he was listening to Vic Chesnutts
singer suicide Little album he happened
to back into Chesnutt accidentally after bumping into Mark Linkous also a singer songwriter suicide
he couldnt say how he wandered
into that narrow roomanymore than how he found himself across the hall in another
small room from where he had just come where he pinballed between a slew of
film writers/directors
a moth he felt like an
effervescent powdered moth fluttering at the brightlight of an unseen unrealised
incandescent lightbulb
he stopped himself an huffed huffed
loud enough for his voice to carry across the hall to the cinema room Everyone please Please excuse me Im usually not this clumsy Its likely Im just off-kiltera little in-awe
Awed
unsaid was awshucks
awshucks a part a niggling part
a meditation a repetitionover an over to himself
wondering whywhich was common sense to him why
she hadnt communicated or acknowledged
what he had said to her just prior
Im gonna pinch youwake you upwake you out of your reverie
Oh darn I dont think I mailed the
electric bill yesterdayI meant to Ill have to look when I get home
she didnt ask Why would you pinch
me or maybe say Im awake
Not wideawake If you were wideawake you wouldnt have said
anything about your electric bill until after you addressed me pinching
you I should expectshouldnt I a
reiteration a remark to what I said to you
Pinch you I wouldnt pinch youcant Id have to be in the same room I was
being blatant
Why would you be blatant
Im blatant quietly shaking his headbewildered
because even being blatant doesnt doesnt
seem to scratch the surface of our communication
Ive told you before Im distracted
Distracted is one thing You seem oblivious oblivious at least to what I am saying You treat me with shorthand
Im distracted
Well I like to imagine at least Im on the
backburner Youll be sure to let me know
if you take me off the stove right
Youre ridiculous Why would I take you off the stove
Because you didnt tell me when
you put me on the backburner
a writer a suicide
NAH Too
fuckin melodramatic
he was in love with life
1102, Day-between-Two-Ts, 13 12.
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Vic Chesnutt Speed Racer
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGH85qC0ECE
