hit a knot knot deflected the nail Started bleeding all over like a stuck pig

I made it to a MedStop by myself

You drove yourself?

Evidently nobody could be spared Actually I wasnt spared until I couldnt stop the bleeding

Made a mess of my steering wheel and front seat

At the MedStop the doc determined I was shot through the hand

he rolled his hand over and showed his brotherinlaw the exit scar in his palm Nuts huh

And you didn’t fuck up your hand?

Nope Doc said he couldnt believe He probed it Clean through Slick as a whistle

when he returned with fresh cold bottles of beerhanded one to his brotherinlaw he said  I hated working with idiots  Good carpenters Fucking idiots

Could you imagine these clowns around you with a power drill  

With my luck working with one hed stick me in the head with a spinning bit an Id have to arrest drillgun with one handelbow him hard in the face so hed let go Hafta leave the drillbit in my headhold the gun up cuz likely they wouldnt have sense to reverse it if they were to try to back it out

JESUS! What a fucking thought!

YahHa Pith me once shame on you pith me twice shame on me

Oh fuck!

Tellin ya man Im really stoned

1643,  Friday,  29  5. 20

1142,  Reggae Friday,  5  6. 20

he helped her escape over the wall

                                     then helped her escape back in

he didnt mind boosting her out

she promised she wouldnt wear panties under her skirts 

                                                             her promises were gold

it was a little tougher snaking her back in timing  avoiding detection

but they were the better detectorists

they were enthused compelled

those who manned the walls

a gig for a simpleton

who can take orders

passion crushes those who arent

                                    those who arent crossing Is or dotting Ts 

it wasnt a competition

he only had one bone to pick with her   

the boy she was withwho they shared their bed with

he stayed on with him while she was away Please she asked   he couldnt deny her anything

so dutifully he sharedbecause he felt the lil muthafucker might rat him out   

he shared “their” bed Man Yakeep to your side I keep to mine

he pouted 

You’re mean. You’re not like that when she’s here

No Im not Because shes here Shes between us  Only occasionally do your arms grow longer than they are

You better be nice to me.

I am nice to you

Then nicer, there’s something in it for you.

Whas in it for me is keeping you because you please her too An I want her happypleased

Something else.

I suppose well see

she went Out an In Out an In   Out an In months

over those months he began to notice changes in the boy

                                                             an as the boy changedthe more receptive he was  to share “their” bed with him

he began as she said Evolve 

the boy began to feminise

subtle changes

in hisher face

in hisher body

that was what was in it for him

one day he boosted her took in her spread legsher spread pussy she locked out her elbows held herself up held herself etched against the buttermilk moon behind her 

she looked down at him 

                          You know he’s how I began  You knowdon’t you?

Hurry back baby That you knew how heshe was evolving feminising  it wasnt a lame guess

she smiled I will hurry. I know our bed is evolving. I don’t want to miss when you’re all in.

all in

something must have happened

she didnt return 

she didnt despite her promise to hurry

heshe evolved

she perfected

she knowing him as well as she did   seduced him

then  one evening she asked him if hed help her escape

                                                           asked him to help her escape back in

then  later  after planning to go over the wall again soon   she brought a boy to their bed and asked if he could stay with them

            stay in their bed

he  he couldnt deny her anything

0656,  Thursday,  29  5. 20

1434 or 234,  Reggae Friday,  5  6. 20

Aerosmith  Train Kept a Rollin’  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EvGn22Mplg