you know how people freak shrink when they find a pubic hair lurking in their shower – unsure uncomfortable if its theirs or not

pubics in his shower were his

                      no cringing no whipping his head left an right trying to catch a glimpse of a phantom culprit readying to spring at him like a panther or evidence their miraculous ability to suddenly materialise and piss on his leg  a fleshy snatch or cock suspended in midair urinating a warm golden jet

No I dont believe I overstepped the inimical horror or revulsion an unsuspected suddenly revealed pubic hair engenders

its a classic knee-jerk reaction sans a physicians small rubber mallet

I cant say I recoil

           I cant count the number of times Ive stealthy slipped pubic hairs off my tongueout of the corners of my mouth with my fingers     

I dont hang out with repugnant people

Ive been involved with hits and punches that caused me and opponents to piss or shit ourselves  but such is the physicsthe biological response end product from suffering unexpected punishment  not able to see it coming no time to cinch up your guts

the blow hawks ones breath sputters exhales hard

the body naturally excretes

to-day  standing in the shower  he was fascinated

on the liner a pubic curled one way then immediately the other way  a reversed S

if he wrapped a perfect circle around it hed execute the yin-yang symbol without peepers   and at oncerecognising this perfectiondistraction he also became aware to his left that either dimwit or lugnut had evacuated the silver web kitty-corner the yin-yang above the large showerhead

hed bet lugnut was on the lam

a couple days earlier he saw dimwit first  curled low in the web  then absently craning his neckwashing his face opening his eyes(day or night he showered with his eyes shut) he saw lugnut perched high in the corner nearly against the ceiling 

he thought it was unusual that two spiders would share a web

since dimwit was initially curled low in the web – habit – a spider could be a creature of habitas any earthling that sought and favored the known ˈvərsəs unknown comfort ˈvərsəs discomfort feast to famine


exiting the shower he had his head on a swivel  shit can occur as a lark  bored  with nothing better to do than fuck with someone

hed be stupid to overlook the mundane

its how mundane can rise to fame               

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1720,  Thursday,  1  6. 17

1815,  Friday,  2  6. 17

Palodine  Ways to Drown  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8lzAka1iPmQ

Christ there she was!  tucked up in her usual corner over the basinexcept for the last two weeks    Appleseed  Where the hell ya been girl

he blew on her web as was his customary greeting for the whole of last year 

she was his stalwart while he agonized through whatever it was that assailed him  if to name  a bullshit RA his rheumatologist tried to horseshoe him into  but the doc was lousy salesmanhe hadnt listened to a word he said

he looked closer   

ah  her foraging cost her

she was missing two legs the two to the left of her head  he assumed unlike him she was rightlegged and hopefully not too badly minimised 

she was back! 

he mourned her

a lil Lazarus

the night before he showered

turning his a back on its head looking down he saw a small daddylonglegs struggling in the wash off the back of the tubSonofabitch  he averted the streamtwisting the showerheads neck  then making sure it was out of the wash he stepped out of the shower snatched a length of toilet paper off the roll then reentered  he gently placed it before the spiders drooping body and managing a delicate splash off his shoulder he coerced its body onto the moistened paper  captured  he stepped from the shower again and placed the spider on the paper in a shard of sunlight on the window ledge 

it didnt move

that didnt concern him

twice prior he had done the same for appleseed

he thwarted suicide attempts because he could

unfortunately  it seemed he was good at it 

hed saved twolegged earthlings too

unfortunately 

         only because later two went around him when he was absence and committed their choice

anyone who condemns suicide refuses to recognise a persons right to their life or nonlife our lives are the only things that we purely own

selfish

he wouldnt judgehe wasnt hadnt walked in their bootsendured what they endured 

theres no telling the limits anyone can withstand

and yes  he really felt very very sorry for himself that they wouldnt be in lifein his life anymore 

but that made him selfishdidnt it

didnt it

he dispensed with selfishness

its a human trait 

as greed was 

avarice   

mercenaries all

finishing his shower drying himself standing on the mat he looked over to the window and saw the spider prostrate  aimlessly wagging a couple of its legs 

mebbe life would take hold of it

mebbe hed save it again

mebbe itd allude him

theres no sure bets in life                                                                                                         

its a crapshoot

1534,  Thursday,  1  6. 17(fuck Drumpf)

1009,  Friday,  2  6. 17

opal smoke curled out of his mouth and nose

ganja

he wished it was hashish  or opium

he was more fond of either

his daughter and granddaughter had just visited

his daughter asked him if there was one place in the world he would like to visit where would he go

he told her considering her earnest that hed really have to think on it Youve likely already given thought to where youd like to goyes

Stonehenge! The day of the summer solstice they allow you to actually touch the stones  Id love to touch them hear them feel their voices

Man thats a sensational choice  Very tough to argue with antiquitythe Ancients

this morning his sister called from Illinois

she and her husband were readying for a trip to Norway part of a two-week cruise that went to Nordkapp(brilliant name) inside the Arctic Circle

the impetus for their visit was to see Jøkelfjordbreen the only European glacier(while there were still glaciers) that calved into the sea

Things arent more primal or sacred than glaciersdont you think she mused

Yes  Older than Man

Yes  Thats what I think

Hard to argue against prehistory babe

                            no sooner was than that was out of his mouth he realised where he wanted to gohe flashed to his visit to Akroteritremembered the film by HerzogCave of Forgotten Dreams Chauvet Cave in southern Franceoff limits southern France Arles Van Goghhed go to Amsterdamgo to Amsterdam to a cafe smoke some hash then wend his way to Van Gogh Museum and whenever he exhausted it hed take a train to Bruges Belgium to see Boschs triptych The Last Judgment at the Groeningemuseum Damn  I know where I want to go

Go

Where Id like to go

she thrilled YOU DO! It just came to you

It did You revved me up

TELL ME

Amsterdam hash Van Gogh Bruges Bosch

WhaWOW  I Im so excited I got to share with you when you knew

What can I say  You inspire meBut youve always inspired me    Youre my hero

Thank you

I knew youd know how to take a compliment

she laughed

           If youll remember  I didnt until you told me how

Ahh    Thank you

they laughed over one another

they laughed frequently 

more laughter than tears

a quiet graceful blessing

 

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1119,  Thursday,  1  6. 17

Palodine  Revelations  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LJw2X73Sj0A